episode_0076

Kailon feels a bit burdensome.

When I asked him to choose his wife, he said it was me. If you don’t like both your wife and your wife, don’t you say what about your wife?

If I were to say that in the first place, I didn’t really want to get involved in something like that. So, I was able to assert that everything Kylon said was not what I wanted, and I was able to cut it out.

Despite this, Kylon did not back down.

Well, I knew he was sly, but did he sneer this much? It was so sticky that I felt like it was sticking to me.

“You suddenly asked me to hug you… Are you standing?”

“No, you have to stand to ask for a hug?”

“… It’s okay to hug other kids.”

“I want to hug you.”

Why is this happening? I couldn’t understand why they were being so rude.

I tried to push him away while breaking out in a cold sweat, but I couldn’t resist the look in his eyes and moaned.

“Honestly, other than you, I have no one to talk to like this.”

And as if he had sensed the hesitation, he kept his mouth shut as the voice suddenly penetrated him.

I thought I would throw it away because there was no one else to say this to me, but when I thought about it, I really understood what he was saying.

So, even though I understood what he was saying, I couldn’t really hit Kailon off, so I closed my eyes tightly.

Well, all it takes is a hug.

With this, there was no reason why I couldn’t give Kylon a hug if he was able to do his best tomorrow.

He used to say he was older than me, but it seems like he doesn’t look like an adult at all, even though he’s only a year or two older.

Even while thinking that, I was trying to accept the child.

“… okay. Isn’t it enough to just hug him?”

“Yes. Oh, come to think of it, we haven’t talked much. Do you want to talk about it now?”

“What is this story all of a sudden?”

I looked at Kailon in a daze at his sudden suggestion.

But there was no answer to my words, only Kylon hugging me.

I felt a sense of stability rather than pain as I felt pressure all over my upper body. I wondered if this was what it felt like to hug someone, so I absentmindedly took in the scenery over Kailon’s shoulder.

As I was feeling the warmth, I heard an answer that I had not heard before as if it were a whisper.

“We come from the same world, but we don’t even know what each other has been doing.”

“… Wasn’t it because we wouldn’t see each other again when we got back anyway?”

“Well, that could be possible. Still, I thought it would be a good story to get to know each other right now.”

I fell asleep at the sudden remark and fell asleep while being held by Kailon.

Because I had no idea what I wanted to hear or what I wanted to talk about.

I didn’t have anything to say. As a hikikomori, I was a hikikomori who stayed in the corner of my room and didn’t know if it was day or night and did nothing but play games.

Despite this, Kailon continued without hesitation in his request to talk.

“… I had a lot of money and a lot of friends?”

“Sounds good.”

Every time he spoke, a vibration came through me.

More than that, isn’t this something you’re really proud of? From what I’ve already heard about when chatting with other heroines, I think I did everything I thought I was jealous of.

When I reacted angrily to his unexpected boast, he suddenly continued speaking in a low voice, as if somewhat gloomy.

“But do you know why there were so many?”

“… … ?”

“There was no one at home, so all I had was money. Because you were lonely, you spent a lot of money because you thought it would make you feel a little less lonely. Then, my friends started growing.”

“Yes.”

“But you know what? Friends who come together with money disperse again when the money runs out.”

“I don’t know.”

It was a world that was difficult for me to understand.

I thought that if I had an overflow of money and used it to attract friends, wouldn’t it be okay to continue to keep friends with that overflowing money?

I tilted my head, wondering if it would be good to be able to chat with my friends by my side, even if only for a moment.

Well, I’m not sociable, so even if I did something like that, I would have been ripped off by other people and wouldn’t have been able to hang out with them.

As I listened to his depressed voice, he hugged me tightly.

“So it was meaningless. When I realized that it wasn’t me, but the people who gathered together with the money I had. So, if I had money, I would try to persuade women to spend it as I wanted, and I would try playing games to do things that were difficult to do in real life.”

“… So?”

“Well, it was still lonely. Unlike people who saw my face or met me for money, even if just for a moment, there was no one who looked at me and approached me.”

“Aren’t your parents always at home?”

“Oh, right, I was home alone because I was on an overseas business trip. He’s an only child. What about you?”

“Oh, I’m an only child too.”

There is one thing that overlaps with Kylon, such as financial power, and the atmosphere is completely different.

I didn’t even leave the house and just played games, but I thought it was really great to go out and do something.

Unlike me, who had no will, Kylon seemed to have the will to change his surroundings.

That’s why he could be said to be great.

No matter how much money or connections there may have been in the background, I highly value his ability to act.

I think so much of Kailon, who did what I couldn’t do.

So, as I heard before, I envied him like that.

However, the sigh in his voice seemed to bother me a little.

Kylon let go of me for a moment and asked me carefully.

“How have you been living?”

I was dumbfounded by the question directed at me, then narrowed my eyebrows.

So, how have you been living? I couldn’t remember anything in particular.

Because I have always seen the same scenery, it was impossible for me to have an interesting story.

“I just stayed in my room and played games.”

“… What game did you play?”

“Play FPS, RPG, and solo games… ?”

“Was it fun?”

“I just worked hard without spending any money.”

“If you stayed in your room, what would you eat? Aren’t you hungry? Did you go out while eating?”

“Oh, I gave the food to my room.”

“Who? Mom?”

“Yes.”

“… What did you give me?”

“I just eat bibimbap as a side dish, and sometimes I eat triangle kimbap… ”

“Thank goodness. At least eat it like that. I thought you lived without eating at all.”

“There were times when I didn’t eat.”

“… You didn’t eat? Or did you not give it to me?”

“… For not giving it to me? are you okay. I’m usually the type of person who eats the food, so even if I don’t eat for a day, I don’t really feel like it.”

“… … .”

As I was talking with Kailon, the memory of the room I had drawn that I missed seemed to come back to me.

My fragmented landscapes, slowly forming in my memory, were assembled one by one.

There was a floor covering on the floor, a computer in the small room that could be used while sitting on the floor, and a bedding just one step in front of the room.

I remember folding the blanket in half and using it as a sleeping bag because it was a thin blanket on a hard floor.

I also remembered that I didn’t want any light coming into the room, so I carefully taped it up with black tape so I couldn’t look out the window.

There was a small trash can that was filled with clutter, and sometimes on days when things like triangle kimbap were served, I would throw a plastic bag in there.

Well, I did. Still, it didn’t seem like there was anything difficult or anything like that in that small space.

More than that, when they talked about games, I suddenly felt like I wanted to play games.

Games were my only joy, and the relationships I met there were my only world.

But now, a few days had passed, and I was about to worry about whether I would be kicked out of the guild.

As I thought about it this way, I felt that it was a relationship that would soon be cut short because I had never even seen his face, and that seemed to make me understand that Kylon was not a true friend and was vain.

“Was there anything bad?”

“Specifically? Well, I don’t have any bad memories, I just lived playing games.”

Still, I wish people wouldn’t look at me so pitifully, even though I’m just a hikikomori.

Is this really how Insa looks at Assa? If this is the case, wouldn’t it be possible to say that not going outside was the right answer?

If I had gone out and faced such pitiful gazes, I would have been deeply hurt.

“… … .”

Even after seeing my calm expression, Kailon did not erase his dark expression.

The burdensome gaze followed, followed by burdensome silence, and soon his lips were carefully opened.

“If you don’t have any bad memories, it’s okay.”

“Yeah, it’s rude to just make that look at Assa.”

“… Yeah, I’m sorry. Because I didn’t mean to do that.”

“Really? Well then, I’m glad.”

I widened my eyes in surprise for a moment when I saw Kylon meekly apologizing, but I was soon able to nod my head and reply as if I understood.

I had a feeling that he was wondering what was going on, but I kept a smile on my face thinking that change is a good thing since humans can’t always be like that.

“So, what are you going to do? I put all the kids to bed.”

“Should we chat more?”

I hesitated for a moment at Kailon’s suggestion, but then nodded.

I haven’t talked to Kylon that much lately, so there was a time when I almost got a spider web in my mouth.