episode_0095

I narrowed my eyes when I heard Kailon’s voice saying he couldn’t let me go.

It wasn’t that I didn’t understand Kylon’s words that he would make it impossible for me to become independent and take away my power to become independent. It just took time to really understand it.

How do you get rid of my power? I was so dumbfounded that the corners of my mouth almost went up.

But when I thought about it, the story of the king who said something about my girl came to mind, and after that, the warrior’s actions became more ferocious, so I had no choice but to immediately figure out what he was going to do.

If I hadn’t known, I might have been helpless.

I don’t know what Kylon was thinking about when he came to that conclusion.

My conversation with Kylon was limited, so I had no idea what he was thinking or what emotions he was carrying to get here.

I just knew that he was a good person who was there for me, loved me, and threw himself for me several times. Even though he seemed like a pervert, I thought it would be good to forget for a moment the past where he called me a crazy lesbian, but at this moment, Kylon is throwing himself over. It was becoming a mess.

And I was just appalled when I saw that in front of my eyes.

“… Kylon, do you know what you’re talking about?”

“Yes, I know what I’m talking about… ”

Kailon’s eyes turned red.

I couldn’t understand why he was making such an expression when he declared that he was going to attack me.

I thought his actions would happen quickly because he was crossing the line to get pleasure and make me his, but he just looked at me with both my hands restrained.

Suddenly, tears fell.

“Why does everyone keep moving away from me?”

“… … .”

Realizing what he meant, I listened to his voice in a daze.

My head was spinning quickly as I heard the rape declaration right away, and perhaps because of that, I was able to grasp the situation more quickly.

Are you declaring that you will do something you don’t even want to do? Before I could scold him, I closed my mouth and looked into his eyes.

I saw blue eyes looking at me, and then I heard his voice.

“Every day, everything I hope for goes somewhere.”

“I’m just being considerate because I think Kailon likes it better here… ”

“You don’t have to worry about that. I like where you are… He said he wanted to go back, and it would be better if we went back together.”

“Even if we go back together, we’ll still be strangers, right?”

“Are you a stranger? Are you going to stay as South and South? We met like this, but is it just a passing relationship? We could make an appointment together and talk at least at a cafe somewhere.”

Kylon’s sad voice sounded again and again as if urging me to meet him again.

But since the prerequisite for those words was to return to the home I wanted, I felt like I knew a little how sincere he was towards me.

I smiled bitterly at that voice and tried to break the illusion he might have had.

“… Even though I wasn’t Veronica back then?”

“Yes, even if you are not Veronica.”

“Even if I look shabby?”

“Yes, even if you look shabby.”

“Even though I am just going back to being a man?”

“I’m a woman, so it’s okay. veronica. I like you, so don’t go anywhere.”

But he told me that he had no illusions about me and that he liked me for who I was.

Of course, just a moment ago, I was so appalled that I felt like kicking him, but for some reason, it seemed like I couldn’t even hold back my tears after hearing those words.

The attention I never received from my father, the love I never received from my mother, and all I had was the bright square screen in the black room I locked myself in, so I wondered if I could really believe his words when he told me that he liked me.

“I like Veronica. I don’t want you to go anywhere. So, the story about going far for me… I wish I didn’t… ”

Kylon hugged me as if covering me.

I closed my eyes tightly, and began to swallow my breath, sighing as it came over me like a blanket.

Was I trying to be too considerate of you?

Since I have nothing, I had nothing to give to you, so I tried to distance myself from you. I tried to distance myself from you because I became ugly for only accepting, but you are the only one who tries to give generously to me.

I’ve never even dreamed of receiving something from someone.

Since I didn’t receive anything, I don’t even know what receiving means.

But at this moment, I knew for sure.

I felt sad because it felt like Kylon’s pounding heart was trying to hold me back.

How did Kylon feel when he tried to attack me to tell me not to leave? I wonder if he said it after agonizing over and over again, even though he knew I wouldn’t like it.

Of course, he may have said it out of anger, but now that I didn’t do it, I felt weak when I saw his tears, so I tried to extenuate what he said several times.

In fact, it was nonsense to give up when I had barely gained strength.

There was a day when I was happy that I could finally break away from the role of heroine and do something independent.

I felt that way when I came here in the carriage.

Even when everyone tried to sit next to Kylon rather than me, and even when Kylon looked at me apologetically afterwards, I was just happy about the day I was proud of myself.

So, I thought I couldn’t give up this power.

But as Kylon keeps expressing his feelings towards me, I keep hesitating.

Did you say there are a lot of similarities? Yes, I and he knew very well that we were in a similar situation when we didn’t receive enough love and attention at home.

That similar aspect may be what makes me seem more attractive to him.

“… Kylon. Don’t cry.”

I only said that I was leaving suddenly for your sake and to prevent you from being broken even further.

You are the type of person who can’t stand loneliness and tries to hold on to someone over and over again and runs out to the surroundings to look at the scenery, but I wasn’t like that.

I said that because I had never been with anyone, and I was confident that I would not feel any emotion if I left alone, as I am a person who cannot feel loneliness.

But if you are hurt again by the decision I made in the end, what choice should I make?

Training with heroines has become something I can’t avoid as long as I need to quickly pursue strength, but will encouraging you like that make me feel at ease?

I was just afraid that even if you and I were together, our hearts would just be worn out.

But wouldn’t it be so sad if it were to wear out even after falling?

“… But you… !”

“Why do they say I like it so much?”

“I like your smiling face. I hope you don’t cry. The cheering face is cute, I hope you keep cheering me on. It hurts my heart to see you in pain, so I hope you don’t feel pain. That’s why I tried to suppress you so many times, I’m sorry, I’m sorry… Was it frustrating?”

Kylon said that while hugging me tightly, and he hugged me even tighter.

Until you feel frustrated.

“You said you wanted to leave because you were frustrated, right? Sorry… ”

“I thought you were making me worry. If I weren’t there, you could have continued to enjoy it by yourself.”

“… Yes, even so, I was glad to meet you. I’m glad I had you. If I were alone here, I might have liked to have sex for a few days. But in the end, I may have felt like everything was in vain because I was alone.”

“… … .”

Kylon took a few breaths.

A lot of emotions poured out on me, and I had to deal with the rush of emotions.

My head was moving quickly.

It’s still morning, how are you going to get the next quest if you cry like this? I thought:

But the funny thing was, when Kylon was hugging me like this, I felt frustrated but also happy, and I couldn’t stop my mind from going blank.

“… Only you in this world is real, so I can’t let you go alone.”

That was a really cheesy statement.

I was the only one who was real. Of course, it was a game world, and these people could all be seen as personalities derived from NPCs. But if these people’s lives actually existed, and we only encountered them through games, wouldn’t we be able to see these people as real?

Of course, if you compare the world I lived in, you could say that this is fake and the place we should be is real.

So, I could understand Kylon’s words to some extent, and I could only laugh bitterly.

My arms, which seemed to be bound, were freed a little and I patted my hand on his back.

“Don’t cry because of me. I tried to leave so you wouldn’t cry, but why did you do that?”

“She’s crying because she’s about to leave.”

“… … .”

“I like you, I like you for not getting annoyed even when you see me as I am. I liked that you treated me like a person without looking at money or looks. So, I like you… I don’t want you to go anywhere.”

Kailon’s confession always warms my heart.

Because it was not a confession to Veronica, but a confession to me.

I couldn’t control my pounding heart when he said that my body was good.

Every time I heard something I had only heard from him several times, I felt like my face was getting hot because I wasn’t used to it.

I whispered into his ear as he hugged me.

“I am here.”

Then, I released my right arm that was wrapped around my body and wrapped my left hand around his hand.

As we held hands, Kylon pulled away from me and looked at me and then at the clasped hands in surprise.

“… I won’t go anywhere.”

“… Veronica.”

“Then cheer up for me, warrior.”