#7.

Han Sujin slowly grew accustomed to Lee Han’s daily, repetitive demands. At first, all her nerves were on edge, and even following his instructions was an ordeal. Her hands trembled, and she felt suffocated. Every time she faced Lee Han’s penis, she felt like throwing up.

“Heueuk…”

She swallowed her tears and gritted her teeth. She felt like she wanted to die. But after a week, two weeks, she slowly began to feel numb.

The act of stroking Lee Han’s penis up and down with her hand felt mechanical. She didn’t even have the strength to cry. She simply focused on the act with a blank face, her emotions deadened.

‘Quickly… I hope it ends quickly…’

That was all Han Sujin wanted. She became increasingly desensitized to the humiliation that was repeated to the point of disgust.

When she left the office after finishing the act, she suddenly came to her senses. She was often surprised when she thought about herself from just a moment ago. Her heart felt empty, devoid of any emotion.

‘I can become so calm like that…’

She felt like a stranger to herself. As if it had always been that way, she didn’t even have the strength to hate Lee Han at that moment.

Perhaps she should be grateful that Lee Han wasn’t defiling her body. She was always terrified that his demands would become increasingly severe. If that didn’t happen, she was confident she could endure it.

‘It’s just… bearable to this extent.’

Han Sujin occasionally had such thoughts. She was relieved that he wasn’t defiling her body any further. Yes, if he kept to this line, she could somehow endure it, she told herself, rationalizing the situation.

The act, which was too embarrassing to even mention, began to feel like a part of her life.

‘Just… a few minutes a day is all I have to endure.’

Thinking like this made her feel a little better.

In that way, Han Sujin’s heart slowly crumbled. Her self-esteem, which had been trampled so miserably, was already irretrievable. She was simply enduring by becoming desensitized to reality. Lee Han keenly sensed Han Sujin’s crumbling heart. He realized that she was gradually becoming desensitized. It seemed like it was time to move on to the next stage.

One day, as Han Sujin was caressing Lee Han’s penis as usual, Lee Han slowly reached out and stroked her cheek. Han Sujin’s pupils trembled. She looked up at him in surprise, but soon lowered her eyes.

It was because she had been careless, complacent with the familiar act. Lee Han’s touch continued. This time, he caressed the back of her neck. Her delicate skin slipped beneath the man’s rough palm. It was a chilling sensation that sent shivers down her spine. Han Sujin flinched, but in the end, she didn’t resist.

Next, Lee Han gently stroked Han Sujin’s shrinking shoulders. Han Sujin squeezed her eyes shut at the touch of his hand on her bare skin.

‘Endure… I have to endure…’

She gritted her teeth and comforted herself. Her shoulders were still bearable. She could just wipe them off with the back of her hand.

But a few days later, Lee Han’s hand moved down to her collarbone. He stroked the upper part of her chest, slowly moving downwards. Han Sujin felt a fear that made her heart stop. Without realizing it, she shook off his hand.

Lee Han continued to speak, trying to persuade Han Sujin.

“You should allow me this much. If I can cum faster, it’ll be easier for both of us, right?”

Han Sujin resisted fiercely.

“No, this isn’t right. You have to keep to the line!”

But as the days went by, she gradually crumbled under Lee Han’s sweet-talking. It became difficult to refuse him every time. She slowly began to become desensitized to his touch.

One day, when Lee Han slightly hooked his finger on the edge of her bra, Han Sujin no longer resisted. Instead, she muttered in a small voice.

“…Just finish quickly.”

Han Sujin groaned, but she didn’t refuse. She simply turned her head away and closed her eyes.

The next day, Lee Han’s actions became bolder. He grabbed Han Sujin’s entire breast and fondled it. She barely managed to endure it, tears welling up in her eyes.

“Heueuk…”

An unbearable sigh escaped her lips.

“I need more stimulation to finish quickly.”

Lee Han said coaxingly. Han Sujin bit her lip and groaned inwardly.

‘I know… I know everything. But still, this…’

She cried out in her heart, but soon gave up. She knew it was a futile resistance. It would only drag out the time.

“…Okay.”

She spat out the words, gritting her teeth. It was an agreement of resignation.

“See, this much isn’t too much, right?”

Lee Han smiled with satisfaction. Then, without hesitation, he slipped his hand inside Han Sujin’s bra. Her firm nipple was caught in his fingertips.

“Heueup…”

She involuntarily gasped for breath. But Han Sujin endured it.

She had no choice but to get used to his actions. Time would solve it, she wanted to believe.

Meanwhile, Lee Han enjoyed Han Sujin’s indifferent reaction. It was ecstatic to fondle her soft breasts in his hands.

‘Little by little… I’ll make her mine.’

He vowed as he looked at her expressionless face. He would definitely get this woman in his grasp.

As time passed, Han Sujin began to feel like all of this was just a routine. She regarded Lee Han’s touch as something she just had to endure.

‘Quickly… let’s finish quickly… that way, it’ll be easier.’

She gritted her teeth inwardly and urged herself on. Resisting his actions was meaningless. It would only drag out the time. It seemed better to just be obedient.

So she suppressed her emotions and remained still with a blank face. She became accustomed to mechanically accepting Lee Han’s touch.

“Euek…”

She let out an unpleasant groan, but soon regained her composure. Without making any expression, she simply stared into space.

‘This is my daily life now…’

While lamenting her own situation, Han Sujin calmly accepted it. Since it was her daily life anyway, she thought she should end it as soon as possible. Even if the nightmarish reality was repeated.

Meanwhile, Lee Han watched Han Sujin’s indifferent reaction with interest. He liked the way she accepted his touch with an expressionless face. It seemed like she was sufficiently tamed now.

‘Shall I get a little bolder now?’

Curling up the corners of his lips, Lee Han pondered his next move. He planned to gradually cross the line and lead her to ruin.

That’s how a few more days passed. Han Sujin, resigned to her changed daily life. She felt that this humiliating act had become part of her job. She mechanically accepted Lee Han’s desires, staring blankly into space.

As soon as Han Sujin entered Lee Han’s office, she habitually approached him and put her hand on his belt. But Lee Han grabbed her wrist and said.

“Just a moment, Sujin-ssi.”

For a moment, Han Sujin wondered what was going on and raised her head. Then she realized what she had unconsciously done and was embarrassed.

‘Oh my god… what did I just do?’

She was confused by the fact that she had acted so naturally. Her face flushed with shame.

Lee Han smiled and continued.

“Let’s do something different today. How about you do it with your mouth?”

“What did you say…?”

Her eyes widened. She was appalled by Lee Han’s bold demand.

“Are you crazy? I can’t do such a dirty thing…”

“Oh, why not? It’ll be faster if you do it with your mouth. It’ll be easier for both of us.”

Han Sujin gritted her teeth and trembled. Goosebumps rose all over her body. She barely suppressed the urge to kill Lee Han.

“…I can’t do it. Please don’t make me do that.”

She composed herself and refused gently. Lee Han clicked his tongue as if he was disappointed.

“Then just do it once every two days. But with your mouth. How about it, isn’t that a good deal?”

“Th, that’s…”

Han Sujin was speechless. She was conflicted inside.

‘Once every two days… isn’t that a little more bearable?’

‘No, what are you doing? Get a grip!’

A reprimand for herself came to mind. She was ashamed that she was falling for such a dog-like negotiation.

Lee Han didn’t miss that fleeting hesitation. He quickly targeted Han Sujin’s heart.

“I understand. It’s a difficult decision. But I think this is the best way for both of us. You feel it too, Sujin-ssi. How painful it is to do this every day…”

Han Sujin nodded at Lee Han’s words. He was right. It was really painful to endure such humiliation every day.

“So, what I’m saying is. We’ll reduce it to once every two days. At least one day, you don’t have to see mine, right? Instead, we’ll agree to do it with your mouth. How about it? Isn’t that a good offer?”

“That’s…”

Han Sujin hesitated. She hesitated as if she was caught in a dilemma.

‘If I don’t have to do this even for one day… wouldn’t that be okay…?’

‘No, doing it with my mouth is out of the question. That’s crossing the line!’

The internal conflict grew more and more intense. Her reason whispered to reject it, but her emotions urged her to accept it.

As if he had read Han Sujin’s mind, Lee Han continued.

“Sujin-ssi. I know this is painful for you. But if we can make each other a little more comfortable, shouldn’t we try it?”

Han Sujin’s heart wavered violently at his sweet words. If she could have peace even for one day… the temptation was too strong.

“Haa…”

She let out a long, deep sigh. And then she answered in a small voice.

“…Really only once every two days? Promise me.”

“I promise. Once every two days. No more.”

Han Sujin nodded at Lee Han’s firm tone.

“…Okay. Let’s do that.”

A smile of victory spread across Lee Han’s lips at that moment. The moment he had so desperately wanted had finally come.

Han Sujin was miserable that she had crossed the line herself. But it was an unavoidable reality. She couldn’t see a way out of the devil’s clutches.

A compromise that felt like selling herself. It was leading Han Sujin’s fate in a bleak direction.

Han Sujin took a deep breath as if preparing herself. Then she knelt down and put her hand on the front of Lee Han’s pants. As she slowly lowered the zipper, she felt his hardened penis poking out from beyond his underwear. Han Sujin looked at it with a troubled face.

Just a few months ago, facing a penis other than her husband’s was something she couldn’t even imagine. She would have been horrified and screamed and ran away.

But the current Han Sujin was different. She didn’t feel much agitation even when she saw a man’s penis that wasn’t her husband’s. Rather, it felt more familiar than her husband Park Taeyoung’s. Because she saw and touched it every day, she had become strangely numb.

‘Ah… what am I doing…?’

Self-loathing washed over her. An act of betrayal that went beyond adultery. A race to ruin that she couldn’t stop even though she knew it. Han Sujin felt so miserable and dirty.

But she only swallowed her tears and let out a sigh mixed with a groan. She had given up and resigned herself a long time ago. Because this had become her daily life now.

Han Sujin gritted her teeth. Then she lowered Lee Han’s underwear and took out his penis. She stared blankly at the clearly pulsating thing. A reddish-brown, crude object. It was a scene she was all too familiar with now.

‘Okay… let’s just finish this quickly…’

Urging herself on, Han Sujin lowered her head. And then she hesitated and opened her mouth.

“Eueup…”

As she took his penis into her mouth, she felt suffocated by the foreign object. A fishy smell wafted up. She felt like throwing up, but she held it back. Then she began to move her head back and forth. She felt goosebumps as the sensation of it brushing against the roof of her mouth passed through her.

“Euek… cough…”

Holding back her gag reflex, Han Sujin diligently caressed his penis. She felt the flesh filling her mouth becoming more and more firm.

Soon, Lee Han stepped back for a moment and roughly grabbed Han Sujin’s hair. Then he began to shove his penis into her mouth. Han Sujin felt like she was almost suffocating because he was violently jerking her face up.

“Heugeuk… heup… ueuek…”

Lee Han, who had been thrusting violently for a while, groaned as he felt the urge to ejaculate. Soon, hot semen poured deep into Han Sujin’s throat.

“Euek… heugeuk…”

Han Sujin gagged at the pain of being violently stabbed in the back of her throat. And soon, hot semen flowed down her throat.

Her stomach churned at the stinging taste and fishy smell. Han Sujin gasped and stepped away from Lee Han.

Without swallowing the semen that had filled her mouth, she covered her mouth with her hand and ran to the bathroom. She sat down in front of the toilet and threw up, “Ueuek.”

Thick semen mixed with saliva and bodily fluids poured into the bowl. She threw up for a long time, and her stomach churned. Cold sweat poured down like rain.

“Heok… heok…”

Trembling all over, Han Sujin buried her face in the toilet. She still couldn’t get rid of the taste of semen in her mouth. She sobbed, hiccuping in distress.

‘Euek… dirty… so dirty…’

She felt dirty and filthy. Her mouth was covered in semen and bodily fluids. Even the sight of her vomiting. It was the end of misery.

After throwing up like that for a long time, she finally managed to get up. She leaned against the sink with staggering steps and rinsed her mouth.

She took water into her mouth and spat it out several times, but the thick feeling didn’t go away easily. Only then did Han Sujin find her face in the mirror. Her disheveled hair, her eyes reddened from crying. Even her lips, which were still dripping with saliva and bodily fluids.

Tears burst out at the miserable sight. She sat down, shedding tears endlessly. She wiped her lips with trembling hands.

“Heueuk… heuk…”

Only sighs increased at the endless humiliation.

After sobbing for a long time, she stopped crying. Han Sujin struggled to get up. Then she staggered out of the bathroom.

Lee Han was calmly adjusting his pants. She ignored him and opened the office door and walked out. The sound of her shoes echoed lonely in the empty hallway.

Han Sujin’s inner self was quiet as if she was dead. She felt nothing as if all her emotions had dulled. It was as if she was wandering in a long darkness.

Her steps and tears, she didn’t know how to stop them now.

Han Sujin, who had returned home, was deep in thought. She wanted to get out of this nightmarish contract, but the reality was cold. She couldn’t see any way out.

‘I have to end this somehow…’

Only sighs increased at the despair. But at some point, a strange thought flashed through her mind.

‘Since I changed from doing it with my hand to doing it with my mouth… maybe this is better?’

At first, she was surprised by the thought she had. But when she thought about it carefully, it seemed to make sense.

‘It’s not penetration, so it’s still okay… Besides, it’s been reduced to once every two days. Then wouldn’t it be bearable?’

Strange rationalizations filled her head. Han Sujin gradually began to look at her situation positively.

As she did so, her aversion to the act itself gradually dulled. She didn’t feel like throwing up like she did when she first faced Lee Han’s penis. Was it because she had gotten used to it?

‘It’s something I have to do anyway. It’ll be easier to adapt.’

She persuaded herself over and over again. Since this had become her daily life, she thought she had no choice but to accept it.

In that way, Han Sujin was gradually falling into hell. At first, she tried desperately to protect herself, who was resisting, but now it seemed like she had entered the path of resignation.

She wouldn’t have allowed him to touch her body even if she had been prepared to die like she used to. But the current Han Sujin was different. Where had that spirit gone? Only helplessness was blooming.

Perhaps it would be less painful to just conform like this. Such a self-deprecating thought raised its head.

Han Sujin realized that she was becoming weaker. But she couldn’t help it. She had no strength or will left to escape Lee Han’s trap.

She was just resigned and accepted it. It was like she had found a breathing hole in a hellish purgatory.

In that way, Han Sujin chose the path of crossing the line herself. Intoxicated by the drug called rationalization, she was racing towards a tragic catastrophe. Perhaps she had already crossed the point of no return.

The light was slowly fading from Han Sujin’s eyes.