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It was an unwanted marriage.

It was a good thing for the family. Because it was an opportunity for our family, which was collapsing, to strengthen its bond with the Iris duchy.

But what about me?

I hated it. A lot of that too.

‘marriage? ‘Why are you doing that?’

For me, who lived like a fool at the time, having a family to take responsibility for was no different from hell.

Because I can’t sleep with women and I can’t drink too much.

I couldn’t even understand why he went out of his way to wear a leash and be restrained.

Wasn’t that person an illegitimate child and a mute who couldn’t even speak? It was terrible, as if my value was dropping.

But my understanding was not necessary for marriage. The only thing that remains is for the sake of the family.

So, four years after our engagement, we became engaged upon graduating from the academy.

As the worst form of tying together the burdens of two families.

Of course, during that time, I was drinking and going wild. The only thing that has changed is that he no longer plays with women.

Because I also have a concept. It was with the intention of maintaining the minimum line.

Meanwhile, she didn’t really interfere with me. He always had the same expressionless expression as if he were dead.

But those days did not last long.

I wonder if it is true that humans become mature as they get older. Five years after getting married, I started to look at her properly.

The reason was that she saved my life.

It was one night when I returned drunk as usual. As if the season of cool night air had arrived, my body began to tremble.

As I was walking towards the castle, I suddenly found her.

Unable to sleep, she was taking a walk in the garden under the brightly shining moonlight.

Although her pajamas were thin and quite cold, she had a dead-like expression as always. Like a doll that doesn’t feel anything.

I hated that expression. I feel like I’m ignoring it for some reason.

There was never a single moment that I liked her in the first place.

Was that why?

I was so drunk that I lost my mind and tried to do things that I wouldn’t have done when I was sober.

I wanted to see her expressionless face change.

‘Let’s make it a surprise.’

Even though he’s still human, wouldn’t he make a surprised expression?

Unless someone put a soul into the corpse, that would definitely be the case.

I approached her as carefully as I could, holding my breath.

Fortunately, the grass in the garden grew quite high, and hiding was not that difficult.

‘Just around the corner… .’

It was the moment to surprise her.

Suddenly, I started feeling extreme pain in my chest.

It felt like someone was grabbing my heart and squeezing it hard.

“Ugh-.”

A moan full of pain came out of my mouth, and my weak body naturally collapsed.

The floor got closer and soon completely touched.

I must have noticed the commotion, and I saw her approaching from a corner of my vision.

‘help me.’

I wanted to say that, but my mouth wouldn’t open.

I couldn’t even breathe as I wanted, so all I could do was gurgling and gasping sounds coming out of my mouth.

I was desperate.

But there was nothing I could do.

… Was not being able to speak this scary?

When that thought occurred to her, she started running somewhere.

scary.

I wondered if she might just stay in her room instead of moving to save me.

Considering what I’ve done so far, it’s totally worth it.

Four years since getting engaged, six years since getting married.

I lived ignoring her for a whopping 10 years.

It didn’t surprise me at all if she left me to die.

Because I can’t breathe, my lungs tighten, my vision becomes blurry, and it gets darker.

Am I going to die like this?

Will the life I have lived become karma and be returned to me?

Thinking like that, I completely lost my mind.

It was a few days later when I opened my eyes.

“Your body is so damaged. It would be better to quit drinking from now on. Otherwise, you never know when you might collapse again.”

The therapist residing in the castle spoke in a sighing voice.

The message to quit drinking was like a lightning strike, but it was nothing compared to the cost of my life.

Having experienced death so close, I had no choice but to realize it clearly.

… Let’s quit drinking.

However, what the therapist said next was even more shocking than what he said earlier.

“You should thank the hostess. If you had been a little later, you would have been in real trouble.”

“Host… ?”

“Yes, he came to me with injuries all over, probably because he fell while running. Since he couldn’t speak, he expressed his feelings through his body shaking, and I could see at a glance that he was desperate. Thanks to you, I was able to prepare quickly and leave.”

I couldn’t believe it.

Why on earth did she save me?

Let alone being husbands for 10 years, we were worse than anyone else.

I pretended not to see her, and there were times when I was drunk and said harsh words to her.

So it would have been better from her perspective to just let her die.

Even though she always had a dead expression on her face, she expressed it desperately… .

Anyway, it was hard to believe.

“Please do not move excessively for the time being. You must never drink alcohol, and I will personally tell the kitchen about food.”

“Okay… .”

After finishing the conversation, he bowed his head politely and left the room.

Left alone in the room, I lay down on the bed and lost in thought.

But no matter how much I thought about it, I couldn’t understand it.

why on earth is she

… Did you save me?

It’s quite funny that I, Gu Hae-jin, worry about this, but I wanted to know what she was thinking.

It was the first time I became interested in her in 10 years of meeting her.

Eventually, I looked for her to get the answer.

This was the second time. Meeting her with a sober mind.

The first time was during the engagement ceremony. No matter how much I did, I couldn’t drink that day.

She was taking a walk in the garden just like the day I fell. Sometimes I paused and looked at the flowers.

Of course, he still had the expressionless expression of a dead person.

It was completely unimaginable that she had such a desperate face.

“… .”

But why?

Her expression felt a little different.

If you normally felt uncomfortable with the feeling of being indifferent and ignoring you.

It’s funny to even think about it, but now it seems strangely attractive.

Her beautiful blue eyes were deep and clear, as if they were images of a calm lake, and her pure white hair seemed to prove her purity.

The word beautiful was not enough to describe her skin without any blemishes, and the harmony created by the concave features on her small face was beautiful.

‘Come to think of it… .’

It was my first time. I put aside all my prejudices and looked at her.

Because I always thought of it as an obstacle in my life.

Because I thought it was shameful for my wife to be mute.

but.

Actually, I know it too.

The real shame is my life, and I just turned my eyes away from it.

That I had no right to look at her like that in the first place.

I was a pathetic bastard and a trash husband.

As I was staring at her blankly from a distance, I could only open my mouth and not call her out.

What are you going to say when you call me?

Are you going to ask why I saved him?

I don’t think that would be a good thing for the person who saved his life.

And I don’t even know what to call it in the first place.

Let alone the name ‘Luna’, I have never even said the word ‘hey’.

As she was taking a walk in the garden for a while, she came towards me and bowed her head in greeting.

He had the same expressionless expression as usual.

Just as I was thinking about how to receive that greeting, she passed me by and headed towards the castle.

It was as if he didn’t even expect an answer from the beginning.

At that moment, I realized.

… We were a couple, but we were worse than anyone else.

From that day on, I started following her.

She spent most of the day working in her office.

Of course, it was where I was supposed to be and what I had to do.

After my father, the head of the family, passed away, I naturally realized why the family was moving normally.

She took care of me while I was wandering.

Even learning would have been difficult because I was mute.

As the daughter of a duke, this may not be something she is used to.

It was truly pathetic to think that I was drinking and drinking while she was trying so hard.

It made me wonder if it would have been better if I had died that day.

After finishing such hard work, she always headed to the garden.

The expression on his face was the same as always, but the fact that he stopped at a certain place from time to time seemed to indicate that he had a favorite flower.

And as I was watching, she came over and bowed politely.

But, unfortunately, I never returned the greeting.

I would have felt better if she had ignored me, but that wasn’t the case.

I was nervous.

At first, I just started following her out of curiosity, but at some point, I started to love her.

In a way, isn’t this a natural process?

save my life

Wait for 10 years of wandering.

Because he is silently doing the work for me.

If you don’t feel like it even though you know the effort, that would be strange.

The problem is that I’ve met a lot of women so far, but this is the first time I’ve felt this way, so I’m at a loss.

Drunk and wandering around.

I came to my senses and wandered off to something else.

It was absurd even to think about it.

But I couldn’t remain a fool forever, so I mustered up the courage to talk to her.

I told her what had happened and apologized to her. Even though I might not be forgiven, I had no intention of denying my mistake.

He also ate with her and slept in the same bed.

It’s funny to think about it, but I only slept with her. I was so nervous that I could barely sleep.

“Luna, what should we do with this?”

He also started calling me names. I sang it as much and often as I could before.

At first, she only responded with a blank expression and a nod, but soon she began to open up… .

[This year is a bad harvest, so importing grain comes first. Minerals should be put on the back burner.]

We started having conversations in our own way. Even though the facial expression was still the same and the conversation was written in writing, there were no complaints.

Rather, I was grateful. Because what I did could never be forgiven.

but.

Did God punish me for my sins?

The happiness that seemed like it would last forever did not last long.

“Go, head of the family! The Duke of Altria… !”

It’s been a year since I came to my senses.

A civil war broke out in the empire.