episode_0150

Dinner time has arrived. Veronica expressed her refusal to meet other party members, so I couldn’t bring her out, but I thought I could talk to Nara, so I took the kids to the restaurant.

After leaving the inn, I ordered food one by one at the restaurant, got some water, and was waiting for the food to come out. I was the first to break the silence and open my mouth.

“… Veronica, no, the saint has woken up. Honestly, I didn’t want to lose trust in each other by talking like this, but I ended up doing it.”

It’s a complicated lie. I wanted to hear the reason why I did that, but on the other hand, I also wanted to get rid of everything and just be alone with Veronica.

“Everyone was looking for the saint, but no one was serious, right?”

I asked directly. I guess I was the one who was talking in circles and feeling like I was going to explode.

Linda, who had a dazed look on her face at the words thrown at her, soon spoke back as if she were upset.

“What are you talking about… ! I desperately tried to save him… !”

At those words, I turned my gaze to Flora and then Agnes.

Then Agnes continued speaking.

“I woke up right then… It was far.”

“I thought Kylon was having a hard time, so I decided to help him… ”

Even Flora opened her mouth, but in the end it all just sounded like excuses.

When I thought about that, I burst out laughing. I wonder if this is why I just didn’t want to listen.

I feel misanthropy. I wanted to ask why he did that, but I felt like I couldn’t get out of the swamp of excuses like this.

“Linda, I heard you held my hand and then let go?”

“That’s… ! Well, I caught it, but the vibration was too loud, so I accidentally… ”

“When you first said it, didn’t you say it was already too late?”

“At that time, I was also scared and tried to avoid responsibility, I guess.”

It was a situation that he himself acknowledged.

So, in the end, what the man was saying was that I didn’t let Veronica fall to the floor because of my lack of ability, but that he saw where Linda had put her.

I clicked my tongue and quickly saw the food in front of me.

I didn’t really feel like eating it, so I just put it in front of him and watched it quietly before opening my mouth.

“… Why did you do that?”

“Why did you do that? ! Did you just miss it out of shock?”

it’s annoying. Should I just use a hypnosis stone? However, I couldn’t use it in such a crowded place, so all I could do was sigh.

“Yes. So let’s just say that’s it. Let’s just eat.”

I couldn’t trust anyone anymore.

There was no reason to trust anyone at a party like this in the first place.

*

After finishing the meal, I returned to the room and glanced at Veronica.

“I thought I was hungry, so I bought one. Eat.”

“Thank you. I’ll eat well.”

“… Well, I’ll talk to the kids one more time, and if I don’t think it’s okay, I’ll kick you out of the party right away.”

“Yes, okay.”

I nodded and handed her some bread and milk.

Since it’s been a day since I passed out, I thought it would be better to eat less spicy food so as not to strain my stomach.

Veronica often smiled, perhaps because I was next to her.

Even though that had happened, the feeling of being pushed off a cliff by my colleagues was bound to be miserable.

Even if I smiled on the outside, I might end up crying on the inside. So my heart ached.

“I’m sorry.”

“No, it’s okay.”

I felt my heart ache when I realized that even behind the voice that said it was okay, there were sad feelings buried there.

After handing over the food, I left the room. It was a day when I could only sigh.

*

Why did you do that? Why was it like that?

Even after thinking about it for a while, I couldn’t come up with an answer myself. Since it is a human mind in the first place, there is nothing that can be known in the end if one does not speak, so I had no choice but to make him open his mouth.

The basic way of human communication was to avoid expressing feelings that you wanted to hide and saying things that might be detrimental to you.

That being said, there were many things that were a bit difficult to get me to say it out loud.

That’s why I finally take it out. A stone of hypnosis.

He came into this room shared by three people, put them to sleep, and then used a hypnosis stone on Linda.

Once this is over, I will have no choice but to put Linda to sleep and use the talisman I put on the other child.

It’s also confusing. I wonder how cruel I should be.

He groaned and put the shiny stone in and asked Linda, who was staring into space with blank eyes.

“… Why did you leave Veronica off the cliff yesterday?”

What answer will there be?

I wanted to listen, but I also hesitated, wondering if it was for some strange reason.

If they truly said that they let go out of shock, I think that would be the best story to accept.

But in the end, there was her answer that crushed that wish.

“… I hate Kylon, who only makes that kind of expression towards the saint, and I’m jealous of the saint, and I think that if I do that, I can stop seeing it… ”

“What kind of expression did I give you… ”

“Only when we were away, she had a comfortable face, looked at me with affectionate eyes, called me Veronica without any pretense, and I wondered why she did it secretly, but in the end, I wondered if she wasn’t chosen, because none of us had ever looked at her like that.◦# ◦

I felt like my jaw was blocked.

“No one? Did you talk to the kids?”

“… Yes.”

In the end, I came to the realization that it was all just a fight of passion.

My mouth was blocked. There was no need to hear any more than this.

I wanted to curse and tell him to fuck off, but I wasn’t the subject of that.

The hypnosis was broken, but the suggestion was left behind.

“Forget what happened so far and go back to where you came from.”. It was no different for Agnes and Flora. Remove the amulet, wake him up, give him a hint, and put him back to sleep.

After putting the three to sleep, I held my aching head.

I felt like Veronica’s voice was glimmering.

He told me to take care of the kids, but the problem was that I didn’t listen properly.

In fact, you may have thought that there was no need to manage it.

Even when playing games, there was no need to choose someone as your confidant, so I just enjoyed it as if I was playing a game.

This world was just a game, and I thought I was just a temporary visitor, so I just assumed that was it.

Listening to Linda’s words, I feel desperate.

These were words that came calmly and without embellishment, so I couldn’t help but feel them deeply.

No matter how much we mixed our bodies and played wildly, the reason we didn’t look at them that way and the reason we didn’t give them our hearts was simply because we were aware of the differences in where we were born and raised.

If this were just a world of possession, we might have seen it as a person to person thing.

But I knew very well that that was not the case.

I didn’t know that my first exposure to this world was through games. Furthermore, since it was a game I had cleared once, and I was just a ‘character’ who looked across the screen, used it as a sex toilet, and even tried to destroy it as a teaching assistant, I might be facing it as a ‘character’ rather than a person at this moment. .

I felt like I was out of breath.

Every time I exhaled, I felt a strong pain in my head.

It would have been better to take better care of it. Now, I have a lot of regrets about it.

It was already too late, and I was heartbroken over the fact that I had hurt Veronica because of my mistake.

I moaned for a while and then left the room, leaving the sleeping children behind.

We will not be together in the future. All I had to do was protect this body alone.

There were only two strengthening times left for the Holy Sword, and since we had sex to some extent, it could be said that it had become stronger.

Even if it’s a tough opponent like this time, wouldn’t it be possible to survive with five reinforcements?

It was a night with lots of thoughts.

I felt like my complex insides were finally rotting away.

In the end, I couldn’t accept this world as reality, and I faced the people here as characters rather than people, and became a piece of trash that only hurt them.

My heart ached. Well, it’s my fault for accepting it as a character even though it moves like a human right away.

While I was blaming myself, in the end, all I had left was to move towards Veronica, the only person from the same world as me.

People always hope that their relationships will not change. I thought it would be nice to lose as little as possible.

And for me, Veronica was the only relationship in this world where I exchanged emotions.

When I returned to the room, Veronica sat down on the bed and faced me.

“… I’m here. Maybe, starting tomorrow, we’ll have to go alone. It may become a little difficult in the future… I’ll try my best.”

“Yes, thank you.”

Veronica smiled at me like that.

For some reason I didn’t like that smile.