038. Taming (8)

Leaning on him, I returned to the front of the house, tok-tok. The clanking sound is gone now. But my heart is still pounding, thumping loudly. …Because it’s obvious what will happen when I go back.

“…” Inside the elevator going up to the 37th floor, he pushed me against the wall and smiled meaningfully. He didn’t touch me with lewd hands or bite my ear. Instead, he pressed his bulging crotch against my butt. It hasn’t been long since I waxed, and it still stings. He doesn’t seem to care about that; I wonder if he’ll just rape me. I told him he could take me with my own mouth, there’s no way that man will hold back. When a man and a woman spend the night in the same bed, I know that it naturally leads to that.

“We’re here. Let’s get off.”

“…Yeah.”

Grabbed by both arms, waddling, I walk to the front door. This would probably be embarrassing if the neighbors saw, but maybe because the leash I was wearing earlier is gone, I strangely wasn’t embarrassed. …Since people who need to know already know we live together anyway, maybe that’s why. In my heart, I had acknowledged it for some time now. In the eyes of others, my relationship with Kang Joo-hyuk was clearly that of a couple.

“I just showered, so go into my room and wait there. I’ll make you some coffee.”

“Uh, yeah…”

“The new beans I bought are about ready to drink. Oh, by the way, Haeun-ah.”

“Yeah…?”

“…Take off your bra while I make the coffee.”

“…”

But the reality is completely different. He just treats me like a fun toy to play with; he doesn’t have any affection for me. I also don’t see him as a crazy psycho rapist bastard; I definitely don’t see him as a lover. That’s probably why this psycho gets more excited.

“…Sex, I really can’t…”

Going into his room first, I throw off my bra and sit on the bed, taking a deep breath. It’s supposed to be a room he uses alone, so why is this bed a double? …It’s obvious without asking. On the mattress whose purpose is clear, I tremble, and caress my still slightly stinging pussy through my stockings. Earlier, Kang Joo-hyuk was too scary, and I was too preoccupied with my brother and that crazy bitch, that I had forgotten. But touching it, I realized it was in no condition to be touched. I’m not kidding, it feels like it might actually bleed. No, this won’t do.

“Haeun-ah, what are you doing?”

“Ah, huh? No, nothing…”

“Drink your coffee. Coffee.”

While gently caressing my stinging pussy, he suddenly burst into the room, and startled, I threw my hands up. Fortunately, he didn’t seem to notice, but if he had, I would have been in for something much worse. Anyway, no matter what happens, I’ll still be taken, because I almost got labeled a perverted freak masturbating in someone else’s room. …Kang Joo-hyuk is a bastard who knows exactly how to exploit my weaknesses. I don’t want to be misunderstood like that.

“It’s good, right?”

“…Yeah.”

While savoring the fragrant coffee he made, I try my best to hide my unease. As soon as he realized I was terrified earlier, recalling what that man did sends shivers down my spine. Goosebumps erupt all over. …That trash bastard. I was treated like dirt; would it kill him to show a little consideration? You terrible bastard… Suppressing my anger, I sip the coffee. By the time the bottom of the mug is visible, Kang Joo-hyuk plops down next to me, then reaches his left hand straight out and slips it under my skirt.

“Ah…”

“…Give me the cup. I’ll put it down.”

…I hand him the cup.

He wasn’t touching the stinging area yet. Where my thighs and belly meet. Crawling a little higher, he lifts my skirt and tugs at my stockings, tick, tick. His fingers dig in, lightly tickling my hip bones.

“…Lie down.”

…A cold voice. But unlike his indifferent voice earlier, it was filled with lust. It would be a lie to say I wasn’t scared, but this was somehow better. …Even if it hurts, he won’t make me do anything shameful. Sex, or whatever. I’ve done it before anyway. Haa… Kang Joo-hyuk usually doesn’t go too rough, if I just behave, behave, and listen to what he says, it’ll be okay…

“Unbutton the middle one.”

As soon as I heard him, I unbuttoned the middle button of my blouse. The opening gaped wide, revealing my cleavage, but I wasn’t embarrassed. …Right, let’s just pretend he’s my boyfriend for today. I made a stupid bet and lost, so let’s just say we’re dating for one day. He’s not ugly, Kang Joo-hyuk. He’s repulsive as a person, but not as a man. I just need to close my eyes and endure…

“You took off your bra. Good girl.”

“…Um, Kang, Kang Joo-hyuk. You know…”

“Can you lower your stockings and panties too? I have something to do.”

“…”

But no matter how much I told myself I could endure, the stinging pain didn’t disappear at all. With trembling hands, I lower my panties and stockings together, but as the fabric touching my pussy lowers, my fear grows. If I accept that grotesquely shaped Kang Joo-hyuk’s di…ck in this state, …No. Really, really…

“Lower them only to your knees, fold your skirt up over them. Spread your legs.”

“…”

I know I absolutely shouldn’t, but my body can’t disobey his command. Maybe it’s better to just be like a normal, slightly kinky couple. Even if we get caught having sex, I arbitrarily decide it’s better to be alone with him in the room. Because my body remembers what shameful things might happen if I refuse. He’ll drag me out like this and put the leash on me again. He’ll make me walk down the street without panties or a bra. …Maybe he’ll even strip me naked. He’ll probably take me to a men’s restroom and do something dirty and disgusting. The thought alone makes my head spin; it won’t leave my mind. I can’t shake it off. Unless he steals my thoughts away.

“…You look pretty now that you’ve shaved. Much better.”

My bare skin, smooth for the first time since middle school, I show it to him, and now shame washes over me. …What was I thinking, saying it was okay because I’d had sex? I’ve never even dated a boyfriend before. Of course, it’s not okay!

“Don’t look…”

“Why? You look damn hot. …And I have something to do.”

“Ah, wait…!”

He was smiling broadly when he took something out of his pocket, smeared it all over his hand, and crawled between my legs. Without even explaining, he spreads something cold and sticky onto my pussy. Applying the cold stuff to the stinging area feels cool. …And anxiety washes over me too. This… this is that thing. That… lube thing.

“Stay still. It’ll hurt if I don’t do this.”

“Wait, just a second! I told you not to touch…”

“I’m not touching. I’m applying it.”

I’m not completely ignorant about sex. I know enough from what my friends told me. I don’t know how or in what positions, but I know about condoms, dildos, and love gels. …This is the gel that makes things slippery and easier to insert. Spreading that lewd liquid on my pussy feels similar to when he spread his bodily fluids inside my vagina last time, making my body flinch repeatedly. Even though he hasn’t touched any sensitive spots. …It’s like he’s pouring sauce on me before eating me. My heart pounds, kooong-kooong.

“It’s actually hard to apply this yourself. Women can’t see down there well anyway.”

“Uh, just stop already…!”

“I have to do the back too, are you going to do it?”

“The back…?”

“…You waxed the back too, right? Looked clean.”

He had been spreading the gel-like substance on my inner thighs, and now he started poking my perineum. Then, lifting my butt with his free hand, he taps my private area with sticky fingers. …H-here? No, not here, really. Even though I washed thoroughly…!

“Hey, Kang, Kang Joo-hyuk! What are you doing…! I told you you could take pictures, but not touch…!”

“I never said you couldn’t touch my anus. Did I?”

“You, you touched me elsewhere too…!”

Startled by the creepy sensation, I waved my hands away, but he started casually using vulgar words and ignored my protests. …I thought if I just obeyed, he’d let it go with just sex. Not at all. He never intended to let it go that easily.

“Then you finish applying it here. I’ll just watch.”

“…What?”

“Well, it is a bit embarrassing to have someone else apply lube, right? I’ll just watch, so you do it. Here.”

This is just the kind of guy Kang Joo-hyuk is. He’s not just after my body. He enjoys seeing me break down, feel ashamed, and tremble pathetically. I want to ask why, but the reason is too obvious. …Even if it wasn’t my fault, he got fired because of my dad. So he’s taking it out on me. That trash bastard…

“You need to apply this thoroughly so it hurts less, apply it carefully.”

“…”

I couldn’t let that trash bastard touch my private parts, so I endured the humiliation and took what he threw at me. A white tube to squeeze. It had something written on it in English. A LOEVE RA… For a moment, I read it as ‘LOVE’, and wanted to give up on everything, but…

“Why are you reading it so intently? They gave it to you at the store earlier. Apply it until you calm down.”

“…Huh?”

…Reading it closely, I saw it was Aloe. I had forgotten because of my brother and that crazy bitch, but the clerk’s words, which I’d half-heard back then, finally came back to me. I was too embarrassed and flustered then…

“It’s nothing weird, so apply it. …Who’s going to fuck you? I can’t just fuck someone right after waxing either. We don’t want any infections, right? Our Haeun-ah needs to wear swimsuits later and stuff.”

“…”

“If you’re embarrassed, I’ll give you a pillow so you can cover your eyes at least. Apply it well. You know the spots better than I do, right?”

“Shit… Haa. …Give me the pillow.”

“Here.”

Curses rose in my throat, but I swallowed them down and applied the aloe with my own hands. From my slightly dry pussy… to my anus, I carefully spread it on the sore areas. Showing him this humiliating scene, I felt dizzy, but…

“…Haa, I’m done applying. Can we stop now…”

“Stop what? We haven’t even done anything.”

“Hey, you…”

…Seeing him casually shove his phone towards my pussy, my head didn’t just spin, it went completely white. The ‘pictures’ he was talking about. This was what they meant. I wasn’t completely unaware.