Ch.105100 – Livestreaming Because I Can’t Afford to Buy Mana

# <World of Arsheria Gallery – General>

[Canceled all my plans today because NoName is streaming]

Date with current girlfriend? Movie date with crush #1? Motel date with crush #2?

Screw all that. Only upvote if you’re a true social butterfly Arsheria player who’s single-heartedly devoted to NoName lol

-BS

-NoName’s streaming today?

-If you were really a social butterfly, you’d still be sleeping in a motel at this hour on Sunday morning, idiot

└I was about to say “With over 10,000 posts in this gallery, what are you if not a social outcast?” but nah~

└*Pop* (Sound of the poster’s mother’s patience snapping)

└LMAOOOOO

└hahahahaha

└(Original poster) I’m definitely suing you

<Featured Post>

[Gallery Main Popularity Test] [179]

Arsheria Gallery’s eternal cat, the lovely Adella deserves to be our gallery’s main – Upvote

No, I think it’s NoName who deserves to be our gallery’s main despite being a rookie streamer with a terrible streaming schedule – Downvote

[Upvotes] 107 [Downvotes] 540

-How are there only 4 verified upvotes out of 107?

└This has to be rigged, I clicked upvote 30 times

└That’s literally what rigging is LMAO

-You must only know Adella from her streams

└She’s such a toxic player in Nightmare mode, seriously lol

-Will NoName finally do a full clear this time?

└If she dumps Adella, she has a 10% chance

-You guys only talk about streamers when there’s no league games. The Gald Cup was better

└Beddur beddur beddur!

└Ok zoomer…

NoName had promised to clear World of Arsheria’s hidden route this Sunday.

However, she wasn’t the only one waiting for that day.

<Streamer Gallery>

<Featured Post>

[Why NoName has what it takes to become a major company.txt] [202]

Kariri (Avg viewers 16,956) vs NoName (Avg viewers 1,634)

1. Female? Both yes

2. Gaming skills?

Kariri is bronze/silver in every game lol. She barely has her toes in platinum in World of Arsheria.

NoName? Already a top-tier no-lifer with 80,000 games in LoL, and cleared World of Arsheria’s hardest story difficulty on her first try. Her talent is basically pro-gamer level.

NoName wins.

3. Viewer interaction

Kariri just gets annoyed these days? lol I turned off her stream because she was making me feel bad.

Meanwhile NoName is literally a Cinderella kid who must sleep by midnight but forces herself to stay up an extra hour just to chat with viewers

(NoName yawning.gif)

NoName wins.

Therefore, NoName wins 2-0-1. Kariri gets the death penalty.

[Upvotes] 170 [Downvotes] 244

-Why are there so many upvotes on this garbage post?

└The honey badger simp is always first to arrive

└Kariri finally paying the price for losing her original passion

-Death penalty seriously? lol

└Judge with no chill lol

-Did Kariri really have that many average viewers?

└She’s always in the top 10

└It’s disgusting how Kariri gets away with terrible streams just because she found one good concept

└She used to be amazing at riding trends, but she’s completely lost her touch lately

-NoName’s yawn is so cuuuute lol

└Be careful with that angle, she might actually be a minor

└What, I can’t even say she’s cute?

[NoName started streaming early!]

But why is she playing LoL instead of World of Arsheria?

-????

-What’s happening?

* * *

Fame begets fame, as they say.

[TK Pathos is hosting you with 22,851 viewers!]

-Let’s gooooo!

-Invasion time~ Invasion time~

-22k viewers holy crap

-King of Diamond! King of Diamond! King of Diamond! King of Diamond!

[You’ve been selected as a trending streamer. #1 NoName #2…]

-NoName!NoName!NoName!NoName!NoName!NoName!NoName!NoName!NoName!

-Mom, I want to be NoName when I grow up! Mom, I want to be NoName when I grow up! Mom, I want to be NoName when I grow up!

-Save Adella! Save Adella! Save Adella! Save Adella!

Text came rushing in like a waterfall, a downpour—any natural phenomenon would be insufficient to describe it.

Over 20,000 people were all focusing on me at once.

Their text became protein masses, arms, hands that reached out to strangle my neck.

I could barely breathe.

Instead of the dying scream I wanted to let out, all that came was a short sigh.

“Ah…”

Before my brain could objectively process the situation, my hands moved quickly.

I turned off the camera showing my face and hid behind the voice that people disliked.

[Love Circulation (Cover – Kariri)]

-186 million views · 3 years ago

-Opening song let’s go~

-Even better!

-Kariri~ honey badger! Kariri~ honey badger! Kariri~ honey badger! Kariri~ honey badger!

-It grows on you after a while. Is this what they call tough love?

[‘KaririsMagicWand’ donated $100!]

-Kariri Punch!

A donation came in, but I couldn’t respond. My mouth wouldn’t open.

Why? How?

[‘realm’ donated $30!]

-Here’s the chicken money Paysauce skimmed off!

Thank you. I appreciate it. I should say these formalities.

Like a fish in a tank, I opened and closed my mouth, but no sound came out even when I strained my vocal cords.

In this situation where my brain felt like it was burning black, the only thing I could think of was the ‘End Stream’ button.

I don’t even need my finger.

One glance and I could send all 25,000 people here into space. But I didn’t.

“Haa… Haa…”

My chest felt tight, as if someone had split my skin and was squeezing my heart with both hands.

At some point, I couldn’t even see the text anymore. My vision was covered in pitch black. Even though I hadn’t closed my eyes.

[Witch]

[Cursed one]

[Die]

[Die]

Was it because flames rising from the soles of my feet were burning my eyes first?

Despite the overwhelming smell of burning flesh, my whole body was shivering.

[‘Paysauce’ donated $300!]

-What did I skim off? How do you like my humble gift? Of course, I didn’t forget the chicken money! Keep up the great streams!

* * *

I was scared.

Everything I felt terrified me.

I don’t know what the sun is. The only light I’ve ever seen was an LED lamp just before it went out.

But I knew why the sun sets, why the wind changes direction, why goosebumps rise on my skin when I feel chilly. I was scared.

I knew Seol-ah was my mother even before she told me.

If she wasn’t my mother, why would she cry silently every night, pull at her hair, and still pat my back with trembling hands to make sure I didn’t wake up?

That was the logical conclusion.

I didn’t need toys.

I already understood the principles behind most things.

It was obvious why star-shaped plastic pieces only fit into star-shaped holes.

A child’s strength cannot overcome the electromagnetic repulsion between plastics.

Even if I didn’t know what each word meant at first, I would suddenly understand as if someone had forcibly nailed it into my head.

Child, strength, plastic, repulsion.

That’s not what I wanted to know.

Why couldn’t my mom be with me?

I wanted to run to her and hug her right away. I wanted to bury my head in the embrace of a woman much bigger than me and burst into tears.

I’m so scared. What’s wrong with my body? What are these memories?

But logic wouldn’t leave me alone.

Perhaps I realized it would only hurt Seol-ah more.

Young and cunning Namei put on an innocent face like a wolf in sheep’s clothing.

I actually know why my body is like this.

Since I’ve already had the same experience in my past life, accepting it again shouldn’t be difficult.

But… but…

My heart won’t calm down.

I “knew” that all commands come from the brain, so why is my heart rebelling and disobeying orders?

I guess it’s no wonder ancient people mistakenly believed emotions were stored in the heart.

Against the command to endure and be patient, my heart desperately wants to escape.

I wish my heart would just explode from this overload…

I was afraid of becoming an adult.

If the “principle” of being an adult means enduring and continuing to endure, then I don’t want to become one.

Although I can’t understand what they’re saying, I have to ignore people who are clearly insulting me, suppress my desire to win games, and complete the same repetitive quests like a hamster on a wheel. That’s my task. My purpose. The way and principle of my life.

There are days.

Days when I want to throw everything away and die.

On such days, I asked the Princess who lives for me how she could be so stoic.

I couldn’t even imagine experiencing the kind of horrible deaths she had gone through multiple times.

Having her head torn off, her body burned, losing her life at the hands of her dearest friend—despite experiencing such tragedies, she remained strong.

Her answer was remarkably simple.

“The truth is, you want to live too.”

That’s right. She knew, understood, and empathized with every single one of my emotions.

She didn’t scold me for being a child while presenting herself as an adult.

My complicated feelings shattered into nothing.

I made the same declaration to all the battlefield travelers trying to steal my heart.

“The truth is, I want to live too.”

I had thought I was just a wooden puppet with all my desires controlled.

But “I” fought for me, got angry for me, and sometimes cried with me—just for “me.”

That’s right, I am a being with desires, I am a person.

I want to live, I want to eat, I want to socialize, I have dreams.

So I would fall asleep imagining all the different things I could do if the Princess and I escaped from here.

But at some point, the Princess disappeared too.

I, who had aimed for escape, gradually grew tired, and my brain, shriveled from lack of nutrients, forgot everything except the goal of “escape.”

Death is a fear imprinted on instinct.

No matter how many times you die, the fear of death never disappears.

The chat slowly tightening around my neck was essentially no different from the mob that tied me to the stake.

“Hic… hnngh….”

-?

-?

-? What’s happening?

-???

-Is she crying?

“I was… scared… All the days I’ve lived… Whether I was going the right way… Whether I was doing something wrong again.”

I felt extreme fear even at minor mistakes.

I couldn’t shake the paranoid feeling that if even one of the 20,000 spectators judging me gave me an X, I would be beheaded on the spot.

I couldn’t shake the intense and extreme terror that came over me from time to time.

“I’m afraid of people… All of you… Just being watched is so terrifying…”

In fact, internet streaming didn’t suit my personality at all.

In this day and age, there are plenty of easier ways to make money than streaming.

-Paysauce take responsibility

-Take. Responsibility.

-Making her cry;;

-That was seriously harsh

-Anyone can lose a 1v1

-Never thought he’d be such a sore loser

Was I trapped in narrow thinking?

[‘Paysauce’ donated $100!]

-Wait;; Um… Are you okay? I’m sorry for overstepping…

That can’t be it.

I always knew the reason. I just hadn’t been conscious of it.

As the chat grew solemn, my heart became calm too.

Suddenly my eyes drifted above the chat.

[Legacy of Legend – Someone Who Misses Warmth (chat disabled)]

[Stream time – 0:48:35]

[Viewers – 25017]

No matter how many times you’ve been burned by human malice, no one can survive a winter night without a campfire.

Beyond the fear of facing people’s malice, I desperately missed human warmth.

-Don’t cry

-*clap*

-crying crying crying

-Don’t cry

-*clap*

-*clap*

-crying crying

See? They’re offering their awkward attempts at comfort.

But thanks to that, my mind goes blank and my heart swells.

Barely holding back laughter that threatened to burst out, I composed my voice a little and spoke with a calmer tone.

“I… *sigh*…”

Twenty-five thousand viewers were waiting for me to continue.

It was quite a contrast to the imperial ministers who would cut me off whenever I tried to speak.

“I really hated humans.”

-Suddenly?

-All humans should just die

-For real lol

-Why do you hate them?

-Just let her be, don’t pile on!

-Poor thing, must have been hurt by people

“Looking back, I was alone for a long time… a really long time. I didn’t want to be alone… but somehow I ended up that way.”

-We’re the same crying crying

-I’m watching this stream alone in my studio apartment right now

-20k LoL players suddenly feeling attacked crying

-So that’s why you played games for 7 years…?

-└Only a hikikomori could do that

-This is kind of sad…

-I understand, I was bullied and locked myself in my room for 3 years

“The reason I started streaming. It’s obvious, but of course I needed money.”

That was certainly how it started.

“But I liked your warmth. From your stupid expressions when I taught you magic, to your cheers when I hit master rank, to your kind hearts feeling sorry for Adella…”

Like the little match girl who couldn’t stop lighting matches, I kept using magic to feel that warmth.

“So I decided to admit it. I’ll be honest. I like getting attention. I enjoy our time together. I want to keep meeting all of you who hype up someone as insignificant as me.”

In the end, making money was just a side reason.

I liked having people pay attention to my lines, my actions, my habits.

But I always prepared excuses because I felt like I would quickly fall apart without attaching such reasons.

[Korea Mana Corporation has sent a bill to ■■■. Please pay within the due date.

Purpose: Wand-type Mid-Circle(5) -Alchemist- Magic Creation

Amount: 12,385,021 won

Due date: 2051/06/25

For inquiries about this bill, please contact the billing company. +See more]

“Can you see this? I deliberately went into debt using magic beyond my means because I wanted to see you all for longer. Ten million, no, now twenty million won. I have no choice but to stream to pay it off.”

-????

-The story is taking a weird turn?

-She really has no chill lol

-This is just crazy!!! lol

-What kind of magic costs that much?

“I won’t stop streaming until I pay off all my debt. I’m going to exploit and extort your time and money.”

That’s just who the toxic troll NoName is. A selfish person who only cares about herself.

“So please use me however you want too. Whether as entertainment or for vicarious satisfaction… I’d like you to stay by my side until the end.”

[‘MultiCoreUltraCuteAI’ donated $30!]

-Let’s change the stream title and milk these simps hard lol

Right. As the game changes, the title should change too.

It didn’t take long to decide on a title.

Just be honest.

[NoName]

[World of Arsheria – Streaming because I can’t afford mana]

[Stream time – 0:56:35]

[Viewers – 25817]