episode_0198

pray. It was a word referring to praying to God.

I knew the meaning well, and even if I asked around, there would probably be no one who wouldn’t know it.

So, if you ask who they pray to, each person will say what they believe. Don’t even atheists pray to a vague sky once in a while?

But actually, I had no place to pray.

I knew the existence of God. And I also knew that if I pray, God will give me strength.

So my faith became a little stronger, and I knew that I was gaining more through prayer.

But at this moment, there was no God to trust anymore.

After I realized that God existed, but was not trustworthy, I no longer had a sincere heart.

It was a truly difficult story, but it reminded me once again of what I could do since it was something that could not be undone.

In fact, I was no longer useful because I could no longer use the torch.

I was an ambiguous being to the point where I didn’t think it was serious even when I heard stories like “I should immediately draw blood and get treatment.”

I needed a place to pray.

To whom?

Anywhere, please.

I desperately tried to find it.

However, it was not something that could be found just by wishing for it once.

“Veronica?”

I felt like I was thinking too much.

Realizing that I had been standing still and dazed, I opened my eyes wide and looked at Kailon who had called me.

“Are you okay?”

When Kylon asked about my condition, I immediately nodded.

“Uh, it’s okay.”

I do not know.

It’s a place to pray. I have never looked for a separate place to pray.

God doesn’t listen to my prayers.

In fact, I didn’t even know that God existed.

It definitely existed in this world, but didn’t it exist in the world I originally lived in?

That’s why I didn’t pray for anything else.

It may be that they are able to remain indifferent because they received equal neglect rather than unequal salvation.

Nothing good happened just because you received God’s love or attention.

If you think about it, it was like that.

I can say that it was a really good thing that I was able to meet Kailon, but with a mouth that couldn’t even taste properly, and a body that aroused the greed of others by coming back even after being injured or dying.

I couldn’t say I was happy about it, so I didn’t think that God’s favor would always go in a good direction.

Furthermore, it seems so far away because I can no longer pray to the person who tried to take my body.

A small village in the distance was burning.

Starting from that village, red lightning struck and there was a rumbling sound of thunder.

Even when seen from a distance, it makes people feel cold, but when you get closer, it’s scary.

So, with one worry in mind, I walked to the place where the tragedy occurred.

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Tenth village. Although it looks like a lot of things were put together, the basic base was a brick house.

It would have looked pretty with all the trees around, but now there was nothing like that.

If the tree was a little tall, it would be struck by red lightning, burning its green leaves and collapsing, and the building was slowly collapsing.

People tried to disperse in confusion, but they were quickly caught by demons and were beaten to death, which was shocking.

I covered my mouth and swallowed the indescribable feeling.

It wasn’t just me.

Kailon, Linda, Agnes, and Flora, who had just faced this tragedy, were all tense and contemplative.

And at the end, a cavalryman riding a skeletal horse looked towards us.

Kirik, Kirik.

Makes unpleasant noises.

A horse with a dark green glow came walking at different angles, making bone noises.

The demon’s eyes were glowing green, and his skin was purple, just like Kylon had told him about before.

It was proof that it was Mine. But it was not the devil.

Because the weapon he was holding was a spear, not a great sword.

“… Disgusting human being.”

The moment I got closer, I heard that voice and at the same time the horse kicked the ground.

The eyes of the demons around were focused.

There was no time to prepare.

We got close to this village, and as soon as we stepped inside, a fight broke out, as if the fight had already begun.

Mine hates humans. It’s impossible to hate people who occupy the world as if they were their own, so they quickly show hostility.

Kylon reached out and took the great sword in his inventory.

The moment Flora raised her staff to the sky, it became a signal and they clashed.

A stream of water that drenched the ground from the roaring clouds quickly transformed into a huge downpour and drenched the world, and in the meantime, Kaaang! And a strong hitting sound was heard.

“Linda! Agnes!”

Flora shouted on behalf of Kylon, who had already entered the battle, and Linda, who nodded to her words, took the left and right positions with knuckles on her fists, and Agnes with a rapier in her hands.

Flora struck down lightning to assist them once in a while, and the flash of red light created by the Demon King’s army and the flash of yellow light created by Flora disturbed their vision.

The way they quickly found their feet and engaged in battle looked like skilled warriors.

Linda, Agnes, and Flora were immediately blocking other demons who were trying to intervene with Kylon and the horsemen who appeared to be generals.

Even as the sky was roaring and his clothes were getting wet and his body was getting heavy from the pouring rain, Kailon quickly put away the spear as if it was okay, then turned his back and tried to stab the sword into the body again.

But what stops it is words.

It was an undead horse with nothing left but bones.

Crack. The sound of bones splitting through the air was heard, but since it had no vocal cords, it did not scream and simply pushed Kylon away.

“Ugh!”

As I watched Kylon being pushed away, I became nervous and quickly took out the dagger that Kylon had given me and held it in my hand.

In fact, I did not know that there was no room for me to intervene in a situation where strength versus strength and skill versus skill were involved.

I was even worried about how much my blood would color the world while it was raining like this.

But, still, I couldn’t help but eagerly watch the fight.

The moment Kylon was pushed away, the horse kicked the ground and stood up.

The front paws stamped on the ground with the intention of trampling Kylon, but I could see him rolling his body to avoid it.

As expected, this seemed to happen because the Holy Sword had no power.

If I had the power of the Holy Sword, I would have been able to cut down what looked like a cavalryman or a general in an instant, but it was a shame.

So I watched for a while and then lowered my head.

What I saw like that was my wrist, a dagger sharpened to dig into it.

pray. Find a place to pray.

Find something you can truly believe in.

If you couldn’t believe in the God of this world, all you had to do was change the definition of God and believe in something else.

A being who can change the world if he puts his mind to it.

A being that can color this area with its own color at will.

A being that can grant someone’s wish.

What on earth is God?

No matter how much I thought about it, in the end, I felt like calling an omnipotent being who would put my mind at ease was called God.

Omniscience knows everything,

Almighty is the one who does everything.

It’s also difficult. I didn’t know what God was.

They say that it was God who drew and created the world, but in fact, when you look at other countries in the world, you remember that this does not necessarily seem to be the case.

So wouldn’t God be a word that refers to a being who ultimately protects someone and provides a place to lean on?

This may sound profane.

If someone hears it, they might swear.

But I can’t help it, I sincerely hope.

“… Please save me!”

The voices of residents who lived here were heard.

The voice that desperately prayed was a request for Mine to be saved as well.

“Please. please… !”

Another voice was heard.

My mind went blank as I wondered if this was also a prayer.

I was trying to change my definition and perception of prayer and God, and in the meantime, I looked around with my eyes wide open at the noise that was creating confusion.

Again, I had no place to pray.

Even the person who created this world urges the devil to destroy this world quickly, so how can one pray to such a person?

If you call someone God who is weak and can easily do what you cannot do.

What I believe in is myself, and I hope that I can manage to do what I cannot do on my own.

So I prayed to myself.

I may not think of myself as God, but I can at least pray to myself and push myself forward.

I made up my mind.

I tightened my hand holding the hilt of the sword and buried the blade into my skin.

Phew. The sound of cutting into skin could be said to be truly unpleasant.

At the same time, it hurt so much that I felt like crying.

Still, I couldn’t stop, so I tightened my trembling hand, cut my wrist, and sharply pulled out the knife.

The sword drew an arc, and the overflowing blood also drew an arc in the air.

It was quickly washed away by the falling rain and fell to the ground, but it didn’t stop from being my blood, so I just held it there.

“I hope.”

Since you are not praying to God, there is no reason to use honorifics.

There is no reason to be formal.

“Those who take away people’s lives… ”

Slurp, slap, slap, I walk over the puddles formed by the pouring rain.

Blood was gushing out of my left wrist like a fountain, and I felt dizzy from the loss of blood.

But that didn’t mean I could just sit there, so I continued talking.

“May it all be burned.”

This moment when it rains.

An undying flame bloomed between them.