Ch.104Chapter 104. Sexual Desire (2)

“What am I doing right now?”

“C-Cuss……”

“Haa…… Haa……”

Cuss was experiencing a strange sense of déjà vu.

This scene felt familiar somehow.

No, not exactly the scene, but this situation felt familiar.

“W-wait.”

“No.”

“Ungh?!”

When Alice struggled to break free, Cuss pushed her knee up slightly higher.

As her knee pressed against Alice’s groin, Alice rose to her tiptoes and let out a moan.

Cuss knew from personal experience that this position made it impossible to move.

“What? Why? Cuss. Care to say something? Hmm?”

“……”

“I’m kind of scared……”

In this moment, Alice didn’t look human to Cuss.

She looked like a small animal.

Or a toy or doll to hold and play with.

Now that she thought about it, Alice wasn’t much different in size from the shark plushie at home.

“Alice.”

“Yes?”

“Is this allowed?”

“Umm…?”

Today especially, Alice’s skin looked so white and soft.

Cuss wanted to bite it hard and leave red marks.

Now she could finally understand Jinsoo’s feelings.

This was clearly an instinct embedded in the human body.

“What do you mean ‘is this allowed’? What?”

“……”

Well.

She wanted to suck on those tiny lips.

She wanted to lick her ears.

She wanted to hug her so tightly that her ribs might crack.

It was difficult to summarize all these feelings in one sentence.

She just wanted to release this maddening impulse.

“Anything……”

“F-for example?”

“Like this.”

Cuss leaned her face down.

Alice didn’t turn her head away but looked up, her pupils still darting around.

Alice’s eyes slowly closed.

This was asking for it, right?

Right? Right?

“This is your fault……”

The puzzle pieces were coming together now.

The cryptic things Jinsoo had said when Cuss was ignorant.

Now she felt like she could understand them.

“Mmm…… chu……”

Smooch.

Their lips met with a cute sound.

Cuss wanted to devour her whole but held back and pulled away once.

Then again, smooch, smooch, smooch.

Each time their skin touched, small moist sounds echoed.

“Nnggh……”

Cuss pulled back slightly to examine Alice’s face.

It would be troublesome if Alice said she didn’t like it later.

If this became something forced, it would cause problems for Jinsoo again.

“Cuss……”

But such worries seemed unnecessary.

Alice was looking directly at her with a face that seemed about to melt.

Cuss wanted to ravage the inside of that mouth.

She wanted to suck on Alice’s tongue.

She wanted to lick those gleaming eyes…

The list of things she wanted to do kept growing.

Could she do everything in time?

No, the primary concern should be whether she could do all that without breaking Alice.

‘I don’t know. I don’t care about that.’

She didn’t want to worry about anything anymore.

They were already past that stage.

Either Alice should have screamed in protest, or Cuss should have backed off earlier.

It was too late for both of them to stop now.

“I’ll take that… as consent.”

Her face moved closer again.

Close enough to feel Alice’s warm breath.

Alice’s legs were trembling.

Was it because they were getting numb from standing on tiptoes?

Or was it for some other reason?

Cuss didn’t want to know.

She didn’t need to know.

“……”

Just as she was about to bite Alice’s lips.

Suddenly, a wave of weakness washed over her.

Thud

“Eep?”

As Cuss’s forehead collided with Alice’s, a cute sound escaped.

Alice, startled, rubbed her sore forehead with both hands.

Then she noticed that her arms were somehow free.

“Tsk……”

Turning her back abruptly, Cuss touched her lips and felt her heart pounding.

Just a moment ago, she had only wanted to pour out her desire onto Alice.

But now, from deep inside, a suffocating resistance was growing.

The moment it crossed a threshold.

Just now, Cuss felt an inexplicable chill.

‘What was that just now……’

She felt goosebumps.

To think that she and Jinsoo overlapped.

She never thought she would resemble his cowardly nature, which she had once condemned.

She never imagined that she, who wasn’t bound by human rules, would succumb to mere guilt…

“I’m sorry. I hope you’ll forget this.”

“……”

She felt frustrated for no reason.

Because she, who should be the universe’s apex predator, had become just one of the teeming masses of humans.

Is this how an angel feels when they lose their wings and fall from heaven to earth?

At the thought that she could never go back, Cuss felt tears welling up.

“I’ll return to the classroom.”

“Cuss!”

She bid farewell.

To her former self who ignored all human rules and morals and ran wild.

The moment all her tentacles were torn apart by Jinsoo and she was dragged down to Earth.

She had lost her wings and fallen to the ground.

Damn him.

Thinking about it, she couldn’t help but resent Jinsoo.

But if asked whether she regretted it…

She did not.

She could assert that with certainty.

***

“Maybe I came home too early.”

Today, he had gotten off work quite early.

Something about city inspectors coming.

So they sent home anyone who looked disheveled or dirty as if they’d been working for 72 hours straight.

He didn’t think he looked that bad…

Perhaps they sent him home to prevent him from saying something inappropriate.

Either way, it was fine by him.

“I should pick her up soon.”

It was almost time for school to end.

Juliane had been too busy with her main job to pick Cuss up lately.

He could have told her to take the school bus alone like the past few days, but he decided to pick her up.

In the past, he felt more comfortable when Cuss was out of his sight, but now the less time she spent in his view, the more anxious he felt.

It wasn’t so much fear that she might cause trouble when he wasn’t watching…

He just felt anxious.

He felt the need to keep her within arm’s reach.

“Ah… maybe I’ll go see Bob first.”

He thought about heading to the slum before going to the school.

He just didn’t want to be alone in the empty house.

When he lived alone, he had even considered moving because the place felt too small, but now it felt too spacious.

How old was that cyber-punk kid again?

He must be attending school too.

If he met Bob, they’d probably just sip coffee in armchairs and talk about their daughters.

Like middle-aged women gathered at a cafe.

The image made him laugh.

“……”

As he was about to change clothes, his eyes fell on the table.

An old, rusty metal ring.

The remaining gold plating still gleamed in the light.

It used to be so brilliant.

So much that anyone would believe it was a real gold ring.

“Heh……”

Thinking back to those days made him smile.

He remembered worrying about whether to wear the ring to the wedding after the plating had accidentally peeled off when it touched detergent.

In the end, he wore the ring at an angle that wasn’t visible to the guests, so he avoided embarrassment.

Or maybe everyone saw it but deliberately didn’t mention it.

Ah, I can’t stand this.

He put down the ring and quickly wiped his eyes.

Then he pulled down his pants.

His wristphone was already ringing.

“Hello? Jinsoo? What’s going on?”

“Nothing. I just wanted to hear your voice.”

“What’s that supposed to mean? Pfft……”

It was true.

He needed to hear Juliane’s voice.

He wouldn’t have minded Cuss’s voice either, but that kid was too stupid to give him the kind of voice he wanted.

“Juliane. Could you verbally abuse me a little?”

“What? Excuse me? You want me to verbally abuse you all of a sudden? Why?”

“No reason. I just want to hear it.”

“That’s ridiculous. Why would you suddenly want verbal abuse… Oh. Jinsoo.”

“……”

“Why are you breathing so hard?”

“……”

Juliane’s voice suddenly turned cold.

She was quick to catch on, which was good.

“Are you doing what I think you’re doing right now?”

“Uh… well…”

“You perverted bastard. You did it plenty yesterday and you still can’t hold back from jerking off? Are you some kind of monkey? Masturbating whenever you get horny?”

That’s it.

That’s what he wanted.

Gentle whispered abuse was nice too, but nothing compared to genuine, angry verbal abuse.

Her voice was so fucking hot.

If she had been there in person, looking down at him with contemptuous eyes and stepping on him, the pleasure would have been multiplied, but this was enough.

“When you were in Washington. You couldn’t hold back then either, could you? You came by yourself. Tell me honestly.”

“N-no, that time I really……”

“Don’t talk back. You don’t have the right to speak. I’ll give you the right to speak when you take your hands off that disgusting thing. How about it? Say something, you pervert who has less self-control than a monkey.”

“……”

Damn.

He couldn’t even open his mouth.

“Look at you going quiet. I’m losing interest… Do you still want to keep stroking even while hearing this?”

“……”

“Be prepared when I get back. I’m going to punish you thoroughly.”

It was his first time asking for this, but she was surprisingly good at it.

She was a natural at verbal abuse.

Ah. He was about to come.

“Nngh!”

“Wow. Did you just come? You disgusting bastard……”

“Ah.”

The moment he came and opened his eyes.

He froze in shock.

“S-sorry, Jinsoo. I didn’t mean it when I said I was losing interest or called you disgusting. I just thought it would excite you… Hello? Are you listening?”

“……”

His left hand holding the phone slowly dropped.

What appeared before his eyes was…

“Ugh…… Jinsoo.”

It was Cuss, with his semen all over her face.