episode_0167

The fear that only the coming death could break this relationship and separate us seemed to make my heart ache.

I won’t die, you will. It was sad that they would die together and not be able to meet, but it was truly miserable that someone died and someone survived, and that they had to say goodbye, unable to be together in life and death.

What Kylon said to me were such sweet words.

The thought of him telling me to go on a trip and showing me the world kept lingering in my mind, and the look on his face as he looked forward to spending time with me, asking me to see the four seasons, repeatedly lingered in my memory.

So I thought that heart was so beautiful.

So, I thought I would like to put my hopes on that sentiment.

So, like this, he raised his tiptoes and thrust his face into Kailon’s face.

As I got closer, Kylon’s eyes widened. When I saw that expression, I closed my eyes, and Kylon did the same.

The sight of him rolling back tears and kissing me at the same time made him look like a person in painful love.

There was a moment of silence, and when my heel touched the floor again, Kylon’s mouth opened slightly.

“… Me too.”

“If you do this, you won’t have any regrets even if we can’t be together in the future, right? Because we’ve done worse things.”

I also masturbated in front of him. We also had sex. It was a sex assistant, and we mixed our bodies regardless of whether it was outdoors or indoors. Since I had done something much worse, my regrets would have been erased at least a little.

However, Kailon wiped away the tears that fell down his cheeks and let out a moan.

“No, I have a lot of regrets… So, I will never fail or break up with you.”

“Then I will believe it. Because now I can believe whatever I say.”

“No, I will show it through actions rather than words. Yes, I will try my best.”

Kailon tried to reassure me like that. I liked that look, so I nodded.

As I was looking at Kylon with a smile, he opened his mouth with a thirsty expression, then quickly turned his head somewhere else, looked to one side as if embarrassed, and muttered without looking at me.

“Is it okay if I look like a man now?”

“Well, whatever it is, it’s ‘you’.”

Kylon’s eyes turned to me.

This is what Kylon once said to me.

What should I do on the inside? Even though I said a lot, wasn’t it me who rejected and pushed him away based on his appearance in the end? I remembered that Kylon was approaching me faster.

Therefore, these words were nothing more than a retelling of what Kailon once said to me.

I remember the expression on Kailon’s face as he assured me that he would accept me as I am, whether I was a woman or a man.

As soon as he smiled, Kailon’s eyes moved around and then turned to my face.

At the end, the mouth that had been muttering moved again.

“Well, it’s Veronica, right?”

This time my eyes were wide open.

As I was looking at his face blankly wondering what this was all about, he scratched his head and made an excuse to me.

“No, you said you’ve never told me you love me before… ”

I’ve never told you that I love you, but now that you suddenly say I love you, I feel like it’s not me. If that’s the case, how should I react?

I don’t know, but he just gave me a plain, honest, and hard answer.

“Because I didn’t love you.”

“Ah, ugh. now… Are you saying it’s different?”

At my honest words, Kailon made a strange growl and asked a question again.

It seemed like he wanted to know exactly what he was thinking, so I smiled bitterly and nodded.

“Yes. It’s different now.”

“Then… Can you do it one more time?”

“… … .”

I knew right away what he wanted me to do without even having to say it. So I looked at Kylon with my eyes wide open.

Then, Kailon lowered his head and made an expression that said, “If you don’t like it, don’t do it,” and repeatedly pushed his lips into his mouth and pulled them out.

“As you wish.”

“Why do you like being told to do whatever you want?”

Kailon spoke to me with a dissatisfied expression.

I guess it felt like the saying “whatever you want” only catered to Kylon’s opinion rather than my own.

Thinking about that, I quietly thought about those words seriously.

Why did I keep telling Kailon that he could do whatever he wanted?

Maybe it was because I didn’t hate Kylon.

I knew that Kylon’s heart was destined for me anyway, so even if he did whatever he wanted, he wouldn’t treat me harshly anyway. Isn’t it because I had that feeling?

“Kylon doesn’t like doing whatever he wants?”

“… Just wondering what your opinion is. no? good? I wish you could tell me that.”

Kylon seemed to dislike my saying that he was okay with it and that he could do whatever he wanted.

Take care of it! I groaned when I remembered that this thought was not actually considerate of the other person.

In order to think and care for each other, we need to express our emotions properly.

After thinking that, I lowered my eyes for a moment. And when I raised my gaze again and looked up at Kylon, the answer was already decided.

“… Good.”

He looked up at Kylon and said, Kylon was blank and then twitched his eyebrows.

Then his hand turned towards me, and he held my back and gently lifted me up.

It seemed like he was helping me get on my tiptoes, so I easily lifted my tiptoes and headed towards him.

If I could express my feelings through something like this, I didn’t think there would be anything better, so I just closed my eyes and accepted the face of Kailon approaching me.

The moment our lips touched, I felt the soft touch of my lips, and the soft yet permeating warmth.

How long had it been like that? Kylon’s lips parted slightly, and his tongue stuck out. I looked at Kylon in surprise as his tongue licked my lips.

“… What is it?”

As he said this with his face removed, Kylon looked at me sheepishly.

“Because I’m clumsy, I want to be nice to you… ”

“I’m sorry for being clumsy. why? Is Kylon skilled?”

“… … .”

“That’s it. Because I’m not the type of person who cares about such things. I would have played like Casanova in the game anyway.”

“… … Sorry.”

“Ah, why are you looking like that? You had to do it anyway.”

I was planning to just say something to Kailon with my eyes wide open, but when I actually said it, it seemed like Kailon had become a criminal.

I somehow opened my mouth to comfort him, who had his head down, but it seemed like he already thought of himself as a high treasonous criminal.

I felt like I was going to blame myself endlessly like this, so I just grabbed his collar.

Are you clumsy? can not? So then what? Kailon must have met a lot of women both when he was a woman and when he was a man, but this is my first time with Kylon.

Although I was offended by Kylon sticking out his tongue while saying such a thing, I was not unaware of Kylon’s desire to kiss him more deeply, so I just grabbed his collar and pulled him down to vent my anger.

“Kylon. This time you come.”

My heel touched the floor and I pulled him down at the same time, pulling his upper body towards me.

I pulled him in as if I was headbutting him face to face, and our lips met. As I aggressively pressed my lips against his, he seemed to be so surprised that he didn’t even think about sticking out his tongue this time.

I could feel many things with my tongue.

I could taste the taste and feel the shape of the things I put in my mouth. With it, you could feel the temperature and feel the other person’s lips.

Stick out your tongue.

I stuck out my tongue like Kylon did earlier, but I actually felt like I was going to die of embarrassment.

I was acting defensively right now, but the fact that I was being aggressive against Kylon made me feel like I was no longer myself.

He frowned and licked his lips with his tongue, and he looked surprised for a moment, but then Kylon also stuck out his tongue between his lips.

Tongues full of saliva touched. I got goosebumps.

I thought this was what it would feel like when tongues touched each other, and I enjoyed the thrilling feeling.

It feels squishy to the touch. Since we couldn’t breathe through our mouths, the breath coming through our noses tickled each other for a moment. After one breath, the breath I received was hot, so what if my breath was too? I stop breathing at this thought.

Then, Kailon seemed to have the same thoughts and became an idiot, holding his breath and only mixing his tongue.

Once a person started holding their breath, they could hold it for about a minute.

Even if it is short, you can probably endure it for up to 40 seconds.

Then, we could say that the time we were given to hold our breath was the time given to us.

love you. I like it, if I give myself to you, are you giving yourself to me too?

If we wanted to have each other and covet each other, would that be love?

Without you, I have nowhere to go now.

But now, if I’m not by your side, there’s no place I want to go.

I was just enjoying the longest minute in the world.