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Yuren is a light sleeper.

To be precise, I am sensitive to the sound of a specific person’s footsteps.

Often, when he was late getting home, he would hear the sound of his footsteps coming in, hushed as he worried that Yuren would wake up. The sound of the footsteps of the person who would sneak in, open the door, check on Yuren while she was sleeping, give her a gentle kiss on the forehead, and leave.

It was the same even when I was mentally at my limit and cried myself to sleep.

The difference was that to Yuren now, those footsteps were more terrifying than anything else in the world.

I didn’t know what to do. Should I run away? The other person was coming through the door? Through the window? Could I get through the window with these legs that had just started to move?

Yuren, who didn’t know what to do, stopped moving.

He wasn’t even pretending to sleep. People who are asleep don’t clutch their pillows so hard that their tendons pop out.

Familiar footsteps opened the door.

Without even looking for the light switch, he closed the door and went straight to the bed.

Yuren didn’t know what to do. She couldn’t even guess how to react.

Fortunately, Yuren’s body knew the answer.

“Are you sleeping?”

I opened my eyes without realizing it, hearing my sister’s affectionate voice as usual.

The sun must have already begun to rise. The room was bright enough.

And my sister, sitting on one side of the bed and looking at me, looked a little tired, but she was still smiling kindly as always.

“Sister… ! Sister… !!!”

Without realizing it, he raised his body and clung to Elin. He hugged her tightly with his face filled with tears.

“I’m sorry… I’m sorry, sis! Please, please don’t hate me! Me, me… Without sis… .”

“Don’t be stupid. I can’t hate you for something like that.”

Ah, my sister’s words today were several times sweeter than usual.

Yuren clung to Elin. She was wearing only a thin boxy T-shirt like herself. He could feel her bouncy chest pressing against his own.

Just now… The act that was interrupted at the very moment when I was most excited. At some point, my heart began to pound again.

No… This is not the time to be thinking about things like this…

I have to get off… .

However, as if she didn’t know Yuren’s feelings, Elin stretched out her arms and hugged Yuren.

He lifted her disheveled hair, kissed her forehead, and wiped away the tears that had gathered in her eyes with his fingers. The hand that had been sweeping her cheek checked her shoulders, arms, and legs.

Her legs were emaciated, but she was definitely moving now. As Elin’s fingertips brushed past her, she trembled as if asserting her own existence.

I felt a strange sensation between my legs and flinched without realizing it.

“Mi, sorry… . I, always bother you… .”

A sane person would never do this.

Just now, I thought my sister was asleep and did something embarrassing like that, and now I’m lusting after her again.

Since she’s such a caring older sister, she might be trying to bury what happened earlier. No, maybe she doesn’t really understand the meaning of what happened earlier.

She’s cool, beautiful, and excellent in every way, but she’s a bit behind the times as a woman. She’s the kind of sister who truly admires the heroes of B-movie action movies.

That hope was lightly shattered.

“Were you that embarrassed by what you did earlier?”

When I think about what a ridiculous wish that was, I start to despise myself.

How could I not know the meaning of what I did just now? At that time, just like now, I was touching the wetness between my legs with my sister’s hand. Even if I had run away, that wet liquid would still have remained on my sister’s hand.

“… I wish I could just die… . Right now, I wish my sister would kill me… .”

The words that came out of his own mouth sounded so captivating.

If you think about it, that would be the only salvation. Because you already knew it.

The moment my sister’s fingers touched me, I knew that every single cell in my body was awakened. I remember feeling like I would orgasm just from the slight touch of her fingertips on my lower abdomen, which wasn’t really an erogenous zone.

Even if my sister forgives me for everything, I already know that I can’t go back to the past.

“You don’t have to be embarrassed.”

“… It makes me feel bad… . This kind of perverted sister, if I were you, I would hate it even if I died… .”

“As expected, you don’t know your sister’s feelings at all. I don’t want to lose that perverted sister even if I die.”

Ellen smiled.

A smile so bright that it made Yuren’s heart burst.

“It’s true that I was surprised. But it’s okay. Everyone likes things differently, and likes things in different ways. If you have someone you like, and you think about that person and feel better, you comfort yourself… That’s all.”

Elin’s hand stroked Yuren’s nape.

He pulls Yuren hard with both arms and hugs her more deeply.

Although hesitant, Yuren reached out and hugged Elin.

“Oh, my sister did that with her own hands… .”

“Yeah… I was definitely surprised. But still, it’s just petting after all. If you do that to someone you don’t like, then maybe, but at least I’m not dissatisfied. I don’t hate it.”

“This… is saying weird things… .”

“… That’s… .”

Elin’s voice lowered.

Yuren’s breathing also became shallow. She couldn’t breathe because she was afraid of what would come next.

“… That’s too wild… . I’ve seen people gasp in movies and stuff, but this is the first time I’ve seen them mumble so loudly… . I might have gotten a little excited… .”

Elin watched with a slightly anxious heart as Yuren let out the breath she had been holding.

My younger sister, who reacts so violently to my words. She has always been my beloved sister, but now she is even more so.

Did he realize the meaning of what he was saying? A strange sense of anticipation appeared on his face, which had been shedding tears. Maybe it was because it was red, but somehow the thought of ‘this looks delicious’ came to mind.

I feel a little hungry.

I put my lips to the path of tears under my eyes. My body temperature was high and my skin was hotter than usual, so the area where the tears had flowed felt swollen.

I felt my mouth dry from the anxiety of not knowing what to do, and licked the trail of tears with my lips and tongue.

“Excuse me, I have a favor to ask… .”

“What is it…?”

I asked, looking at her face full of anticipation.

“I’m embarrassed to say this as your older sister, but…is it okay if I do something dirty?”

“… Already, while doing it… .”

“Huh?”

Yuren spoke shyly to the surprised Elin.

“I feel horny just looking at my sister’s face… .”

Was I like some kind of walking porn video?

That thought occurred to her, but when she said that with her eyes drenched in tears, Elin didn’t know what expression to make.

Fortunately or not, Yuren tightly closed her eyes.

Feeling a little relieved, and at the same time feeling her heart pounding, Elin kissed Yuren. Their warm lips met, and his tongue dug into the gap between their slightly parted teeth.

Yuren responded to the kiss wholeheartedly.

He stretched out his arms and hugged Elin. Their tongues tangled and their saliva mixed, and their breathing began to become slightly irregular.

“Ah… .”

It was Elin who groaned first. Yuren, startled by the sudden reaction, tried to open her eyes, but Elin stopped her by pressing her lips against hers.

“It’s okay. I was just surprised because you’re such a good kisser.”

If I think about whether I learned this from Se-ha, I feel like I am experiencing a dark emotion for the first time in my life… .

He lightly bites Yuren’s lower lip and moves his tongue once more to exchange a kiss. Yuren happily complies and hugs Elin tightly once more.

It felt good to have our bodies pressing against each other, and our arms pressing against each other.

“Haha♡”

At some point, Elin realized that she was being crushed by Yuren. It was obvious that at first, she was the one holding down Yuren who was lying on the bed, but what on earth happened?

But seeing Yuren’s face turn bright red from her bold actions, there was no need to think about it.

A face that is full of emotion, quite embarrassing, a little ugly, and oh so lovely.

I wonder if he is making that kind of expression right now. Is he looking at Yuren with such a deep expression? If so, I can fully understand why he says that just looking at her face makes him feel lewd.

They kiss again and exchange saliva.

Yuren’s saliva, affection, shame and pleasure flowed out and filled Elin. Her hands were stuffy. She couldn’t stand the urge to grab something hard.

But Yuren, her only sister, is too fragile.

If you grab my shoulder too hard, it feels like it will break. If you grab my hair, it will damage my fine, beautiful hair.

He had no choice but to tightly hold onto the arm that was wrapped around Elin’s back. Yuren groaned softly as his body became tighter than before.

If this continues, will we end up becoming one lump?

Is it because I am desperately trying to protect what I have in my arms, entangled in everything? How can I relieve this sweetness and regret? How can I make it last forever?

“Oh, sis… I… .”

Yuren opened her mouth, but she couldn’t continue talking any longer.

What is it? Why don’t you say it? Why can’t you say it? Maybe you’ve forgotten how to speak in the joy of this moment.

It didn’t matter either way.

I had loved you more than anything until now, but now I loved Yuren even more.

So, it didn’t matter anyway.

None of that mattered.

When I saw the saliva hanging like a thread between the two people who had opened their mouths, I felt like laughing for no reason.

“Yes… . Sister… I have something to say… .”

Elin opened her mouth.

One of the two secrets Se-ha had told me about. And the one that was more important than anything else.

Something I didn’t want to tell even if I died. Something I thought I would rather die if my sister found out.

But I thought I had to say it now, right now.

It’s not that I think I can be forgiven.

If I hug my sister without telling her that fact, she will hate herself so much that she will want to die.

“What is it…?”

Elin asked, barely able to keep her wits about her, even though they had only kissed her repeatedly.

Yuren opened her mouth. No sound came out. She moved her mouth again, but again, no sound came out.

I think it’s okay if I don’t say anything.

At this very moment, the happiness I have longed for is right before my eyes. Do I have to say anything about it?

But I had to say it.

So I desperately begged. If I had even a shred of the right to be your sister, if I had even a shred of courage, then please lend me your strength right now.

“That accident… That… … wasn’t an accident… .”

Once I opened my mouth, words came out surprisingly easily.

An accident that left Yuren paralyzed from the waist down.

It wasn’t an accident. At least not at first.

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Yuren, 12 years old, and Elin, 13 years old.

Even back then, Elin was excellent and was someone everyone needed.

Of course, Elin was a child who didn’t regret spending all her free time taking care of her younger sibling, but she was still a child after all. She couldn’t find the words to persuade Yuren, who kept whining about why she wasn’t with him.

A fight broke out, and an exhausted Elin left the house in anger.

Yuren, who was left at home, thought.

I’ll make you regret it, sister.

It was never a naive idea like ‘pay attention to me’.

It was an act of clear hostility, with the intention of ‘making you regret abandoning me.’

Of course, I originally planned to roll down the stairs on purpose, but I didn’t think that the display cabinet would fall over and I would get crushed by it.

But when she realized something was wrong while lying on the shelf, when she unconsciously called her sister several times but she didn’t come, what blossomed then was an even stronger hostility.

Yuren had a cell phone. It was a cell phone that could be used to call for help from registered cell phones and emergency centers with just a press of a button, or rather, even a voice command.

My cell phone, which I had placed in a thick pouch and secured to my waist, remained intact even while rolling down the stairs.

Although she was crushed by the display case, Yuren barely managed to reach out and grab the pouch.

And I pushed it far away with all my might.

Come and see, Sister.

Without my sister, I’m seriously hurt. I might die.

It’s all my sister’s fault. My sister is killing me.

Oh, I wish my sister would cry a lot.

I hope you live forever regretting killing me.

Even as I was losing my mind,

Yuren had a malicious smile on her face.

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“I’m sorry… I’m sorry, sis… . I did it knowing what would happen… knowing it would happen anyway… .”

“No. I didn’t know. If I really knew, I probably wouldn’t have done it.”

Ellen’s point was valid.

Because Yuren had to pay the price for her childish malice.

Paralyzed from the waist down. A life that can never be lived on one’s own.

When Yuren learned of the reality, she could not accept it and rejected everyone. All of her attempts were heard by Elin.

In a truly shameless manner, Yuren lied and said that it was all Elin’s fault. She even complained that she was having such a hard time and her sister was fine.

But the real price had to be paid after adapting to that environment.

Elin fought against Typhon to protect Yuren, and while being hailed as a young hero, she was also repeatedly summoned to the harsh battlefield.

If she wanted to avoid it, she could have. After all, she was still young, and this country at least had the luxury of asking her for advice.

Still, Ellen willingly responded to the call.

One is to become an older sister that her younger sibling can be proud of, and the other is to gain merits that will allow her younger sibling to receive transfer treatment.

Yuren’s heart burned black as she watched the process.

The realization that her actions were driving her sister into trouble continued to torment her.

Moreover, the holding back of Ellen’s ankles did not stop with the passage of time.

Even after receiving the transfer treatment, her legs did not move, and after the Master War began, she ended up becoming the Master instead of her older sister.

If Ellen was the master, there wouldn’t have been any problem.

Surely, many people must have gathered under her, and my sister would have done the right thing in this strange war without any strange worries.

And today, I revealed my hidden desires and ended up tormenting my sister. How much more must I torment my sister before I feel satisfied?

Since all of those snowballs started from his own malice, he couldn’t blame anyone.

The most terrible thing is somewhere else.

Even as she confesses all these facts, Yuren wants Elin to say, “It’s okay.” She wants her to pretend to lose like she always does and say, “Is this the only time?”

I feel like I’m going to burst out in rage at my own wretchedness…

Ellen said.

“I knew that.”

“What?!”

“I’m more curious as to why you thought I didn’t know. I’m your older sister, right?”

Elin was, of course, a bright child even at the age of 13.

It was all too easy to find something unusual around my sister who had an accident.

It is impossible to believe that my careful younger sister, who always holds on to the railing, suddenly fell down the stairs. How could I have thought that the cell phone, which I had taught her to always carry indoors, was far away at that moment?

Above all, I couldn’t help but think about the meaning of the strange smile hanging on one side of me even though I was fainting from the pain.

“Ah, you knew that…?! That’s ridiculous!!! Then, why didn’t you tell me!!!”

“Because talking won’t change anything. And… I’m your older sister.”

“Even though I did that… you know… ?”

Ellen smiled.

A smile that can only be seen when in noble mother mode.

Of course, Yuren, who had never seen that smile before, shivered in horror for a moment.

“You idiot. ‘Because you did that’, you’re my sister.”