episode_0238

There was a feeling of depression. It was caused by the frustration that I was a person who could not protect anything.

But Jimin, his voice comforted me as if there was no reason for that to happen.

He told me that I could do well, that I wouldn’t follow in the footsteps of my parents, and that he would do it himself.

When I hear those words, I feel really relieved and want to lean on them, but I never feel like I’m passing on everything to them, so I’m worried.

“… Minhee.”

“Yeah.”

I answered his call.

I felt a little relieved.

As winter deepened, I thought he must be tired too, having already spent several days trying to comfort me.

I don’t know if it’s because I’m a woman or if it’s just my personality, but once I feel depressed, the feeling doesn’t go away easily and I end up annoying other people.

I felt a little sorry about that, but I couldn’t control myself, so I was left with complicated feelings.

“Is it hard?”

“… Just, just like that.”

I still couldn’t figure out what to do with myself.

The trauma was engraved over several years, so there was no sign of it being properly resolved.

Well, there was no such thing as an obvious trauma, so it couldn’t be helped.

After waiting for a while, I hesitated for a moment and looked at his face.

“Jimin-ah.”

I thought about it over and over again. I worried about it over and over again.

I know it’s not a story that can be easily solved, but it’s a problem that I eventually have to face.

I was sad, worried, and couldn’t shake off the pain, but I tried to make up my mind that I couldn’t keep running away from it.

After swallowing a groan, I told him.

“… I’m feeling better now.”

He swallowed hard and said so, and his eyes seemed to shake slightly.

I guess you didn’t know I would say something like that.

As I said this while hesitating, he also hesitated and worried as much as I hesitated.

He narrowed his eyes and fell silent, and he held me still.

“Is that okay? If it’s because I said something unnecessary, then you don’t have to force yourself to say it like that.”

He was kind enough to tell me, but he knew full well that it wasn’t a story that could be dragged on for that long.

Of course, since I was still at that age, there was no need to rush into having a child.

But on the outside, he seemed to be drifting away, and he had already completed the marriage registration in advance. Should I say that he was a person with a lot of initiative, or should I say that he had a personality that was hard to stop? He seemed to be very volatile.

I nodded, because I understood what he meant.

He opened his mouth to fulfill his wish.

“I’m okay.”

I continued to speak with a smile, trying to show him that I was really okay.

“Because we love each other. We’ll be happy even if we have a child.”

I have a lot of worries and trauma has been plaguing me.

But little by little I began to feel that I could overcome it.

It could be said that it was none other than his whispers, but so what.

We are already living each other’s lives, so we cannot escape.

And I was living so happily that I didn’t have to leave.

Me as ‘Yoo Min-hee’.

He is ‘Han Ji-min’.

Now I couldn’t even imagine living apart from him.

So, having a child won’t suddenly make me unhappy.

Because he said he would do his best to make sure that doesn’t happen, and at the same time he would try to make sure that we were happy and not unhappy.

Even though my strength was lacking, I could feel at ease just by knowing that someone was with me.

So I wasn’t being unreasonable at all. I definitely wasn’t doing it because that’s what he wanted.

Me too, me too, I want to continue.

Because I’m hoping for it.

Now that we are a couple recognized by the world, it would be nice to have a child and raise the child happily so that we can live together without being apart.

therefore.

“… !”

The moment I brought that up, his eyes widened.

It seemed like he had a definite reaction.

I was really happy that he reacted that way.

If it’s negative, you’ll get a negative reaction, but if you see a positive reaction, you know it’s positive.

“Minhee… Then, are you really okay?”

“… Yeah. If you don’t mind.”

“I’m fine. No, I’m really fine.”

He continued speaking in a trembling voice, fidgeting with my words.

I chuckled at the sight and said,

“I love you. I am who I am today because of you.”

I searched through my memories. There were definitely painful memories. There was a past I was afraid to reveal.

But after that crazy experience, there was me who returned to reality with my body switched without my permission. And at the same time, there was him who hugged me tightly.

There was Kaylon, my warrior.

If it weren’t for him, I might still be screaming and dying in that cage.

If it weren’t for him, I might have been trapped in that story my whole life, suffering and forgotten by everyone.

If it weren’t for him, I might have lost my body to the god of the world and disappeared into thin air.

But, because he was there.

And because we loved each other, I am who I am today.

“… My warrior.”

The moment he said that, his expression became crumpled as if memories of the past had suddenly come to mind.

It was the face of someone who looked like he was about to cry at any moment.

In the midst of his overwhelming emotions, he didn’t know what to do with his trembling lips, but soon he silently hugged my body and placed his lips on mine.

It seemed sudden, yet expected, and I opened my eyes wide and smiled, then quietly closed them.

As if leaving everything to him.

After lightly touching our lips and quietly feeling the warmth, our faces slowly fell away.

The breath that had been felt just a moment ago has slightly faded away.

“Saint Veronica, what should I do for you today?”

He playfully asked me if I was reminiscing.

It was a joke that worked because the original appearance was Veronica’s. I was Veronica and he was Kylon.

“Kaillon, huh… This is really refreshing.”

It was a name that had been kept hidden.

It was a name I never used because it was a name I would never use once I went out into society.

But when I put it in my mouth, it felt like old memories were coming back to me fresh and vividly.

It certainly wasn’t a good memory, but perhaps because the colors had faded, it had been corrected as a memory.

Maybe that’s why I felt a sense of longing.

No, is it because I remember meeting him, because it was the moment I was saved by him, that everything feels happy?

I smiled bitterly and answered him pointedly.

“Do I really have to say that?”

“Yeah, I want you to tell me?”

But he immediately counterattacked.

I laughed in vain, dumbfounded by the way he seemed to be telling me not to even think about beating him in terms of wit.

Then he wrapped his arms around my waist and quickly lifted me up.

Then, she smiled quietly and carried me into the bedroom.

I groaned and looked at him as the scenery changed in an instant.

No matter how strong he was, whenever he stretched lightly like this, some subtle emotion leaked out.

What should I say, it’s an overwhelming difference in power.

If he wanted to mess with me, the power he had to do so seemed a little creepy today.

“… So are we going to do this until I get pregnant today?”

He threw me on the bed and raised the corners of his mouth.

I couldn’t help but be surprised when he said he wanted me to tell him, but then he came to a conclusion on his own.

As Kylon, his stamina was originally calibrated to the game world.

So when he came back to this world, I thought he had at most the energy of a slightly sane man, but he wasn’t like that.

I couldn’t help but groan as I felt like she was showing off her endless sexual energy to me, as if she had brought me from a fantasy world.

But what? You’re saying you’ll do it until you get pregnant?

Even if you use a pregnancy test, it’s not like you can get a pregnancy result overnight. Are you planning on just having sex until then?

I shook my head as I pondered that thought.

“It’s Yongsan anyway, so once or twice won’t be enough… ?”

“It’s hard to get pregnant after one or two times.”

“But still… ”

“No, it’s reality. Reality is different from games.”

He twitched his fingers and refused to listen to me.

We were in trouble. We gave him permission, but his brakes broke and he started running wild, so there was no way to stop him.

“Uh, okay, wait a minute… ”

“Saint, it’s time to take off your clothes.”

He politely reached up and unbuttoned my pajamas.

I grabbed his hand and made a sharp noise, “Eek.”

“Okay, wait a minute!”

“?”

“How many times are you going to do that?”

“… Well, well.”

He tilted his head.

That was more of a problem.

It’s scary if you just do it without even setting the number of times!

In fact, it’s true that men get tired of sex first. Men reach their limits faster than women.

But in my relationship with him, that kind of common sense didn’t apply.

Because my stamina runs out before his.

So my statement that we should definitely set the ending was reasonable.

I need to organize it so that I can protect my body.

I have absolutely no desire to pass out after climaxing.

His eyebrows twitched subtly as he hesitated, but then he opened his mouth as if he had made a decision.

“Until the baby is born.”

But the answer came back the same.

How long will this last? How many times will it happen?

As I groaned like that, his hands grabbed me and forcibly unbuttoned me.

“Eek… It’s happening… !”

I was so shocked that I tried to curl up in a ball.

He couldn’t possibly allow that, so I forcibly held him back.