112. Weakness (4)

Quite late in the evening.

This is my first time ever being in a position to manage someone, so I’m definitely finding it quite difficult.

The most troublesome thing is, as expected, dealing with people.

“I’ll leave the closing up to you. I’m heading out.”

“Yes, sir. You worked hard, hyung. Haeun-ssi, you worked hard too.”

“Yes. You work hard too.”

“Yes, sir.”

My original plan was to clock out right at 6 or 7 PM, leave the rest to my close dongsaeng, and have plenty of personal time. But since it was a place where my own money was invested, I felt anxious and couldn’t go home until the members were all there. As a side effect, Haeun was also stuck at the gym with me until 9 PM, just like me. Thanks to that, business is good, but it feels rather awkward. Maybe it would be better to change the hours. If Soo-ah is okay with it, I could move Haeun earlier and push her to the evening shift…

“What are you doing? Let’s go. Hurry up.”

“Ah, right. Let’s go.”

Even while going down, my mind was preoccupied with work, so Haeun nudged me a few times and then grabbed my wrist, pulling me along.

…Thinking about it, it would be difficult. She tends to oversleep in the mornings. Once things stabilize a bit, maybe leaving an hour or two earlier would be best. It would be better to eat dinner at home, so…

“…Haeun-ah.”

“Yeah?”

“Aren’t you tired working until 9?”

“I am tired.”

“Do you want to go home and rest first from now on?”

“…Then I’d seem like a total piece of trash.”

I considered letting Haeun leave first as a last resort, but even as I said it, I didn’t think she’d agree. She really hates being home alone now.

…It’s burdensome, yet…

I don’t dislike it.

“…Joo-hyuk-ah. Should we buy some alcohol?”

“Alcohol?”

As we were trudging along the night street like that, Haeun pointed to a convenience store and, out of the blue, brought up alcohol. Alcohol, huh. Since tomorrow is a day off, it’s okay to drink, but… After a long time, just the two of us…

“Yeah. Alcohol. …She likes alcohol too, you know.”

Ah.

In that moment, Haeun’s words jolted me awake, and I remembered Hinami, who must have been waiting at home. …If you consider how busy she is, she’s probably several times busier than us, yet I’d forgotten. Was I too mentally exhausted from fighting with that woman earlier today? I automatically realized I needed to pull myself together. There’s a woman out there who wants to kill me with a knife, after all. I can’t crumble just because things are a little busy.

“Let’s buy some. Something with a low alcohol content, maybe.”

“Okay.”

I put my arm around her waist as she walked, matching my pace, and we trudged into the convenience store. If it had been the convenience store we always visited, it might have been a bit awkward, but this place is different. The clerk doesn’t know us. To that person, we probably look like any ordinary couple. Unlike the convenience store clerk we bothered a few times before.

“What snacks should we get? Haeun-ah.”

“She’s still an idol… Hmm. She can’t gain weight, so… Snacks are out. Maybe cheese?”

“Cheese is high in calories too.”

“Ah, whatever. I just want to eat it. …If she says she doesn’t want any, we can just order sashimi, I guess.”

“I don’t like sashimi.”

“Ah, really? …How did I not know that?”

“It’s probably because we’ve never ordered it or cooked it before.”

Unlike back then.

Just having a casual chat with no ulterior motives or goals. This moment, weighing the pros and cons of sliced cheese versus cube cheese on the shelf. …It felt so awkward because it was so unlike me.

“Is that so? But you eat poke bowls well, don’t you?”

“That’s salmon, though.”

“Salmon is fish too, old man.”

“If you call someone your age ‘old man’, then you…”

“…If I say it, you’ll kill me.”

“Why, miss?”

“…”

Exchanging trivial banter like that. Without a word, I placed the cheese, which looked like it would be just as fattening as snacks, on top of the beer cans and walked towards the counter. Staying within arm’s reach, close enough to hug. Strangely. Even looking at that provocative body. Without having any lewd thoughts at all.

“Please charge this.”

“Yes.”

I looked at the cashier scanning the barcodes indifferently. …Then, at her, looking up at me intently from beside me. I casually wrapped my arm around her waist.

“…”

It didn’t particularly make me flutter. Nor did it make me feel shy. It wasn’t lewd either. Rather, This feeling of reassurance.

…But.

This isn’t bad, in its own way. This kind of life, I don’t want to lose it.

“Will you be paying with cash or card?”

“Card.”

“Yes, card… Yes, thank you.”

“Have a good day.”

I handed my card to the clerk, who looked at us with ordinary eyes, finished the payment, and stepped outside.

…This morning was utterly vulgar. Why do I feel like I’ve lived a diligent life just from doing a bit of work? Even while working, I think I spent endless time imagining how to ruin that woman. Why does this moment feel so peaceful?

“…”

Without needing to tighten my arm around her, I supported her as she leaned against me. I silently swung the bag in my other hand in time with my steps and took a deep breath.

…When we get back, I need to spend time with Hinami too. She’s busy, and it’s been a while since she had free time. Since we were busy and left her alone for a few hours. I should keep her company as much as I can until tomorrow. Definitely, Even if it’s not something sexual.

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…My head hurts. Clutching my throbbing forehead, I rummage under the covers, naked except for a single piece of underwear.

“Mmm…”

Lying next to me is… Haeun unnie, who is incredibly soft and squishy. Just like me. Wearing nothing but panties. This place is… Probably unnie’s room.

“Mmm, Joo-hyuk-ah…”

Perhaps from wriggling around, unnie, who was whimpering in her sleep, Exhaling a faint scent of alcohol, pulls me tightly into her embrace.

“Heh heh…”

…A very unpleasant laugh. In contrast, Soft and pleasant to the touch. Unnie’s skin.

…I don’t particularly have that kind of preference, but… Liking soft and fluffy things is human instinct, after all.

“Mmm… Why have you gotten so soft, you…”

While spouting perverted nonsense, I carefully push away unnie’s arms holding me and get out of the bed.

…The time is 2 AM.

Clearly, oppa and unnie returned a little before 9:30 PM. We shared four cans of beer they bought, and when that wasn’t enough, we mixed vodka from the freezer with cola and drank that too.

…The sexual stuff… I don’t remember well. Considering our attire, it definitely happened, but… I can’t recall the details.

“…”

I carefully slip out of the dim room and gaze out at the living room, where only moonlight streams in. The beautiful night view, seen from high up.

…I think I saw a similar sight from my own home, but… Why are my feelings different?

“Haa…”

Standing blankly, lost in the late-night mood, I briefly stopped by the bathroom. After washing my hands thoroughly and wetting my throat, I picked up a glass of water. I step into another room, looking for the person who should have been between us.

“…Are you asleep?”

“…”

…Sadly. Joo-hyuk oppa, sleeping soundly alone in his room. Why is he sleeping alone so pitifully? Even though the bed is too small for three people. If we snuggled close, it would have been fine.

“…Joo-hyuk oppa.”

Inside the dark room. Gazing at oppa’s silhouette revealed only by the faint moonlight. I slowly climb onto the bed and stealthily slip under the covers oppa is using.

“Mmm… Haeun-ah…?”

“…It’s me, Hinami.”

…In his sleep. Mentioning another woman’s name before mine. Bad guy.

“Ah… Right. Why…”

“…I want to sleep together.”

“Yeah, okay… Here…”

…Even so. Even while half-asleep. So that I could stretch out my arms and be held in his embrace. He’s considerate of me. Bad guy.

“…Oppa.”

“Mm…”

“…I love you.”

“Yeah…, me too…”

…Even though a top idol is confessing so sincerely like this. So half-heartedly. When he likes someone else more. …He bothers to answer anyway. Bad guy.

“…When you wake up, please fuck me thoroughly again.”

“Okay…”

In that oppa’s embrace. Held tightly. Smelling his scent. Feeling his body heat.

“…”

Faintly remaining in my memory. Recalling the kiss I enjoyed while drunk. Gradually becoming clearer. Remembering oppa’s sex where he fucked me while drunk.

I,

…Secretly from unnie. Having oppa all to myself for a moment. Immersed in that happiness. I push my eyes, accustomed to the darkness, further into the pitch-blackness. Even after sleeping and waking up today. Because it’s a day no one will look for me. Not belonging to everyone, …It’s a day where it doesn’t matter if I belong only to him.

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…Ah, my arm hurts. Waking up from sleep with a tingling sensation, I open my eyes in the room where the faint dawn sunlight streams in. A white, soft lump was pressing down on my forearm with the happiest expression in the world. Since the space looked cramped, I moved over on Haeun’s bed, but… This little thing chased me all the way to my room. Haeun sleeps separately too, except on days we have sex.

“Mmm… nya…”

I felt a little annoyed, but hearing her sleepy mumbling made my distracting thoughts fly away instantly.

…So there are people who really make sounds like that when they sleep. Capturing that sight, which looked cuter than I could have imagined, with my ears,

“Heh heh…”

Covering only her skin with black underwear. I clearly capture Hinami’s appearance, revealing all her fair skin, with my eyes.

…Her makeup must be all gone too. Those long eyelashes, and… Her petite face and slender shoulders seize my newly awakened heart.

…Right, I guess I’m trash too. After having such wholesome thoughts on the way back yesterday. Seeing how lustful I become just from seeing her face.

“…Hey.”

Anyway, if Haeun sees this state, she’ll obviously get angry. I place my hand on her delicate skin and shake her awake.

“Mmm, oppa…”

Each time I shake her, her voice, whining in a way befitting her age. Was seriously cute.

…It’s not for nothing that she succeeded as an idol. Since she often shows masochistic behavior and actions. I almost forgot, but…

“Wake up. Hinami.”

“Mmm…”

“Wake up. Come on.”

“…”

I tried waking her by increasing the intensity of my shaking, but… Hinami buried her face in the pillow, trying to ignore my touch.

“When Haeun comes, she’ll scold you again.”

“…Kiss.”

…More precisely, Pretending to ignore me.

“What?”

She slyly turned her lips hidden by the pillow towards me, showing them to me. She slightly lifted the blanket, revealing her fair breasts buried within to me, while…

“…If you kiss me secretly from unnie, I’ll wake up.”

…Starting in the morning. She… me. Tempted.

“…I’ll kiss you after you brush your teeth.”

“…You already had my mouth on your dick. That doesn’t matter, does it?”

Craving me endlessly, Seeking my affection, Unlike her, whom I don’t want to lose, With a slightly different flavor.

“It’s a golden opportunity to give a top idol a morning kiss. …Aren’t you going to regret it?”

…Me, Or everyone else too. Making them crave her. Making them want her.

“…Come on. Hurry. …Before unnie finds out.”

Her lips, appealing to me. Gently.

“…Mm…”

…I make them mine. Pulling the blanket back over us, under the same covers. As my hand strokes her skin, fairer and softer than the blanket. Slipping my hand under the single remaining piece of cloth. Her soft, squishy buttocks, Gripping them tightly.

“…Pffha. …Heh heh…”

With half-lidded eyes. Me. Meeting her gaze as she looks at me.

“…”

I. Feel the emotion that I absolutely don’t want to lose even her. Shamelessly, I can’t help but feel it. Even if I’m called trash no matter what.

…That woman, No matter how much she tries to break this relationship. Definitely, I think I want to protect it.