episode_0172

When I saw Kylon change his seat, I thought the talk was getting longer. So, I started eating first because I was worried that if I waited, I would get hungry and the food would get cold and taste less and less delicious.

I said I could eat it first, so it should be okay.

As I was putting in the meat, tilting the canteen, and mumbling, I saw Kailon entering the restaurant again. I tried to welcome them warmly, but I guess they came in with heroines after that.

I said it was okay when I apologized, but when I actually brought him, my first thought was, ‘You’re really bringing me here…’ ‘It was.

I was a woman who was deceived, and there are many stories on the Internet that say women are merciless to each other, so I thought it would be like that this time too, but I had forgotten that even though Kailon may be merciless to others, he listens well to my story.

A sigh came out of my mouth.

Is it only in times like this that I listen well? Because I want to.

But that doesn’t mean, even though I said this, I have to take care of it like this, right? Isn’t that impossible to argue with?

I didn’t want to seem like an annoying girl, so I just smiled, thinking it was good that she listened to what I had to say.

Those who received an awkward apology and wanted to return to the party in a difficult situation were not received very well.

No matter how many people talk about it, in the end, they tried to kill me, and weren’t they the ones who killed me once?

The story was that if I didn’t have the attribute of immortality, they wouldn’t have treated me like this.

What if you die? Now that I’m dead, that’s okay. Is that what you wanted to do?

Even if that’s not the case, it’s a problem. If he knew I wouldn’t die, that could also be considered evil. I wondered if he was in collusion with the kingdom, but listening to Kylon’s words, it seemed like that wasn’t the case, so I just kept my feelings in check.

Still, for now, the means to solve the biggest problem of dealing with the Demon King have increased. I was just reminded that I had to stop my emotions from taking over and make a rational choice.

In the meantime, there was one thing I couldn’t give up, and that was Kylon.

“What is that… ”

“What do you mean you can’t give Kylon…? ?”

Rather than being absurd, it was the reaction of those who made blank expressions because they did not really understand the meaning of the words.

It was no wonder that I was suddenly called a saint, warrior, sister, etc., but when I said the name Kylon in front of others and told them I couldn’t give it to them, it was natural for me to be confused.

There was no change in words.

Not being able to give Kylon means not being able to give it.

First off, it’s none of my business who you fuck with, right? Get stronger quickly and let me go home! If you have been feeling like this, you can say that you are now the only partner in the world.

So, now I couldn’t help but care who Kylon fucks with.

It wasn’t a matter of who Kylon chose.

I didn’t want to talk about Kylon’s freedom or anything like that.

It just meant it was mine.

“Ka, Kylon… ”

Flora’s gaze glanced at Kylon.

Linda is not qualified to speak. Although other people were in a similar situation, they were probably harboring these thoughts deep down.

I hope that I will be rewarded for my sins and that I will receive a little bit of my own place after paying for everything.

But that was the idea of a world where polygamy was taken for granted, and it was far from mine.

Polygamy? no? The world I lived in, the country I lived in was monogamous?

Why do you want to take someone else’s partner and share it?

“Yes, Kylon is mine. So I can’t give it to you.”

“Uh, uh… ?”

You definitely hit the nail on the head here.

In fact, there was no particular reason to forgive. Because I had to forgive.

Now that both the goddess and the demon lord have turned their backs, I feel like I want to lend at least one more hand.

But it was a process, not a goal.

The goal is to return to Kylon and the original world.

So, I couldn’t give up Kylon.

After Kailon was making foolish noises and was struggling, I put down my fork and opened my eyes.

“… I am no longer a saint. I quit.”

Even though I was loved by God and even though I had a body through which God could communicate, I had no choice but to turn my back on God, even though I knew that God must exist, so I abandoned my faith.

As I said that as if I were asserting, I could see everyone’s expressions hardening.

Kylon was no different.

It’s a bit funny to say that I quit my job as a saint as if I had submitted a resignation letter to the company, but what can I do? They said I quit because my faith was gone.

Furthermore, I wasn’t just talking about quitting.

He had already been in a relationship once or twice before, but now he was saying that no one would say anything if he got into a relationship.

I could see Linda, Agnes, and Flora’s eyes shaking as if they had caught the meaning correctly.

Still, there were no further words.

Maybe I quit because I knew I wasn’t qualified to talk.

It didn’t matter if I said it, but I didn’t feel like I was going to have to force him to tell me that I couldn’t do it because I was stabbed, so I just stayed quiet.

I picked up the fork again and pushed the food into my mouth.

I closed my eyes and felt the texture, then glanced at Kailon’s face, which had a mysterious atmosphere.

There was Kailon, who was literally making a mysterious expression, as if he was both embarrassed and happy.

How long was the silence?

“… Then the saint, no, that Veronica and that Kylon… ”

Agnes asked that question. No, I tried my best to keep talking.

It was frustrating that the words didn’t come out clearly because it felt like I was piecing together scattered words, but I knew what he was going to say without having to listen any more, so I just nodded.

“Yes.”

Agnes’ eyes widened as she nodded her head at once and answered.

“… Because I only have Kylon.”

“… No, Veronica.”

“Stay still.”

“Yes… ”

While I was speaking calmly, I scolded Kailon who suddenly interrupted me and continued eating as if nothing had happened.

I belatedly realized that I was the only person eating here, so I turned my head and looked around.

Even the three heroines, including Kylon, were looking at me without even lifting a silverware.

“Why… ?”

While I was sweating and looking confused and wondering what to do with this atmosphere, Linda shook her head as if it was nothing and said that.

“No, I was wondering if he was originally like this… ”

“… … .”

Flora just let out a sobbing sound as if she agreed with that statement.

For someone like that, it seemed like words were harsh.

No, it’s not that bad, but I should say it’s okay since I want to be by Kylon’s side now.

At first, being next to Kylon was just for the sake of securing means, but now just being next to him had become a purpose.

If you look at me like that, do you think I was the same person before? It was natural for questions to arise.

Well, it’s different now. You could say that. It was like this in the beginning, it was like this during the process, and it is like this now. I could have said that, but I didn’t bother to open my mouth because I had no obligation to do so.

Are you curious? But why should I tell you?

People’s emotions are different, but in the meantime, there is always a desire to keep secrets.

Even if liking someone ended in failure or success, it was common for people not to want the story along the way to be known to anyone else.

Even though you can tell it in a light and fun way, you won’t be able to talk about the agony you’ve had, the small concerns you had, and even the moments you suffered.

It was clear that this relationship in particular would be difficult to talk about.

So, I like Kylon.

I wouldn’t say why.

Isn’t the human mind something that cannot be easily listed in those categories?

Yes, this is what liking felt like.

The feeling of dislike melts away, you worry about it, agonize over it, let it squeak like it hurts, and then finish the tug-of-war of whether to accept it or push it away, and as time goes by, that feeling becomes fonder.

It could be said that it was a feeling that was difficult to express in words.

Therefore, it was easy to just say that it was good.

If I were to ask you to list them right away, it would be difficult to list them, but they are so vague that you cannot easily open your mouth, but even so, you can say that they are good because you clearly have a good heart.

I wanted you to look at me because you like me.

Because I like him, I wanted him to only look at me and do things just for me.

Because I liked it, I wanted it to be mine.

So, I liked Kylon, and Kylon had to be mine.

A possessive desire arose, and it was revealed in front of the person concerned.

If you don’t like it, tell me. There was no feeling like that.

If you liked me that much, you wouldn’t hate me.

Was he originally like this?

No, never.

However, I was able to answer this clearly.

“Yes, whatever. I like Kylon.”

He said it as if nothing had happened.