episode_0087

87.

PTSD occurs when a person experiences a severe shock.

Posttraumatic stress disorder.

In other words, PTSD is hidden in the mind of a person and explodes like a backflow. It is like a large time bomb. An explosive device that is deeply installed in the mind.

There was such a bomb in Kang Jin-young’s mind.

“… … Mr. Seonghan.”

Kang Jin-young woke up from bed.

6pm.

Since the major surgery to purify the mana circuit pollution, the weather has changed.

-I’m sorry, Jinyoung.

As I closed my eyes to sleep, I heard voices. It was an auditory hallucination. The scene I had seen at the research facility, or something worse, was repeating itself.

It was like a meme that was circulating on the internet. If you keep watching the gif video, it’ll make you sick.

If you experience auditory or visual hallucinations, your mind is bound to become impaired.

Kang Jin-young knew it too.

These nightmares came to her every hour. Her face was pale and pale, and she looked very tired.

It was like Kang Mi-young who appeared in the past cafe.

“Should I have gone with you then? No, it would have been the same even if you were away.”

Kang Jin-young’s eyes welled up with tears. She held back the urge to grab her own hair and tear it out. It was obvious that Lee Seong-han would hate it.

But the eyes with dark circles under their eyes were unfocused, like a dead fish.

The scratches I made by scratching my flesh with my fingernails stung as they collided with the cold wind.

Is it okay for him to live? It won’t be of any help to him. When Lee Seong-han went to face the Hunter Killer alone, the eyes looking at him were clear.

That’s a gaze that’s 50% compassion and 50% indifference.

‘Ugh, let’s come to our senses.’

There was no one to tell her to stay in a single room. She looked out the window. The room had glass windows and had a clear view of the Han River.

There must be another rational person over there.

I decided not to visit you in the hospital, but when I saw that you didn’t come, it was clear that something had come up. You came every day. It’s stranger that you didn’t contact me separately.

“No, you must be busy.”

Kang Jin-young put her hand on her forehead. She seemed to be thinking a lot lately.

I’ve been complaining of mental fatigue from the beginning, but lately it’s gotten worse.

If you live in 10 countries, you get to see all kinds of strange beings, but most people resign after only half a year.

No wonder it is called the ‘resigner generator’, an unfunny nickname.

Kang Jin-young woke up wrestling with her fantasy.

“I, I couldn’t protect him… … Blood and internal organs… … No. No. No. No. There’s no way Seonghan could die like that.”

PTSD patients have many symptoms, but what they have in common is self-destructive tendencies and aversion.

“About, about!”

Kang Jin-young quickly came to his senses and hurriedly opened the cylindrical medicine bottle on the table.

After a while, I took a few antipsychotic pills and swallowed them.

It will definitely get better.

A better future awaits.

As Kang Jin-young believed this inwardly, the nightmare gradually subsided. Indeed, medical technology can be considered the pinnacle of modern technology.

Even with mild medication, these mental symptoms can be ‘delayed’. However, this is also a last resort. It is not a perfect method.

“Ugh······.”

When I take medicine, I become dizzy. It reminds me of the cold medicine I used to take when I was young, but this was different.

I feel like my mind is going crazy.

The speed slowed down and the world became hazy. Kang Jin-young got up.

She got up from the bed and drank the coffee she had ordered in advance to wake up. ─ Lee Ok-bun had received a call from her family and brought it over.

I can’t sleep because the medical equipment installed intricately next to my bed makes a creaking noise. I wonder if the doctors even know about it.

“Was it like this when Seonghan was in the hospital?”

Kang Jin-young wiped the coffee off the corner of his mouth. His heart felt heavy. He lived with that kind of device right next to him, so how much worse must it have been.

It must have been even more lonely since I was alone.

The top floor of Korea University Hospital.

The highest security medical room that can accommodate VVIPs, it is also where Kang Jin-young is currently recuperating.

Because a Grade A hunter, more expensive than a diamond, sets up security.

Kangcheon. It was the consideration of the chairman of the Gangcheo Kyunghoe, but Kang Jinyoung was not interested. In order to meet Lee Seonghan, he had to meet with Kang Seojin. And Kang Seojin’s answer was, of course, [rejection].

Kang Jin-young pressed the ‘call’ button on the remote control attached to the bed.

After a while, a doctor came in. He was a psychiatrist.

“This is the sixth time today. Since this is a conversation we have every day, could you spare a little of your time?”

The attending physician came in and asked about the condition.

He was an old man with white hair, and his name on his nametag was written as Chu Jae-kyung.

“How is your physical condition? What are you dreaming about?”

“I had a nightmare today too.”

Chu Jae-kyung sat on the chair next to him and scribbled something. He asked a question right next to him, and Kang Jin-young responded with a retort.

After a few minutes of unpleasant interview, Choo Jae-kyung got up from his seat. It seemed like the Q&A had been fruitless.

“Okay, that’s all for today.”

Then, he contacted the pharmacist, asked for the medicine to be prepared, and left.

He seems like a very harsh person. I wondered if it was okay for him to do this when the patient was having a hard time.

There is nothing to do now.

Kang Jin-young lay flat on the bed.

Sleeping well, watching 4K TV, and YouTube are the limits. I want to contact Lee Seong-han, but what if I do and he hates me?

‘Irreversible.’

Kang Jin-young rolled from side to side on her narrow bed. Always busy with work, this kind of leisure was new to her.

When I was admitted to the Armed Forces Capital Hospital, I brought my work laptop and worked hard, so I was called a workaholic.

This time, things were different. When Jae-kyung Choo heard that, he confiscated the laptop.

They say rest is the most important.

‘Ugh. The Sunghan Clan file I collected… … Should I have destroyed it?’

Kang Jin-young was anxious. He felt that his equipment had been passed on to Kang Seo-jin and that there would be another problem. However, he was also cautious about using magic here.

The Awakened are kept in separate isolation wards, so they cannot leave without permission.

This applied equally to outsiders.

‘Well, I guess it’s okay to take a look with the camera.’

Kang Jin-young turned on her hidden cell phone.

Finally, I connected to the drone camera through a special application.

It was a surveillance device I got from Catherine. It was shaped like a bead and could be controlled remotely, and its performance was excellent. I checked the wall clock.

It’s about time he washed up and had a meal. Lee Seong-han was very strict about meal times.

Kang Jin-young swallowed his saliva. He couldn’t see it because of the interference, but he felt that today would be different.

“The way Seonghan eats······I’m sure he’d be cute. Hehehe.”

He turned on the camera and flipped through the screens one after another. With each screen flip, Kang Jin-young’s face became more and more frozen.

does not exist.

Anywhere.

Kang Jin-young became inwardly anxious. Why was he giving such an ordeal to a person who was now properly enjoying his vacation?

[Me; Video call (00:01)]

[Me: Take it.]

[Kang Jin-young: (I’m angry)]

[Kang Jin-young: (I’m angry)]

[Kang Jin-young: (I’m angry)]

I tried to contact him urgently, but the call was disconnected. The signal didn’t go through for a few times. I was at a loss for a moment. I wondered if something had happened. I was worried inside.

He is a man who charges forward without sparing himself even when it is dangerous. He acts at the front lines in an unmanly manner.

[Lee Seong-han: Sorry. I’m busy right now. I’ll send you some pictures.]

[Lee Seong-han: (Selfie picture of him making a V sign with girls)]

[Lee Seong-han: (Hamster…!!!)]

Kang Jin-young threw her cell phone away.

“Fuck!”

I couldn’t help but swear. Woman? A woman? You’re saying you met a woman and left me alone?! That’s ridiculous. I’ve never even looked for women like that.

After a few minutes of muttering, I finally got tired of the pool and laid back down on the bed. After letting go of all my anger, my composure rose to the surface again.

······Wait a minute. Where was I just now? His face resembled Lee Sunghan’s. I quickly picked up my phone and compared it with mine.

They look alike. They’re like bungeoppang.

Kang Jin-young was increasingly embarrassed at the background he was seeing for the first time. It seemed almost certain that they were family. Then, where could they be?

Kang Mi-young’s house?

My sister didn’t have a private house, but she had separate quarters for officers. It was so extravagant that people said it was really luxurious. I remember that civic groups came several times and made a fuss.

But Kang Jin-young shook his head. He was wrong. That was also a 1 point answer out of 100.

‘No, it doesn’t fit any room. That room looks like a normal house.’

In preparation for any eventuality, Kang Jin-young placed cameras in the officers’ quarters.

Just like Lee Seong-han.

In the end, there was no choice but to call an expert. Kang Jin-young secretly dialed the number. He probably hadn’t gone abroad yet.

“Hello, Catherine. I need to take care of something for a moment.”

-What’s going on?

“I’ll send you a picture······but please help me find the location. I’m asking you as a fellow countryman, ahem.”

-all right.

Catherine’s reply was quick. She finished observing in the same time it took Kang Mi-young to get dressed.

-I found it. Republic of Korea… I’ll send you the detailed address separately via link. This time, I’d like to ask for a 5kg pack of red ginseng. My back is about to give out because I’ve been carrying a lot of things for my husband these days.

I heard Catherine giggling.

It’s ticklish.

I blessed you so much to be married for a hundred years with your husband, but I never thought you would treat me like this.

But it doesn’t feel bad. Someday, I’ll have that kind of conversation with Lee Sung-han… … Hmm. Kang Jin-young didn’t think about it anymore because his face turned red.

My mind becomes clearer.

It feels as if the nightmare I just had has been erased from my memory.

I can’t see anything else.

weird.

It certainly wasn’t like this until a few months ago. Has my self-love become that sincere?

I feel good for no reason, so I smile bashfully.

“······Please stop before I kill you. Anyway, thank you. I’ll buy you a drink later. ”

-okay.

Catherine hung up the phone.

Muju. That’s probably where Lee Seong-han’s hometown is. A spark hit his head and he passed by. Lee Seong-han mentioned several times that he was going to his hometown.

‘You should have taken me with you! What a miserable world we live in.’

He quickly handed over the tablet he had hidden away. ─This was also something that Ok-bun had secretly left behind.

Even though I know the detailed location information, I have never looked up family information. The only information I could find was my parents.

There will be data in the secure folder.

Lee Seong-han’s personal information. And numerous documents he personally recorded.

“Here. Place of birth and place of residence as a child.”

It whetted my appetite. There were pre-printed photos placed here and there.

Lee Seong-han’s growth period was wonderful. It was to the point where the saying that he had not held a woman’s hand during that time was meaningless.

He was still handsome when he was young. Elementary school······Middle school, high school. It seemed like he still had his scent. Then the tablet turned completely black and a phone call came.

“… … Hey, who are you? Again.”

Jiying. Kang Jinyoung received the call with a very annoyed expression on her face.

The sender’s name is written as ‘slave’. If it’s a slave, it was his closest aide.

-Oh, ohhohoho. It’s Lee Ok-bun. Ah······.

“Main text.”

There wasn’t much for Lee Ok-bun to contact. The only things she did were running errands. Or, like, keeping watch.

-That’s… Kang Mi-young is taking a train to a provincial city. Oh. I, I’m checking right now. It looks like she took a car to Muju.

“Sister?”

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“Fuck. Where are you now.”

-I, I also just came to Muju.

My spine tingled. What if reporters had followed Kang Mi-young? Or maybe another intelligence organization?

[S-class hunter Kang Mo-ssi, in love with a fellow hunter. “He’s an irregular-class hunter! ”Certified by the Hunter Association Association President.]

Kang Mi-young is in a situation where she can’t go down now. She has to be locked up in this hospital for a few days. What, what excuse would there be?

widely.

A lightning bolt struck my head.

“You, go say hello to Seonghan. If you tell him I’m here, he’ll accept you. Go and ‘cut off’ Kang Miyoung’s bad behavior towards Lee Seonghan at your discretion. Also, catch the articles that come up. I’ll send some people to make sure they can’t set up a fire. Also, set up surveillance equipment around Seonghan. Gather information from his family and organize it in a way that’s easy to see with A410pt. ”

-···yes?

“If you ask me one more time, you’re a fool.”

-insect!

Lee Ok-bun hung up the phone. I need to yell at Kang Mi-young first. Kang Mi-young got in touch right away.

“Sister.”

-What’s going on?

“What are you doing now? Should we meet up for coffee? I have a long talk to do.”

-Unfortunately, I have a dinner appointment. I’ll contact you later.

Meal…seat?

Kang Jin-young swept his chin. We need to dispatch more personnel.