364. Menstruation

The worry I had came true.

The same morning as always arrived.

The first thing I saw as soon as I opened my eyes wasn’t the virtual world personal room that I worked so hard to decorate, but my real room, the hospital room.

Next to the bed, where I’m one with the connection device, were medical devices, all machines checking if there’s anything wrong with my body. Just the medical devices here seem to easily exceed several billion won.

The medical devices were so big and numerous that I felt breathless just looking at them, and they were making small noises.

It’s a sound that wouldn’t be a problem for ordinary people, but with my sensitive senses now, the sound is so grating. It doesn’t matter when I’m in the virtual world because I can’t hear the sound, but in reality, it’s so clear that it’s quite unpleasant.

Not long after I opened my eyes, the senses I hadn’t felt while sleeping began to awaken.

The reason I woke up in the hospital room instead of the virtual world is none other than the menstruation I was worried about.

The pain as if someone was grabbing my uterus and slowly applying force, and the pain of my already small breasts swelling and tightening, made me unknowingly let out a groan.

,Kkeueungeu…”

I reached out to cover my stomach to reduce the pain even a little, but only my severed arm was visible.

I obviously know that I don’t have arms and legs, but since I’ve been in the virtual world longer than reality recently, I can’t help but be mistaken.

In the virtual world, not in reality, I have arms and legs, and the virtual world is so similar to reality that I don’t even think these are fake limbs.

So, the longer I stay in the virtual world, the more I forget that I don’t have arms and legs.

If it were the usual me, I would just accept the fact that I don’t have arms and legs, but I’m not the usual me now.

I’m having my period.

The time when Arang’s spirit is the strongest is when I have my period.

No arms, throbbing uterus, tightening breasts, and hormonal changes due to menstruation caused my emotions to fluctuate like a roller coaster, and tears began to flow.

Living as Arang and experiencing menstruation once a month, I realize that humans are truly slaves to hormones.

Clearly, my mind doesn’t have any particular thoughts, just that my stomach hurts and my breasts are tight. It ended with just that, but due to Arang’s weak spirit and the fluctuating emotions caused by menstruation, tears burst out.

As I started to cry loudly, Anna-unni, who was waiting next to me 24 hours a day, rushed to me and started to comfort me.

As Anna carefully wiped away my tears, more tears started to flow.

I don’t know why. Tears were flowing like in a cartoon, and I was shedding the most tears I had ever shed while living as Arang.

Even if I’m not thinking deeply, Arang’s spirit is so sad and grieving that, now that our spirits are fused, I directly feel how much Arang’s spirit is struggling.

But the problem isn’t the emotions.

It’s the pain caused by the sensitive body.

My body hurts to a similar extent as when I had a bad cold or even COVID.

I’d rather feel shame, so I wish I could feel pleasure instead of pain, my abdomen hurt so much.

Originally, the pain from menstruation was more severe than other women, but since my body became sensitive, it was hard to endure even with a man’s spirit.

Fortunately, I had Anna-unni and Doctor-unni, who are my family, taking care of me, so I felt a little more at peace.

Everyone knows how sad it is to be alone when you’re sick.

Even though I have a male spirit, is it because my body is that of a 10-year-old child? I feel like my spirit is also becoming younger.

It’s not like a 40-year-old acting like a 20-year-old, but I really feel like my spirit is fusing with Arang’s, and since my body has stopped growing at 10 due to illness, my spirit is following my body.

No one will know how my spirit feels younger day by day.

I was so full of wanting to be held by Anna-unni right now that I stretched out my hands and flailed, saying.

It may be unsightly to see me flailing my severed limbs while naked, but I can’t help it.

==

It’s amazing how real people are.

Until just now, I was a Geumjjok-i (precious child) crying because my whole body hurt, but Anna-unni hugged me naked so that my skin wouldn’t be irritated and helped me calm down slowly.

As I got used to the pain to some extent and my body calmed down to some extent with Anna-unni’s care, I wanted to play the game.

I guess I’m addicted to the virtual world to this extent.

But I can’t play the virtual world during menstruation.

The various senses that occur in the virtual world immediately enter and flow out of the brain, but the senses that occur in reality can’t go to the brain and accumulate in the body, so they come all at once when I take off the connection device.

In other words, it’s better for my health not to do it because the sensory blocking phenomenon that sometimes occurs in Ritomi happens.

It doesn’t matter if pleasure accumulates and explodes, but pain also accumulates and explodes, so I really had a hard time during my last period.

The pain was so intense that it was as if someone was punching my abdomen all day long, and it all came at once, so I almost fainted.

,I need to get a unique item…’

LeoRe’s live broadcast is scheduled in three days. They’ll probably announce the exact raid schedule then.

Then there aren’t many useful combat unique equipment in the auction house anyway, so should I just use this? It’s clear that all the unique equipment I’m thinking about will disappear.

I often abandon LeoRe, so there’s almost no unique equipment, so I have to buy even those kinds of equipment, but I became greedy.

But with that greed, I even abandoned the world story and went out with Marang, and Marang caused a big accident, so instead of a dungeon, I just ended up fighting with users all day.

That fight wasn’t just a loss.

It was quite helpful in readjusting the senses that were misaligned as I gained weight, but the problem was that one of my weaknesses was revealed.

Even though a day has passed since the battle, the gallery is full of my battle videos.

Whenever an event like this happens, there are always a lot of my screenshots and videos, but this time it’s different.

Most of them were videos and screenshots of female users playing with their upper body equipment removed.

Of course, anything that crossed the line in that regard was immediately deleted. I also wrote a post in the gallery and said it clearly.

I told all the female users who participated in this battle who wanted to delete the videos or screenshots they appeared in to send me a 쪽지 (jjokji – 쪽지 is a small note).

Even though it’s a virtual world, they might want to prevent videos or photos of their upper body, even if they’re only wearing underwear, from spreading.

Even if no one else can, I can erase everything on the internet.

Of course, it’s not me who does it, but the teams in my parents’ company.

==

Menstruation is always painful.

But this time, I received menstrual medicine, no less!

Until now, I had prevented it because I didn’t know what kind of reaction would occur if any medicine entered my body, which was like a ticking time bomb, but I received menstrual medicine because sensory overstimulation can cause problems in the brain if the pain is severe.

From my perspective, it’s the best situation, but from Doctor-unni’s perspective, it’s choosing the lesser of two evils.

After all, not taking the medicine can have a bad effect on the brain.

It’s much better for the body to be damaged than for the brain to be damaged.

Because of that, Doctor-unni and Anna-unni next to me didn’t look good.

Especially when they saw me groaning, ,kkeueung. kkeueung,’ and enduring, they worried about me with very serious faces, but I was enduring for a different reason.

As the medicine circulated and the pain eased slightly, the slight pain turned into pleasure.

I don’t know if it’s okay to say this, but I felt like I was going crazy with the subtle pleasure that felt like a slight vibration was constantly stimulating my sensitivity.

I’m trying to endure by giving strength to my thighs, which have been severed and don’t have much left, and gathering them together.

Jureureuk.

Ah.

I started to feel something squishy, warm, and unpleasant flowing down, not just vaginal fluid.

The reason I hate menstruation the most.

It’s blood clots.

I don’t even want to explain this, so I’ll just skip it.

I just want you to know that it’s so unpleasant that I want to tear out my uterus as it is.

==

I don’t know if I should call this fortunate, but I ended up taking a shower because of the menstrual blood.

Fortunately, I was able to protect my shame until the end, and the blood was washed away with the water.

After sleeping like that for one night, my body recovered to some extent.

Originally, I would groan and struggle for three days when I had my period, but the menstrual medicine was so effective that I was fine in just one day.

Of course, it seems that the painkiller effect is very good rather than being fine because my period is over.

Perhaps it’s because my body hasn’t been given other medications for a long time and is in good condition, so the painkiller effect works well and lasts a long time.

While eating breakfast this morning, I sighed in relief that I didn’t have to endure pain or pleasure until my period was over.

But seriously, what should I do about this?

Should I tell them honestly now?

To be honest, I need some time alone.

Originally, I was going to endure until I became an adult, but I’m sure this time.

My spirit is changing to match my body, and the increased sensitivity due to sensory overstimulation means that just enduring it won’t solve the problem.

It would be one thing if I could relieve the accumulated things alone, but I can’t do anything because someone is next to me 24 hours a day, whether it’s in the room or in the bathroom.

I should tell them as soon as I get a little healthier.

There’s absolutely no way they’ll listen 100% if I tell them now.

,Euheut…!”

Ah, shit! I want to go into the virtual world quickly. At least I won’t feel pleasure there.