Beginner Dad.

I had already turned 4, and my father was thinking about sending me to daycare.

“I don’t want to go.”

He was a new father who interpreted my young mind as not wanting to be separated from him.

“No. I have to go to daycare and make friends.”

“Haa… What do I do when I become friends with babies?”

“Uh… um… Siyun is also… a baby?”

“Yeah, baby.”

Dad was speechless at my sarcastic tone.

“…..”

I looked at my dad who was putting my shoes on.

“dad.”

“huh?”

“What do you think dad will do if he gets to know the babies?”

“Uh… should we play together?”

“With kids who can’t even speak well?”

“uh…?”

“ha…”

Dad smiled at me.

“But your father is friends with Siyun?”

“Am I friends with your dad?”

“Sure~”

I spoke to my father, who smiled and spoke confidently.

“Am I going to stop talking?”

“… Huh? Sorry…”

I nodded, looking at my dad who was embarrassed.

“Instead of going to daycare, dad, make up with grandma! Grandma said that because she was thinking of dad.”

“…did you hear?”

“Grandma was harsh, but Dad knows her personality well.”

“…..”

One day, the grandmother said something unpleasant to her father who left the room.

When my grandmother apologized to my father, she told him that out of frustration, she had made a mistake by saying, ‘A woman without a family tree left her luggage behind and died.’

My dad was stroking my head and his eyes were filled with tears.

“Dad, you made my smart daughter worry?”

“Hmm… I’m going to call my grandmother after daycare today~?”

“Huh…? That’s…”

“Grandma, it’s annoying to visit too often, so apologize slowly.”

“…..?”

“You know what I mean?”

I stroked my dad’s head, and he smiled brightly.

My new father picked me up and headed outside.

The lady next door I met in the elevator.

“Hello~”

I looked at the young woman and nodded, thinking of myself as chic.

“Oh my, why is Siyoon so pretty?”

“Because I don’t look like my dad?”

Dad was smiling awkwardly, and the aunt smiled and said.

“Ah, you’re so pretty because you look like your dad~ How pretty is your dad~”

When I look at my father’s face, he smiles awkwardly.

“If she were a virgin, Si-yoon would become a mother!”

“Probably not?”

“Hmph… I was breastfeeding too…”

Dad and the aunt started laughing and talking, and the aunt asked.

“Isn’t Si-yoon too smart?”

“I thought it was strange too, but… I’m not sure.”

“I’ve felt this before, try receiving gifted education!”

“Ahaha… Siyun said it wasn’t fun…”

“ah…”

As we were talking, the young woman got off on the first floor and said hello to me, and I also waved.

I was held in my father’s arms, and it wasn’t until we reached the 4th basement floor that he sat me down in his car.

It’s my first time seeing my dad’s car, but it looks different from the cars I know.

‘As expected, I am a gold spoon…’

When I looked around for a moment, most of the other cars were similar, and even the cars in the corners looked flashier…

When I turned my gaze to my dad’s car, leaving my bitterness behind, there was another small chair on top of the chair that had been prepared at some point, and my dad sat me down and fastened my seatbelt.

“I don’t want to go~”

Dad laughs at what I say.

“Then Dad won’t reconcile with Grandma either.”

“Okay, then shall we do that?”

My father became speechless at my firm answer.

“…..”

Somewhere, my young father, who is only half as old as I was in my previous life, is trying to threaten me.

I held out my hand and my dad gave me his cell phone.

As I was watching YouTube on my phone, my dad said,

“Siyoon, my eyes are getting worse~”

“Then, buy me a bigger one.”

“Uh…yeah…”

My dad asked as I knocked on the cell phone vending machine.

“Do you know Siyun’s handwriting?”

“Then you don’t know?”

“My daughter…is she a genius?”

I nodded, waved my hand in the air as if telling him to stop, and answered roughly.

“I get surprised sometimes too.”

“uh…”

These days, I’ve been reading newspapers and watching animations on my cell phone.

It is no exaggeration to say that we have entered a new world.

I thought it was just childish, but I ended up falling in love with it.

“Si-yoon, isn’t that too cruel?”

“It’s all over.”

When I answered in Japanese, Dad quickly stopped the car.

“What…? Do you… want to try it again?”

He repeated the same words again in Japanese.

“It’s not cruel at all?”

“…..”

After that, my dad stopped stopping me from watching foreign movies.

I was surprised myself.

Should we say that there is a natural ‘transformation’?

When I thought of language and thought of words, they came out of my head as voices I had once heard.

“Siyoon, can you speak English?”

“huh.”

A father and daughter talking in English in a car,

My father, who was looking at me with an expression of emotion, seemed to have forgotten about leaving.

After some time, we arrived at the daycare center.

The father must be quite a celebrity, so the employee can’t hide his surprise when he sees him wearing a mask and sunglasses.

“uh?!”

“hello.”

When the young employee saw me greeting him, his eyes began to widen again as if he was surprised.

“You… you’re so pretty!”

The children glanced around the room, as if they were curious about me.

A room that smells like babies.

I was facing a woman called the director.

“Hello~ Would you like to call me director?”

“Director.”

“Oh my, our Siyun is smart~”

“i know.”

My dad probably didn’t want to be separated from me, so he stayed next to me for a while and then glanced at me and went outside.

And he was secretly watching me outside the window.

I pretended not to know and said.

“What should we play?”

“Do you have any snacks? My dad won’t let me eat them.”

“uh?”

The director seemed to be possessed by something and handed me a snack.

I spoke to the director, leaning against the backrest while holding a bag of snacks the size of my body.

“Dad, tell me to go.”

“…..”

The director, who felt that something was unusual when he saw me, sent my father.

For some reason, my dad disappears obediently.

“Aren’t you scared of Si-yoon?”

“What?”

As I ate the rice crackers, I read the name because it was tastier than I expected.

‘Let’s eat moonshine… I’ll have to ask you to buy it~’

“Is this your first time away from Dad?”

“Um… I see?”

“Don’t you miss Dad?”

“Not even 5 minutes have passed? Ask me in 5 hours.”

“…..”

The director was at a loss for words due to a response that was inappropriate for my vocabulary and age.

The employee I saw at first took me to a room with a person of the same age as me.

“Siyoon, have fun with your friends~”

“huh.”

“At that time, you say ‘yes~’”

A young teacher who has not even lived half the life I have lived is trying to teach me.

“yes.”

But what can I do, I am now 4 years old.

The kids showed interest as I held the snacks. It seemed obvious that they would be bothered, so I handed them the snacks.

Let’s look around and see a young teacher who thinks he’s looking for something fun to do.

I left behind the expectations of such a young teacher and lay down in a corner with little traffic.

“…?”

The young teacher was embarrassed when he laid down his bag on the bedside and lay down because he couldn’t find a pillow.

“Are you tired Si-yoon?”

“no?”

“Uh… Isn’t it time for a nap yet?”

“Is that something decided?”

“…..”

“Then leave it alone. Make yourself taller.”

“Bah… But I need to make friends~”

“Even if they become friends now, they won’t remember me tomorrow.”

“…..”

“Don’t touch me, go to sleep.”

“Yeah…yeah…”

As the children started running around and playing, the surroundings started to become extremely noisy.

And then the child who fell and stepped on my foot, which was lying still, started crying loudly.

“… Wow Shiba… it happens like this?”

I immediately got up and fiddled with the fence that prevented the children from climbing over.

The young teacher who heard the crying and came running said.

“Did Siyoon say that?”

I said, ignoring the young teacher’s words.

“Can you help me?”

“uh?”

After setting up the barricade with the help of the young teacher, I went to my place to lie down,

I accidentally found another blanket, folded it into a pillow shape, and lay down.

“Now, look at your work.”

“…..”

The young teacher touched his head and muttered as he stood up.

“I wonder how Siyoon’s father will react if he sees this…”

I asked as if I had heard something I wasn’t supposed to hear.

“teacher?”

A young teacher looking back at me.

“What do you mean dad is watching?”

The teacher glanced at one place and said.

“With the square box over there, dad can see what Siyun is doing~”

“…..”

I finally found out why my dad disappeared so easily.

“Why?”

I sat down and started thinking.

‘Ah… If I lie down alone, they’ll think I’m in trouble, and if I bother to go home again, I’ll whine…’

As I looked around, looking for something to spend the most time on, a piano caught my eye.

“Teacher, do you know how to play the piano?”

“Then~”

“Okay, let’s go.”

“… huh?”

I shook the barricade with my small body and the teacher opened it.

“Tell me how to play the piano.”

Only then did the young teacher, whose eyes sparkled at my words, lift me up and sit me down on the small piano.

Perhaps because they only ordered something too simple, I yawned and pressed the keys.

“What is this?”

“Rayo.”

“Wow, our Siyoon is so smart~”

I felt frustrated that he was acting like I was teaching an ordinary 4-year-old child, and I spoke firmly.

“How long are you going to do this? Just tell me the sheet music.”

“… huh?”

The reactions of people looking at me are all the same.

A young teacher showing me sheet music with a sullen expression,

It seemed like the intention was to tease me.

However, I have an overwhelming memory, so I memorized the entire score just by glancing at it.

And as he pressed the keys without even looking at the score, the young teacher’s eyes began to widen.

“As expected, I take after my father…”

I asked the young teacher as if I suddenly remembered something.

“Oh, that’s right! Dad, do you know what he does?”

“Sure!”

Only then did I look at the teacher with a curious expression.

“He’s a very famous rapper and songwriter~”

“Rapper? What is that?”

The young teacher excitedly watched YouTube on his cell phone, as if he liked his father.

My dad came out there and was singing.

“Ah, ttantta?”

“…? Ddandtara?”

It was a song I had never heard before, no, it was a song similar to the ones I heard when I stayed in the United States.

“Is this a song?”

“Well, how popular is it in Korea?”

“Not much?”

“…Dad, don’t you like the song?”

“Yeah. Is this a song?”

“I see… I see…“

The young teacher, taken aback by my reaction, put away his cell phone without saying a word.