episode_0122

Why were you so depressed? Why were you so worried? I had doubts myself. But none of that felt important because I had Kylon hugging me right now.

If there really was nothing at the end of this, if I ran for what I wanted and it turned out to be different from what I said, I felt like all my worries that people would view me differently would disappear.

The words that I had to go to defeat it anyway sounded like they were comforting me, so I felt relieved.

It will be comfortable when you return home. When I return home, I will definitely be able to play the games I always play in the same room I always stay in, and have games that I can play as I please.

Even if I go back, I probably won’t be able to play games anymore, but that’s okay. Even if you don’t do that, there are a lot of things you need to do.

Even if I were left behind in this nightmarish world, it would be okay. He didn’t feel any resistance to the fact that Kylon’s words that he could remain by his side sounded so pleasant.

There may be friction with other heroines, but that’s okay. Because that wasn’t what I wanted anyway.

I couldn’t understand why I had so vehemently rejected a relationship with Kylon.

Was he just embarrassed? Or did I suddenly feel regret now?

I didn’t know for sure, but what was certain was that we would move on to the next step.

I wanted to sit down here, and there was no need to go any further, so my first… I just wanted to sacrifice my virginity and let go of my strength and trauma and feel comfortable, but they said I couldn’t do that.

In the end, I managed to get Kailon to talk, but I ended up having to struggle and get him to talk again.

So the only thought that went through my head was how absurd it was.

I was worried that Kailon might think I was funny like this.

Sighing, Kylon carefully removed the arm holding me and looked into my eyes.

“… Veronica.”

“Kylon.”

The moment you open your mouth at the same time. Suddenly, we both became embarrassed and kept our mouths shut.

In that warm silence, where each person was busy silencing his or her right to speak and giving up the opportunity to the other person, Kailon opened his mouth and said something that gave way to me.

“Say it first.”

If I had known this would happen, I would have opened my mouth and said that first.

Realizing that silence is not always the way to yield, I smiled bitterly and told Kailon without even hearing what he was trying to say.

I’m sorry about something.

I said I would do it until this point, but it bothered me when he actually refused.

In the end, I felt a little dizzy thinking that this was all I could do.

“… Well, I prepared my heart.”

“Huh?”

I said that while holding onto my trembling heart.

He was saying it was okay.

“If Kylon can protect me, I’m fine… Well, when we fight, I’ll stay at an inn or something. However, if you feel like you might need my strength in the future, you can just leave it behind… ”

This was all I could do.

But still, if I could appease Kailon with something like this, if I could take responsibility for letting things boil over for no reason and causing him to lose steam, I wanted to take responsibility for it in this way.

It stayed like that for a while. I spent a long time waiting for his answer.

The silence wasn’t worth it. And what broke the heavy silence was Kylon’s answer.

“… are you okay. You don’t have to go that far.”

“But I said I would do it first and ended like this… ”

“No, it’s really okay.”

“Is it okay?”

Just as much as Kylon couldn’t believe me when I said I was okay, I couldn’t believe when he said I was okay.

Because they knew and trusted each other, they distrusted each other even more.

Because I knew how much suffering was behind those words, I didn’t believe them.

In fact, while I said that I was repulsed by the male body, I also thought that it would be better if I just became Kylon.

Anyway, at the end of this, I thought that if there was nothing I wanted, if nothing existed, it wouldn’t be better to just let Kylon do whatever he wants.

Anyway, Kylon is giving it to me.

Anyway, Kylon is the one who takes the risk of dying instead of me.

It wouldn’t be a waste to give anything.

Even if I don’t die, it doesn’t change the pain, and Kylon tells me that he doesn’t want me to have to go through that pain.

I was very happy to hear that. Although there was a lot of pain, I couldn’t make the past pain go away, but I couldn’t be happier with Kylon’s words about reducing the pain I would experience in the future.

“It’s really okay.”

“I can’t believe it.”

I grabbed Kylon’s collar and pulled him.

The reason I was drawn to him despite my limited strength was probably because Kylon was looking out for me.

At that moment, when I was pulled in, it seemed as if a heavy body lost its balance and rushed into my arms. And after that, I bit him hard on the neck.

If you ask me why I asked, I don’t know either. It was just an impulsive action.

The moment I placed my teeth on the back of his neck like I was a vampire, I stopped and kept my mouth shut.

“… To leave a kiss mark?”

“… I don’t do things like that.”

I just wanted to ask a question, I didn’t want to leave a mark. I knew right away that Kylon had come to see me, but I didn’t necessarily want to dig my own grave by doing something like that.

It felt like my head was too warm earlier.

I felt like I had made an irreversible choice, and I was just feeling discouraged.

I also felt fortunate that I was able to control myself because if I lost my ability, it would have been a burden for the remaining half of my trip.

Tomorrow is another day where I worry about what kind of monster I will encounter.

I wish his body would move away again, I wish I could let his image go away without any regrets, Kailon said as he caressed my skin.

“If you ever have a hard time, tell me.”

“Why? Can you solve it? But for me, there’s nothing special here other than being in an atmosphere where I’m surrounded by heroines… ? Anyway, you are protecting the king… Um, nothing special.”

I don’t know why Kylon says that.

Anyway, if I were to say that it was a threat to me, the only things that came to mind were the three heroines waging a bloody war between the clans and the king trying to capture and torture me, and Kylon was able to solve all of those problems.

So there was nothing to worry about.

That’s right. Isn’t this what he meant when he said that if I were next to Kylon, I would have a place?

Just by being next to him, I can go about my daily life with peace of mind.

Although he spoke calmly as if he had no worries, Kailon’s expression did not change. Although it seemed like he was worried about me, I tilted my head to see if it was something to be that worried about.

“… No, but if there is something trivial, please tell me. Then I’ll come back to hug you.”

“Foot.”

It seemed too serious.

If you need Kylon for even the smallest of things, isn’t that a child?

I wasn’t that young. After all, I’m an adult, so shouldn’t I be able to take care of my own business? I burst out laughing at his words because I was old enough to take responsibility for what I had done.

It was even funnier to see Kailon’s blank expression at that sight.

“Kylon, why are you so worried? I’m really fine… Oh, of course, I said I would give you a wife, but I was the one who threw a tantrum and said no. I don’t know why I did that, but just forget it… Honestly, just do it, you can do it… Then it would be difficult because I would no longer be able to help Kylon… ?”

Maybe it was because I was embarrassed, but without realizing it, my words became longer and more gibberish.

I said it was nothing, it was nothing, and again I made excuses saying I really didn’t mean to reject it, and I said I could do it now just to prove it, but Kailon looked at me spouting out my parents’ words. , and burst out laughing.

“… Why are you smiling?”

“Veronica also laughed earlier.”

When I said that, I had nothing to say.

But when I think about it, I thought it was strange that Kailon followed suit because I did it first. At that time, when it was almost like a rape play, I was obviously not the one who did it first, but I wondered if Kylon was the last one to rape me, and in the end, I thought that no matter who started first, he would have finished it, so I narrowed my eyes.

“Don’t do it if you don’t want to.”

“Hmph,” he said, turning his head and walking away. It wasn’t something I wanted to do anyway, so there was no need for me to wag my tail just to give it to her.

Since I didn’t have to wag my tail or wag my waist to be next to him, I didn’t feel that nervous. I just stood there and waited for him to look at me.

Because I know that it is within his reach anyway.

Just by having him by my side, I can walk around the streets with peace of mind.

Just walk next to it.

Yes, you don’t have to do anything special.

That thought made me feel comfortable.