episode_0196

“Ah… ”

A small moan.

A lot of pleasure had already passed through my body, and the lingering sensations that followed one after another made my body flinch.

I felt like my head was floating.

I took a deep breath to soothe the sensation that still hadn’t gone away.

“… Veronica.”

Kylon’s whispering voice was heard.

After that, his body came next to me. I could see on his face that he, too, had reached his limit.

I thought he was going to say something more when he called me, but after that, he just kept breathing and was silent, perhaps because he was tired.

I was exhausted too, so I just closed my eyes.

I hope this feeling continues.

*

Morning has arrived. That fact could always be known by the chirping of birds in the morning.

“Ugh,” I barely got up, and I quickly realized that Kylon and I were sleeping in the same bed.

I couldn’t help but sigh as I looked at Kylon sleeping peacefully, just twitching his eyebrows.

How much did you do yesterday?

Thinking about that, I tried to shake off my throbbing brain and trace my memories, but there was no way I could count them.

It was only natural that I lost consciousness while being stabbed.

Besides, isn’t the number of sexual encounters originally measured by the number of times a man ejaculates?

There were parts where it was difficult to count because the woman’s body continued to move once in a while while being penetrated, and afterward, her body climaxed greatly.

But it’s crazy to even count the number of times I climaxed.

After taking a deep breath, I stretched out to relieve my sore body.

Now, it wasn’t awkward to be in the same bed as Kylon, and I was embarrassed after having sex, but unlike before, I felt embarrassed. Get out quickly! That feeling has long since disappeared.

As he was sighing, “Huh,” a small moan escaped from Kailon’s mouth.

“… Ugh, uh.”

Am I having a nightmare?

The face, which had been fine until now, was severely distorted.

I looked at him blankly, then lowered the hand I had raised to stretch and placed my hand on his face.

As I carefully moved my hand and stroked his cheek, all I could see was Kailon, who was sweating coldly and groaning.

What am I dreaming about? As he thought so, a voice came out of his mouth along with a small moan.

“… don’t go… ”

The voice seemed to be trying to stop someone from going, and I could only stare blankly at the sight.

Dreams are the realm of the unconscious. I couldn’t figure out who was giving Kailon such a hard time there and leaving.

No, is it because I’m leaving that I’m making that kind of voice?

In fact, it’s impossible not to feel anxious.

Even when he was fighting the goddess, Kylon had already stepped on the threshold of death.

It was impossible for him to be without fear of death.

If it were the first Kylon, let’s just enjoy it and die since we’re going to die anyway! This is something you might have said.

However, most people think differently after experiencing death, especially if they have experienced death just passing by the tip of their nose.

When you die, there is nothing left.

If you die, you lose everything you have.

Even if a funeral was held and a grand memorial service was held, in the end, the person who died would die like a fire going out without knowing anything, and nothing would be more meaningless than that.

So, I guess that’s it.

Starting today, we will head to the tenth village, and after that, we will head straight to the Demon King’s Castle, so of course it will be scary.

It would have been better if I had felt satisfied enough to leave without any regrets.

But it wasn’t so.

Kailon had regrets, and so did I.

Before I met Kylon, I might have given up and tried to die, but not now, so it wasn’t like I couldn’t understand his anxiety.

Of course, I wondered if it was too much of a leap to think about it to the extent of having a nightmare, but since it was still a thought that occurred to me, I decided to just think about it the way I wanted to.

Because I didn’t want to die.

Not just me, but Kylon.

If we continue riding the carriage like this, we will head to the tenth village in one day.

After that, if you walk to the place where the Demon King is, it will take a few days.

But after that, when he faced the Demon King, there were few things he could use to deal with it.

weapon. The Holy Sword no longer receives the power of God. Therefore, it was nothing more or less than an ordinary greatsword.

Even though the reinforcement stone is attached, it no longer receives the power of God, so it is meaningless for the vessel to contain that power to become larger.

rosary. The rosary that I had previously prayed for and given protection to when I received the power of God was no longer used.

I didn’t think it was a waste of my one chance to save my life, but if I had known it would be like this, I would have made two or three. All that remained was regret.

“Ha.”

In the end, it’s all a pity. That thought.

If I had done my best, I wouldn’t have had any regrets even if I lost, but since that doesn’t exist, the only thought that was truly regretful remained and disturbed my mind.

Are we all just dolls? Would it be impossible to defeat the Demon King without the power of God? Thinking about that, I pursed my lips.

Still, I couldn’t help but fight.

No matter how inadequate or unprepared I was, I couldn’t avoid a fight, so in the end, I just strengthened my resolve.

I will never be protected.

It’s not just about always bleeding behind the scenes and protecting Kylon.

There was nothing I couldn’t deal with if it were a demon king or a demon king wearing demonic gear.

I didn’t know if I could win, but I didn’t think I would lose.

Because you won’t die anyway.

Of course, if he was incapacitated, there would be no answer after that, but until then, he would be able to burn the demon king.

I can’t lift a heavy sword, but I can use my flying ability with just a dagger or a knife, so I don’t need a separate heavy sword. It meant I didn’t have to swing a sword that didn’t do my job.

I swallowed my saliva from the tension and carefully got up.

Unlike before, Kylon seemed to be okay with getting dressed right away, probably because he had fallen asleep after using the cleanliness spell.

After roughly changing my clothes and taking a deep breath, Kailon’s eyes opened.

“… veronica. Did you sleep well?”

“Yeah, what about Kylon?”

“Yes, me too… ”

When I saw Kailon answering in his sleep, perhaps because he was sleepy, a tired smile appeared.

I was still watching that scene for a moment, then sat down on the bed where I should have been lying and rolled over.

Rolling over the bed naked felt good, but I realized once again that rolling over the bed with clothes felt good too, so I pulled the blanket over me.

If we take a short break like this, we’ll be leaving right away. I’ll have to work hard.

As I sighed while thinking that, Kailon stood up and tried to come to his senses by washing his face.

“Ah… It seems like I’ve been lacking sleep lately.”

I laughed out loud at Kailon’s shameless remark.

“… Wouldn’t it have been nice if it had just ended with a kiss yesterday?”

“You never know. Now I really have to fight for my life.”

“Okay, since you said that, I have nothing to say… ”

The words “maybe” and “this is the last time” were enough to stop me from speaking.

There was a threat of death right in front of me, and I knew very well that if I left behind regrets, they would only remain and torment my heart until the end.

As I said well yesterday, I had no intention of getting help alone this time.

Even if they told me to just give them blood and hide in a safe place, I wouldn’t have obeyed them.

I will fight too. As I was making up my mind like that, Kylon’s sly voice approached me.

“Right? Give me a kiss in the morning.”

“… Are you half asleep?”

“Yes. Do you think you will wake up if you receive it?”

Ax’s eyes suddenly opened.

I looked like I was tired of hearing that voice, but I couldn’t ignore Kailon, who was willing to fight for me, so I muttered.

“… okay. If you do it, it will happen, right?”

“Hmm… Thank you.”

When I kissed him on the mouth, he raised the corners of his mouth as if he was in a good mood and got up from the bed.

Then I started putting on clothes one by one.

As I looked at Kailon, I carefully said what I wanted to say.

“I will fight too.”

“… Yes.”

“I’m not talking about just giving blood and staying quiet.”

“… … .”

Kylon fell silent at my next words.

I couldn’t speak any more.

Yesterday just passed by and I am there. Since he just said that, it wasn’t strange for him to react like that.

So, I tried to make it clear again.

“So there is no need to risk your life that much.”

“… veronica. Me, that… ”

“Like I said yesterday, there’s nothing to be sorry about.”

Kylon was a warrior. He was the main character.

It is always said that the main character in life is oneself, but there was a person who proudly existed as if that was not always the case.

So, the main character was Kylon.

Because he was the hero who saved me.

But that didn’t necessarily mean he had to fight the fight alone.

So, I was going to fight.

It was the answer to what I had been worrying about before and until this very moment.

“… So I’m going to die.”

Die. I will die.

But it wasn’t defeat, and it didn’t mean I would disappear completely.

I was immortal, so unlike others, death did not mean defeat or extinction.

So I thought it was something only I could do.

So I will die.

“Over and over again.”

Until you win.

There is no divine power.

I don’t even have the strength of a warrior.

Then the only way to win is if I die and burn my body.

I just thought there was no other way.