10. A Secret Just Between Us (2)

“Huh…?”

Juha, who had been muttering to herself, suddenly froze at my words.

“Why? Don’t want to?”

“Ah, nooo…! It’s just, it’s so sudden…”

“Then let’s have sex.”

“Uh-uh…? Uh…? Y-yes…”

When I pushed hard, Juha didn’t know what to do, but then she carefully nodded.

Seo Juha can’t refuse my words anyway.

Because she is completely dependent on me now, and she thinks she can’t live without me.

There is a term called “Menhera” (メンヘラ).

It is a newly coined word that refers to a type of emotional deprivation disorder in which a person shows an almost obsessive love for the other person and does not hesitate to commit acts close to self-harm in order to receive attention.

The biggest difference from the already popular ‘Yandere’ is the difference in self-esteem.

If a Yandere thinks, ‘If you don’t love me, I’ll kill you to have you,’ a Menhera, on the other hand, thinks, ‘If you don’t love me, I might die.’

“Uh, when should we do it…? I’ll do whatever Jihu wants…? S-should I take off my clothes first?”

In reality, I just thought, ‘Oh, there’s something like this,’ while looking at Wikipedia, but seeing her actually obsessing over me makes me feel a little scared rather than happy.

Still, I didn’t think she was in a completely irreversible state.

If I think that constantly muttering and begging for love is an average behavior, it seems that she has not reached a completely extreme symptom, seeing that there are no traces of self-harm.

She’s just trapped in repetitive self-delusions and showing some symptoms, but when I see her long, drawn-out words like she’s sleepy and her wide eyes, I can still see the bright and cute Juha from before.

“Juha-ya, I love you.”

“M-me toooo…! Jihu-ya, I love you… I love you so, so much…”

Juha, in her pajamas, hugged me and rubbed her face against my chest, bubi-bubi.

“I, I like you so much… Jihu’s scent… I like Jihu’s scent so much… Jihu-ya… H-hey, do you hate me smelling you?”

“No. You can keep smelling me.”

“Haaah, th-thank you…♡ Huuu… Sex with Jihu… Uh, what will it feel like…?”

Just smelling me seems to fill the desires deep inside her, and she trembled in my arms.

Don’t be too violent, little by little, slowly.

I slowly stroked Juha’s hair to help her calm down enough.

“J-Jihu-ya… Do you… want to smell me too?”

“Okay.”

I do what Seo Juha wants and slowly induce her to heat up.

I buried my face between Juha’s soft breasts and took a deep breath.

I can smell a sweet lilac scent that makes my mind dizzy.

At the same time as I hear the pounding of my heart, her big breasts gently press down on my face.

I very carefully started stroking her back inside her thin pajamas, just enough so that Juha wouldn’t feel burdened.

“Huuung… You keep digging into my chest, it feels weird… Do you like it that much…?”

“Your chest is so fluffy. Your back is soft too, so it feels good.”

“I’m glad… I, I’ve been lying in my room all the time you weren’t here… So I was worried my chest might have gotten weird…”

The frequency of her stuttering gradually decreases as she calms down to some extent with the warm touch.

I took my face off her chest and answered her as she looked at me anxiously with wide eyes.

“J-Jihu-ya… Was it actually not good? Why suddenly…? D-did you get tired of my chest?”

“No, your chest is good, but I wanted to see your face.”

“Heuh… My face is going to be really weird too…”

“Why? You’re just cute.”

Even if there are dark circles under her eyes and her hair is all messed up, she is still cute.

It’s not like I have rose-colored glasses on, it’s just that she’s really cute when I look at her objectively.

I gently grabbed Juha’s shoulders, who was looking at me all shrunken, and slowly put my face against hers.

We exchanged each other’s warm breaths through our lips, which seemed to barely have room for a piece of paper.

Juha, who had been exhaling rough breaths, closed her eyes carefully with her face already red.

It was a silent sign to kiss her.

“Euuung… Chuup… Hheuuut.”

Juha awkwardly bumped her lips against mine, as if she was clumsy at her first kiss.

She must not want to let go of me even while kissing, as her hands holding my waist tightly are gradually getting stronger.

After continuing light pecks for a few minutes, I slowly took my lips off.

She twisted her body because of the ticklish feeling she was feeling for the first time and said to me.

“I… I think I’m ready now… S-sex… Do you want to do it? I’ll take off my clothes now…”

Without even being told to, Juha took off her loose pajamas in one go and sat in front of me.

She still had an awkward posture and a shy expression as she slowly spread her legs and showed me her pussy.

“I kissed Jihu… and I’m already this wet…♡ To have sex… you have to be wet here, right…? I, I’m okay, so you can put your dick in here…”

Unlike Hayul, who had a lewd personality from the start, Juha has a very pure and delicate feeling.

I’m finally taking Seo Juha’s virginity, who was so bright and cute that she seemed to know nothing about sex.

“Euuut… Hhaaat…? A, it hurts…! B-but still with Jihu… I finally did it with Jihu…♡”

“Even if it hurts, just bear with it a little. I’ll make you feel good soon.”

“Okay…! Hheuu, hhuung… Jihu’s thing… is so hot… Euuug, inside, I can feel it…”

Even though I broke her hymen at once so that it wouldn’t hurt as much as possible, Juha groaned almost like a scream as if it was a little painful.

Still, she seems happy with the fact that she is having sex with me, and she tries to smile and accepts my dick diligently.

Juha’s pussy was very tight, as if she had never even put in something like a dildo.

The inside of her pussy hugged my dick tightly as if she was hugging me, so it felt very good even without any special movement.

“Hheuuk…! Your dick, is too big… It got bigger inside…”

I tried to move my dick, but the wrinkles of her pussy were squeezing too hard.

I wondered if my physical abilities had also increased as I became closer to a demon.

“Jihu…ya? Why aren’t you moving…? H-hey, is it not good… to have sex with me…?”

Juha asked me, as if she was anxious about my dick not moving, while I was barely holding back my ejaculation inside her tight pussy.

“No… It feels so good, can you squeeze a little less? It’s too tight, I can’t move.”

“S-sorry! I’ll take the strength out quickly… D-does this work? Is it a little… better like this?”

The inside of her pussy gradually loosened only when I was about to reach the limit of ejaculation.

When it became moderately tight and I could finally move, I grabbed her shoulders and started moving back and forth little by little.

I touched Juha’s soft breasts while our lower bodies were in close contact.

She reacted sensitively to even a slight touch and let out a sweet moan.

“Hhuung… I think I know a little now… Sex… It’s a ticklish feeling♡”

“Then I’ll move a little faster.”

Fortunately, Juha seemed to be the type to accept it quickly and was gradually feeling the pleasure that my dick gave her.

I slowly continued to move my waist at a speed that wouldn’t surprise her too much.

Before I knew it, her tight pussy was wet without any gaps, and the slippery mucous membrane swept over my glans every time I thrust my dick.

Juha also seemed to have grasped my mood by looking at my expression now, and she gave a pleasant pressure by squeezing the inside every time I pushed my dick in.

“Aah, euung… I’m happy… It feels like it’s filling up inside… It feels good…♡”

Not a rough sex where I thrust my dick roughly just for pleasure, but a soft sex where we look into each other’s eyes and whisper love.

Even though I moved my waist at a not-so-fast speed, Juha already had a melting expression as if she was about to go.

“Hheuuut…! S-something from below… is ringing… Hhaat, hhaaat…? My head is white…! Euheuheueuuk♡♡”

When I thrust my dick deeply for the last time, Seo Juha finally reached her climax with her eyes glazed over.

Her pure pussy, which had no experience even with masturbation, chewed as if biting at the feeling she was experiencing for the first time and wouldn’t let go of my dick.

I kissed her as she curled her toes tightly, stuck out her tongue, and panted.

I mixed my tongue more sticky than the kiss from before, exchanged sticky saliva, and matched her eyes wet with heat.

The pussy that had experienced its first climax stuck to my dick more thickly and stickily than before, as if it was alive and trying to scrape together the semen.

In addition, Juha also seemed to have learned how to make my dick feel good, and she stimulated my dick, jjiwub-jjiwub, by tightening and loosening her pussy while smiling with her eyes.

“Jihu-ya… Like this… Like thiiiis…♡ If you keep, keep moving… your dick feels good, right…?”

“Euuut, it feels so good… I think I’m going to cum.”

“Eh, eht…? Th-that, you mean… semen? A, I see… I’ll receive all the semen coming out of Jihu’s dick…♡”

Unable to overcome the surging ejaculation, I shot my semen deep inside Juha’s pussy.

Even after ejaculating, her pussy pressed down on my glans, jjondeuk-jjondeuk, as if trying to scrape together the semen, so it felt like my balls were completely empty.

“Huuu, want to do it one more time?”

“Yes…! I want to fill myself with proof that Jihu loves me…♡”

It was already late at night, but we hugged each other and had sex several more times until dawn.

Juha, who had fervently confirmed my love for her, hardly stuttered anymore and seemed to have relieved a lot of her anxiety.

I don’t know what will happen tomorrow… but I should leave tomorrow’s work to tomorrow’s me.

I picked up Juha, who was exhausted after sex and lying on the floor, and carefully moved her onto the bed.

* * *

I looked at Juha, who was already lying next to me and sleeping soundly, clinging to me, as if she was very tired, and gradually fell into deep thought.

So many things had happened with Seo Juha.

I remembered meeting her drunk and suddenly paying for her drinks, I remembered arguing with her in small ways, I remembered going on dates until late at night…

It was a short time of less than two months, but sometimes we clashed and sometimes we shared happiness, and before I knew it, I came to think of her as a precious friend.

Maybe that’s why I tried to find her for three weeks.

To satisfy a very slight emptiness that hypnosis cannot satisfy.

Of course, I don’t hate hypnosis.

Because I had the ability to hypnotize, I was able to meet Hayul, Seol-ah sunbae, Sia, and the professor, and mix bodies with them.

Also, for me, who had been living alone since entering university and had been experiencing extreme loneliness, the heroines made me feel emotional fulfillment that I had never experienced before.

If I had fallen into this world without any abilities, I would have died without being able to last even a week.

In that sense, I have been feeling a little grateful to the writer who sent me here these days.

However, communicating with someone who is not affected by hypnosis was that much more meaningful to me.

People who change completely from before when I press a button, enter a command, and apply a suggestion.

It would have been different if I was a heartless and merciless human being, but for me, who was just an ordinary citizen before falling into this world, the act of manipulating people always caused guilt in one corner of my heart.

Even if I keep rationalizing myself by saying, ‘I can’t help it to survive,’ a stinging feeling spreads through my chest every night.

But only today, when I look at Juha, I don’t feel that way at all.

Rather, I wonder if I am dependent on her.

Wasn’t the reason I searched for Seo Juha for almost three weeks because of my obsession…?

I thought I would become endlessly depressed if I continued like this, so I shook my head wildly and decided not to think anymore.

Anyway, it’s already too far to stop here.

I swallowed my bitterness and gradually fell asleep.

Feeling a warm human body temperature that was different from usual.