episode_0119

Just moments ago, a somewhat stimulating time spent at the water park.

Roommates absent from their seats.

Even the weak wine lying there.

A somewhat contrived situation crossed my mind.

I glanced at Seo Yerin, who was searching for wine, wondering if she found it strange, but I quickly dismissed the thought.

I couldn’t help but feel that maybe Seo Yerin hadn’t contrived this situation intentionally.

‘….’

Yet, as I found myself subtly suspicious, I could discern a part of Seo Yerin’s image within me.

“Woojin, this isn’t that expensive. It’s only about 50,000 won.”

“Is that so?”

It seemed quite pricey at first glance, but it didn’t turn out to be that way.

Casually responding, I checked the roommate group chat on my phone.

Several messages had piled up.

While we were at the water park, I hadn’t checked my phone, but it seemed like everyone had gone out into the city together.

‘Oh no.’

Seeing the messages, it seemed like they were drinking outside, and even though I tried calling, no one answered.

“It looks like everyone is out drinking.”

As I awkwardly explained the situation, Seo Yerin, who was already sitting on the living room sofa, took out beer and snacks she had bought from the convenience store.

“Well, then let’s just drink together. If there are leftovers, we can put them in the fridge.”

That makes sense.

*Click!*

Seo Yerin skillfully opened the beer. Suddenly, my gaze shifted to the wine on the table, and Seo Yerin, perhaps reading my mind, gestured towards it.

“Are you going to drink that?”

“No, it’s not for that.”

“It feels weird to drink someone else’s stuff.”

That’s a valid point.

‘She’s surprisingly making sense.’

The uneasiness I felt while looking at the wine earlier now subsided a bit.

When I was with Seo Yerin for the first time, and even when I was with Choi Eseo, wine was always present, so naturally, I had worried about such things.

‘It’s embarrassing to act so presumptuously.’

Thinking I had been too presumptuous, I pushed the wine aside.

“Cheers.”

Seo Yerin offered the beer. I also extended my can and smiled faintly.

“Cheers.”

Given the topic at hand, it seemed necessary to have a bit of alcohol.

Honestly, I wasn’t getting drunk from drinking beer, nor was I letting loose enough to pour out my heart.

Nevertheless, Seo Yerin accurately pinpointed the concerns I had.

Munching on the beef jerky she bought as a snack, I found myself pouring out my inner feelings to her.

“Did I really not love Yoonji? I was really struggling during the break.”

“…”

“I don’t know. I just feel like I’m a terrible person. It would be nice if my emotions could just sort themselves out, but that’s not happening.”

I know my actions haven’t been good. I slept with Seo Yerin and Choi Eseo, and I confessed to Yuarin.

Even if Seo Yerin just sees it as a fling and tells me not to take it seriously, how could that be possible?

I took another sip of beer.

Before I knew it, I had already finished three cans.

“I’ll go to the bathroom for a moment.”

Leaving Seo Yerin, who quietly listened to my story, I went to the bathroom for a while.

I hadn’t planned on drinking this much, but once I started talking, I couldn’t bear it without drinking.

When I returned, Seo Yerin was lost in thought, sipping her beer.

Sitting on the sofa, hugging her legs, she exuded a dawn-like sentiment, almost like a magazine photo shoot.

“Woojin.”

Had she organized what she wanted to say while I was in the bathroom?

She continued, looking at the blank TV screen.

“Was being with me that burdensome for you?”

“…”

I wanted to tell her that it wasn’t the case.

It was her first experience after all.

Anyway, she must have had some sort of liking towards me, which is why she accepted the somewhat aberrant relationship called “sex friends.”

So, I wanted to say no.

“Uh….”

My furrowed expression didn’t soften, and I couldn’t choose a kind lie.

Even with my harsh response, Seo Yerin still wouldn’t look at me.

“You said it yourself. We’re not dating, so don’t feel too burdened. But that’s not working out. From the start…”

Who wouldn’t care about a woman they were involved with?

“It’s not your fault. I’m too indecisive.”

Back then with Choi Eseo, I took things lightly. It just happened because she was attractive.

But Big Brother’s words kept echoing in my mind.

“You didn’t love Oh Yoonji that much.”

Just that one word.

It felt like denying the foundation of who I’ve been all this time.

The night with Seo Yerin and Choi Eseo.

The relationship with Yuarin, and everything else felt like evidence that I didn’t love Oh Yoonji.

“Sorry.”

I offer a sincere apology.

I felt sorry for being rude and selfish.

Seo Yerin, who had been silent, suddenly turned her gaze towards me.

What emotions is she feeling?

I couldn’t read them, and it was scary to figure out.

Feeling confused, I was terrified of what Seo Yerin might say.

“I slept with you, and also with Eseo. And I even confessed to Arin. But you’re feeling guilty about all the time we spent together because of Yoonji.”

My emotions neatly summarized.

Hearing it spoken aloud made me despise myself even more.

If I was going to feel this guilty,

I should have pushed you away from the beginning.

I hated myself for not being able to do that.

“Woojin.”

Shouldn’t she slap me or something?

My head, which had been looking down, slowly lifted.

When my eyes met Seo Yerin’s, she drank another can of beer and suddenly said,

“I have a strong sexual desire.”

“….Huh?”

She started an abrupt confession.

“I watch quite hardcore adult videos. I think BDSM is okay, and I’m fine with both being dominant and submissive.”

“….”

“Saying I want sex isn’t just because of stress; it’s also about releasing sexual desires.”

“….”

“I watch humiliation videos, both being forced and forcing. I like cosplay, but I don’t like overly flashy things like magical girls.”

What am I hearing right now?

“Do you know gender-bender stories? Surprisingly, they suit my taste. I didn’t like NTR situations, but they did excite me.”

“….”

“Sometimes I watch tentacle stuff. But furry isn’t really my thing; it’s oddly unrealistic.”

Is she serious?

That thought crossed my mind, but Seo Yerin’s gaze was sharper than ever, fixed on me.

“I’ve seen a few BL works that are popular, but they weren’t as good as I expected. As for GL, maybe because I’m a woman, I couldn’t emotionally connect well.”

“….”

“Rather than reverse harem, I actually prefer regular harem stories. And honestly, I prefer pure love over harems.”

“Wait, what are you talking about right now?”

I was clearly trying to sort out my feelings and relationships.

Suddenly,

This situation turned into a sexual preferences disclosure by Seo Yerin, and I couldn’t wrap my head around it.

“How is it?”

Looking at me intently, Seo Yerin grinned.

“I’ve told you all those tastes that I can’t tell others.”

“….”

“Woojin, that’s where we stand.”

Slowly approaching me, Seo Yerin, who had been standing still, was intriguingly drawing closer.

I, standing there dumbfounded, found her approach oddly appealing.

“Our relationship began from the deepest, most hidden secret through the pseudonym ‘Bamboo Forest’.”

Seo Yerin’s true nature and the anonymous “69” marked the beginning of our relationship.

“Why are you suffering? Shall I tell you for sure?”

Seo Yerin approached me gracefully.

Her hand around my neck forcefully pulled me in, planting a kiss on my lips.

Forcibly entwined tongues, exchanging saliva.

Despite having drunk beer, Seo Yerin exuded an oddly sweet fragrance.

“W-what are you doing!”

Pushing Seo Yerin away urgently, she wiped the drool from her lips, smiling.

“That’s right! You’re a bad guy, Woojin.”

“….”

“Why are you suffering? Why are you confused? There’s only one reason. It’s because you like it. Oh Yoonji, Choi Eseo, Yuarin… and me too.”

I was speechless.

It was a simple truth.

The reason for my suffering.

I couldn’t decide on anyone in the end.

The reason I, who thought I liked O Yoonji, wasn’t choosing was that I was attracted to all of them.

“Woojin.”

Seo Yerin grabbed my chin.

Then, pushing as if expecting, I fell beneath her as my body relaxed.

“If you hear my secret, will you hate me?”

Having bared all her secrets, Seo Yerin already wore a smile knowing the answer.

Of course.

“…No.”

Merely having lenient sexual preferences didn’t make me dislike people.

At my response,

“I do too.”

Seo Yerin gave me her usual, endlessly bright smile.

“I, too, will love you even if you’re a bad guy.”

“….”

“It’s fortunate, Woojin. Truly fortunate. It’s fortunate that you suffer because of me.”

“F-fortunate?”

Why?

“Of course. It means you care about me enough to worry like you do with others.”

I was speechless.

Seo Yerin’s lips truly blocked my response.

“Ugh!”

Once again, our tongues intertwined fiercely. Her cheeks flushed with joy as she genuinely delighted in my response.

“Huff! At first, I worried. Knowing you were asleep with Isu. I thought I wouldn’t have a place anymore. Sex is my identity, you know?”

“Wait…!”

Slowly unbuttoning her top, Seo Yerin revealed herself. The chest that had been against my arm all day now clearly caught my eye.

“But I decided to think differently.”

“D-don’t take off your bra!”

Ignoring my words, she still straddled me, slightly wiggling her hips as she whispered, “If I can provide pleasure that no one else can.”

Unknown to Choi Eseo.

Not given by Oh Yoonji.

Seo Yerin, knowledgeable in many sexual matters, confidently declared her statement.

Once again, Seo Yerin lowered her body to kiss me.

“Just a moment!”

Desperately pushing her shoulders away, I met Seo Yerin’s glare, puzzled that I hadn’t crossed the line already.

“What, the mood was good.”

Was the mood really good?

More than that, I wanted to clarify my thoughts.

“Did you plan this today? Having wine suddenly at the lodging, and the kids coming over?”

Since Chanwoo had contacts, could some kind of arrangement be made at the lodging?

Upon hearing me, Seo Yerin instead displayed a confident smirk.

“Need to?”

There was no need to consider what that answer meant.

With absolute confidence in herself, there was no need to orchestrate such a setup.

“Finished talking?”

Brushing my hand aside, Seo Yerin puckered her lips again.

Her gentle kiss and teasing tongue had softened my stiffness without my realizing.

I closed my eyes involuntarily.

The wine I had put away earlier touched my toes.

Not a drop of wine was consumed.

I had drunk plenty of beer but couldn’t say I was drunk.

However.

Before I knew it, I was getting quite drunk with a woman named Seo Yerin.