Chapter 231

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I opened my eyes.

A faint medicinal scent brushed past my nose.

As I pushed the blanket aside, a pink hospital gown came into view.

“Back in the hospital again.” I muttered to myself.

Me, with my super regeneration, hospitalized. How many times is this now? I have an ability that should make me the least likely to end up here, yet here I am.

At this point, it’s not “an unfamiliar ceiling” but “a familiar ceiling” that comes to mind.

I turned my head slightly and glanced at the clock on the wall.

4:00 AM. No wonder it’s so dark outside. It’s still early morning.

Hmm, this is troublesome. I had planned to start my day by spanking my own butt. Belial had all the fun, after all.

She kept saying she hated it, but her face was completely relaxed. Every time I saw her holding back her moans, my heart raced.

It was clearly Belial whose butt was burning, but somehow, I felt my own butt heating up too.

I want to feel good too. My butt was tingling. I wanted to mess up Lucia’s plump, soft buttocks, which she was so proud of.

But it’s too early. Everyone’s still asleep. If I start spanking my butt and moaning loudly here, I’ll disturb everyone’s sleep.

That kind of thing should be done in the soundproof dorm, not the hospital. What if someone hears and comes to check? I don’t want to advertise Lucia as a pervert.

I guess I have no choice.

I’ll have to hold back for now.

My body is throbbing, but it’s not unbearable.

Hehe, I’ve grown, you know.

Reading Lucille’s memories has taught me patience.

Snap.

Ah, I broke my finger.

I didn’t mean to, but I did it without thinking.

This wasn’t the plan…

I quickly regenerated the broken finger with my super regeneration.

Breaking a finger wasn’t enough to quell the heat. It only fueled it more. Ugh… Should I just close my eyes and go for it? Just one proper release of this desire…

…No. No, I’ll hold back. Following only instincts is no different from being an animal. Lucia is a human, after all.

Even if her dream was to give up her rights and become a golden retriever. To be raised like a toy, a tool, less than human.

But that’s all in the past now. Lucia won’t just follow her self-destructive desires anymore.

I’ve read Lucille’s memories.

I know how she became a masochist.

I’ve inherited everything from the blessed saint.

This body is mine, but it’s not just mine.

Lucille told me not to worry about her, but how could I not? I couldn’t make her future miserable.

As long as this body is hers, I have a duty to live correctly until the very end. Even if I follow my desires, I must never cross the final line.

Desires should never go beyond the realm of hobbies.

Wasting your life for a moment of pleasure is unthinkable.

…Wait, does that mean I can’t go on naked night walks anymore? I’ve only done it once so far. What about becoming a dog and going on walks with my owner? Can’t do that either?

Suddenly, I felt depressed.

It poured cold water on my excitement.

I was really looking forward to it…

Ah, no. Thinking about it, Lucille did go on naked walks, right? She even wore a collar and crawled on all fours.

So maybe it’s okay if I do that much…? Huh? Back then, time was repeating, so no matter what she did, it wouldn’t ruin her life? But now that the regression is over, if I do that, I might really ruin my life? That just makes it more tempting…

“Sigh.”

I let out a deep sigh.

I shook my head vigorously.

The self-destructive desires arose because Lucille, who was stuck in a loop of regression, longed for peace.

Now that the regression is over, what’s the point of me, not Lucille, being swayed by those desires?

Ugh, let’s stop this train of thought.

I just managed to calm the heat, and it’s starting to rise again.

I’ll think about it calmly later when I’m back in the dorm, alone.

I got up from the bed and stretched. It seemed like I had been asleep for a long time, but my body didn’t feel stiff.

Thanks to my super regeneration, my body is always in top condition. Or should I call it immortality instead of super regeneration?

Super regeneration is much more familiar, so I’ll just call it that.

I’m not even sure if my ability is truly immortality.

I’ve been brushing it off until now, but thinking about it, it’s strange. Supernatural abilities are the power of the mind. Abilities rooted in the personality itself. That’s why Alice, who has a dual personality, has two supernatural abilities.

Immortality, or more accurately, the “blessing”, was Lucille’s supernatural ability. It was an ability rooted in her ego.

Then what about me? Me, who possessed Lucille’s body? What supernatural ability am I using? Am I borrowing it from Lucille, or is it my own unique ability?

If I’m borrowing it from Lucille, then now that her personality has completely vanished, I shouldn’t be able to use it.

But I just regenerated a broken finger. The regenerative ability is still there.

Did I inherit her supernatural ability through some means, even though Lucille is gone? Or did I awaken my own supernatural ability?

If it’s the former, then I can call my ability immortality. But if it’s the latter, I’m not sure. It could be a regenerative ability, but it’s far from immortality.

“The Blessing of Immortality” is the love of the four seasons.

It’s a privilege granted to those favored by the four seasons.

Did the gods bestow their blessing on me, who now resides in Lucille’s body?

They might have, since they brought me here themselves, but I can’t be sure.

So, even if I theoretically can’t die, I could still die if I’m not careful.

Thinking about it, I’ve been reckless with my body, relying on my regeneration.

I must have been strongly influenced by the self-destructive desires buried in my subconscious.

I’ve been lucky so far.

I’ve faced devils and survived.

But there’s no guarantee that will continue.

From now on, I shouldn’t overwork my body just because I can regenerate.

I walked to the window and pulled back the curtains.

The still-dark outside scenery came into view.

I opened the window, and the cool morning air brushed past me.

Taking a deep breath, I began to sort through my tangled thoughts.

“There’s so much to do.”

There’s really too much, and I don’t know where to start. I decided to start with the most basic things. I retraced Lucille’s memories.

I’ve read her memories, but I haven’t read all of them.

How could I? It’s regression counted in the hundreds of millions. Even Lucille couldn’t endure that much time.

If I had read all those memories, I would have gone insane too. Minor or unimportant memories were skipped. Or they passed by in a flash, like fast-forwarding.

I recalled the memories I had read.

I picked out the key memories and spoke them aloud.

“Agares.”

The 2nd ranked Devil God, the Noble Prince.

The mastermind behind the infinite regression.

I know where that man is hiding. I could go there right now if I wanted. But I shouldn’t. If I go, I’ll just fall into his trap.

In the “novel” I read, and during the regressions, it was the same.

Yoo-seong fell into Agares’ trap and was banished outside the dimension.

The method was simple. Agares deliberately leaked the location of his hideout. Yoo-seong, who obtained the information, stormed the hideout and fell into the pre-prepared trap, being flung outside the dimension.

That trap still exists in this final regression. There’s no way to bypass it unless Eugene fully awakens as the “Chosen One”.

“Yoo-seong.”

My hero.

No, Lucille’s hero.

I’ve been so immersed in Lucille’s memories that it’s causing side effects. I almost called him “my beloved” without thinking.

I do have feelings for Yoo-seong, but it’s far from love. It was Lucille who loved Yoo-seong, not me, Lucia.

How should I explain the truth to Yoo-seong?

I can’t just gloss over it.

Lucille asked me directly.

It was her last request, her last words.

No matter what, I have to fulfill it.

I have an obligation to do so.

The problem is when to tell him…

Perhaps it’s better to tell him the truth now, even if it’s shocking. I didn’t want to pretend to be Lucille in front of Yoo-seong. That would be disrespectful to both Yoo-seong and Lucille.

It would tarnish the bond between them. Their relationship is theirs alone. There’s no room for a third party like me to interfere, even if I’m using Lucille’s body.

Even if he learns the truth, I hope he won’t be too hurt.

Is that too much to ask?

“Eugene.”

The protagonist of this world. It might sound silly to call him the protagonist in reality rather than in a “novel”, but it’s not entirely wrong. If he’s the man who will save the world, then it’s fair to call him the protagonist.

Hmm, I’ll have to manage his favorability carefully. In many of the regressions, Eugene ended up falling for Lucia.

Seriously, you have Alice, your destined partner! Isn’t our Alice adorable? Look at her properly! She’s cute, isn’t she? Pretty, isn’t she? Lovable, isn’t she? She’s the best partner, isn’t she?

Well, thankfully, Eugene hasn’t fallen for me yet, and he’s showing interest in Alice, so if I’m careful from now on, there shouldn’t be any problems.

‘The plan remains unchanged. As always, I’ll do my best to help Eugene awaken.’

That’s the best way to overcome the trials that lie ahead.

I caught a glimpse of Belial’s memories. The devil gods are plotting something. I don’t know what it is, but it’s a scheme they’re secretly working on. If it’s executed, it’s sure to cause great chaos.

Lucille said it herself. The fixed causality has been broken. Humanity’s victory isn’t guaranteed. The future is uncertain. That’s why the descent of a heavenly god, surpassing even the god of war, is essential.

‘Besides that… I’d like to help the Golden Generation awaken if possible…’

The geniuses gathered in Class A.

In the early to mid-parts of the “novel”, they were geniuses who closely followed Eugene.

Although they eventually fell behind because Eugene’s final awakening was overwhelmingly overpowered…

But I’ve seen it. The potential they reached in some of the repeated regressions.

The heroes of the past. The ultimate pinnacle of humanity, surpassing even the great generals. Those who resembled gods. The limits of humanity. The Golden Generation reached the same level as them.

Of course, the regressions where they grew to that level were extremely rare, and the conditions were very strict… but the possibility was there. If they could awaken to that level, it would be a great help in stopping the devil gods.

‘Aside from Alice, the one with the highest potential is… Leo, right?’

Leo reached the ultimate level more often than Arin or Anastasia.

Acceleration. It’s a truly terrifying ability.

As I sorted through my thoughts, recalling memories one by one, time flew by. The dark sky gradually brightened with the dawn.

Watching the outside slowly grow brighter, I took a deep breath. The air was so clean and refreshing. I smiled bitterly and muttered to myself.

“Mom, will you watch over me?”

My efforts.

I won’t disappoint you, I promise.

…Huh? Lucille isn’t my mom, you say?

She gave me everything, didn’t she? I inherited everything from her, didn’t I?

Wouldn’t I be like a daughter to Lucille? No?

Hehe, I don’t know.

I’ll just call her mom.

Author Note

A/N (Author’s note):
Lucia has a mother!

Oh, she doesn’t have one anymore.

Lucia had a mother!

Translator Note

T/N (Translator’s note):
What a cruel author~