Ch.322Awakening (2)

# Grand Inquisitor Kate Louise Angelica

Grand Inquisitor Kate Louise Angelica’s life can be viewed as a train running on well-laid tracks.

She lost her parents when her childhood village was attacked by bandits, but she was barely rescued and entrusted to a temple.

The temple also served as an orphanage, and most children who grew up there typically devoted themselves to clerical professions.

This alone would have set her on a predetermined path, but Kate’s case was different. As they say, she received Luminus’s blessing—her holy power was unrivaled compared to others.

As seen with Issac, holy power can be used in various ways, but it’s directly related to “growth.”

This is why Kate was able to claim the position of Grand Inquisitor at such a young age. Did anyone complain about this?

No complaints at all. Who would dare complain about someone personally blessed by Luminus? Rather, those who revered and followed her only increased.

Her abilities were also beyond question. The number of demon worshippers whose skulls Kate had crushed was countless.

Her martial prowess was already well-established, enough to earn her the title “Blue Flame.”

Moreover, she was quite intelligent. Demon worshippers always tried to hide themselves completely, but Kate personally dragged them out by their hair and bludgeoned them.

Thus, with exceptional strength and intelligence, devout faith toward God, and beauty maintained through the church’s care, she truly embodied what it meant to be accomplished in both literary and martial arts.

But perhaps because she had only traveled on tracks laid by the church, Kate had a seemingly small yet significant flaw.

Namely, her common sense regarding sex was deficient. If it were childlike innocence, that would be one thing, but she knew things in a strange way.

For example, the magical day that comes every month. As a human, experiencing menarche was natural for her.

When she was startled by the sudden flow of blood and ran to her supervising clergy, the clergy calmed her down step by step despite being flustered.

‘Congratulations, Sister Kate. You have now become an adult.’

‘I’ve… become an adult?’

‘Yes. This blood is just a natural process of becoming an adult. It’s absolutely nothing to be embarrassed or surprised about.’

Afterward, the clergy taught her about a woman’s body one by one, since she had become an adult.

How the cycle works, how to handle it, and how to maintain cleanliness, and so on.

This education seemed perfectly fine, but Kate’s subsequent question was very awkward.

‘Can I have a baby too?’

‘Yes. That’s right.’

‘Then how are babies born?’

‘… …’

The number one most difficult question for parents to answer: how are babies born?

The supervising clergy also found this question difficult to answer, but somehow managed to respond.

‘If… you receive a man’s seed, you can have a child. But! This is only possible with a man you love. Understand?’

‘Then what is love?’

‘That’s a difficult question to answer. You’ll come to understand as you grow older. Since you’ve received Luminus’s blessing, he would surely be pleased if you found someone to love.’

That was the end of her education. The supervising clergy firmly believed Kate would naturally come to understand someday.

They would never know that this was a misjudgment. The church treated her not as a “person” but as a faithful “believer” of Luminus.

Moreover, Kate realized she had received grace from Luminus, which intensified this tendency.

Her somewhat unhinged devotion was dangerous in many ways, but the Church of Luminus, having once caused a major incident, exercised restraint.

Due to this precarious balancing act, even Luminus couldn’t directly reprimand her.

As a result, she rose to the rank of Cardinal at a young age, becoming a “clergy” perfected in martial prowess. Even the church was completely unaware that Kate lacked common sense.

Blessed by Luminus, she was an object of admiration and reverence, occupying an untouchable position. Who would dare teach her that something was wrong?

Occasionally, there were people who fell for her appearance and background, but Kate politely refused with a smile.

Her body and mind were already devoted solely to Luminus, and she firmly believed that working for him was working for herself.

Because of this, some clergy couldn’t contain their curiosity and asked Kate:

‘When does Cardinal Kate plan to hold her holy matrimony?’

‘I will marry the man chosen by Luminus.’

‘…Will there be such a person?’

There is. The author of Biography of Xenon, a young man named Issac Ducar Mayshall.

At first, Kate was uncertain, but as time passed, she became convinced. That this man was chosen by Luminus.

That he was a ray of light to save this world and a saint who would purify it.

So she went to him directly and asked for his seed, but for some reason, Issac firmly refused. This left her puzzled.

Countless men had courted her until now, so why was he refusing? Perhaps he didn’t like her?

But judging by his reaction, it wasn’t that he disliked her. He was simply burdened and thought of her strangely.

As time passed, and as Biography of Xenon shone more brightly, Kate’s desire grew stronger.

Just as he radiated light in all directions, she wanted to receive his light too. There were already women presumed to have received his light, so Kate waited quietly.

This was similar to the “baptism” given by Luminus. So she would receive it with a reverent heart.

Being careful not to defile her body, she waited for the day she would receive his seed. That’s what she had been thinking.

Until she read the newly published Biography of Xenon and recognized the “desire” she had not been aware of before.

The wedding night where the main and supporting characters confirm their feelings for each other and become one in the true sense. Kate, being an adult by “age,” was able to read volume 24.5.

‘I have harbored improper lust for Lord Issac.’

And she belatedly realized. Volume 24.5, which explicitly described the beautiful wedding night of lovers.

Beyond the content itself, what shattered Kate’s concept of sex was none other than the dialogue.

[I want to have your child.]

This was what Lilly said while caressing Jin’s face. And upon hearing those words, Jin became like a beast and devoured Lilly.

“I want to have your child.” That phrase confused Kate’s mind.

For a woman to have a child, a man’s seed is absolutely necessary. But why do men and women take off all their clothes and embrace each other naked?

Why does Issac’s face come to mind the more she reads? Could this really be the process of receiving seed?

For Kate, who had always led a plain and modest daily life, volume 24.5 was a great stimulus and thrilling experience.

Like a pure child ignorant of sex, she read it thoroughly to the end, knowing she shouldn’t…

And for the first time in her life, she pleasured herself. Without even knowing what it meant.

The “instinct” imprinted in her genes had blossomed.

‘I lusted after myself like a beast while thinking of him. Even though I knew it was wrong, my hands wouldn’t stop.’

[… …]

‘Will he forgive me? Me, who harbored an irreverent heart? Me, who defiled myself not by someone else but by my own hands?’

After a series of events, Kate began to confess. In reality, Kate was utterly devastated.

Even though she didn’t fully understand what the act in volume 24.5 was, the very fact that she harbored desire for Issac was a sin to her.

Clearly, it must be about men and women sharing love, yet “pleasure” was the first desire that emerged.

Moreover, the object of that pleasure was none other than Issac. Despite being a man she should worship like Luminus, she harbored feelings she shouldn’t.

[… …]

Luminus, who came to know Kate’s feelings intimately, found it very difficult to answer. The desire she harbored was a natural emotion as a human.

Moreover, though she might not realize it, she was already deeply in love with Issac. This could be called love.

Due to her near-fanatical devotion, the emotion of love is used in various meanings.

Love between parents and children is love, love between lovers is love, and love between friends is love. Love between God and believers is the same.

Originally, Kate’s feelings for Issac were similar to her love for Luminus. The key point here is that Luminus is a transcendent being with an unclear form, while Issac is human.

This one difference confused her heart. Also, her emotions exploded in the form of desire because of volume 24.5.

This is also why she feels guilty. She considers truly loving Issac a sin.

Her identity was shaken by the church’s misguided education and her unique devotion.

[Don’t worry, child. The emotion you harbor is absolutely not a sin.]

‘What? But I…’

[That is ‘love.’ The weakest yet strongest emotion a person can have.]

So Luminus gradually explained to Kate in her anguish. Kate’s clear eyes blinked in response.

This conversation would have been impossible with other believers, but it was possible with her because her holy power had increased significantly recently.

Of course, direct future prediction like Issac’s is impossible; it’s only possible for “consultation.”

[It’s natural to harbor lust toward him and to have possessive desires to have him. So there’s no need to blame yourself.]

‘This feeling… is love?’

[Yes. You weren’t aware, but you’ve been harboring love for Issac from before. Perhaps when his face comes to mind, doesn’t your heart pound or do you feel happy?]

Kate thought carefully upon hearing Luminus’s gentle voice. Indeed, there had been many such instances.

Even when some fake Xenon touched her cheek last time, Issac came to mind. She could only think of meeting him to cleanse her defiled body.

When she first met him, her heart didn’t pound, but as time passed, she developed feelings close to fanaticism.

‘This is… love…’

[Yes. So you don’t need to worry too much. It’s an emotion everyone born as a human will inevitably harbor.]

‘Then what I did last night… is it not dirty?’

[… …]

Luminus was momentarily speechless. What Kate referred to was none other than masturbation.

Still, what’s natural is natural, so he was able to answer with difficulty after a while.

[That’s right. Rather, it’s an act that can resolve desire.]

‘What if the desire isn’t resolved no matter how much I do it…’

[… …]

Luminus was speechless again. Even as a transcendent being who can glimpse the future, he can’t solve everything.

The emotion Kate is experiencing is the same. He would like to tell her everything from A to Z, but as he just said, he knows the future.

Luminus’s sincere desire is to derive the optimal result from countless situations.

The problem is Kate’s way of thinking. She felt sinful, but not “embarrassment” or “shame” at all.

In other words, if he misspoke here, her concept of sex could be completely distorted. That must be prevented at all costs.

[…You don’t need to worry about that either.]

So Luminus apologized to Issac, who would be at the mansion. The best solution he could offer was none other than…

[The child you love so much will solve everything.]

Tossing it to Issac. If Issac had heard this, he would certainly have shouted at the god.

What an irresponsible god, how could he pass on such a difficult matter?

Luminus, feeling the future that would unfold vividly imprinted in his mind, comforted her gently.

[Even the most beautiful emotion of love, if it clumps and forms knots, can develop into a disease. It would be good to at least confess those feelings to Issac.]

‘Should I also confess the desire I harbor?’

[Rather than Issac, ask the women by his side about that. They will become your great helpers. Listen carefully to what they say.]

This is true. Originally, women understand such concerns better than men.

Moreover, they are also aware that Kate is ignorant about sex. At least the situation won’t get any more complicated.

‘I, I see. I understand.’

[Has your concern been resolved?]

‘I’m still… not sure. I think I’ll know when I meet him.’

[I see. There’s absolutely no need to feel guilty. You just want to receive that child’s seed, right?]

‘… …’

[Hmm?]

Oh. This isn’t right. Luminus couldn’t help but be momentarily flustered.

The future changes in real-time. This is a truth known even before experiencing the Biography of Xenon incident.

But the future changed in less than a second.

It’s a very slight future, but at least a significant one for Kate.

So he called out to Kate with a slightly flustered voice.

[Child?]

‘Not just… the seed.’

[Hmm?]

Kate slowly raised her lowered head and shyly confessed.

‘It doesn’t have to be… just the seed, right?’

[… …]

‘Is it also okay… the act and pleasure mentioned in the scripture?’

It’s okay. It’s natural for men and women to feel pleasure while sharing affection.

But Kate was different. She’s focusing not just on the seed but on the pleasure gained through the act.

The pure clergy who belatedly realized is no more.

‘Please answer me, Luminus. Is it okay to feel emotions and pleasure obtained only through him, not anyone else?’

And after much deliberation, Luminus answered with a very strained voice.

[…It’s okay.]

‘Thank you, Luminus.’

At that answer, Kate raised the corners of her mouth and smiled deeply.

Already feeling a tingling in her lower abdomen, she looked forward to the day she would receive his seed.

‘Ah. Lord Issac… please come to me soon…’

[… …]

Luminus directly witnessed his beloved believer being stained with “lust” in real-time.

*****

And the very next day.

‘Luminus.’

[I’m sorry.]

‘Is saying sorry enough for this?’

Issac, who had experienced a commotion, came to confront Luminus.