#38.

Han Su-jin was standing in the kitchen, deep in thought. The conversation she’d had with her husband, Park Tae-young, a few days ago kept swirling around in her head. His words about seriously considering having a child pricked at a corner of her heart.

In Han Su-jin’s hand was a birth control pill. She hesitated, looking at the small pill she took every day. Should she swallow it, or not? Her head was filled with rushing thoughts.

,Maybe… if we had a child… everything would change.’

Han Su-jin sighed deeply and put the birth control pills back in the container and into the drawer. She immediately picked up her cell phone and called the hospital. Her voice was trembling as she made an appointment for an obstetrics and gynecology consultation.

After hanging up, Han Su-jin sat weakly on a chair. Is this okay? Is this choice I’ve made really the right one? What does it mean to have a child? Fear and excitement mixed together, confusing her mind.

A moment later, Han Su-jin’s heart seemed to drop when the doorbell suddenly rang. Frowning, she looked at the intercom screen and then approached the front door. Han Su-jin carefully grabbed the doorknob and slowly opened the door.

After hesitating for a moment, she mustered up the courage to open the door wide, and the person standing there was none other than Lee Han.

Lee Han stepped into Han Su-jin’s house with a sly smile. Han Su-jin’s brow furrowed at his brazen behavior. But she didn’t particularly stop him, knowing it would be useless anyway.

Lee Han went to the living room as if it were his own home and plopped down on the sofa. Perhaps because of the hot weather, he was thirsty, and he asked Han Su-jin to bring him a glass of water. Han Su-jin sighed and reluctantly headed to the kitchen.

Han Su-jin’s mind was complicated as she poured water into a glass. She had been careless because there had been no contact for a while. What kind of demand is he going to make this time? Clenching her teeth, she returned to the living room and handed the glass of water to Lee Han.

,Aigo, the weather is so hot. I almost died outside.’

Lee Han spoke as if nothing was wrong. Han Su-jin stood still, not even replying.

,You’ve got some nerve. After causing that mess…’

Han Su-jin snapped, unable to hold back, and Lee Han smiled awkwardly and lowered his head.

,I’m sorry. I just wanted to see Su-jin-ssi. Was I too much?’

Han Su-jin’s lips trembled at Lee Han’s slick apology.

,Is this something that can be resolved with an apology? What you did…’

,I know. I was a bit much.’

Lee Han leaned back on the sofa and sighed, as if he were the one who had been wronged.

,Please just let it go this once. I won’t do it again.’

Han Su-jin gritted her teeth at Lee Han’s words. The audacity. There’s no way she could believe him. But in that instant, a thought flashed through Han Su-jin’s mind. Could she somehow make use of this opportunity?

Han Su-jin, having steeled herself, looked down at Lee Han sitting on the sofa. Her eyes shone sharply.

Han Su-jin took a deep breath and looked at Lee Han. And she opened her mouth.

,How about… we take a break from our contract for a while? I feel like I’m getting exhausted and about to give up as it is.’

At those words, Lee Han smiled and looked at Han Su-jin’s face, as if he could see right through her.

,Why should I concede that? Why would I?’

Han Su-jin felt the anger she had been holding back surge up at Lee Han’s words.

,It doesn’t make sense for you to control the contract as you please! This is one-sided.’

,You’re the one who chose this. I didn’t force you.’

Lee Han sneered with a relaxed expression. Han Su-jin’s heart ached as she heard those words. Right, I was the one who chose this path. What’s the point of regretting it now.

Han Su-jin raised her head and looked at the sky outside the window. How did it come to this? Why did I make such a choice?

At that moment, Lee Han got up from the sofa and slowly approached Han Su-jin.

,You’ve already gone too far anyway. Even if you try to get out of it now…’

Han Su-jin gritted her teeth and glared at him at Lee Han’s words. His face, full of mockery, couldn’t have been more hateful.

,Okay.’

Lee Han suddenly said in a well-mannered voice.

,I’ll do as you wish. If you just help me with one last thing, I’ll end our contract.’

Then, out of nowhere, he hugged her from behind. Han Su-jin shivered at Lee Han’s breath reaching her ear.

,Even if our contract ends, I’ll protect your position. This is my last request. I swear…’

Han Su-jin squeezed her eyes shut at those words, like the whisperings of a devil. Is this really the last time? Or is it another trick?

But on the other hand, she couldn’t help but hope. If there was a chance to escape… she had to bet everything on those last words.

,…Okay.’

That one word that came out with a sigh was painful. Han Su-jin sensed that she was falling into another trap. But there was no other choice.

Lee Han had already figured out what Han Su-jin was thinking. The only reason she suddenly made this offer was because of the child. If she had a child, it would be much harder for Lee Han to touch her.

,A child… this is going to be interesting.’

Lee Han didn’t feel particularly disappointed. After all, he had Park Min-ah now. That woman would do anything Lee Han told her to do. He was a little sad about Han Su-jin’s attractive body, but there was no need to make himself suffer over just that.

At that moment, a devilish smile appeared on Lee Han’s lips. Lee Han whispered, burying his lips in Han Su-jin’s neck.

,So, until then, our relationship will continue…’

Han Su-jin showed signs of dislike, but naturally put her arms around Lee Han’s neck, like a long-time lover. Their bodies already knew everything about each other. How to excite the other person, what kind of stimulation would make them tremble. Han Su-jin familiarly unbuttoned Lee Han’s top. Had she given up resisting, or had she surrendered herself to secret pleasure? Before she knew it, their clothes fell to the floor, one by one.

Lee Han also hugged Han Su-jin as if they were sharing a desperate love. Their lips intertwined like waves, and their tongues explored each other’s breath. Every time their skin touched, a thrilling shiver ran through their bodies.

In an instant, the living room was filled with hot air. Every time their sweaty, bare skin collided, lustful moans erupted. Their names, exhaled like sighs, mixed in the air.

As if there was no tomorrow, as if this moment was the last, they passionately intertwined their bodies. Reason disappeared, and only instinct ruled over this moment of madness. Tangled bodies and violently rising and falling hips, screams erupting each time they reached their climax…

The small apartment living room was seething with desire, betrayal, and twisted pleasure all night long.

Han Su-jin moved her body in time with Lee Han’s powerful hip movements. Her legs wrapped around Lee Han’s waist, rising and falling like waves. The sound of flesh colliding and the squelching noise echoed violently.

,Ah… just a little… slower…’

Han Su-jin let out a broken moan. But her body was honest. Her wet, secret crevice was squelching with desire to accept Lee Han even deeper.

Lee Han persistently thrust his hips, stabbing deep inside Han Su-jin. A bursting tension swept from her groin to her spine.

,Su-jin-ssi… now…’

,Ugh… no… wait a minute…’

Han Su-jin struggled to refuse with words, but she already knew Lee Han’s reaction, which she had become too familiar with, and naturally twisted her hips. A wave of intense pleasure shook her whole body. She gritted her teeth and closed her eyes.

The sound of flesh colliding and the squelching sound of wetness filled the air. Their sweat mixed together, and their fluids were smeared all over. She moaned with a hoarse voice, crying out in ecstasy. All her senses were at their peak.

Gradually, Lee Han’s hip movements became more frenzied. He relentlessly dug deep inside Han Su-jin.

Han Su-jin also writhed and clung to Lee Han as if she were facing a small death. The inside of her body contracted convulsively. Finally, with Lee Han’s release, the two reached a violent climax at the same time.

Hot semen filled Han Su-jin’s depths. She trembled at the sensation of her body being filled with Lee Han’s traces and the overwhelming ecstasy. Soon, she slumped down limply, gasping for breath.

Lee Han, still deeply embedded inside Han Su-jin, caressed her breasts and let out a satisfied groan. The afterglow of the intense ejaculation was still enveloping his whole body. Sated, he sank his teeth into Han Su-jin’s neck like a beast.

Desire was fulfilled, but the emptiness deepened. Han Su-jin shed tears, wishing that this moment would never end, that the sensation of being filled like this would last forever. But at the same time, she desperately wanted all of this to disappear completely.

Han Su-jin and Lee Han lay side by side on the sofa. Their sweaty, naked bodies cast a strange shadow. Rough breaths escaped from their mouths. Satisfaction and disillusionment were mixed in both of their eyes.

Tears welled up in Han Su-jin’s eyes and streamed down her cheeks. Even though she verbally refused, she felt deep guilt about her relationship with Lee Han, which she had become accustomed to.

,How did it come to this… Why am I like this…’

A sense of self-disgust weighed on her heart. Han Su-jin fell into a sense of futility, as if she had made a deal with the devil. Can I really escape from this cycle? Is there really an exit?

But soon, she squeezed her eyes shut.

,No… I’m doing this all for Tae-young-ssi. To protect our happiness…’

Han Su-jin gritted her teeth and repeated to herself. Even though it’s dirty and painful now, all of this is to protect her beloved husband. She wanted to believe that. No, she had to believe that.

But is that really true? It felt like a hollow and distorted excuse. Han Su-jin’s heart was divided in two, each making different noises. She didn’t know how to accept these contradictory feelings.

The tears flowing down her cheeks wouldn’t stop. They were tears mixed with guilt, self-hatred, and a distorted obsession with Park Tae-young. She desperately hoped that all of this would end someday, that she would wake up from this nightmare. But on the other hand, wasn’t she secretly hoping that this sweet nightmare would last forever?

Han Su-jin’s inner self was falling into an increasingly deep and dark swamp.

Lee Han, lying next to her, quietly hugged the crying Han Su-jin. Lee Han smiled as he imagined Han Su-jin having a child.

Whether a child will be a blessing or a curse for Han Su-jin…