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It is the fifth village. I don’t know the name. There is no need to know. Anyway, it was a place where I would only stay today and tomorrow and then leave the day after. I just assumed they would do it if they said so and let them go.

What I needed to know was information about the next village.

There were many things I was curious about.

But because of that curiosity, I got burned too badly today. However, if it was my fate to get burned, I had to silently accept even the burns to my heart.

My heart was heavy. To the point where I regret my past of telling trivial stories about myself.

It was a day when I felt resentful of myself for making deceptive remarks toward her without her knowledge or even my knowledge.

If she didn’t somehow trigger the memory again, it was clear that she wouldn’t even realize that what I said was a lie.

Even if my memories come back, I will probably just ignore my past anyway. Even though he scoffed and asked me why I was so worried and was holding him, I had nothing to say.

No matter how much I couldn’t share my worries, I knew very well that it wasn’t something to say in front of someone who had such a painful past.

That wasn’t even a grade. I wasn’t even worried. All I knew was that it was a memory I wanted to bury.

“… … .”

A sigh broke out.

I prayed that nothing would happen like this. But is it really possible for things to happen in this world like that? No, that’s not true.

Worry seeps in. I managed to comfort Veronica, but I only felt helpless because I couldn’t do anything more.

What I had was money, power, and fame. Those were the things he had as the warrior Kylon.

But if you think about it, money, power, or fame are not really necessary to fill a person’s heart.

Perhaps we can appease the emptiness by simply filling in what is lacking. Then, there were times when he mistakenly thought that he had filled his heart with it.

Because it was something I had personally experienced.

In the end, it was normal for money, power, and fame to wear out at some point after being spent.

It was true that even if you didn’t use it, it would rot or lose its strength and rot and fall apart on its own.

When everything is exhausted, the heart that was filled for a moment becomes empty again. This meant that it was impossible to truly fill one’s heart.

So I couldn’t properly fill Veronica’s heart.

All I could say was that if you have no one else to rely on, lean on me.

It would have been better if I had said that and made her feel at ease, so I wouldn’t have anything to say, but as I and Veronica knew, right now it wasn’t a situation where she could just lean on me.

I was so weak and incompetent right now that it was impossible for me to keep anyone healthy with my less strong body. That’s why Veronica refused my heart telling her to lean forward and didn’t even try to lean on her.

My heart ached. It wasn’t her fault, because in the end she was blaming herself.

Even if you said it wasn’t your fault, all you could see was Veronica turning around and blaming herself.

“I’ve been living like that for several years in the first place… ”

He must have already changed his personality like a hammer in order to survive there, and if he hadn’t done that, he wouldn’t have been able to survive. So, eventually.

“Ugh. Ugh.”

I have to go back to my room, I have to go back to the room where the other heroines are, and I have to become stronger again today… I promised myself that I would go forward for her and that I would not hesitate to become a teaching assistant.

Now, as if I opened my eyes and looked in the mirror, I could say that I really looked like an idiot.

Even after hearing these stories, in the end all I do is go back to where the other women are. It just felt empty.

pain. I wondered what kind of family could be so crazy.

If you’re a human being, at least if you’re a human being, shouldn’t that be the case?

“… Wow.”

I wiped away the tears that had formed. I tried to freshen up the atmosphere by blowing my nose.

Okay. Because I said it was okay, … He said it was okay, but in the end I didn’t believe him.

I couldn’t believe that it was okay because I knew it wasn’t okay.

Don’t we know each other well now? Don’t you know what kind of situation each of you are in? So don’t you know very well how much trouble and pain there is behind that kind lie?

I thought about it for a while.

I even thought about holding Veronica the way she did when I was hypnotized. If that happens, I can reassure Veronica, who is immediately hypnotized and cannot remember the past.

But what if the past comes back to her consciousness after that? If, at some point, something like this occurred to remind me of the past, it could not have affected the very act of having sex or making a child.

I was afraid. I didn’t even want to imagine what Veronica would look like back then.

Veronica doesn’t die, but she doesn’t even know what she might do.

She squirted out enough blood to fill up five or six bottles of potions right away. When she remembered the scene of abortion and murder before her eyes, she was afraid that if semen had entered her stomach, it would tear her stomach to pieces even though she was not pregnant.

He is truly a madman.

But it broke my heart that she wasn’t crazy.

This is truly a completely normal reaction for someone who grew up like that in such a crazy environment…

It’s cool. I have to go into battle tomorrow like this, and I have to get the fourth reinforcement stone, but I was worried what would happen if I did this.

By the time I returned to Veronica’s room, she seemed to have already fallen asleep. I said I wanted to sleep from the moment I came out of the room. He was supposed to be sleeping.

Here was a time bomb that could explode at any moment.

It was difficult because we couldn’t keep it down like this forever.

“Thank goodness.”

Because she is not immune to hypnosis.

If it had been someone for whom hypnosis did not work, it was clear that she would have collapsed long ago. Memories of the past become triggers, and you must have been able to face them after biting and biting to pull out memories from the bottom of the abyss.

So I went back to the room.

Behind the door that suddenly opened were Linda, Agnes, and Flora.

“… Are you late?”

“Kylon, did you at least go to the bathroom?”

“I guess I’m not good at anything but my legs are slow?”

It was a statement that revealed each person’s individuality, but I nodded and sat down on the bed, leaving them behind.

Then Linda, who was close to me, brought her hand closer and massaged my shoulder and raised her mouth.

“Oh, today… ”

“Let’s just sleep today.”

It was her voice wishing for something, but I struck it down with a single blow.

Even Agnes and Flora, who had not yet spoken a word, rejected my words.

In the first place, if your dick stands up even after hearing this story, there is a problem.

Today, even if any woman in the world came and seduced me, I felt like my dick wouldn’t become erect.

I thought this situation would last for quite some time.

“Kylon? Why today… ?”

“I’m not in a particularly good mood today. There’s a battle tomorrow, so let’s all sleep quickly.”

I quickly cut off Agnes’ words, turned off the light, and settled down on the bed. Today, it seemed like Linda was trying to touch my body, rustling cautiously to see if she was sitting next to me.

“Don’t do it. I don’t feel like that today.”

“Oh, sorry… ”

Horny bitches. No, that’s not what I, who went along with it, would say.

I close my eyes, but Veronica’s voice lingers in my brain.

Ever since she was young, Veronica has been stuck at home, playing games she didn’t want to play to fill her quotas. And yet, in the remaining time, Veronica was happy that she could play games that she could play.

However, even he has now lost his younger brother to be with him.

I was so upset that I confessed my situation to my younger brother, and what did my younger brother, who was so shocked, think before he attempted suicide and ended up dying?

What emotions did he feel that led him to ultimately choose to cover up his memories?

This time, I was curious.

That vague curiosity of wanting to understand Veronica.

But it was already a poisonous plant, and I didn’t know it.

I didn’t know how rotten and rotten those feelings were. but… If only you could understand that feeling… That would be nice.

Before I was hypnotized today, I thought I knew a lot about Veronica, but even after the hypnosis, and even now, I felt like I didn’t understand a single thing about her.

Is it something I can’t understand?

No, I can understand it, but it’s scary to approach.

I don’t want to believe it because I wonder how such a life can exist.

But in the end, since it was destroying Veronica, I had to face it even if she ran away.

Otherwise, if even I, who never experienced it, falls apart, then what on earth do I have to atone for not being able to put back the words I said to Veronica?

… There was no one at home and I was lonely, so I took the money and left home.

I thought I knew everything about loneliness.

However, there is a difference in the intensity of emotions between a person who was lonely from the beginning and a person who was holding something but it flew away.