episode_0085

I was in love.

I had a heart-pounding love.

But I didn’t know how to achieve it. That’s why I asked for advice from the one who cries out for love.

“Love…? How can you be sure that it is love?”

I clasped my hands together and answered the Demon King’s empty question.

“I want that person. I want to do whatever I want with that person. I want to make that person mine. How can this not be love?”

“Hoohoohoo… Hehehe… Kekekeke…”

The Demon King, who was always expressionless, began to laugh, and then began to laugh so loudly that the world seemed to disappear.

“Hahahahahaha!!!! Love! That feeling! Love? Saying love and wanting to do whatever you want with the other person? Love? Is that love?!!!”

The Demon King’s laughter even sounded insulting.

Because you laughed at my pure love again and again.

“Yes. I will acknowledge and respect that there are forms of love that I do not understand. However, it is different from what I have. For me, love is accepting everything about the other person.”

“I don’t really need your opinion, do I?”

“Yes. I can’t ignore a woman who is looking for advice on love. Let me give you one piece of advice.”

Then, the Demon King looked at the flower he was picking, having lost all trace of his smile.

A single teardrop, as if condensing all the sadness in the world, fell onto the flower, and the Demon King spoke, trying hard not to show it.

“Love is a lump of all kinds of impurities. Joy, ecstasy, lust, pain, obsession, sadness, anger, jealousy… They are the seasonings that make love sweet. Love by mixing them to your heart’s content. But.”

The Demon King calmed his trembling hands by holding his sword.

“Don’t leave any regrets. Love mixed with it is so bitter. You won’t be able to bear it with a clear mind.”

“Love is a very complex emotion that also has side effects. ”

“No, the good points of love far outweigh the bad points.”

The Demon King drew his sword and swung it, splitting the giant rock mountain in half.

“Love conquers everything. It is the driving force of love’s victory. Love is an unforgettable spell of victory. Love is a sparkle that never changes.”

I felt madness in that back view, but I ended up feeling admiration for the madness.

Because I finally felt that love was something that deep.

I too wanted to raise my love like that.

“But what if someone appears to interfere with that love?”

“You’re asking the obvious.”

The Demon King answered, pointing his sword at me.

“I must destroy it. I must destroy the wall that covers the eternal sparkle. If you take my love away, I must take revenge. So that this world will be scarred like my heart.”

“I see… That’s what love is…”

“I will cheer you on. You are a dragon who cannot feel anything. I hope that you, who are abnormal, can reach love.”

The Demon King was a man who cried out for love.

That’s why I thought everything he said about love was absolutely true.

That’s why I destroyed everything that got in the way of my love.

But as I took a step forward, breaking down the obstacles that were blocking my love, he only took two steps away.

“Why on earth are you avoiding me!”

I cried, but he didn’t look at me.

I tried to make him love me by injecting my poison into his body. Every human being values his own life. But even so, he did not love me.

I was devoted, but he didn’t look at me. He didn’t love me. Why? Why on earth? For what reason? I was devoted. I couldn’t understand. I wanted to know. Why he didn’t love me.

So I was more dedicated. Because I thought my dedication and courtship were lacking.

I thought that if I broke down more of the wall blocking our love, if I gave her the pain that was the proof of our love, if I courted her more passionately, she would see me.

That’s how we planned today’s attack.

And yet he didn’t love me. I could tell just by looking at his eyes. The emotions in those eyes were definitely not love.

There was hatred.

There was disgust.

There was anger.

I could bear it. It was an impurity that made love sweeter.

So I could fight with a happy heart. To make love sweet.

But in the end, those eyes were filled with pity and regret. They were emotions that should never be mixed with love. Those emotions, which were not impurities, easily melted away and ended up completely denying our love.

What on earth could have been the problem? What did I do wrong? The moment I tried to recall that, the old king’s words that had been sealed deep in my heart came to mind.

“Little kid. Even a little kid like you will definitely experience love someday in the distant future.”

I denied the king’s words, saying that I would become the greatest king who would not know anything like love.

“Hahahaha! That’s not something you can do on your own! That’s what makes life fun! Anyway, if you find someone you love, that is.”

The king smiled kindly and patted my head.

“Protect yourself with the strength I gave you. Don’t cry. Don’t suffer. Don’t be sad. Because love is an act of stealing someone’s tears.”

ah.

Why did it only occur to me now?

No, this was the memory I sealed in the first place. I confined it in order to deceive myself, having committed an atrocity under the pretext of relieving pain.

I was happy. I wasn’t a stone that couldn’t feel anything. I just remembered it now.

“… Why on earth did you get stabbed on purpose?”

Will you believe me if I tell you? Will you believe what I say when I’ve done so many things that are the opposite of love? Even I don’t think you’ll believe me.

“I will believe you. Even if it is a lie.”

“Really…?”

“This is the will of a dying man. There is no reason to distrust it.”

What a lovely person. Those were the manly words I chose.

“How can I avoid it? The hand of the one I love. The revenge of the one I have sinned against. The regret of the countless things you have experienced.”

It might be sophistry.

This may sound like an excuse.

There is a high probability that it will be a pleasant-sounding slogan.

Because I am a creature born that way.

“Even if the whole world denies you. Even if the whole world points its fingers at you and says you’re weird. Even if the whole world mocks your regrets.”

“…..”

“I will accept it. I have to accept it. I have no choice but to accept it. Because I am a sinner who has tormented you.”

“What a pity. You are not the only sinner who has tormented me.”

I don’t care about other people. We don’t need those kinds of people right now.

“There’s so much I want to say to you… So, so much… It’s still piling up like a mountain… I’ll regret not being able to say it all, right?”

“Tell me, I’ll listen as best as I can.”

A kind person. A person who has a kindness that was created. And a person whose kindness has become poison.

“Raoul Bergé. My beloved rival. My strong unrequited love interest. The man I have been waiting for for so many years.”

I will love you as you are. I will not try to comfort you anymore. I will love you as Raoul Bergé.

“I’m sorry. I made you suffer. It’s okay to hate me. No, I don’t even have the right to say that. It’s not my right to judge.”

I took away the person he loved.

I injected him with poison that would eat away at his life.

She is the worst woman who tore his heart apart.

I can’t approach the best man if I’m the worst woman. Because the man I love can’t be anything but the best.

“Thank you. For teaching me love. For letting me die as a little dragon, not as a cruel queen. For letting me throw off this damned mold.”

I was able to take off the frame called the crown. I could now say goodbye to the ridiculous collar called the twin horns under the Demon King.

He broke it. He cut it off. He showed such consideration to me, who only broke his precious things.

There really is no reason not to love.

“And from now on, I will speak to you not as your enemy the queen, but as a girl in love.”

I walked towards him with my stomach pierced, taking tiny steps while my staff turned red.

And finally.

He didn’t avoid me.

Yeah, this is enough.

“I like it.”

“I love you.”

“Please be my lover.”

He gave no answer.

He remained silent, but I knew the answer very well. I was not disappointed. Rather, I loved his consideration in not putting it into words.

So I wasn’t disappointed and just touched his cheek.

“I’ve always loved you, even though you’re so clumsy and don’t even reply.”

I placed my lips on those lips that kept that lovely silence.

He didn’t avoid it.

I knew full well that it was consideration, not love.

But that’s enough. I didn’t know that consideration could be this warm.

This consideration, as if it were given by an old king, is so warm.

The silence created by covering lips is more ecstatic than hundreds of words.

This short breakup is happier than a hundred fights.

“Just in case. Just in case.”

I held his lovely hand.

“If I repeat this painful life ten thousand times and pay for this sin. If I wash away my filth and become clean. If I can just become a girl who loves you innocently.”

I felt like I was losing consciousness.

Death was trying to take me away.

But the warmth of the hand I held briefly took away that death.

“At that time, please give me an answer other than silence.”

“… Yeah. To do that, I’ll have to ask your name. So that I can remember you. ”

“Arisha. It’s Arisha.”

“… Arisha.”

As the feeling in my hands that had been so warm disappeared, my eyelids slowly began to close.

“I will remember you.”

“Thank you…”

I won love.