Ch.128Chapter 128. Wise Prison Life (3)

“Mmm……”

The old woman groaned as she got up with her hunched back.

As usual, she opened the window for ventilation and looked outside, then tilted her head in confusion.

The curtains were drawn on the neighbor’s window.

That Chinese guy living next door would surely have his curtains pulled back every morning.

“Hmm? What’s that?”

She thought she could faintly hear a high-pitched voice.

She couldn’t hear clearly because her hearing was poor.

The old woman stuck her head out the window to focus on the sound……

“Hmm?!”

She soon realized it was a woman wailing desperately.

The old woman’s eyes widened.

“Full of energy first thing in the morning…… Is that why China has such a large population?”

If curtains were drawn in the morning with a woman wailing, there could only be one explanation.

The old woman turned away, thinking nothing of it.

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I thought I would be really calm in this kind of situation.

I thought I could logically and rationally subdue someone with just words, making them release me of their own accord.

That was what I did for a living.

I considered it my specialty to make people do what I wanted without laying a hand on them.

But now I’ve realized something.

What gives power to words is the situation.

Outside an interrogation room, my words lost their power, and even more so when I was tied up with my limbs removed.

I was feeling the greatest sense of helplessness in my life……

“Aaah! Aaaaaaah!”

And rage.

“Untie me! Untie me! Give me back my arms and legs!!!”

Is this really me?

Even as I screamed until my voice went hoarse, I felt a strange disconnect.

I’d never screamed with such fury in my entire life.

I didn’t feel like myself.

My reason couldn’t keep up with my emotional changes.

“Hey! Jinsoo Kim! I know you can hear me! Take off this collar now!”

Even as I called for Jinsoo, my mouth was facing the window.

The window covered with layers of soundproofing material.

I was calling for help outside with the loudest voice I could muster.

Would my voice even reach the neighbors?

And even if it did, would they realize this was an actual kidnapping and not some perverted roleplay?

I wanted to scream for help if possible, but I was afraid Jinsoo might burst through the door and gag me, so I decided against it.

If I couldn’t move my arms or legs or leave the bed, and couldn’t even speak……

I would truly go insane.

Or maybe I already had.

“Ah……”

After screaming non-stop.

I sensed a crisis.

This isn’t good.

Not now.

“Hnngh……”

If not now, then when?

This is bad.

Suddenly all my nerves focused on my lower body, making it even harder to hold it in.

“Kim Jin…… Jinsoo. Jinsoo! I need to use the bathroom!”

I crawled to the edge of the bed until the collar was taut and kept calling for Jinsoo.

But my hoarse voice couldn’t produce a loud sound anymore.

How could he soundproof the door too?

Could he really not hear me?

“Jinsoo! Jinsoo! Hey! Kim Jinsoo! I need to pee! You should at least let me pee!”

Seriously, don’t mess with me.

Let me use the bathroom.

Please just let me go.

This isn’t right.

You should at least respect basic needs.

“Jinsoo! Please! I won’t do anything stupid! I won’t, so……”

As I spoke, I felt something strange.

It’s not that I wouldn’t do anything stupid—I couldn’t.

Without arms, legs, or a phone, what could I possibly do?

Even if I managed to crawl, I couldn’t even touch the doorknob.

“Just the bathroom…… just the bathroom…… please……”

Ah. I can’t hold it anymore.

I’m going to wet myself.

I’m really going to.

Please, even now.

I lay face down on the bed, lifting my head, desperately looking toward the door.

“Ah……”

No miracle happened.

With a hissing sound, I felt my thighs getting warm and wet.

The urine I’d been holding for so long continuously soaked through my underwear and into the bed.

It couldn’t all be absorbed, and soon a small puddle formed, soaking my entire lower body.

“Ugh…… ah……”

But what was truly pathetic and self-loathing was that my body was trembling, whether from the relief of urination or the drop in body temperature.

As my waist twitched as if reaching a climax, I realized.

This captivity would be much harder than I had thought……

***

“You bastard…… I called for you so many times. Hic…… sob……”

“……”

It was my mistake.

Being new to kidnapping and imprisonment, I thought of soundproofing but failed to consider bathroom needs.

Juliane was cursing me while crying, her lower body completely soaked.

If she had arms, she might have been pounding on my chest by now.

Or maybe strangling me.

Anyway, Juliane had every right to resent me.

No matter how much I was keeping her captive, I couldn’t let her soil herself.

It was a matter of hygiene.

I couldn’t keep the person I love in a dirty environment.

“Didn’t you hear my voice…… me calling for you?”

“I’m sorry. I didn’t hear you. I’ll make sure this doesn’t happen again.”

“Yes. You should at least let me use the bathroom……”

“I bought diapers. You can wear those now, so don’t worry.”

“What?”

Juliane’s eyes went blank.

She must have been deeply moved by my quick response.

I smiled warmly, caressed her cheek, and continued cleaning up the mess.

First, I needed to remove and wash the underwear and bed sheets.

I brought a towel and wiped Juliane’s short thighs and crotch.

“Juliane. Stay still. I can’t clean you like this.”

“You crazy bastard. You psycho. Don’t touch my body.”

“Then I can’t clean you.”

“What is this? What is this…… At least untie the collar. Hmm?”

Juliane, her face covered in tears, struggled to lift her head and make eye contact with me.

She looked so pitiful that I helped her sit up to face me.

I didn’t know Juliane was so emotional.

I suppose it’s good to see a different side of the person I love.

I wiped her tears and kissed her.

I’ve heard that frequent displays of affection are important between lovers.

I decided that even in this situation, I couldn’t reduce the frequency of physical contact.

“Mmph…… chu…… hmm……”

Juliane accepted my tongue, and our saliva mixed.

She had stopped crying and was exploring my lips.

The kiss seemed sweeter today, perhaps because tears mixed with saliva, when suddenly—

“Ugh?!”

I had to pull away due to a sudden pain.

There was blood on Juliane’s mouth.

When I touched my lip, I felt a stinging sensation and blood on my fingers.

She had bitten me. Quite hard.

“Jinsoo, you’re not in your right mind.”

“Maybe you’re right.”

I admit it.

I imprisoned her without a plan, on impulse.

But what can I do?

I can’t just let Juliane go now.

So I decided to take the next three weeks to think about what to do next.

Whether to run far away with Cuss.

Or maybe I’ll come up with a brilliant way to persuade Juliane.

“At least let me live like a human being. I feel like I’m going insane. Please?”

“Juliane. Let’s try to change our perspective a bit, shall we?”

“How……”

“You’re my cute little puppy. Or maybe you’re too big to be a puppy. Let’s say dog. So let’s lower our happiness threshold a bit? Then you won’t feel like you’re going insane.”

“You psycho…… you psycho……”

Juliane shook her head with a strange expression.

I held her face with both hands and brought my face close to hers.

“Juliane. Bark for me. Woof.”

“Ptui.”

“……”

She spat right in my eye.

I guess asking someone to suddenly become a dog was too unreasonable.

I wiped off the spit and got up.

Time will solve this.

Fortunately, I had plenty of time.

While putting the diaper on her, Juliane didn’t resist much.

Not that she showed any other reaction either.

She just lay there lifelessly.

After finishing with the diaper, I noticed the bowl on the table.

That’s right, I came in here to feed her.

“It’s mealtime, Juliane. I made fried rice. Will you open your mouth?”

“……”

Juliane turned her head away and kept her mouth firmly shut.

She wouldn’t answer me.

She wouldn’t make eye contact.

If I tried to force eye contact, she would squeeze her eyes shut.

In the end, I had to back off.

Not eating is bad for her health……

But if she refuses to eat right now, there’s not much I can do.

What if she refuses to eat until she’s completely emaciated?

Would I have to tie her down and insert a feeding tube into her esophagus?

I hoped it wouldn’t come to that.

“I’ll come back at dinner time. Please eat then.”

“……”

Looking at Juliane lying lifelessly on the bed made my heart ache.

I don’t want to be doing this either.

How did we end up in this situation?

Why did I have to treat the person I love like a dog?

The more I thought about it, the more my chest hurt.

I hope things get better tomorrow.

I hope my intelligence suddenly skyrockets and I come up with a brilliant solution.

With that desperate wish, I left the room.