episode_0196

In this forest at night, all of a sudden, you take off your pants and masturbate… …

If this were a normal situation, it would not even be met with ridicule, let alone laughter, and it is a ridiculous thought.

But now.

Kkuddeuk-!

Do Yu-jin began to seriously think about the idea that had come to her mind, digging and poking at the flesh on her forearm with her fingernails.

He continued to ponder like that for several dozen minutes, his face stiff and his breathing ragged.

“Hoo… … ”

Within seconds, Do Yu-jin let out a long breath and threw the idea she had come up with into the trash can in a corner of her mind.

By the way, the reason he gave up on this idea wasn’t necessarily for some useless emotional reason like human dignity or the shame of being exposed outdoors.

Do Yu-jin gave up on her self-development plan by exposing herself… … simply because she was able to be certain through instinct.

This desire that arose through [The Master of Pleasure (10★)] cannot be resolved through one’s own power alone, and can only be resolved by embracing a woman.

‘No, how on earth have you been able to suppress something like this for so long? Shouldn’t it have had an influence on me even when I wasn’t activating it?’

A slimy, sticky, obsessive desire consumes your entire body in real time.

Do Yu-jin tried hard to turn her head to the other side in order to forget him even a little.

But, as the crisis passed, the mind, which had been uselessly activated, quickly came up with an answer to this question.

Doyuna and Doyumi.

The existence of two daughters that Do Yu-jin accepted without realizing it.

It was the obsession with family that he still held in his heart that fundamentally blocked the penalty of his trait from occurring.

Kkaduk-

‘What should I do? Should I go to where those kids are right now?’

A similar thought crossed Do Yu-jin’s mind for a moment, but he quickly shook his head.

I was able to be sure because when I activated the trait in earnest a little while ago, I managed to regain consciousness thanks to the presence of the two people transmitted through the string of the contract.

The existence of the two, the scar of family, means that the only thing that can be stopped is the moment when the penalty is about to arise.

The side effects of the trait have already increased as much as they could.

In the current situation, the existence of the two was of no use to Do Yu-jin.

‘No, it would rather be a minus now.’

To be honest, in Do Yu-jin’s view, it wouldn’t have been strange at all if she couldn’t stand it and attacked the two of them the moment they appeared.

‘Then what should I do? Since I can’t go home, should I just go to the dormitory I was assigned to?’

No, that was impossible too.

It was inevitable that Do Yu-jin would encounter many people on her way back to the dormitory.

But what if there is even one woman among the people you pass by like that?

If it were me now, I would definitely not be able to hold it in and would do it.

“Whew, I have some points I collected while going around dungeons for training with Chavia… … ”

But with just these points, it was impossible to obtain an item that could solve this situation.

‘What on earth should I do… … ‘

Just a moment ago, his mind had been spinning uselessly and irritating Do Yu-jin, but now it seemed as if it was spinning in circles, unable to come up with a clean answer to overcome the situation.

And in that fact, Do Yu-jin felt extreme thirst, like a person dying from thirst in the desert.

The feeling of the moisture in my body slowly evaporating as a flame blooms in my chest.

I felt like if I just stayed still like this, I would suddenly die from stress like a puffer fish.

“First of all… … let’s move,”

Bichuk-

“There must be a lake nearby… …If I go there and wash my face lightly, my condition will probably improve a little.”

Do Yu-jin knew better than anyone else that her current condition was not so good that it could be improved through such methods.

But there was nothing I could do.

Because there was no other suitable method that came to mind right away.

Do Yu-jin walked towards the place where the smell of water was coming from, with staggering steps like a wounded animal.

Bichuk bichuk-

Let’s walk and walk along this path, where each step feels like a thousand-mile journey.

“Ah… … ”

Finally, the scenery of the lake came into Do Yu-jin’s eyes.

A beautiful and mysterious sight, shining beautifully in the blue light of the moon floating high in the sky, so beautiful that you would believe that fairies or spirits live there.

“Come to think of it, there were surprisingly many hidden places like this in the circle. Well, most of them existed for events like the dramatic meeting between the protagonist and the heroine.”

Do Yu-jin insisted on saying the thoughts that had escaped her mind.

It was a careless act of muttering to myself the thoughts I usually carefully think about, but it didn’t matter.

Because right now, I needed something that would take my attention away from this desire, even if only for a moment.

Should I say thanks?

Turbuck-

When Do Yu-jin blinked her eyes again, she realized that she was standing on the edge of a cliff with a wide view of the lake.

Do Yu-jin looked at the scene for a moment as if she was just watching.

Wheeze-

Hoping that his condition would improve even a little, he threw himself into the lake.

The world is turned upside down.

The sky falls at your feet and the lake imitating the sky pours down towards your head.

A sight that is both mysterious and dreamlike.

As she looked at him with eyes full of confusion and wavering, a thought slowly began to form in Do Yu-jin’s head.

‘But if I fall like this, won’t I just drown and die? To be honest, I don’t have the strength to swim back to the edge of the lake right now.’

A belated realization hit Do Yu-jin on the head.

His body naturally began to struggle for survival, waving both arms.

But like the squirming of a headless insect, the flailing of Do Yu-jin’s arms did not contain even a shred of strength.

I used up all my stamina trying to suppress [The Master of Pleasure (10★)] with my steely mentality.

But… … that wasn’t the only reason.

That’s true, of course.

‘You can die?’

From the beginning, Do Yu-jin could not ignore the loving gaze her two parents showed her in their last moments, their request that she live happily for their share as well, so she forced herself to live in this colorless world until now.

‘at las?’

Because I always had in my heart the thought of ending this meaningless life.

So to speak, it was a kind of miracle.

It’s the same kind of miracle as when Do Yu-jin defeated [The Master of Pleasure (10★)] and regained her sanity thanks to a series of lucky coincidences.

A fate that came when the absolute instinct of a living being called sexual desire and the desperate crisis where nothing could be done were intertwined.

And thanks to that, Do Yu-jin was able to suppress her obsessive-compulsive disorder, which she had always maintained as her absolute first principle, for the first time.

In the short period of freedom she found like that, Do Yu-jin saw her past self.

I saw myself locked in my room, doing nothing, after losing the two of them in vain.

He was suffering from the fact that he had lost the two people who had meant the meaning of his life because of his own mistake.

And yet, following the last words the two of them left behind, he somehow continues on with his life, and, like a broken doll, he searches for something that can be called happiness.

Hoooow-

As the short yet long revolving lantern ended, Do Yu-jin, who had escaped from her past, quietly closed her eyes while looking at the water surface that had come up to her nose, along with the sound of the wind brushing past her ears.

Is it because this moment is the last?

‘ah……’

The honest feelings that had been suppressed in Do Yu-jin’s heart until now came to mind.

“It’s finally over.”

After saying what could be considered her last words, Do Yu-jin waited with an easy mind for the shock and coldness that would come.

“… … ?”

But no matter how long I waited, the moment I had been waiting for never came.

The moment Do Yu-jin quietly opened her eyes, looking puzzled.

Ppaan-

He saw a girl with blue hair that reminded him of flowing water and shining softly, and eyes that seemed deeper and clearer than a lake, staring down at him.

“Are you okay?”

Even while stepping on the water, holding herself in a princess-like embrace.

“ha… … ”

Faced with that ridiculous sight, Do Yu-jin couldn’t help but let out a sigh that sounded like laughter.

“Here or there, the things I wish would happen somehow never turn out as they should.”

The moment when Do Yu-jin lamented so much.

“?”

Erio, who had been wearing his characteristically quiet expression, opened his eyes slightly and asked in a cautious voice.

“Eugene, are you crying?”

“Well.”

It was an extremely ambiguous answer, but Do Yu-jin had no choice but to answer that way.

“I don’t know either.”

Because there were so many emotions rising up from within me, I couldn’t really figure out what state I was in right now.

But there was one thing I could say for sure.

“Thank you for saving me.”

If Erio hadn’t saved me just now, I would have accidentally betrayed them both during my brief moment of weakness.

And to Do Yu-jin’s words.

“Yeah, me too.”

Erio answered with a grin.