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※Episode 61, ‘Killing the Golden Sun (3)’ This is an omitted episode of Se-ha and Saya-senpai in the middle. There were many opinions that it was unnecessary, so I tried to add it, but it became a bit long, so I took it out separately… . The breathing feels a bit strange, but I ask for your generous understanding. I will adjust the whole thing later when I have time. ㅠ.ㅠ

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Thinking back, I think I was in an unusual state of excitement the first day I met my senior.

It’s definitely out of your mind to ask a senior you’ve only just met to take your virginity. You even asked for a fistfuck.

Of course, it was because I wanted to atone for something… Anyway, looking back, I think I was pretty crazy. I didn’t know if Saya-senpai would accept it or not.

I muttered without realizing it as I looked at Senior Saya lying on the bed.

“Senior, you really would do anything for me.”

“What are you talking about all of a sudden?”

When taking off his clothes, the senior doesn’t show any signs of refusal or dislike. However, he doesn’t act indifferently; he just seems to be suppressing his embarrassment. This is true even though we’ve been touching each other quite a bit now.

I achieved the feat of losing my virginity on the same day I met that senior… .

“When I first met you, you did everything I wanted, right? I didn’t realize it at the time, but I think it must have been very burdensome for you to do something that could hurt someone because of your senior personality.”

I took off my bra and revealed my senior’s chest. I put aside the thought of continuing the conversation and buried my face in there for now.

Hehehe, it’s Saya-senpai’s chest.

Senior Saya wasn’t surprised or flustered by my transformation, but gently wrapped her arms around my head and hugged me tightly to her chest.

Ah, this is paradise. I’m recharged.

“Are you nervous?”

“Ugh… .”

Lying wouldn’t do any good. I quietly agreed.

“I told you I was okay, right?”

“Senior, if I ask for something, you’ll say anything okay, right?”

“Is that really true… . There are so many things that can never be said to be okay.”

really?

I raised my head and looked up at my senior. He smiled brightly and kissed my forehead.

“Of course. You can’t get hurt, you can’t get sick. You can’t worry alone, you can’t try to do everything alone, and you can’t tie them up and tickle them for 30 minutes.”

Oh, that’s right.

An incident that really made Senior Saya very angry.

“And… I know you won’t trust me… but please believe my words that it’s okay.”

“It’s not that I don’t believe it… but I think my senior would say that everything is okay, so I feel like I’ll cross the line if I don’t put on the brakes myself… .”

A mischievous look appeared in Saya-senpai’s eyes.

“That’s because it’s actually okay, junior. On the contrary… I was expecting it.”

“Huh?”

Maybe it was because I reacted too surprised. My senior’s voice suddenly became smaller.

“No, it would be a lie to say that I was looking forward to it… but I did think about why you weren’t interested in that direction… .”

“I was hesitating because I thought my senior would be hurt… I see… . You were waiting for the day you would give me your virginity… .”

“That, that feels a little different… .”

However, there was no complete denial.

A little curiosity arose.

“What does it feel like to give away your virginity?”

“Ji, isn’t it too much to ask that now?”

“I know it seems a bit stupid to ask this, and I don’t mean to embarrass you, but I’m a little curious. I don’t have common sense in such things, so I usually don’t know what it feels like… .”

Senior Saya shrugged her shoulders as if she was embarrassed, but she still thought seriously before opening her mouth.

“Me too… I don’t have any friends so I don’t know what it’s like usually… . In my case… Well, I don’t think it means much… .”

“Oh, really?”

“… Well… sex… we’ve had it a lot already, and I’ve been thinking of it as yours for a long time anyway… Junior?”

One thing is certain.

When it comes to melting my brain, my senior has a devilish talent.

“I see. My senior was prepared, but I didn’t know that and just made things worse.”

When you try to hide your embarrassment, you end up using a teasing tone without even realizing it.

But the senior answered with a surprisingly confident expression.

“That’s true. I was always worried that my junior wouldn’t help me, that there was something wrong with me.”

“What?!”

When I was surprised, my senior smiled and hugged me.

“I’m joking. I said it because I wanted to see you get flustered, but you’re so surprised.”

“If I ever made my senior think that way, I don’t think he’d ever forgive me for the rest of his life… .”

“I don’t have any such doubts. When I see you, junior, I can’t help but worry. And now… .”

My senior lifted his left hand and caressed my cheek. It felt a little different from usual.

The feel of the metal is smooth, yet strangely warm.

The rings we exchanged earlier.

I also stretched out my left hand and caressed my senior’s cheek.

The senior’s eyes drew a gentle arc. A smile without a trace of fear or anxiety erased the worries that had been weighing on my mind.

My senior said that it was okay if I was sick, no, I hoped that I would be sick enough to never forget. I don’t intend to do that, but I want to grant whatever my senior wants.

I grabbed the hem of my T-shirt and pulled it up to take it off.

Senior Saya, who was lying down, reached out and helped me take off my bra… but then grabbed me from below.

“Haaa♡?!”

There wasn’t any particular skinship, but when I came into the room carrying my senior, my body was already quite heated.

In that state, I couldn’t help but moan when I was stimulated by the slightly aggressive hand movements that were not typical of my senior.

“Oh, you’re really active today, senior… .”

“I think so… . My heart has been racing since a while ago… .”

For a while, I quietly left my chest in my senior’s hands, but soon the moment came when I couldn’t bear it anymore. Ugh, my body feels more sensitive than usual today. I feel like my chest will just disappear… .

I carefully lowered my body and overlapped my senior’s. My senior took his hand off my chest and put his arm behind me to hug me.

“Well, junior, you’re not heavy, so you can just leave your body to me… .”

I appreciate my senior’s consideration, but I couldn’t do that.

As I was pressing down from above, my senior and I were in a situation where our chests were touching. My chest was so sensitive that just the touch of that soft chest brushing against my nipple made my head spin.

I hid my expression while kissing him so that he wouldn’t notice. Unlike before, I was slightly pleased with the change in my senior who was actively intertwining his tongues, but I knew this wouldn’t work either. My brain was melting because my senior was so sweet that I could feel him with my lips and tongue… .

What the… Did I take some kind of medicine without knowing it? Did Su-in season it with medicine instead of salt?

Why is my whole body so sensitive?

My body, which was several times more sensitive than usual, confused me.

The reason… It’s not like I don’t know. The passionate confession of my senior, the seduction that isn’t obvious but is approaching gently, and the contrast with when we first touched each other… There was no physical contact, but I was already mentally completely surrendered.

As we stopped kissing, Saya-senpai looked at me with pitiful eyes. Regret and guilt attacked me from both sides.

It’s not that I’m embarrassed to be the first to leave. I know that my body is prone to feeling things anyway. Rather, I think it’s better to feel it more and more when you’re with someone you like.

But today is a day with a purpose… .

“Gyah♡?!”

I was trying to dig into my senior’s chest with determination, but I ended up making a shrill sound. Oh, no… I almost lost it.

When I looked down, I saw that my senior’s thigh was digging into my hot pants. To be exact, I was trying to move and ended up rubbing my leg against his thigh… But for a moment, a glimmer of realization flashed across my senior’s puzzled eyes.

I could only watch with a sense of unease as his hand dug into my hot pants. It was impossible to pretend that nothing had happened. There was moisture on my senior’s thigh…

“Ahh♡”

As the senior’s hand lightly brushed the crack between his legs, a tingling sensation swept through his entire body. Since he had no strength in his arms, he couldn’t even gain a little distance and ended up completely falling on top of the senior.

My senior hugged me with one hand and took the other out of his hot pants. He hadn’t done anything that could be called caressing, but seeing his hand soaking wet made the blood rush to my face.

“Ma, you’re really excited… .”

There was no intention to tease or criticize the senior. There was just a mild surprise, like, ‘Already?’

“Seo, senior is bad… . How can I not get excited when he keeps saying such dirty things… .”

“Did he say something that dirty?”

The moment I was about to apologize in embarrassment, a hint of mischief flashed across Saya-senpai’s eyes.

“What was that dirty word? Can you tell me, junior?”

“Huh?”

“You need to know what kind of words you think are dirty so you can be careful. Please tell me. I wonder what I said that made you wet like this.”

Huh…? Senior…?

That playful light added a charm to Senior Saya that she didn’t usually have, and for a moment I forgot to breathe.

“Please tell me. What is it? What kind of words make you so excited? If you tell me… I will sing you a lullaby with those words.”

“I said I won’t put that to sleep… .”

“Come on, come on.”

My heart pounded at the urging words of my senior. The movements of my senior, who was sweeping my thigh with one hand and my back with the other, were so seductive that my head didn’t work properly.

Specifically, what words specifically made me do this? What words were particularly effective?

“Seo, senior… . Senior itself is wild! Senior’s appearance itself is wild! Senior’s breath is wild! The nape of his neck is wild! His eyes, intent on something, are wild! His fingers, happily stroking his ring, are wild! His embarrassed expression is wild! His bright red face is wild! His actions of covering his face are wild! ”

“Ah… Okay, wait a minute… . I, I didn’t expect you to say something like that… .”

I can no longer hide the heavy breathing I was trying so hard to hide. I wonder if my nose is flaring. I wonder if I look ugly. It’s okay now, but if my senior removes his hand from his face and looks at me, I wonder if I’ll be caught.

Those worries disappeared the moment they arose.

“I’ll say it again, you’re wild! You’re like a walking potion! Every move, every moment is wild, and just your presence makes me horny!”

It wasn’t that my senior’s words were particularly obscene. The domino effect of reasoning was already in jeopardy, and the stoppers were just disappearing one by one.

However, it seemed that the stopper had disappeared for the senior as well.

“How can you take responsibility! I ended up like this…!”

As I was trying to put into words the words that were popping into my head, no, the words that were welling up from my heart and lower abdomen, the world suddenly turned upside down.

I once had a senior teach me how to get out of a mount position and then mount it back. I thought he was practicing it quite diligently, but I guess he was trying to use it on me.

At some point I found myself looking up at the ceiling.

Senior Saya was looking down at me. And not from the side, but from directly above, holding me down with both arms.

Against Senior Saya, it was a situation I had never imagined in my entire life.

The senior said with a bright red face.

“Well, you’re like that too, junior… . You don’t know how much you make my heart flutter… .”

My senior started sucking my breasts. Urgently, restlessly, as if he had forgotten everything he had known, learned, and tested.

But for some reason, that kind of reckless caressing made me tremble more than usual.

The movements of rubbing her nipples and squeezing the crack between her legs were a bit rougher than usual. Of course, that was normal for a senior like Saya, but I couldn’t keep my cool at all because of her unusual behavior.

On the contrary, a longing burned in my heart that I wished it had been a little rougher.

My struggling body is crushed by the pressure of my senior. If I just put my mind to it, I can escape, but that ‘making up my mind’ just doesn’t work.

I felt fingers digging deep into my body. Even at this moment, I was so resentful of the movements that were carefully moving and searching for sensitive parts.

There was no need to search for it. Right now, every part of my body was a switch that called for climax. That careful movement was actually making me anxious.

Every time I moved my body, every time Saya-senpai moved her fingers, a wet sound would echo. Not only between my legs, but the entire area around them would be wet, making the sheets a mess.

But I can’t go on like this. I don’t want to go.

“Saya senior… .”

It felt like my ability to think was fading away, like an old fluorescent light bulb. I couldn’t stand it anymore and called Senior Saya.

When I look at that unchangingly affectionate face, for some reason I feel like crying.

He spoke in a pleading tone.

“Senior… I, I’m better… … … ♡!”

The conversation was not continued.

Yeah. I don’t even know what the word was.

What is it that I desire? Why do I desire it so much? Why do I not want to go without it, and turn such a happy moment into pain?

I was so dazed that I forgot the answer.

But, Senior Saya knew very well.

The affection in her eyes grew stronger, and she pulled me in and kissed me.

Ah, this was it. I don’t have any regrets. I’m not dying, though.

“Today, junior… You’re so cute and wild… .”

The senior’s soft lips and hot, wet tongue instantly relaxed my body, which had been stiff from holding back climax.

I was sure I was going to faint. I went to the bathroom diligently, but I was a little scared that I might make another embarrassing mistake.

But still, I wanted to stay close to Saya-senpai, so I hugged Saya-senpai with both arms and locked my arms tightly.

I said there was a climax switch everywhere, but there must have been a part that was particularly fatal among them.

Ah, both the top and the bottom are being invaded by the senior.

The moment I realized that, my mind went blank.

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When I came to, I was still hugging Saya-senpai. I hugged her so tightly that it must have hurt, but I couldn’t raise my head to Saya-senpai who waited quietly for me until I woke up.

… but it took a little longer to free myself because my fingers were paralyzed.

Instead, you could enjoy the privilege of receiving treatment by gathering your hands between your senior’s sternum.

“Um… Does this really help…?”

“I don’t know physically, but mentally it’s incredibly… I’m really struggling mentally right now… .”

“Yes? Why… . It’s hard… I like juniors who speak straightforwardly, and I try to be like that too, if possible… .”

When Saya-senpai moved her body in surprise, her chest moved along with it. Her hand cheered as it was stimulated by her chest swaying slightly… .

“No, that’s not it… . Originally, I was supposed to make my senior happy and prepare… But if I go first, it wouldn’t make sense… .”

“Ah… . Is that the problem… .”

Of course, being sexually aroused doesn’t mean that the pain will decrease. However, if possible, prepare as much as possible so that you can focus on things other than the pain… .

Senior Saya’s sexual talents are [difficult to get wet], [immature sexual sense], and [weak to pain]. I have to take it slow, taking my time. If I just feel it and do it, I won’t be able to achieve my goal…

Senior Saya laughed.

“That’s okay, junior. I thought about it, and I think I get more excited when I make you happy.”

uh…?

After doing some shy tests, my senior’s words were proven true. My senior definitely gets wetter when he caresses me than when he is being caressed.

The only S+ talent that comes to mind that my senior possesses… [Service S+].

“So, junior, you don’t have to worry. We are still preparing steadily.”

As he said that, I felt a sense of danger in the eyes of my senior who kissed me again.

I would really appreciate someone, preferably the devs, to answer this question.

Q1.

To A, who has [a tendency for masochism S+++],

When B with [Service S+] tries to do his best service,

What are the chances that there is a sadistic element to it?

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Q2.

What are the chances that A can reject it?

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The events after this are really vague in my memory, so I will only record the results of my hard work and inquiry with Senior Saya, who seemed to be slightly angry and very guilty.

Thanks to Senior Saya’s overly active cooperation, we were able to successfully achieve our goal.

But when I saw the sweat running down Saya-senpai’s forehead as she smiled and said it was okay… I guess I did it…

By [the promise that binds the soul], the robbing of pain… .

I guess you could call it a side effect, but I also got an answer to the question, ‘Can I now share the pain and wounds in areas that no longer exist?’

… the answer was ‘yes’. I also learned that the only pain I felt was the pain of the bleed, which was more of a headache than just getting hurt.

Anyway, it is said that Senior Saya was very upset, saying that it was something that was planned from the beginning. I denied it, saying that it was something I did unconsciously.

The senior also believed that what he said was not a lie. He said, “If I saw my junior in pain right in front of me, I would have done the same thing too….”

… these are words that tear at the conscience of a liar.

But even if my senior believes my excuses, it is true that I have rendered half of his determination meaningless.

Because my senior was prepared to remember not only the moment of the most intense pain, but also the pain that might follow, as a moment with me.

To pay that price… I seem to have offered to listen to whatever Saya-senpai wanted for two hours.

Then, it seems that Senior Saya made a suggestion, ‘Then, let me serve as much as I want!’ and the result is this short-term memory loss.

What kind of service did I receive?

Senior Saya doesn’t teach you… .

“If you don’t remember, I guess I can write again if something like this happens again. I hope it never happens again.”

It was creepy because I felt like the potential for [domination] was sprouting inside Saya-senpai as she spoke with a smile.

It’s creepy, but… I really don’t have an answer at the point where I really want to see it.

Next time, I should record it so I can remember it even if my memory fades.

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