episode_0038

Illusion.

Monsters that began appearing in the world in the 1950s.

They come down from the sky in the form of monsters from myth and legend.

Once they reach the ground and materialize, they act with one consistent purpose: the annihilation of humanity.

At first they are intangible, but as they get closer to the ground they gradually materialize, so they cannot be stopped by normal structures.

Since most of the places being attacked are residential areas, responding with conventional fire or armored forces is extremely difficult.

In a city of a certain size, if you’re lucky, the magician will attack once or twice a year, and if you’re unlucky, once every two or three months.

What’s interesting is that they seem to love blood and slaughter, and they will attack in large numbers wherever concentrated forces are present.

Thanks to this, the number of full-scale armed conflicts between countries was bound to decrease significantly after the appearance of the Hwanma.

So modern armies, unlike their predecessors, have been reorganized to accommodate small units with operational capabilities that can fight in urban warfare.

This is why a system called military school was established that taught all citizens to take defensive actions at the unit level.

Under these conditions, Awakeneds become very useful beings. Even if the Awakened ability is not suitable for combat, it can greatly improve the unit’s survivability and operational capabilities depending on how it is used.

Of course, the combative awakening ability goes without saying.

The assault on the Hwanma is always accompanied by tragic reports of casualties, but it is also a time when heroes are born.

The president of the student council at Wolmyeong Military Academy, Elin, was the case where she became a hero.

Let’s think about the most fearsome typhoon.

And let’s think about it as moving towards the ego, towards humans, with malice.

That was the mythical demon Typhon. A 200-meter-tall monster that moved around while surrounded by typhoons, it was truly a nightmare.

And it was Elin, who was fourteen at the time, who stopped it.

The scene where he stood in front of Typhon to protect his younger brother who could not walk due to a disability and subdued the giant while being completely wounded was recorded and seen by everyone.

Sometimes when she appears on the school announcement, everyone stops and focuses on her.

The special gothic lolita dress she wears instead of a uniform with special permission catches people’s attention. Her low, hoarse voice, a result of the aftereffects of the wound she received when defeating Typhon, sounds even more impressive because of the imbalance with her appearance.

What is there to hide?

Suin respected her.

Sexual desire… Of course I felt it… but it wasn’t in the form of a complex that was revealed as it was when I fantasized about other more attractive people.

It was a dream that was surprisingly simple, even when I thought about it myself, of being with her and not falling behind her.

That’s why when he met her by chance and she spoke to him, Su-in’s heart swelled as if it was going to burst.

It would have been better if the location hadn’t been a women’s underwear store.

†

A few hours ago.

Se-ha ran off, saying he was going to Sayane’s house. He told Yuna and Su-in to fill up on supplies and buy some clothes for Su-in.

But even after Seha and Saya left, Yuna was just absorbed in running around the playground.

Suin, who had been hesitating, opened her mouth.

“Over there… .”

Even though I said it when I thought she would hear me because her running speed was clearly slow, Yuna did not stop.

“Hey… Let’s have some lunch… .”

The conversation about whether or not we should at least eat lunch did not continue properly.

It was because Yuna shot sharply.

“Don’t worry.”

When Yuna, who already had a sharp appearance, said that, the feeling of pressure was tremendous.

Suin nodded without realizing it and hurriedly left the training room.

I washed up, changed into shorts and a t-shirt, and after thinking about what to do, I made some fried tofu sushi.

I thought that if there was any leftover, I could eat it for dinner.

I gathered only the ones that I thought were in perfect shape and took them to the training room.

“I made a lot and there’s some left over… If you’re hungry… .”

Yuna cut him off.

“Do you think I’d eat what you made?”

“Ah… Right… .”

[Creating Sound Effects] is my specialty. It’s natural to be wary when I say I’ve created something.

Seha even let me taste it this morning to confirm it.

As he turned around, sighing inwardly, dumbfounded at his own stupidity, Yuna suddenly spoke up.

“I’m not saying I won’t eat it because I don’t like what you put in it.”

“Huh?” I said and turned around, but of course Yuna’s expression was cold.

“I hate you, and I don’t want to be involved with you.”

Oh, yes… . I guess so… .

It’s not that I particularly like you. I just think we’ll continue to get involved in the future… .

Suin stopped grumbling inwardly.

Even if I think about it myself, it’s a lie. I liked her because she was a pretty girl who caught my eye, and I also wanted to get along well with her because we were in the same organization(?).

I was truly filled with the desire to start anew.

As if that could bury the things I’ve done in the past.

Suin left the training room.

I felt like I was the main character of a night game and filled up the basement. For some reason, I felt embarrassed to look at it, so I hurried my steps and went up to the first floor.

I put the bowl of sushi in the fridge and thought about what to do with it.

“I feel like committing suicide… .”

He muttered that while looking at the kitchen knife, then quickly looked away.

Don’t dwell on this thought too long, because the order Se-ha gave you yesterday still remains. If you feel regret or bitterness about what you’ve done so far for more than three minutes, you’ll end up asking Se-ha to hug you.

gets toyed with -> feels bad about being toyed with -> asks to be hugged -> gets toyed with -> (repeat)

In the meantime, another kind of self-deprecation is added as I realize my own reactions as if I am really enjoying this… .

…I really didn’t want to think about how many times that happened yesterday.

In times like these, you have no choice but to empty your head.

Suin lay down on the living room carpet and did push-ups.

His bony arms were shaking more than when he was a man. Sweat was dripping down his face, and some of it was running down his face and getting into his eyes, which hurt.

“Three… Four… .”

This is a push-up that I could hardly do before. It’s only natural that it’s more difficult with my current body.

But somehow I was able to increase the number one by one. Even though I couldn’t do them consecutively and would fall to the floor, gasping for breath, and try again, I was able to keep doing push-ups.

What comes to mind is the image of people running earlier.

My mouth dropped open at Yuna running like a bullet (I had heard that it was an awakening ability), and I couldn’t help but admire Seha’s awesome form.

But the most impressive thing was Saya’s last turn around the track before she collapsed.

With a face as pale as if lacking oxygen, he was running at such a slow pace that it would be more appropriate to say he was moving his feet rather than running.

The movements of the person struggling as if they were drowning in water while on land were so funny that I thought it would be a hit if they filmed it and uploaded it to YouTube.

He probably couldn’t even see properly in front of him. He looked so tired that he had difficulty even raising his eyelids.

But he finally caught up with Se-ha and fell down next to her. He had a really happy smile on his face.

“Thirty… Ugh. Thirty… … Thirty three… .”

It would be impossible for her to run as energetically as Yuna or as beautifully as Seha. However, if she could just endure that unsightly appearance, wouldn’t she be able to run like Saya?

No, definitely could have been done.

I could have done it, but I just didn’t.

It’s not because it’s hard. It’s because I thought it was disgusting and pathetic to be struggling so much over something that had no real meaning.

The one who is truly disappointed is himself, who has fallen behind even in such a situation.

I did some push-ups with that in mind.

The floor is soaked with sweat. The carpet is soaking wet under my palms and it hurts.

I forgot how many times I did it. I thought it would be okay since I wasn’t going to count anyway, but I was about to bend over…

The arm, which had lost the strength to support itself, slipped away weakly. The upper body collapsed as it was.

I unconsciously closed my eyes tightly at the thought of hitting my head on the ground… .

“Keuk!”

The shock to his neck made a strange noise.

When I came to my senses, someone had grabbed Suin by the back of her T-shirt to prevent a collision. And now, there was only one other person in this house besides Suin.

Yuna grabbed the nape of Suin’s t-shirt and pulled with a little more force. Suin was somehow able to stand on her knees.

“Oh, oh, thank you… .”

It must have been quite a stretch. I didn’t even notice when it came.

Yuna looked quite tired, as if she had been running the whole time. Seeing that she was barefoot, I wondered if she had taken off her socks and run.

“Just a minute… . The recovery potion… .”

I tried to pick up the recovery potion that was on the table, but my arm wouldn’t move. A dull pain came later. It seemed like I had overworked myself.

While he was looking embarrassed, Yuna reached out and picked up the recovery potion, opened the cork, and gave it to Suin.

And then he said quietly.

“I said it before, but I hate you. I saw what you did, and I can’t tolerate people who do that. It doesn’t matter what you’re thinking or how hard you try.”

The voice that spoke of absolute rejection somehow sounded the gentlest of all the words spoken to Suin so far.

“So don’t waste your time. Don’t expect me to like your reaction, and don’t expect me to care about your reaction. Got it?”

Because her mouth didn’t move, Suin simply nodded.

If it was a threat, a threat, or an enemy, I might have had something to say. Or at least I might have grumbled inwardly.

But Yuna’s reaction seemed closer to physiological disgust. And while being aware of that fact, she spoke with some care.

There was nothing Suin could say about that.

I just somehow managed to move my body and drank the recovery potion little by little.

As if it were a lie, the fatigue and pain disappeared. However, something that had been weighing on my mind while listening to Yuna just now did not go away.

“Get ready.”

“Yes?”

Yuna spoke to Suin, who was puzzled by her sudden words.

“Shopping.”

†

In any case, Yuna probably had no intention of completely ignoring Seha’s words.

Suin went out with Yuna and headed to a nearby shopping mall.

If you continue with the intense training you did this morning, you’ll burn out a lot.

However, since there are recovery medicines, there is no need to prepare for injuries, and since the training grounds allow you to set the environment, there is no need to worry about the weather.

As a result, I bought a lot of clothes, shoes, towels, etc. and had them delivered to my house. I also ordered snacks and drinks that I might need during training online.

If Yuna had remained silent the entire time while shopping, it would have been horrible, but she opened her mouth when she felt the need to. When asked for her opinion, she answered sincerely.

That alone relieved the mental burden considerably and Sooin let out a sigh of relief.

Yeah. There’s nothing you can do about things you don’t like, and there’s no need to like them.

In other words, we are in a business-related cooperative relationship.

What? You have to be friendly with her? If that’s the case, Se-ha, who is similar to her superior in terms of rank, should be the one to pressure Yuna. After all, she’s put in a lot of effort to build a good relationship…

As I was about to finish shopping with that thought in mind, Yuna got on the escalator going to another floor.

He asked as he followed along quickly.

“Huh? What else is there to buy?”

“Your clothes.”

I was thinking, “What clothes?” when I suddenly came to my senses.

“Oh, what’s there now?!”

“Ask Seha.”

Yuna showed the message she received from Seha.

“Please give me at least three sets of everyday clothes and two sets of going-out clothes. I’ll have to get used to wearing skirts, so take that into account. I’ll leave the underwear to you.”

A frightened Su-in called Se-ha, but the call was busy.

Yuna grabbed Suin, who was trying to run away, and went into the underwear store first.

The clerk kindly measured Yuna’s size and helped her try on underwear as she requested. It was a culture shock that she had to follow Yuna into the fitting room to do this.

To be honest, I had no idea what was going on, so I just kept repeating “yes. Yes.” in the hopes of running away.

I was able to endure wearing a sports bra as recommended.

There are cases where male athletes wear them, and there was actually a certain degree of need for them.

If she were a 2D female character, her breasts would probably be small enough to be a joke and an attribute, but it was different from when she was a man. When her breasts rubbed against her clothes, it even hurt a little.

However, I had no choice but to resist the request to change to a lower garment. Not only did the square-shaped garment look much more comfortable, but the underwear the clerk had chosen for me was also overly pretty and thin.

If it was children’s underwear that the clerk kept putting down and putting down, it would be too plain… No, I don’t want to wear children’s underwear!

“You’re going to buy regular clothes, but you’re wearing men’s underwear underneath?”

He swallowed his saliva without realizing it because he was afraid of Yuna’s glaring gaze.

As I returned to the fitting room and fumbled around with my underwear, I heard someone’s voice from outside.

“It’s been a while, Yuna. How have you been?”

“… Chairman?”

A low voice, as if slightly locked in a hushed state.

I had never heard it directly, but it was a voice that sounded quite familiar.

“It seems like you and Sayaya have made peace. That’s a good thing.”

“… What are you basing that on?”

“Information. To be more direct, it’s the unit reorganization history and attendance information. All the existing cadets of Unit 5121, except for you two, have left, but your attendance rate has improved and you’re always with Sayaya Yang when you leave school.”

“Are you even looking at that?”

“We try to keep as much information about the cadets as possible without violating their privacy.”

Since there were other customers who wanted to use the fitting room, Su-in was urged to make a decision.

I had no choice but to close my eyes tightly, stuff my legs into my panties, and pull them up along with my pants. I hid the underwear I was wearing in a shopping bag and quickly got out.

Just outside the fitting room, there was a blonde girl wearing a purple gothic lolita dress.

As I had guessed from the voice, it was indeed Elin, the president of the Wolmyeong Military Academy, standing there. Her blonde hair, reaching down to her waist, was shining colorfully in the bright lights of the store.

Although he is a third-year student, he entered the school 3 years earlier than usual, so he is actually younger than Su-in. However, thanks to his tall stature close to Yuna and his confident demeanor, he doesn’t really look young.

Her green eyes turned to Suin. And… .

“Oh my, Suin-kun. What a fun place to meet you?”

“…?!”

Yuna asked, puzzled.

“Do you know each other?”

“Oh, no… . It’s my first time seeing it in person… .”

“No, that’s not true. We often pass each other on our way to school.”

“… .”

I didn’t think she would normally say she knew that, but Yuna looked convinced.

The rumor that the student council president had a long memory and could even remember most people who just passed by seemed to be true.

“That’s not the problem… why are you here?”

“Oh… Hey, that’s… .”

Since he was called by the exact number of people, there was no room for confusion.

Suin bit her lips tightly.

“Seo… I realized my sexual identity… !”

“… Yes?”

“I… decided to live as a woman… !”

Ellen’s eyes widened.

There is no way that Su-in, who took the female transformation drug, could live as before. But there is no way that she could suddenly create a status that fits the present.

When I was wondering what to do, Se-ha said nonchalantly. She said that I should come out and say that I would live as a woman from now on.

I got angry and told him not to say it so easily, but when I thought about it, there was no other way. In reality, the body was a perfect woman’s body… .

“Ha, I plan to submit a letter of intent to the school… . I hope it doesn’t interfere with my school activities… Unit 5121 will accept it… .”

“Ah, so you came here with Miss Yuna?”

“! Thank you for helping me buy women’s clothes… .”

I thought that the story was roughly the same, but for some reason Yuna was covering her face with her hand.

The reason was quickly apparent.

“I see. Then I will help you as the student council president!”

And about 2 hours later.

Suin was seen showing off her black gothic lolita dress to Yuna and Elin.

Ellin, who actively helped Suin buy clothes, took Suin to a shop she frequented, saying that this was the one she recommended the most.

“Um… why is it like this… .”

“Because Gothic Lolita is the perfect outfit! Especially for beginners like Suin-kun!”

Ellen spoke forcefully.

Since Yuna had kept her mouth shut for a long time, Suin had no choice but to ask.

“What is… good for beginners…?”

“First of all, there are many places to hide. Bonnets and wigs are good for covering the jawline. There are many ways to hide the neck, such as with chokers, ribbons, and more. And you can’t forget accessories like gloves and stockings, right? Heavy makeup doesn’t look awkward, and since the outfit is flashy to begin with, people don’t pay attention to the details. It’s the best for covering up weaknesses.”

“I see… .”

But Ellen’s passionate speech didn’t end there.

“But there’s something more important. That’s the realization that you’re wearing a beautiful dress. (Crossdressing) Beginners often make mistakes because they don’t realize that they’re wearing women’s clothes, right? But Gothic Lolita doesn’t tolerate such mistakes! You have to be conscious of every movement and every posture! You naturally learn the appropriate behavior! ”

“Committee, Chairman…?”

“If you have a delicate body like Suin, it would be a disadvantage not to wear Gothic Lolita! You say it’s hard to pull off? It’s okay! Most women can’t pull it off anyway!”

“… .”

Suin thought.

Isn’t it a lie that I am saying that while wearing it so naturally?

“Plus, men have a huge advantage over women when wearing gothic lolita!”

“… .”

“That’s a huge advantage!”

“… .”

“Huhuhuh, you seem curious. That means you can hold it in longer when you go to the bathroom!”

“I’m not curious! I don’t want to know!”

I desperately tried not to wonder, but Ellen wouldn’t stop.

“Yes. Gothic Lolita is the best outfit. But the bathroom… The bathroom is hard… . In that sense, men are more suited to Gothic Lolita than women… . Dirty… I’m jealous… .”

“… I’m scared of the chairman… .”

When I said that with sincerity, Elin snickered like a child bragging about a naughty prank.

“… If it were my brother, I would have said that. I don’t think that way. ”

“Are you selling your little brother in this situation?!”

“Really. My sister likes gothic lolita and wants to dress both men and women in it. I just recited what I heard from her. Anyway, aside from that… You’re pretty, Suin.”

A sudden heat rose to my face.

When I turned my head in embarrassment, Ellin also chuckled and slightly stepped back.

“It’s a ready-made piece, but it fits better than I expected. If my little sister sees it, she’ll want to make clothes for me. … Please be careful not to get caught.”

“… .”

“Oh, right… .”

Elin, who was walking away as if saying goodbye, turned her body slightly.

And then he spoke with a cold look, wondering where the playful attitude from just now had gone.

“Suin-kun, no, Suin ‘Miss’. And Miss Yuna. I’d like you to tell the two Masters that I want to meet them soon and talk Master to Master. If possible, I want to settle this in a fair duel. ”

“What?!”

“Chairman…?!”

Yuna, who had been keeping her distance with an awkward attitude, approached him urgently, and Suin also reached out her hand without realizing it.

But the next moment, both of them stopped as they felt a slight pain. The pain of being hit by a whistle remained on the inside of their palms.

When I raised my head, Elin was already gone.

†

《Goal: Elin.》

《Attribute: ?》

《Skill Possessed: [Blade of the Mother Goddess]》

《Difficulty: Easy.》

《Start Enslaving.》