episode_0156

I stabbed Raoul Bergé in the heart with a dagger.

“This is….”

It would be natural not to be surprised, since you wouldn’t feel any pain. This wasn’t a sword meant for killing. It wasn’t swung out of hatred or anger.

“No matter how politely you speak… In the end, you can’t give a clear answer. Did you think that Yoo-bo’s story would be the answer?”

“Yeah. Not everything can be easily concluded.”

“I see… I guess I jumped to conclusions too quickly. That’s true too… No, I guess I don’t know either. It’s a contradiction.”

I thrust the sword deeper and deeper.

“I, who loved humans, denied that possibility… You, who considered everything useless, affirm that possibility… Is that so? That’s a story that drunkards in a bar can’t even joke about.”

I decided to thrust the sword deeper, using all my strength.

So that I can touch this person’s life.

“… So prove it. That the story wasn’t wrong. That I was wrong and you were right. Not in some vague way that you don’t know anyway, but in your own way that is certain and right. Prove it exclusively. ”

I put all the strength I had built into him. The years I had built up with her, the dreams I had dreamed with her, the abilities I had built up for her.

He poured out everything he had, sparing no effort, to dispel the shadow of death that had fallen over this man’s neck.

In order for this person to prove it, he had to live first.

“You who have received the love of the dragon… and the blood of the ghost.”

That’s why it’s alive.

I wanted to see the solution process to correct the wrong answer I made. I wanted to hear the voice that proved that my hasty answer was wrong.

Even if the process is a mess, it still has its own meaning.

That messy process will also become the cornerstone for someone to fix it properly.

“Take my heart.”

Since I could not fill my chest with the heart that had already been torn out and was wandering, I had no choice but to give it to someone who had also lost his heart.

If I had to give my heart, I wanted to give it to someone who had walked a similar path to me, but had arrived at a different place.

Even though I hate these guys, I think I was secretly hoping for that too.

That my and Rain’s hearts that loved them were not wrong.

It seemed like they were hoping for people like this.

“… I don’t want to live anymore. This world that you love so much. Is an unbearable disgusting thing to me. ”

I poured out everything I had built up.

In this way, the shadow of death began to subside somewhat, and finally, even the lingering scent of the poison began to disappear.

“Coolook…!”

However, it was no easy task to cut down the providence of death. Even I, who was this weak, had to endure it.

But is it worth it to take all this effort to save a life? I don’t know. I guess it’s worth hoping for because I don’t know.

Maybe it was because my head was dizzy, but all sorts of distracting thoughts seemed to be rushing in. But even amidst these waves of distracting thoughts, I still couldn’t remember her face.

It was just a little sad.

Why did I express my anger at losing something precious? Maybe it was because I was too drunk.

Who would have thought that the drink of madness that I drank because I simply couldn’t stand this world without her would be so toxic?

“Devil King…!”

“Now I am not a king or anything.”

I would be nothing more than a mere king who could not even become a good king. As a leader, I would not be much different from that emperor.

“… Now.”

I turned my back, putting everything I had into his heart.

It had to be me who punished me. It was not the sword of the empire that took the life of the one who failed to protect her, but the decision of a powerless man who loved that woman more than anyone else.

“It’s the end.”

I took steps towards the cliff.

“The Demon King is running away! Kill him!!!”

The imperial soldiers aimed their swords at me, but the emperor raised his hand to stop them.

“Put it away.”

“But Your Majesty…”

“I told him to do it. At least he has the right to decide the end.”

As expected, he is the emperor of the empire. He seems to have a different personality from me.

Only after finally standing at the edge of the cliff could I see the darkness beyond the thousand-foot cliff and what lay beyond it.

“I…”

The hateful gazes directed at me were quite stinging. I killed their friends, family, and comrades, so those gazes were only natural.

I will say it because I know it is a given.

“I don’t regret it.”

I loved her too.

It was he who started this war.

I’m standing at the edge of this cliff right now.

Because it was all my decision and the natural choice.

How can one not love that woman? How can one not be angry at losing her? And how can one hold back anger toward the one who failed to protect her?

I don’t know.

“I still hate you. No matter what happens, this feeling can’t be washed away. But I decided to try just one more time.”

The happy appearance of me and Rain who loved you back then.

In this lukewarm state of mind, hoping that even those happy times were not a mistake.

I decided to foolishly hope again.

When it comes to gambling, there is nothing more foolish than this.

So isn’t that more meaningful?

“Prove it. That my choice today was not wrong.”

I took a step back.

“Otherwise, I will regret my actions and come back to finish you off even if I become a ghost.”

I lay down in the void where nothing existed.

The only thing that told me I was alive was the strong wind blowing behind my back. Maybe it was because I resented the sky. I closed my eyes without realizing it.

How much time had passed? After the spider had set in, the cliff was covered in the darkness of night and it was quite cold.

How long has it been since I woke up from the cold? After losing my strength, I can now even feel the cold. The more strength I gain, the more distant I become from humans, and the more strength I lose, the closer I become to humans. It’s just funny.

Are you becoming emotional when you face death? You start to think of all sorts of trivial things.

Was it because it was night? Was it because he fell and injured his last eye? Or was it because he absorbed Raoul Bergé’s poison and became blind? Or was it because he was blinded by rage from the beginning?

I couldn’t see anything.

“… How miserable.”

By the way, it’s such a cold and lonely night, but why is the back of my neck so warm?

“You’re up, my king.”

“This voice…”

“It took me a while to get here because I was young and had to run from a village a little far away.”

I could never forget that voice.

Because no fool would forget the sound of my heart beating.

The me I dreamed of every night was living in a dead state.

“Argrita…?”

“It’s not called that now, but… Yes, your rain has come here.”

The small hand that touched my face felt incredibly warm.

It was so warm that the cold of this lonely night could easily melt away, so it all melted and flowed out through the eyes.

“Oh my… I… I… Really…!”

“Yes, I know. Your evil deeds. Your good deeds. They were all for me. So thank you. For killing people. For saving lives. Really… Thank you…”

I too reached out and touched her face.

Now that I couldn’t see, I had no choice but to confirm her face like that.

Because I wanted to feel that longed-for face, which I can no longer remember, again, even like this.

“… I don’t remember. I don’t remember your face, which should be beautiful.”

How foolish I was.

In order to avenge something precious, you will throw away the traces of that precious thing.

“If I knew it would be like this…If I knew it would be like this…”

“There’s no point in regretting that now, my king.”

Rain held my hand tightly and brought it to his ear.

“These pointy ears you said were beautiful.”

And then he put his hands over his head again.

“The white hair you combed every day.”

Again she brought my hand to her cheek.

“The feel of this skin that you said was like a jewel.”

And finally, she held my hand tightly and covered my lips with hers.

“These hands and lips that touch you every day.”

“Ah…”

“Do you remember now…?”

“Yeah… I remember it with my heart…not my head…”

This trembling of the heart will remain the same no matter how much time passes and even if everything is forgotten.

“Argrita… How are you doing now…?”

“I live an ordinary life in a very small town.”

“That’s… fortunately…”

Blood flowed down the corner of his mouth, but he didn’t feel sad at all.

Rather, I am just grateful that I was given this time in the end.

“Argrita… If someone like me is allowed another life… Then… I want to protect… only you.”

“… I pray earnestly that I can do that too.”

“And… there’s something I really wanted to tell you…”

I squeezed out my last breath and told her how I felt.

“… I’m sorry.”

“… Yes.”

Even the moonlight that had been shining brightly above the distant eyes began to grow darker.

No, maybe it’s because death closes your eyes.

“I’m just… sorry.”

She hugged me tightly as if telling me to rest comfortably.

“Rest in peace, my king. And…”

She spoke in a sad, slightly disappointed voice.

“I love you my king.”

iced coffee.

I’m going to keep making wrong decisions until the very end.

me too.

I should have said I loved you.