episode_0042
by fnovelpiaI lay down on my mother’s thigh, enjoying the comfort and warmth I had felt for the first time in a long time.
I remember that when I was in my 20s, I didn’t have this much aegyo personality.
Perhaps for that reason, my mother found this behavior unfamiliar.
“My daughter went to college, and she became more affectionate.”
“I missed my mom and dad.”
“How is your school life?”
“Nothing is difficult. Of course, I didn’t go to MT so I don’t have many friends.”
“Don’t first year students usually make friends while going to MT?”
“Because I don’t like crowded places.”
As I got older, the more I regretted MT, the more I hoped that if I could go back in time, I would definitely want to go to MT.
But the point of return…
This was after the MT application closed.
So even though I ended up regressing, I couldn’t go to MT.
“Then you and Yerim still go together?”
“No, I made some friends. Yerim’s boyfriend and that boyfriend’s friend.”
“I guess the four of you are walking around?”
“Yes, that’s how I go about it now.”
-Dang!! Dang!! Dang!! Tiriring!!
“I guess dad came.”
When I heard the door lock open, I immediately got up and ran to the front door.
The front door opened and I saw my father’s face, just as young as he was 14 years ago.
My dad, who always protected me and was a strong supporter, was, of course, a wonderful man.
“Dad!!”
“Oh my daughter!! You’re here!!”
Without hesitation, I rushed over and threw myself into my father’s arms.
Dad put down the luggage he was holding, hugged me, and continued to pat my back.
I was so busy making a living that I couldn’t pay attention, but when I saw my dad, he was no longer the person I knew.
But now.
The arms of my father, the most familiar to me, that I know.
They welcomed me warmly.
warm. And it’s cozy.
“Is it a big deal? Hug your dad like this first.”
“When my child went to college, he became more affectionate.”
“You were talking to your mom?”
“Yes!! Did you go shopping?”
“Mom told me to go shopping so that my daughter can eat something delicious.”
I was busy enjoying this scent that had always given me strength in my father’s arms.
I missed it.
I could no longer feel this scent, and the regret that I should have hugged him when I could feel it always remained in the back of my mind.
After Dad finished cleaning up, the three of us sat on the sofa and talked about various things.
“Did my daughter take first place in all midterms?”
“Yes!! I finished the first semester with a 4.5 GPA!!”
“My daughter!! That’s great!!”
“There will be subjects other than English that you learn for the first time, and I never thought you would be this good at it.”
“It was easier than I thought. I guess the teacher is right for me.”
“If I become a teacher in the future, I will teach children well.”
It is true that he taught well, but it seems that he was not a good teacher because he was ingrained in society.
My initial goal of caring for and paying attention to all students gradually disappeared.
Although we did not discriminate against students based on their grades or treat them with prejudice, there were more than a few instances where we postponed work for students because it was inconvenient.
“Yujin.”
“Yes, Mom.”
“Have you got a boyfriend?”
“… what?! Mom, I just told you. There are only three people I go with.”
“That’s why I asked. I was curious if Yerim was dating her boyfriend’s friend.”
“What does this mean now?”
At the moment when I was taken aback by the sudden question about whether or not I had a boyfriend, I saw my father, who had not yet heard about this.
Perhaps because she heard the story about her boyfriend without knowing the context, she looks quite sharp.
Whether it was 14 years ago or now, my dad is still the same.
“So, Yerim has a boyfriend, and the four of us hang out together with that boyfriend’s friend?”
“Yes, Dad. So the four of us went around like that.”
“Daughter, are you dating your boyfriend’s friend?”
“Even dad?! I never said I was dating.”
“Right? Aren’t we dating?”
“Because our personalities match well, we often hang out together, but I don’t have any romantic interest in him.”
“They say there are no friends between men and women.”
“Ah, Mom!!”
My mom found something to tease and started teasing me non-stop.
The more Mom said this, the more Dad’s expression darkened, and while maintaining that expression, he put his hand on my shoulder.
Uh, I think I saw this 14 years ago?
“If you happen to date that guy, tell your dad right away. Got it?”
“Honey, it doesn’t look good if you pay attention to your child’s relationship.”
“Still, I can at least see the face of the man my daughter will date.”
For reference, my dad’s reaction was when I first brought Yuchan to my house because I was dating him.
At that time, the shoulder on which my father’s hand was placed was not my shoulder, but Yuchan’s shoulder.
I remember not only putting my hand up, but also pressing Yuchan’s shoulder with a strong grip.
“I have no intention of dating, so just relax.”
“If you come to college, you should try dating.”
“What are you talking about? Now, it’s too early for people in their twenties to start dating.”
“The problem is that your mindset is so old-fashioned.”
“They say there is no one who communicates well with young people these days like me.”
“You are already wrong to think that way.”
I left the two of them to have a peaceful conversation and entered the room.
My room where I sleep alone with Yerim is comfortable, but my room at home, where I lie down and enjoy memories, is incomparably more comfortable.
In fact, saying that I had no intention of dating or that I had no romantic interest was a lie meant to reassure my father.
Of course, that does not mean that we affirm such things.
Actually, I don’t know.
Do I have romantic interest and have a rational crush on Yu-chan?
In order to find out, I decided to go on a sea trip with Yu-chan.
I think there is a possibility that these feelings of mine will be clearly established and captured in the new memories I create.
and.
Because I have the idea that the lingering feelings between a couple before returning can turn into a romantic interest.
As I was thinking about Yu-chan, I was curious about the news and made a phone call.
I answered the phone before the connection tone rang three times.
[hello?]
“What are you doing?”
[I’m reading a book. why?]
“I was just bored.”
[If you’re bored, talk to your parents.]
“I just had a blast. He said he was resting in his room while he prepared lunch.”
[How did you feel when you saw your parents’ faces from 14 years ago?]
“Subtle. It’s definitely good, but I have to say it makes me cry every once in a while.”
[Everyone does that. I think so too.]
Certainly, unlike before, I feel more comfortable talking on the phone with Yuchan.
Even though we felt comfortable before we had problems with each other, I was worried about our relationship before we returned so I couldn’t talk about it comfortably.
Looking at things like this, it seems like they have become closer. Closer than before.
[Are your parents still the same?]
“Yes, it’s still the same. My mom brings up the story of dating and my dad reacts like he’s going to kill the other person the moment they start dating.”
[I still remember it. When my father put his hand on my shoulder, I was so scared that I thought I was going to die.]
“Don’t worry. It’s the same.”
[Can you tell me not to worry about that?]
“Why? Are you scared that it could happen again?”
[In the first place, learned fear is the scariest thing.]
Yu-chan, who normally would have denied such words, did not deny it and gently passed the conversation on.
Maybe Yuchan also has the same thoughts as me.
“Maybe I should have just said it. I have a boyfriend.”
[Have you ever killed someone? Where are you going to tell such a lie?]
“It would have been fun if my dad half-deadly told me that he wasn’t actually my boyfriend.”
[You are guilty of murder.]
“Are you trying to tell my dad that talking to you is murder? I have to tell my dad.”
[Oh, no!! Why is the conversation going like that?]
I don’t know why it’s so fun to tease Yuchan and embarrass him.
Is it because the reaction was so intense?
Somehow, it seems to have become a source of vitality in my life.
“Yuchan, are you looking forward to the sea trip?”
[I’m not looking forward to it. Because this is my first time going with you.]
“I’m excited to go and try on another girl’s swimsuit.”
[…] Why would I do that?]
“I just caught you hesitating. Where are you going to step out?”
[This is being discovered.]
“Should I have bought that swimsuit?”
[I told you that it doesn’t suit you.]
“Doesn’t it suit you? Or did you want me not to wear it?”
It was a word thrown lightly as always. However, Yuchan’s answer does not come back right away.
The atmosphere suddenly became strange due to my inadvertent hesitation, and I also became embarrassed by dozing off as well.
“What is it? Why aren’t you answering?”
[I was at a loss for words because it didn’t suit Junnae.]
“A Mr. Twat tsk.”
[Suddenly he spits. Where did you learn that from?]
“I learned it from my dad. Why?”
[Sir, that’s a bit… ]
“Hmm, even when I saw this, it was Eva. 3 second apology acknowledged?”
[I admit it. Anyway, have a nice time.]
“I understand. You too are doing great. Don’t eat ramen.”
[How many times do you say it? See you later.]
As it is my first time, I am excited and worried at the same time because I don’t know what will happen.
I could see that this worry was meaningless.
I want to go on a sea trip soon.
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