51 – Masturbation

“So why do you keep throwing yourself at them?”

Kim Sun-ah’s nagging made Ha-yoon hang her head and say nothing. Even she thought it was ridiculous.

To have started so confidently, only to end up being choked and going multiple times. She still couldn’t forget the image of Hong-ryun laughing at her as she left after she regained consciousness.

She was grinding her teeth when a stream of warm water fell on her head, startling her and making her cry out.

“Ow, hot-!”

“Huh? Is it hot?”

“No, it’s not hot, it’s just that the drug is still working…”

“Ah, right, that.”

Ha-yoon hurriedly made excuses at the sight of Kim Sun-ah checking the shower temperature, and she quickly wore an awkward expression. The drug that Mr. Choi used to lower sensitivity. She only found out about the side effects after the class was over.

It was said that she would receive several times the pleasure she felt while her sensitivity was lowered. So for a while, her body would be as sensitive as it was right after climaxing.

Well, there was no way Mr. Choi or the other teachers would give the trainees something normal. After all, most drugs wouldn’t easily harm the body with a single dose.

In any case, Ha-yoon’s body was overly sensitive because of that. So much so that she felt hot even when lukewarm water touched her.

But she couldn’t just spray herself with cold water. It was clear that a chilling cold that felt like cutting her skin would fall instead.

Kim Sun-ah knew this as well, so she made a troubled expression for a moment before speaking in a determined voice.

“Just bear with it a little longer. I’ll wash you quickly.”

“No, no, wait a minute, aah-!”

“Are they renting out the shower room or something…”

Yoon Se-rin muttered in disbelief at the sight of Ha-yoon screaming loud enough to shake the shower room.

Despite that little incident, the day’s work ended without incident. Ha-yoon carefully continued her now somewhat familiar quadrupedal walk and asked Kim Sun-ah.

“Are you going to be called by that guy again today?”

“Well, yeah.”

The fact that Kim Sun-ah had made some kind of deal with Mr. Gan to ease Ha-yoon’s punishment was half-public knowledge. In fact, more than half of the trainees knew about it.

The only ones who didn’t know were probably Shin So-hyun, Yoon Se-rin, and Han Su-ah. Kim Sun-ah thought so and said to Ha-yoon, who was making an uneasy expression.

“You don’t have to worry about it. Mr. Gan is a bit eccentric, but he treats me pretty well.”

“Treats you well? That bastard?”

“Yeah, well. More than I thought?”

To be honest, she hadn’t experienced as much as she had braced herself for at first. From the stories she had heard, she thought she would be subjected to some kind of vicious torture, like having her fingernails pulled out or being burned, but at most, she was just brought to climax for hours without a break.

Of course, that was quite a burden, but it was true that she felt it was quite manageable compared to how scared she was going in.

“So you don’t have to say you’re sorry or anything. It’s something I chose to do, and more than anything… no, I don’t really need to say this.”

“If you say so, then I have nothing to say…”

Ha-yoon said in a hesitant voice.

“But if it gets too hard, tell me. I can’t help you, but I can at least… comfort you.”

“Do you know that I want to show your current self to the Ha-yoon I first met?”

“What, you punk.”

Ha-yoon turned her head away as if embarrassed at Kim Sun-ah’s chuckling voice. She already knew that she had changed a lot compared to when they first met, just as she said.

But she had no choice but to change. Trying to protect herself here would only bring pain.

‘And I was the one who used to make fun of those guys the most…’

It was quite ironic to think about it. She, who had broken the trainees’ identities outside when she was a man, had eventually changed here without being able to withstand it.

“Eek?!”

“Oh, I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to startle you.”

She was thinking that when she suddenly screamed in surprise at the touch of a hand running down her spine.

Kim Sun-ah thought that she was now making quite feminine sounds, but she waved her hand at Ha-yoon, who was glaring at her with angry eyes.

“You still have the drug’s effects, right? I thought you should take care of it before you go to work your shift.”

“You could have just said that, why did you have to scratch my back?”

She couldn’t honestly say it was because her reaction was funny. Even if Ha-yoon felt indebted to her, she would definitely throw a fit if she said that.

“Take care of it, take care of it…”

Regardless of what Kim Sun-ah was thinking, Ha-yoon muttered to herself and sighed deeply. The way to get rid of the side effects of the sensitivity-lowering drug was simple. Just relieve yourself until the drug’s effects wore off.

Whether through masturbation or sex, any method would do. Of course, it would naturally disappear over time even without such methods, but tonight was the problem.

She couldn’t just wake up from sleep because the blanket was brushing against her skin or wet the bedsheets. She had to take care of it, just like Kim Sun-ah said. But the question was how to take care of it.

Sex? A method not even worth discussing. If she wanted to do that, she would have to go to the teachers herself and fawn over them, but even though she had adapted to some extent, she didn’t want to go that far.

Of course, there was also the method of rubbing against other trainees… but the only one who could be that partner was Kim Sun-ah right next to her.

Jin Si-won, who wanted to have sex with her, was also an option, but she was out of the question, and she didn’t want to do that kind of thing with Kim Sun-ah yet.

Then the only thing left was masturbation, but to be honest, that wasn’t easy either. Five days since she became a patient and a trainee. During that time, she had been fucked countless times and had her pussy licked by other trainees, but she had never touched herself.

‘But masturbation is probably better…’

At least masturbation was something she could control. After careful consideration, Ha-yoon sighed and muttered.

“Masturbation, I’ll try to take care of it with masturbation…”

“Do you know how to do it?”

“Am I a kid? Do you think I wouldn’t know that?”

Even though she had no masturbation experience as a woman, she had used these fingers to poke at dozens or hundreds of vaginas.

Even though it was her own, a vagina was still a vagina, wasn’t it? The method wouldn’t be any different… Ha-yoon thought so and then suddenly muttered as if she had realized something.

“But I can’t even use my hands in this state, let alone masturbate?”

She was still being punished as a pet, so her arms and legs were tightly bound and she was walking on her joints. All she could do by moving her arms was pointlessly hit her large breasts.

Even though she had masochistic tendencies, she wasn’t a madwoman who felt pleasure from abusing her own body. She couldn’t be sure, but she was sure of it.

So if she wanted to masturbate, she would need someone else’s help after all. Or someone to untie her for a moment and then tie her up again. And there was only one person who could do that.

As Ha-yoon came to that conclusion, Kim Sun-ah also said with an awkward face.

“…Should we move to another place first?”

“Let’s do that…”

When will this damn punishment end?

“But why here of all places?”

The place the two of them moved to was called Multipurpose Practice Classroom A. It was also the space where the incident with the Hong-ryun trio had taken place the day before.

“But there’s no other place I know well. This is the only place I’ve been to yesterday that’s reasonably secluded and doesn’t seem like anyone will come…”

“But Hong-ryun might come.”

“Ah.”

Kim Sun-ah exclaimed as if she had belatedly realized.

“Oh dear.”

“Well… they probably won’t come. They have things to do too.”

“What things to do. They’re just as free as we are.”

Hong-ryun was in charge of roll call for the trainees, but other than that, she didn’t really have anything to do.

In the first place, that roll call was just something that the teachers started by throwing work at the trainees who had been around for a while, and it wasn’t really a big task.

It was just checking the number of people once in the morning and once in the evening. Other than that, she was no different from the other trainees.

“But they have their own things to do.”

“Come to think of it, Ryu Jin-ah was wandering around alone all day today, wasn’t she?”

Hong-ryun stuck with Baek So-ra, but she kept a bit of distance from Ryu Jin-ah. It seemed like their relationship had soured a bit because of what happened yesterday.

“That girl, she had the face of a dog who lost its owner, it was funny.”

She had thought it would be like that since she had stopped Hong-ryun’s actions, but it was quite funny to see her so dejected.

As Ha-yoon was chuckling and recalling that scene, Kim Sun-ah, who was removing the tape, said with a pathetic look.

“Don’t laugh at other people’s misfortunes. Besides, Ryu Jin-ah was trying to help Ha-yoon when that happened.”

“Hmph, she helped Hong-ryun bully me before that, so it’s the same thing.”

“But at least she apologized later, right? Unlike Ha-yoon.”

“Whose side are you on, aah!”

With a tearing sound, Ha-yoon screamed as the tape was peeled off, stretching her skin, and rolled around. What would have been a slight sting in normal times felt like her skin was being torn off.

“Oh, does it hurt a lot?”

“I thought my skin was being torn off! Did you do that on purpose?!”

“Would I do that on purpose? Besides, if it hurts that much, it’s less painful to tear it off quickly than to tear it off slowly.”

“Wa, wait a minute! Aah!”

With a tearing sound, Ha-yoon trembled as the tape was torn off in an instant and hugged her body with her freed arms. She felt a burning heat all over her body, as if she had been burned.

“Ah, you devilish bitch…”

“Who are you calling a devil? More importantly, why don’t you start now?”

“Start what…?”

“Masturbation, of course.”

Kim Sun-ah said that with her hands on her hips, as if it were nothing.

“…You know. Even though it’s true, don’t you need to be a little more careful with your words?”

“Are you the one saying that to me…?”

“No, I know it’s weird, but masturbation and stuff…”

You weren’t the kind of person to say those things in the first place. As Ha-yoon looked at her with those eyes, Kim Sun-ah shrugged.

“You’re not the only one who’s changed here. So are you going to do it or not? If it’s too difficult, I can help you…”

“I don’t need it?!”

Ha-yoon shouted back with a flushed face.

Author’s Note

The protagonist, who has been deflowered and had sex, is trying masturbation for the first time in chapter 51.