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[Episode 118] – Was I the only one who didn’t know? (One)

“Bring your mother to me right now!!”

Titania crumpled the letter in her hand and let out a scream-like yell. A shout that sounded like vomiting filled the room. Mother leaves? why? You said you would definitely wait? There’s no way my mother would lie to me? Why on earth did my mother…!

“Mother…!”

I wanted to shout again, but in the end I couldn’t finish and my voice faded. It was because even though he was saying it, it didn’t feel real. Isn’t this all just a nightmare now? Aren’t you still dreaming at the academy?

Titania wanted to believe that she was dreaming.

It’s a terrible nightmare, but it’s a reality that disappears when you wake up.

A reality that can be laughed off, thinking it was just a nightmare.

I prayed for that.

All of this couldn’t have been more unrealistic.

The letters my mother sent me every month were always full of her longing for me. I want to meet you, I hope you come back soon, I love you so much.

I was confident that my mother’s letter, which was full of affection, did not contain a single lie. But, what on earth is this? When I came back, my mother said she had left.

That, too, was planned from the beginning. When I was six years old, all of this had been decided since my father passed away. So, it was inevitable that he would leave the royal castle.

That’s what it said in the short letter my mother left.

‘It was already planned.’

So why?

If you knew that I would leave this place, why did you love me so much? Why did you cherish me and treat me like a treasure, as if you would live by my side for the rest of your life? Why on earth?

If only you had known that you would leave the royal castle.

I’d rather hate you like I did in the old days.

I’d rather just bully them like they used to.

I’d rather just ignore it like in the old days.

Instead, I hope you have loved me until now.

You made it impossible for me to live without you.

Can you live without me?

I can’t do that.

I don’t think I could live without you by my side.

you are…

Finally, tears flowed from Titania’s eyes. One drop, two drops, began to flow non-stop down my cheek. When I cried like this, my mother always wiped my tears, but maybe it’s because there’s no one to wipe them anymore. The tears that had gathered on my chin could not overcome the weight and fell straight to the floor.

As I was just shedding my tears without even wiping them away, I heard the sound of the door opening. The Queen Mother, holding a cane, slowly walked in through the open door.

“Titania.”

“Grandma…”

The Queen Mother smiled bitterly and looked at Titania. Titania gasped and walked up to the Queen Mother, almost kneeling down and looking up pleadingly. Because the only person who could tell me that all of this was a lie was the Queen Mother. So, Titania confirmed the facts as if pleading.

“Ha, Grandma… Mother, is it a lie that she left…? “Right?”

The Queen Mother sighed as she looked at Titania clinging to her.

I knew that Titania was dependent on Vivian. Although the two were not biological mother and daughter, they were close enough that anyone would think they were biological mother and daughter.

There was a lot of talk around those two looking at them. It’s not good to see a princess who will become the queen of a country clinging too much to her adoptive mother. There was so much talk going on.

At the very least, we need to move Vivian away from Titania little by little. Vivian is ruining Titania’s chances of becoming independent. This wasn’t the only time a story like this came up.

When the Queen Mother heard that story, she was positive to some extent. It was clear that Titania was dependent on Vivian, and she had not shown herself to be independent. but-

If Vivian disappears, there will be no one left by Titania’s side. My mother and father are dead. Vivian was giving her the love she deserved from her parents.

The Queen Mother has so far ignored the comments of those around her, saying it would be too cruel to take even that away from Titania. He said he would take responsibility if anything happened to Titania. He said he would handle it himself.

‘In the end, I end up carrying the whip.’

And now, the Queen Mother let out a short sigh, saying that the time had come for her to take responsibility. I told Vivian to write a letter explaining why she had to leave the castle, but it seemed like that wasn’t enough.

The queen queen slammed the cane she was holding on the floor! And struck down. He then stared at Titania, who was begging and holding on to the hem of his clothes, and once again responded with a short, heavy sigh.

“It’s not a lie. “Vivian is gone, she is no longer queen, and she is no longer your adoptive mother.”

Titania shed tears again in response. Although I was a little scared when I was young, my grandmother’s eyes, which felt warm, now felt very cold and dry.

“…Has your mother really left…?”

“okay.”

“…Of course grandma knew… right?”

“okay.”

“But… why didn’t I know until now…?”

asked Titania, kneeling on the floor. He asks why he was the only one who didn’t know about this, why didn’t he tell him, and why did he hide it until now. Titania asked, pursing her lips.

“I heard it’s a fact that has been established since I was six… So…”

“I decided you didn’t need to know.”

It was only after seeing the Queen Mother’s reaction that Titania realized that all of this was real. ‘Really, my mother left me.’ do. I trembled as I realized all of this.

Suppressed cries began to escape from Titania’s throat as she clung to the Queen Mother.

“Why… why didn’t you tell me? If I had known, at least if I had known, I would never have felt this way or felt this way! At least…! “If only I had at least known…!”

The Queen Mother stood in place and looked down at Titania. In contrast to the red rims of his eyes, his face was so pale that it was so white. The granddaughter’s eyes looking at her were full of resentment.

The Queen Mother looked at this quietly. He didn’t pat me on the shoulder, whisper in a sweet voice, or even apologize for the whole situation. He simply did not avoid the gaze of Titania, who was kneeling and looking up at him with resentment.

“Why did you do that..?! why! With what kind of mind and mood do you think I endured that prison-like academy for three years?! It was just my mother! “The only thing that supported me was the letters my mother sent me!”

Titania screamed loudly.

I cried and complained to the Queen Mother. He grabbed the hem of the Queen Mother’s skirt, scratched her, and shouted. This didn’t mean my mother would come back, but I felt like I was going to go crazy if I didn’t do this.

“It’s not just the academy… It’s thanks to my mother that I’ve been able to live like this for the past ten years! But how could you do this to me…? Are you really not able to see your mother anymore? “You didn’t even see your mother leave the royal castle… You should have at least given her a chance to say goodbye…”

Titania’s sobbing voice pierced the Queen Mother’s heart.

Extreme guilt and regret. I had expected Titania to react like this, but seeing it with my own eyes made me feel like my heart was burning with guilt.

So the Queen Mother did not stop Titania from sobbing. Just standing still and accepting the granddaughter’s feelings was the only thing the Queen Mother, her relative, could do.

Looking down at Titania’s trembling body like an aspen, the queen swallowed dry saliva to soothe her burning throat. Vinchot extended his hand to Titania, who was sitting down, but Titania ignored him.

“Where is your mother… where is your mother…”

I was so choked up from crying that I couldn’t speak properly.

I need to find it. I have to find it. I need to bring him. I need to bring them back here. For that, please help me. Titania looked up at the Queen Mother with eyes mixed with resentment and pleading.

“I do not know. Vivian hasn’t told anyone where she’s going since she left the castle.”

“ah…”

Seeing Titania looking down at the floor with tears in her eyes, the Queen Mother shook off Titania, turned her head, and headed for the door. The Queen Mother stopped by holding the handle and muttered as if she was talking to herself.

“Two years from now, when you turn twenty, your coronation ceremony as queen will be held. “At that time, I will either die or retreat to a separate room, so you can take care of it.”

“I can’t believe I’m dying…! “Your Majesty the Queen…!”

“I don’t believe you understood what I said.”

Bang Chau called out to the Queen Mother as if asking what on earth she was talking about, but the Queen Mother continued speaking, ignoring Bang Chau. Yes, it was two years at most anyway.

Two more years until Titania becomes queen.

Didn’t they say time is medicine?

Hoping that Titania’s mind would calm down a little by then, the Queen Mother walked out of the room with her cane and ordered the maids to take care of Titania. At the same time, the Queen Mother gave an order to Bang Chau, who followed her.

“…For now, let Titania do as she pleases. Anyway, given Vivian’s personality, she’s probably hiding in a place where Titania can’t easily find her.”

“…Yes, Your Royal Highness.”

The Queen Mother stopped for a moment while walking down the hallway, coughed a few times, and let out a long sigh.

“It hurts…”

Both body and mind.

It hurt like everything was torn apart.

Bang Chau, who was looking at the scene, didn’t know what to do and helped the Queen Mother.

“Your Majesty the Queen… Please take care of yourself…”

“…Stop nagging. “This was necessary.”

*

After the incident with the Queen Mother, Titania locked herself in her room and did not come out for several days. Seeing him secluded as if he was a child, Bangchot just sighed as he looked at the tightly closed door.

“Princess… I’ll leave the meal at the door.”

As expected, no answer was heard from the tightly closed door. Bangchot sighed once again, remembering the past, then turned his head and went back to where he came from.

Titania closed the curtains in her room to block sunlight from entering and spent several days lying in bed. I couldn’t get any strength because my whole body was shaking with something I couldn’t tell if it was anger or sadness.

After her mother left, Titania, who had no one to rely on, wandered, unable to find a place to put her heart. Because my mother, my standard of life, disappeared, I felt like there was a hole in my heart.

I thought about it again and again with a slightly cold head, but in the end, the reality did not change. No matter how hard I work, what good is it? My mother wouldn’t come back here anyway.

Titania felt like all of this was punishment.

Punishment for having feelings I shouldn’t have towards my mother.

So, I thought that this result might be a predetermined result.

However, if I had known it would break down this quickly, I would have confessed my feelings a long time ago.

I say I love you.

That I love my mother as a person, not just as a family member.

I wanted to confess that and hear my mother’s answer.

I love my mother.

What do you think of a daughter who falls in love with her adoptive mother?

I’m no longer a child who doesn’t know anything.

Can’t you just see me as an adult?

You can refuse, so just stay by my side.

I wanted to ask my mother who left me.

Was it really best for you to leave me? Called.

I wanted to bring my mother in front of me, look at her face, and hear the answer directly.

Titania, who had covered her head with a blanket, shed tears again. I thought my tears had dried up because I had already shed so much, but my throat was sore from the endless tears. After sobbing for such a long time-

“It really sucks. Who would think this is a princess’s room?”

Suddenly the blanket rose up, and someone’s sigh was heard. As she rubbed her tear-blurred eyes, the sight of Veronica smiling bitterly came into Titania’s field of vision.

“Veronica…sister…”

“…Hello, you bastard Titania.”