074. Seduction (2)

When exactly did I realize my body was sexy?

I started feeling uncomfortable stares around the time I graduated middle school, but I was too young to think much of it then.

But once I became a high school student, I gradually began to understand the male gaze.

Even from the guys in my class who never did anything nice for me.

Even from the creepy old men I met on the subway.

Even from teachers who looked perfectly fine and were even married.

Sticky, dirty, disgusting.

Those lewd, despicable stares.

After I understood what they meant, I even tried layering clothes to cover my chest.

But I quickly realized that just shifted their gaze down to my skirt.

In the end, no matter how I dressed, the fact remained that men saw me as sexy,

and I felt it was easier on my mind to just openly show off my figure.

Because if I showed even a little displeasure, most guys would back off.

Of course, even dressing like that and putting on a scowl, there were still plenty of people who stubbornly tried to feast their eyes on my body.

“Ah, I’m fucking exhausted, seriously….”

“Drink water, water.”

Like Kang Joo-hyuk right next to me now, sweating buckets.

I wear leggings all the time, but he can’t take his eyes off me just because my top is a bit short and shows my belly button.

Even though he’s seen way worse dozens of times.

The only days this guy hasn’t ogled my breasts or thighs were probably the brief moments he pretended to be a nice guy before breaking into my place.

Ever since then, he’s only ever tried to strip me bare,

and I bet he’s thinking all sorts of dirty thoughts about screwing me right now.

“Hand it over.”

I’ve thought a lot about why a guy like that wouldn’t touch me like that anymore after that day, but unfortunately, there was only one answer.

…It’s disgusting just to say it, but

it makes no sense unless he wants me to get jealous of him.

Of course, I have absolutely no reason to feel that way about Kang Joo-hyuk.

I don’t have romantic feelings for him.

We’re just fucking, so why would I?

Even if you snag some decent girl and start dating, it has nothing to do with me?

“What’s up with you not saying you want to rest first and just keep working out?”

“…I feel like I’ve been eating too much lately, so I’m trying to lose weight. Why?”

“It’s okay if you gain a little weight, though.”

“….”

…It’s just.

The reason I don’t want to see that guy having sex with Hinami.

It’s not jealousy or possessiveness like Kang Joo-hyuk mistakenly thinks,

it’s simply because I hate that bitch Hinami.

She’s a bitch who has everything, unlike me.

Because if she got what she wanted too, I figured she’d go wild and piss me off again.

So purely, I just didn’t want to see her happy.

Having sex… in someone else’s house was for a similar reason.

Isn’t it hilarious to see a bitch younger and more successful than me unable to snag even one guy like that, sitting on the floor playing with herself?

I can make Kang Joo-hyuk hard just by sweating like this.

“You don’t even have any belly fat to grab…, Ah. Sorry. I guess there’s a little.”

“Your sweat is sticky, get off me.”

“What’s sticky about sweat?”

“Piss off, will you.”

See? You can’t stand it either when I dress sexily in front of others, right?

It annoys you that other guys can’t take their eyes off me, doesn’t it?

The reason I’ve only been wearing relatively modest clothes when filming YouTube videos these past few days is because I was afraid you wouldn’t be able to handle it if I wore something like a school uniform or a qipao, right?

No matter how much you pretend not to look or not to get hard, trying to play with me,

you’re still a guy who thinks with that uselessly big dick of yours instead of your brain.

…So, how about you stop acting, Kang Joo-hyuk?

“Since we’re not filming anything today, wanna go somewhere after working out? Just change clothes.”

“What?”

“Let’s take a day off, watch a movie or whatever. Come to think of it, we’ve never been to the movies together.”

Don’t say things that don’t suit you.

What, a movie? You?

With me?

Do you want to go on a date or something?

…Make it make sense.

Do you want to play the dating game with me now?

“What are you thinking again, Kang Joo-hyuk.”

“What. I can watch a movie and all.”

It was enough to make me sick of Kang Joo-hyuk, who said something so out of character with such a shameless expression.

Just be honest, why don’t you?

Tell me you couldn’t hold back anymore after seeing me in a tank top and leggings, that you’ve been holding back for days trying to make a move.

“If you want to see it, just watch it at home. It’s a waste of money when we have a big TV.”

“There are things you can only see in theaters,”

“Do you want to go see a movie with me that badly?”

“Well, not exactly.”

“Then what is it?”

Like how you touched my thigh all day in the passenger seat last time, you want to sneak into the theater and grope me secretly.

Are you too proud to just say it honestly?

Or.

“I can’t go with her, can I? Everyone would recognize us.”

“….”

…Do you want to make me feel that humiliated?

Me,

Wanting me to get jealous of you?

“Well. Just kidding. Let’s just go home. Thinking about it, you’re right, it’s a waste of money. We haven’t even picked a movie.”

“….”

“Let’s go.”

“Go?”

“I said let’s go. After working out. To see a movie.”

Fine.

If you really want it that badly, I’ll pretend to go along with it.

Anyway, you right now,

are practically squirming, wanting to unleash that desire.

**

“Wanna get out of here?”

“….”

Kang Joo-hyuk’s whisper sent a shiver down my spine for a moment, but I just nodded and got up from my seat less than an hour later.

As I left the theater, I thought about it again, but I still didn’t want to go back to my seat.

The reasons… First, the movie was fucking boring.

It was supposed to be a horror movie, but I couldn’t even understand the plot.

The actors’ performances weren’t bad, but the characters themselves were just weird.

Honestly, it wasn’t even scary.

Most importantly, I couldn’t concentrate at all.

Because,

the crazy couple in the seats in front of us were openly making out.

“I should have said something earlier. What a waste of money.”

As for Kang Joo-hyuk and I touching, the only contact was our fingers brushing when reaching for popcorn.

Of course, this guy must have intended to at least stroke my thighs.

Before the movie, no. From the moment I changed clothes at home and we went out.

He gave me that same shameless smile he always does, openly staring at my thighs on the street.

“The movie was boring, so let’s at least grab a nice meal.”

“No thanks. I want to go home.”

But maybe Kang Joo-hyuk still had a shred of shame left, because he didn’t do anything as shameless as that couple right in front of us.

I don’t know if I should call it consideration, or if he just wasn’t thinking at all.

What’s certain is that living with a bastard like Kang Joo-hyuk has made me temporarily lose my mind.

Are you seriously letting me touch your belly fat when all the guys at the gym are staring?

Wouldn’t people in the seats behind us see everything? Were you going to let me touch your thighs and put my hand under your skirt without saying anything?

…I’m crazy.

Dressing a bit sexily,

and being groped in front of others are completely different things.

“Don’t be so angry. You even dressed up nicely.”

“I’m just wearing the same outfit as last time?”

This makes it seem like I wore a short skirt because I wanted to be touched in front of people.

I just,

hated seeing you pretend to be a decent, wholesome guy with all that pretense.

“Well, it means you looked pretty that day and you look pretty today.”

“Empty compliments don’t make me feel anything.”

“Empty? You’ve got plenty of substance.”

Perhaps it was because that spiteful thought touched Kang Joo-hyuk.

He glanced around briefly, then pulled me towards the wall and hugged me from behind.

“Hey, you crazy bastard…!”

Then, with a surprisingly gentle touch,

in a place completely devoid of consideration, he lifted my breast slightly.

Positioning himself so his breath brushed against my exposed shoulder.

My heels lifted slightly off the ground due to our height difference.

“You looked like you were carrying a heavy load, so I helped. It’s more comfortable for you this way, right?”

“Let go, people are walking by…!”

To touch my bare skin, he’d have to take off my sweater and bra.

It feels as close to my heart as his rough touch that day.

Even though he’s just holding me loosely from behind.

“Why are you overreacting so much? Am I going to eat you or something?”

“Eat you… No. Let go first.”

“I let go, I let go, okay?”

“Haa, seriously. You crazy bastard… Do you want to touch me like that outside too? Kang Joo-hyuk, don’t you have any self-control?”

“If I didn’t have any, I wouldn’t have been able to come to the movies peacefully with you.”

It was just a fleeting moment of sincerity from him,

but goosebumps erupted all over my body.

The fine hairs on my skin stood on end.

My heart pounded.

…When you’re not pretending, you’re way scarier than any horror movie.

“Anyway, sorry for ruining the date. I’ll help you feel better when we get back, so don’t be mad.”

“Hey, what does that mean…”

“…Or do you want to do it like that couple earlier?”

You push your finger into the choker you forced on me,

pull my neck, and shove that voice into my ear canal, making my body tremble with fear even though I know what’s coming.

“Haeun, if you like that sort of thing, I can do it for you. Right now.”

“S-stop saying weird things. Let go…”

“Okay, okay. I’ll let go. For now.”

His fingers traced my collarbone.

With a ‘chak’ sound, the choker settled back around my neck.

It made me feel slightly breathless, and I started taking deep, somewhat heavy breaths.

…Right, Kang Joo-hyuk was always this kind of guy.

I almost forgot for a moment, pretending he was normal these past few days.

It’s okay, I knew all along.

That this guy would be like this.

Knowing that, I…

I let my guard down.

“So, what do you want to do now?”

“…Go home.”

“Go home. And then?”

“Chicken and beer. …If you say no, I’ll go drink with a friend.”

“Weren’t you trying to lose weight?”

“You said it was okay if I gained a little weight?”

“Well… if you lose too much, this part will disappear first, won’t it?”

“Stop touching me outside, okay…?”

This time, feeling his firm grip pulling me tightly from behind, much rougher than before,

I felt a brief sense of relief that there was only a wall in front of me, and struggled, pushing Kang Joo-hyuk with my elbow.

…It would be a lie to say I’m not scared, but this is better.

Kang Joo-hyuk shamelessly desiring my body like this,

is much less frightening than Kang Joo-hyuk, who did nothing until just now.