episode_0216

When I sent her away and returned to this world, I was able to open my eyes.

Needless to say, this was where I lived. It was my home, where I lived longer than anyone else.

When I got out of bed, there was only one thing I did: look around.

A fluffy bed, a computer desk across from it, and a view of the apartment below when you open the curtains.

I shook my head to wake up my dazed mind, but all I got in return was a headache and dizziness.

Maybe it was because I was used to Kylon’s body being so healthy and strong before, but my body felt very heavy now.

“This, uh… ”

But now was not the time to dwell on such things. I threw off the blanket and got out of bed, wanting to know if everything that had happened up until now had been fake, if it had just been a dream that had passed by.

I sat down in front of the computer desk, supporting my heavy body, took a deep breath, and turned on the computer.

Woohoo. I could hear the fan of the main unit spinning, and then the screen brightened.

Surely, there must be a game I downloaded in the corner of the desktop. With that thought in mind, I clicked on it eagerly.

And all I got at the end was the screen I returned to after clearing the game once.

I was about to give up because I couldn’t find anything even after searching through the save files.

For a month, my body seemed to have been in a state of near-lymphatic sleep.

I had been sleeping all along, so I didn’t think I would be sleeping for a while, but the sudden movement made my whole body scream.

But even so, I couldn’t stop.

It was a cold day. You could tell because the boiler was off.

So, as soon as my body calmed down, I put on my clothes and even my socks. Finally, I just had to put on my padding and go outside.

“… After.”

It was unusually cold outside. I wondered if it was cold enough for people to walk around, but soon I saw a crowd of people swarming around, and I wondered if they were really walking around.

It all seemed like a dream.

I never dreamed that I, who normally live in a place where there are hardly any buildings higher than three stories, would once again be able to see that tall building.

All my worries about whether I would be able to return or whether I would be trapped like this forever felt like they were all in vain.

But now that I’m back, it feels like a dream and I can’t stand it.

I was sure there was someone precious to me, but I wondered what I would do if it was all a dream.

I was worried that someone might tell me that everything was an illusion and that in fact such a person did not exist.

I felt a surge of emotion and quickly walked away.

I took out the card I had hastily gathered and boarded the subway.

I walked towards the place I had promised to meet her, feeling a rattling shock.

Even though it was Seoul, I was the type of person who would just go to the places I wanted to go to, and never bothered to come all the way to a shabby neighborhood like this where there was nothing to see.

So, it felt a bit long and sluggish.

Yes, because there was a woman who told me exactly where to go when I didn’t know, I could now say that my dream-like memories weren’t just dreams.

The place we arrived at was just a place where people passed by little by little. No one stopped, as if this was the final destination.

I felt a bit sad because I thought I was the only one who had made this their final destination.

It’s okay though. Let’s hold on a little longer.

You never know.

With that thought, I put my hands in my padded pockets.

But may the slightly tilted sun set completely, may the once blue sky turn red and be swallowed by clouds, turning the sky completely black.

No one came here.

The place where I was standing was a path that others only passed by, and I was the only one standing in between, blankly looking around.

I did have that feeling, though.

I had a feeling that maybe it was my first time here and Jimin and I were waiting somewhere else.

So I started walking. It was late, but I still walked around here and there with the hope that now, if it was Jimin, he might wait for me.

I even stopped people I met and asked for directions.

But in the end, it was back to square one.

“… Sigh.”

All I could say was a sigh.

By any chance, there was hope.

But now, the thought of maybe has turned into despair.

There’s a saying that goes like this sometimes. If something you don’t remember appears in your dreams, it’s because you picked it up somewhere, or it really just passed you by once, or it could be something you saw on the Internet and thought of.

if.

“No, no, no… ”

It had only been a day. It was impossible to easily meet someone you had never met before in your entire life, with no means of contact and only a location and a name as a clue.

So, I couldn’t jump to conclusions too quickly.

Yes, you could think that Jimin might not have been able to find the right time to come out of the house, or he might have been hospitalized in some hospital in Seoul.

So, I couldn’t give up yet.

Still, it was late at night. The cold weather was blowing a sharp wind, as if it might get even colder.

The last bus had already left, and the subway was about to stop running.

Since there was no traffic, I decided to take a taxi back.

*

When I looked in the mirror, I saw that I looked a little better than yesterday.

The hair that used to reach down to my shoulders has now grown a bit longer, almost reaching my shoulder blades.

Does it suit you? Does it look pretty?

In a month, the trend would have passed and a new trend would come out. I thought, what if it had already passed? But then I changed my clothes, thinking that I could stand out with a fashion that was not influenced by trends.

She wore a beige knit, a thick jumper that reached just to her waist, and a brimmed hat pulled down over it.

If you wear pants neatly, you can complete a style that looks like you’re riding a motorcycle.

I tried to dress appropriately, but the truth is, I didn’t know what style Jimin liked.

What if she doesn’t like Sen Unnie’s style? I thought to myself, so I immediately grabbed Chang and threw him on the bed.

I put the clothes I had finally put on back on the bed, scratched my head, and then tidied my hair again.

The cassock that Veronica wore, the first cassock, was extremely revealing, but what she wanted to wear was mainly flowing clothes.

Then, wondering if women’s bodies would like flowing clothes, I went into the closet and searched through the wardrobe.

“Neither this nor this… ”

As I was rummaging through my closet, the thought that occurred to me was, what kind of clothes would flutter in winter weather?

In the first place, I only ever wore clothes that were flowing, so I didn’t really own anything special.

It was a headache because moaning didn’t make clothes appear.

“Should I wear this?”

Sky sky, it wasn’t that bad, but I looked at the coat thinking that it might be okay.

She put on a pair of jeans that came up to her navel and a polar fleece t-shirt that seemed to accentuate her figure, then threw on a coat. She nodded, wrapping a scarf around her head just in case she was still cold.

… I don’t know if it’s okay.

I still don’t know.

I just wore what suited me best and lived the way I wanted to, so I never really tried to please anyone else.

That’s why I kept wondering what Jimin’s tastes were and wondering whether or not I should take my clothes off.

If you dress too coldly, it might be a bit weird, and if you look too strange, it might be a bit weird.

After thinking about it for a while, I took off my clothes again.

I decided to change my clothes because I thought I wouldn’t like this style.

I put on a slightly loose blouse and tucked it into my jeans. After that, I put on a cardigan and then a padded jacket.

Honestly, if you have padding, you don’t have to worry about being cold.

I thought it was okay for Jimin to be a little cold because if he was shivering, I could just give him a padded jacket and take a taxi right away.

After finishing my basic makeup, I went out again to look for Jimin, who I couldn’t find yesterday.

Looking at the street conditions, I thought there would be less traffic, so I caught a taxi and got in.

I returned to the place I had promised, the place I had been wandering around so diligently yesterday.

I clearly came yesterday, but I felt like I missed you. But I shook my head because I felt like the moment I said, ‘I miss you,’ everything I remembered would just pass by like a dream.

“It’s cold.”

I bought two warm drinks at a nearby convenience store.

I thought about buying coffee, but since Jimin and I both seemed to be in a weak state, I thought caffeine wasn’t good for him, so I replaced it with bottled soy milk and put it in my pocket like a hot pack.

Since both my hands were warm, I felt like I could withstand the cold that was reaching my whole body.

Now, all I had to do was hold out like this and hand this over to Jimin when he came.

But until the sun went down, the buses and subways stopped running, and the cold wind blew fiercely and made my cheeks tingle, I was alone.

I held the cooled soy milk tightly in my hand, gulped it down, and then put it in my mouth.

“… … .”

Surely, this isn’t a dream… .

I hope not. Since no one can give me a definitive answer that this is real, I have nowhere to vent my anxious feelings, so I just gulp and swallow.

*

It was a cool spirit.

I couldn’t sleep because I slept too much yesterday, but I felt fortunate that I was able to sleep today.

Because the moments I didn’t sleep, I kept worrying about what if Jimin was actually my imagination, and it was so annoying.

I found clothes similar to those from yesterday and put them on.

It was an outfit that didn’t look too thick, and wasn’t too airy and cold, so it couldn’t be helped.

I just wanted it to look pretty, and with that hope in mind, I caught a taxi.

As I was staring blankly out the window, there was a loud noise from in front of me and the car stopped.

“… Oh my, student. I think there was an accident on the icy road ahead.”

At those words, I sighed, paid my fare, and got out of the taxi.

The taxi I was in was unaffected, but ahead of me I could see a car slid on the icy road and spewing out smoke.

I took a taxi because the road was open, but I walked away with a small regret, thinking, “If I had known this would happen, I should have taken the subway.”

I hastened my steps, thinking that if it got too dark, Jimin might get tired and turn back.

On the one hand, I had these nasty thoughts: Is Jimin there? Is it right for him to wait for me and then go back? Could we have been in the same world before we passed each other?

In the meantime, I stopped by a convenience store and grabbed two bottles of warm soy milk.

I couldn’t give up, so I bought two.

So yesterday, and the day before, I headed to the place where I was standing.

As I was waiting to get out of the cold at the entrance to the building, I saw someone in front of me.

A barefooted person with disheveled hair and wearing only a hospital gown was seen collapsing in front of me, breathing in small, colorful breaths.

For a moment, I wondered why the hospital patient had come all the way here. Did he escape? But the next thought that came to mind was.

The only person who made this their final destination was the person who had made a promise with me.

So I approached him without hesitation, saying I could tell without even seeing his face.

“… Over there.”

I put the naked padding over his body.

As I looked at her gaze lifting me up like that, I couldn’t hold back my heart’s surging emotions and burst into tears.

The moment I saw his eyes sparkle when he looked at me, I was sure.

Still, I opened my mouth because I wanted to hear that voice.

“By any chance, Han Ji-min. Is that right?”

“Yeah… .”

How long I’ve been waiting for that voice.

Although she was very thin, her voice was not feminine.

Still, I thought I knew that I was a person worthy of being loved.