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[Episode 7] – Can’t let go.

After taking care of Elise, I noticed that Elise’s reaction to me was strange today. She smiled when we made eye contact like usual, but she didn’t come close to me as if she was trying to avoid me.

It was as if a high wall had been built between me and Elise.

‘Am I being too sensitive?’

Trisha remembered that when Elise was sick, she would cling to me even more. But today, instead of clinging to me, she quickly said, “I’m tired, I should go to sleep,” and blocked my path.

‘Did I make a mistake?’

I thought about what I said and did, but I didn’t do anything wrong. Rather, maybe being too kind was poisonous? I thought about it, but I couldn’t figure out why Elise was acting like that. Was she going through puberty?

He turned his head and looked at Elise’s tightly closed door, then sighed. He tried to be friendly with his family like Trisha had wanted, but it seemed that the emotional rift that had been dug deep for half a year would not be easily filled.

I tried to move my feet, which were not easily moved, and took a deep breath before turning my steps toward my room. Have I ever had a family, or a daughter? The homework that Trisha left for me was extremely difficult for me, who had never had a proper family.

‘Haa…what should I do…’

*

While everyone was having dinner together, except for Elise, who was sick and couldn’t come out.

Lily, who had finished eating, suddenly started talking about taking a bath. When I listened carefully to Lily and Sylvia’s conversation, I realized that they were talking about a bathroom that was too big for a family of four, but had a nice atmosphere.

“Mom. How about using that bathroom today?”

“You have a private bathroom, why are you using it?”

“ Sometimes, I want to change the mood..? I want to try it after a long time.”

Let’s look back at Trisha’s memories. It was definitely a place with a great atmosphere. If you time it right, you could even enjoy moonlight through the skylight. Lily even said that today was a full moon.

‘Moonlight bathing can be enjoyed on a full moon…’

To be honest, I was tempted. No, I really wanted to do it. I had never been in a large bathhouse where I could enjoy moonlight bathing, not even once in my previous life. If I could enjoy it here, I wanted to do it.

I tried to look calm and smiled at Lily and Sylvia. In fact, I was the one who wanted to jump up and down and scream in excitement.

“…Yeah. That’s good sometimes. You guys go in first. I’ll go in later.”

“Yes!”

I also felt the corners of my mouth twitch with anticipation as I thought about enjoying moonlight bathing for the first time. I covered the corners of my mouth that kept rising as I stabbed the salad with a fork so that the kids wouldn’t see me.

‘Moonlight bathing… but I guess I enjoy this kind of thing because I’m possessed by a noble.’

I smiled faintly, feeling elated with anticipation, and looked at the children eating next to me. The children were also smiling, as if they were happy to have a change of pace after a long time. Would Elise feel better if she took a moonbath?

*

And now.

I opened the bathroom door naked and met Elise’s eyes as she came in. There was a brief moment of silence, as if both of us were surprised. The silence was broken by the sound of large drops of water falling onto the bathtub.

hug-

Hug-pong-

The sound of water drops falling on the bathtub filled the bathroom as if they were playing an instrument. When I realized that we were both naked, I was so shocked that I hid myself in the bathtub full of water.

“Ah, haha… Did Elise come to wash too..?”

“…..”

Elise looked at me, frowned slightly, and nodded slightly. After all, did I do something wrong to Elise? Elise looked at my face and crumpled her expression.

‘What should I do? Should I tell her to come in? Since we’re part of the same family, can she at least take a bath? Would it be more like Trisha to tell her to leave? But I decided not to bother her anymore…’

As Elise was groaning and worrying without looking at him, Elise broke the silence and came into the bathroom. As Elise entered the bathroom with confident steps, the water remaining on the floor splashed with every step.

“Mom. Can I wash too?”

“Okay, then.”

“Excuse me.”

Elise smiled slightly, but her smiling expression felt colder than ever. I wish I knew why she was smiling like that. Elise didn’t seem to want to say anything, so she poured water on herself and came over to me and started to soak in the large bathtub.

I turned my head away to avoid looking at Elise as much as possible. The stimulation was too strong. Perhaps my mind was still more masculine, but I still couldn’t even properly look at Trisha’s naked body.

I turned my head to look elsewhere, and saw ripples on the surface of the warm bathtub. I felt Elise stepping into the bathtub right next to me. The water in the bathtub shook and overflowed beyond the bathtub.

And, up until this point, it didn’t matter, but Elise didn’t.

“, Elise?! What are you doing?!”

“Why? Do you hate me?”

“No…what are you saying…”

She sat down next to me, leaning against the bathtub. The bathtub was spacious and there was plenty of room to spread out, but Elise sat down next to me and rested her head on my shoulder. Something soft touched my arm, but I decided not to think about it.

I am Trisha now and this child’s mother. And Elise sat down next to me and leaned her head on me as if nothing happened. As if this level of skinship was so basic and natural.

I thought it was strange that I was avoiding it, so I pretended like nothing happened and raised my head to look at the ceiling. The full moon had already passed, and only twinkling stars were visible beyond the window.

The only sound that could be heard in the bathroom was the sound of water falling from the ceiling. Not knowing what to say to Elise, I quietly sat in the bathtub.

“…..”

“…..”

The silence is heavy.

I decided to get up first because I felt like I would drown in the hot water of the bathtub if I stayed like this. The moment I got up, the waves rippled and hit Elise’s skin next to me. Also, maybe she had been in the water for too long.

A brief dizziness came over me and I swayed in the bathtub. For a moment, I felt my center of gravity turn around and crossed my legs without realizing it. I didn’t fall, but Elise, who saw me swaying, jumped up from the bathtub, grabbed my arm, and pulled me into her arms.

“….Mom. You have to be careful.”

“, thank you…”

When I lowered my head, Elise’s entire body, from her stomach to her lower half, came into my sight. I saw water flowing down the smooth curves of her body, then flowing along the concave ridge, and the water entering Elise’s deepest part.

I was startled and pushed Elise away, regaining my balance. I wasn’t used to a woman’s body yet. The reason I covered my chest when I was taking a bath was to prevent my large breasts from catching everyone’s attention.

‘I feel dizzy…’

Maybe it was because of the hot steam. My eyes were spinning and my head was spinning. I wanted to get out of the bathroom right away, but even though I pushed her away, Elise kept holding onto my arm. As if telling me not to go.

“Elise. It’s okay, let me go now.”

“Mother.”

I felt Elise’s grip tighten as she called me. It was so strong that my wrist started to tingle and hurt. I let out a shallow groan at the slight pain I felt as my flesh and bones tightened.

“Ugh..!”

I tried to shake off Elise’s hand, frowning, but Trisha had never lifted anything heavier than a pen before. I couldn’t escape Elise’s grip, which was worn down by housework. In fact, every time I tried to escape, Elise’s fingers began to tighten around my wrist.

‘What on earth did I do wrong to deserve this…?’

At the moment I was thinking about it, Elise grabbed my wrist and pulled it. My body’s center of gravity swayed and I ended up in a position as if I was being held in Elise’s arms.

And then he whispered in my ear.

“Mother. Are you… going to abandon me..?”

*

When she entered the bathroom, Elise saw Trisha’s embarrassed reaction and many thoughts crossed her mind.

‘Why are you covering your body?’

‘Why are you reacting as if you care about me?’

‘Or is it that he doesn’t even want to show his body to someone who will soon be sold?’

As the last thought crossed Elise’s mind, a surge of emotion struck her.

I would have been happy if he had cared about me, but when I thought that his behavior was based on ‘hatred’, all the emotions I had been suppressing came rushing out and I couldn’t hold it in any longer. So, I decided to check it out.

He wanted to talk quietly, but his voice began to tremble without him realizing it, as he was anxious that his mother might abandon him.

Elise felt love for her mother who covered her body as if embarrassed, but also resented her mother who turned her head away as if she did not want to see her. What on earth is the right answer?

I clung closer to my mother to check her feelings. I mustered up my courage and approached her, but she was busy avoiding me. She didn’t even look at me. When our skins touched, she was busy squirming and keeping her distance.

In the end, her mother didn’t say anything until she got out of the bathtub. Elise pushed the bathwater away with a slap, and felt a momentary sense of betrayal as her mother stood up without saying a word.

It felt as if I was being carried away as the bath water was pushed away.

However, when her mother, who had just gotten up, began to stagger from dizziness, Elise unconsciously jumped up and grabbed her mother’s wrist to keep her from falling. It was a completely unconscious action.

It’s so ugly.

Elise felt like crying, as if she had proven that she could never shake off her mother. Her mother tried to push away the person who was holding her, trying to regain her balance while her body staggered.

The pushing palm was very weak, but it felt very painful.

Elise couldn’t let go of her mother’s wrist. She didn’t want to let go.

However, Trisha kept trying to shake off Elise’s hand. Still, Elise did not let go. If she let go now, it felt like her mother would completely abandon her and go far away.

Elise, who could no longer bear it, asked with trembling lips.

“Mother. Are you… going to abandon me…?”