Ch.183IF Side Story: If Jinsu Had No Resistance to Aphrodisiacs (2)

“Should we wash up and go to bed now?”

“Yes……”

When did it start?

When did I begin feeling uncomfortable with Jinsoo?

Of course, it could be natural.

No matter how fit Jinsoo is, I knew this day would come eventually given his age.

But does virility really drop by half so suddenly?

“Jinsoo. That……”

“What is it?”

“Nothing…… You go wash up first.”

I couldn’t bring myself to ask him directly.

He must be feeling it most acutely himself.

So I decided not to bring it up and hurt him.

Men have their own circumstances, after all.

‘Still, it’s a bit disappointing……’

He used to go at it until I passed out……

Maybe I should buy a sex toy.

I couldn’t help but sigh.

***

“Could he be cheating?”

“Senior……”

I glared at her with an irritated expression before I could stop myself.

But my senior didn’t look the least bit sorry, just brazenly shameless.

There’s nothing she won’t say to newlyweds.

“That’s ridiculous. He satisfies me every day.”

“Is that really true? Just doing it every day doesn’t mean it’s good.”

“What are you saying?”

“Does your husband ever ask for wild, outlandish things? And you refuse?”

“I do almost everything he asks…… Except for the truly unreasonable things, mostly……”

I’ve even done outdoor play.

I’ve even done it with his prosthetic hand and leg removed.

Once when he asked me to do it with my feet, I refused because it seemed too much, but otherwise I’ve fulfilled almost all his requests.

“In a marriage, one disappointment sticks in the memory more than ten good deeds.”

“Are you saying Jinsoo is cheating because of that?”

“No, I’m just saying it’s possible…… Think about it carefully. Of course, it might not be true.”

“If you don’t know, you shouldn’t say anything at all.”

That’s ridiculous.

There’s no way Jinsoo would cheat.

And the reason being that I wouldn’t give him a foot job is even more absurd.

I left the pantry with my mug, my mood completely ruined.

‘Cheating…… No way.’

I trust Jinsoo.

I pride myself on trusting him as much as I love him.

So the doubt I’m feeling now isn’t from a lack of trust, but a stepping stone to trust him even more.

I sat in my office chair and checked the bugging device channels I had planted.

Let’s see.

Among these, the one I planted on Jinsoo……

“Oh, right.”

I stopped planting bugs after we got married……

I even removed and threw away all the ones I had planted that hadn’t been discovered.

If I had known this would happen, I would have left them in place.

While racking my brain, I suddenly thought of trying a surprise attack.

Jinsoo always answers my calls immediately, whether he’s at work or anywhere else.

So if he’s fooling around with another woman right now, I could catch the evidence, couldn’t I?

With that thought, I suddenly found myself calling Jinsoo.

Ring ring…… Ring ring……

The ringtone went once. Then twice.

If it’s Jinsoo, he’ll answer within three rings.

Ring…… Click.

Ah. He answered.

“Jinsoo, where are you right now?”

“Huh? At home, of course.”

I immediately traced the call location.

The map on the screen quickly zoomed in on LA, then pinpointed Jinsoo’s house.

At least he wasn’t lying about that.

Surely he hasn’t sent Cuss away and invited another woman over?

“What are you doing right now?”

“Um…… Working, of course.”

His voice is trembling.

His breathing seems a bit labored too.

As if he’s doing something strenuous……

“Why are you panting like that?”

“Ah. I just came in from exercising.”

“Hmm……”

“But why—ugh—did you call?”

“No reason. Just wanted to hear your voice.”

My suspicion grew stronger.

If he really just came in from exercising, why is his breathing getting heavier?

And why does his speech keep breaking up?

It wasn’t difficult for that suspicion to turn into distrust.

“Jinsoo. I want to see your face. Let’s video call.”

“Ah, video call……”

“Let’s do it. Right now.”

“Okay……”

The screen appeared before my eyes, showing the master bedroom.

But the angle was strangely tilted upward, showing only Jinsoo’s face and the ceiling.

As if he couldn’t show what was below……

“Jinsoo. Why is the bottom—”

“It’s Juliane!”

“……?”

Just then, silver hair popped up and Cuss’s face filled the screen.

I was so startled that I lost my words.

Cuss was…… at home?

So it was all my imagination?

“Haah…… Jinsoo. I’m sorry.”

“Huh? For what?”

“Nothing. I’ll hang up now……”

My face burning, I quickly ended the call.

Oh no.

Looking back, I wasn’t just suspicious—I was practically accusing him.

I felt terrible for falling for my senior’s words when I claimed to trust Jinsoo……

I’m really a terrible person.

“I’m so sorry, really.”

I should pay the price for my suspicion.

That foot job thing he wanted to try……

I should give it a try.

Since Jinsoo wants it so badly.

.

.

.

“Jinsoo. What is this?”

I’m fucked.

Truly, royally fucked.

My mind went blank and I couldn’t think of a single excuse.

I just knelt there with my head bowed.

“Jinsoo. I’m asking you. Answer me.”

“That’s…… a condom.”

“Yes. I know that. I have eyes. So who used this condom?”

“……”

I made a mistake.

The mistake of putting a used condom in the bathroom trash.

I thought it wouldn’t be discovered buried under tissues.

But who knew Juliane would find it while emptying the trash……

“I, I used it.”

“As I recall, we don’t use condoms. Is my memory correct?”

“I think so……”

“Then who did you use this with?”

“……”

I couldn’t think of any plausible excuse.

What, that I used it to masturbate?

Oh for fuck’s sake.

No matter how little Juliane knows about male masturbation, that’s too far-fetched.

What kind of idiot puts on a condom to masturbate?

Well, I did masturbate.

The problem is it wasn’t that kind of masturbation.

“Exercising your right to remain silent? That’s fine. There are other ways.”

“……?”

“If I check the CCTV, I can see who’s been coming in and out of our house. Technology is good these days, Jinsoo. It’s not like the low-quality CCTV of the past. We live in a world where one glimpse of a face can immediately identify someone.”

Juliane walked behind me and began stroking my neck.

Fuck. I’m screwed.

If it becomes clear that no outsiders have visited our home, then the use of this condom obviously……

“Do we really need to go through all that trouble, Jinsoo?”

“Ugh……”

Juliane’s hand firmly gripped the back of my neck.

It was similar to when she gives me massages, but the intensity was different.

Now I really have no choice.

I have to tell the truth……

“This…… I know it’s not entirely your fault.”

“……?”

“Since I couldn’t keep up with your preferences…… I bear some responsibility too.”

Juliane knelt behind me and hugged me tightly.

I was so taken aback that I lost my words.

How is any of this your fault?

It’s all my fault and that damn woman’s.

“Tell me honestly. Who is she? The woman who satisfies all of Jinsoo’s wild preferences.”

“Ah……”

“Tell me quickly. If you tell me, I won’t be angry anymore. I won’t hold you responsible. From now on, I’ll do whatever you want—foot jobs or whatever—just tell me that woman’s name. Quickly.”

“Cuss……”

“What?”

“That condom…… I used it with Cuss……”

“……”

Unable to bear the guilt any longer, I finally confessed.

After saying it, I felt somewhat relieved.

I’d been going crazy doing it secretly while Juliane was at work or in the shower……

It hurt so much to deceive someone so innocent and kind.

I wasn’t worthy of loving someone like her.

It was good to end the relationship this way, even if it meant being despised.

I closed my eyes tightly, waiting for the angry shouting that was sure to come.

“You’re joking, right, Jinsoo? Right?”

“I’m not joking……”

“You’re joking. Tell me you are. Quickly.”

“I’m telling you I’m not.”

“That can’t be…… I know what a devoted father you are. Oh, you made a mistake once? Right?”

“It was multiple times…… Not just once or twice……”

“You’re lying.”

Juliane’s reaction was not what I expected.

Instead of pushing me away with a look of contempt, instead of shouting in anger, Juliane just shook her head and hugged me even tighter.

It seems Juliane trusted me more than I could have imagined.

I wish she would just feel disgusted with me.

I wish she would leave this trash behind and go……

Why? Why do you trust me so much?

“There must be some misunderstanding, right? Someone’s blackmailing you? Trying to make you break up with me? That’s it, right?”

“Juliane……”

I decided to shatter the illusion.

To deliver the final blow, I manipulated my wrist phone to display a video.

Come to think of it, Juliane bought me this phone too……

I bit my lip hard and played the video.

“Jinsoo. What is this—”

-Ahh. Ah. Aah. Ah…… Jinsoo. Jinsooo. It hurts. I feel like I’m being torn apart—Hnngh……?!

The sound of flesh slapping against flesh roughly.

Animal-like moans.

And harsh breathing filled the room.

While the video played, Juliane remained completely still.

Without saying a single word.

“……”

“……”

I couldn’t bring myself to show the entire three-hour video and turned it off.

As the screen disappeared, silence settled in the room.

The arms that had been tightly wrapped around my waist had already weakened considerably, and now they slipped away as Juliane stood up.

I couldn’t bring myself to look back and just kept my head bowed.

“That’s rape……”

“……”

“You beast.”

Thud.

After the sound of the front door opening, silence returned.

Good.

I’m alone again.

I’ve succeeded in liberating Juliane from a filthy beast……

“Huh…… Fuck……”

“Jinsoo. Don’t cry.”

Just then, silver hair rippled before me.

Somehow Cuss was facing me with a slight smile.

The small woman lifted my arms and nestled herself in my embrace.

She fit perfectly in my arms, as if made just for me.

“You have me. Unlike Juliane, I will never leave you.”

“It’s all because of you…… All because of you……”

“I know.”

The most disgusting thing was that even in this situation, my lower body was responding.

“You take responsibility. You take responsibility for all of this.”

“I will. I’ll be your partner. I’ll even bear your children.”

“That’s not the responsibility I meant…… Damn……”

Whatever.

The age difference might raise some eyebrows, but Cuss would make a perfectly fine wife.

It was only because I thought of her as a daughter that I felt resistance.

If I had thought of her as someone to raise and marry from the beginning, I would have taken her long ago.

“Jinsoo…… Condom……”

“We don’t need it.”

“Hnngh?!”

I picked Cuss up and carried her to the bed.

Ignoring the email notification sound coming from the computer behind us.

What emails could I be getting?

Nothing except health checkup results.

Forget about that—I decided to focus on making a family.