084. Surrender (1)

A short pleasure.

Not a long shower.

Wiping the foam off my body, quickly.

After coming out of the bathroom and drying my hair, a sweet scent I couldn’t quite catch earlier tickles my nose.

“Doesn’t it smell good, this?”

“Yeah.”

“Ugh, pervert. Look at you sniffing…. Hehe.”

A fresh scent, a mix of body odor and body wash fragrance.

A unique smell, only detectable from her skin, now dry and fluffy.

“Ah, right. I need to clean the bed too.”

“Buy new sheets. I’ll give you the money.”

“What are you talking about right now? The person in front of you isn’t just an ordinary college student, you know, she’s an idol? Whose house do you think this is.”

“Just kidding, of course.”

Unlike that sweet scent,

The traces of lewdness still lingering in the living room and the bedroom.

Engraved from the mix of my bodily fluids and her scent.

A lewd smell.

“Anyway, well. …It’s a relief it’s my house in many ways. If it were the dorms, I couldn’t do this.”

“How did you hold back when you lived in the dorms?”

“Rather than holding back… I just didn’t even have the energy to think about such things because I was so tired. Practice only got a bit easier recently; back then, even days without filming were insane, you know? Couldn’t even eat properly.”

Wearing pajamas that looked as soft and smooth as her skin,

I have a conversation, not entirely unwholesome, an everyday chat with her, sitting on the sofa and cheerfully swaying her body side to side.

“Well, I guess…. Still, seeing you earlier, you weren’t that skinny anymore.”

“You’re calling me fat, aren’t you.”

“More than I thought.”

“Ah…, Ehehehe.”

Picking up Hinami, who was subtly excited,

And placing her on my lap, casually touching her breasts.

There’s nothing particularly unwholesome about it.

…If you take away the idol label,

It’s the kind of physical contact that could happen between a man and a woman alone at home.

“Joo-hyuk oppa, you really like breasts, don’t you.”

“I didn’t used to like them that much.”

“Huh, really?”

“I would have had to meet someone with big, pretty breasts before that to know.”

“…Does that mean you know now?”

“Well, roughly.”

Feeling the soft texture of her pajamas and skin, I feel Hinami’s warm body temperature, not long after finishing her shower.

…I feel it every time, but a woman’s warm, soft skin is sometimes better than sex.

Well,

It might be because you can only feel that way after having sex until you’re sick of it.

“So, what rank am I?”

“Second place.”

“Wow, couldn’t you even say first place as a joke?”

“You saw, so you know. I don’t lie.”

“That’s so mean, really.”

Stroking Hinami’s slightly sulky hair, I glance at the TV, which is playing a regular variety show, unlike before.

…I wonder if the footage I shot today would be more entertaining if played on that screen.

It wouldn’t be bad to try playing it if I get the chance later.

Even if it’s not hers,

I have plenty of high-quality footage of her too.

Playing it and doing it again wouldn’t be bad either.

…Maybe try changing her clothes too.

“I’m really annoyed and jealous because of you right now, oppa, so I’m going to send it.”

“Send what?”

“I’m going to send the video to Haeun unnie. Don’t stop me.”

“…Send it as a scheduled message. Around the time she’s usually asleep.”

“Why?”

“If I send it now and she barges in, what would you say?”

“Hmm, I don’t… mind. Because I have to leave early tomorrow.”

Watching her schedule the message and attach a video after my comment, I also take out my phone and check YouTube.

Seo Haeun’s channel is running fine, without any particular issues.

The sexually harassing comments that crossed the line have decreased a bit now, since I’ve deleted so many.

Other than that, there’s no need for communication or anything; just uploading videos of playing the guitar twice a week is enough, so there shouldn’t be any problems.

It’s just that I felt the view count increasing has slowed down considerably.

I guess I dressed her in clothes that were too modest.

But I couldn’t just have her take it all off from the start, so it can’t be helped.

“What is this, right now. Watching another woman’s video in front of me.”

“It’s work, work.”

“Hmm… isn’t it just personal preference?”

“…My preference is for something a bit more explicit. I’m holding back right now.”

“Like me earlier?”

“Yeah.”

“Ehehe. …Should I try appearing together later too? I don’t think I’d get caught if my face isn’t shown.”

“I’ll think about it.”

Thinking I should bring a few outfits for her to wear when she goes back, I look down at her, who is browsing Seo Haeun’s channel following me.

A strange expression, neither looking pleased nor displeased.

It’s different from a smile made consciously.

Definitely a face I’ve never seen on camera.

…Probably,

I won’t be able to see that face the moment I have no relationship with Seo Haeun anymore.

“Hmm…. I’ll settle for second place for now. For now.”

“Second place is good too.”

“If you talk to me like that, will you really get angry?”

“Even if you get angry, it’s just a turn-on, nothing else.”

“Ugh, pervert. Just go die.”

That she only says it verbally but doesn’t resist my touch.

That she subtly frowns whenever I bring up Seo Haeun.

That she trembles with joy every time I kiss her while thrusting my cock inside.

It’s all because I’ve tamed the woman named Seo Haeun.

If I were a former baseball player who retired due to injury and was barely making ends meet working part-time jobs,

She wouldn’t have even glanced my way, even if I were twice as handsome as I am now.

“…Anyway. I’m going to try sleeping now, so you should sleep too, oppa.”

“Already?”

“I have to leave early tomorrow morning. …Ah, and no barging in while I’m sleeping. I’ll give you a pillow, so sleep on the sofa.”

“Why.”

“If we sleep in the same bed, you’ll definitely do something lewd again…. Casually. I really can’t afford to be tired tomorrow, you know?”

“…Alright.”

So I won’t give a proper answer to that disappointed look.

The moment I answer, all my charm will disappear.

Still more than just a sex friend.

Less than a lover.

If I start craving more than that, it would probably be.

“Then I’ll be going in. …Good night.”

“Sleep well.”

“See you tomorrow morning. Before sunrise. …In the bathroom.”

“…Okay.

It will be after the day comes when even that is okay.

…Even if I have this woman,

To the extent that she won’t get angry,

After taming her.

---

“Good work~”

Today’s filming is over.

But there are still plenty of schedules left.

I have to prepare for the next event, and read scripts for other schedules.

After that, I have to shoot for a pictorial.

And I have to do training in between.

Should I say it’s fortunate if I get even one day off a week?

…Of course,

I didn’t get any rest at all yesterday.

“Jia-ya, I need to go to the restroom for a moment…”

“Hurry back.”

Wiping the sweat that flowed as my tension eased with a handkerchief, I hide away into a partition where others can’t see.

…Haa, today was really something else.

My hips hurt and creaked.

Muscle aches flared up, hurting every time I walked.

More than anything.

“….”

…The large amount of oppa’s semen I received this morning.

It’s still slightly remaining inside my vagina.

Worried it might leak out,

My heart was pounding so hard I thought I’d die.

If I had known, I should have worn a sanitary pad.

“Hoo…”

Stroking my chest, I secretly turn on my private phone.

Temporarily returning to being ‘Hinami’, not an idol.

I savor the memory of the secret encounter yesterday.

…Of course, I’m not thinking of masturbating here.

Because I thought looking at this would help me work harder on my schedule.

“…Hehe.”

Still, if this gets discovered, it’s the end, right?

Holding a lot of semen inside my vagina.

Filming a variety show for fan service.

If I get caught.

…What would happen?

Ah.

Now that I think about it,

…I want to see oppa again.

Next time,

You’ll hold me while watching the variety show we filmed today, right?

---

Lunchtime.

It felt awkward to be alone in the house without its owner, so I left before she did and spent time at a PC bang.

“I’m back.”

“….”

Then, as if nothing happened, I confidently step back into the original house.

Setting down a few clothes I put in a shopping bag.

Looking at Seo Haeun’s eyes, which were so downcast they had dark circles hanging down.

“Why aren’t you answering, you.”

“…Did you eat?”

“What?”

“I asked if you ate lunch. You.”

But surprisingly,

She didn’t interrogate me about what I brought or where I’d been.

“No, I have to eat now.”

“…Wait, I’ll make it for you. Because I have to eat too.”

Instead,

…For the first time in my life, she made me a meal.

“What’s this, suddenly. Doing something you don’t normally do.”

“…You did something you don’t normally do either.”

“….”

It wasn’t anything special.

Just the chicken breast and salad I bought last time.

Instant brown rice I eat every day.

Boiled eggs, maybe.

A meal prepared with only the minimum taste required to call it a meal.

“Eat. …It’s what you always eat.”

“…Well, thank you.”

But feeling a subtle emotion over the meal someone else made for the first time in my life, I stare intently at her face, still marked by dark circles.

…She doesn’t look swollen, though.

Did she just not get enough sleep?

It would make sense if she saw that, but.

“I’ll eat well.”

“…I’ll eat well.

Sitting across from her, who echoes my mealtime greeting, I quietly pick up my chopsticks.

…This is a bit unexpected.

Whether she cursed, scratched, or hit me.

I thought she would get angry.

“…You eat that every day, don’t you get tired of it?”

“Back in the day, I ate it without even dressing, so this is fine.”

As if nothing happened.

Rather, more affectionately than before.

…Like a roommate who had been living together all along.

“Aren’t you going to the gym today?”

“I’ll skip a day. What of it.”

“What’s this. Kang Joo-hyuk, you saying something like that.”

“Muscles don’t just disappear from taking one day off. …Honestly, it doesn’t matter much to me now if I lose a bit.”

“Really? …Well, I guess. It’s you, after all.”

Her talking to me familiarly,

…Strangely looked erotic.

Even though she wasn’t dressed particularly sexily.

Clearly,

I had just fucked Hinami earlier this morning.

“Anyway, Kang Joo-hyuk, you aren’t going anywhere today, right?”

“Not really. I don’t have anywhere to go.”

“…Then it’s fine. I don’t have plans either. I’ll be home all day.”

“Yeah, well. Let’s rest for a change.”

Seo Haeun, trying her best to act cheerful with those hollow eyes,

Of all the Seo Haeun I’ve seen so far,

Since the first time…

“…I ate well.”

“Leave it. I’ll clean it up.”

“It’s fine. …I’ll clean up my own stuff.”

…I wanted to violate her.

Those hands, fidgeting while holding the dishes,

Until they endlessly crave me.

Making them wait.