episode_0032

by fnovelpia

As time passed, I felt more frustrated with my cell phone not making any contact.

And I started to feel frustrated with myself as I was looking at my phone and doing nothing.

They say they didn’t answer my call, but if I try to contact them again and find a way to meet them in person, the results may be different.

Even though I know that.

My body doesn’t move like my mind does.

Because I’m afraid.

If Han Yu-chan really doesn’t have feelings for me anymore, there’s no point in trying to meet him.

As I picture in my mind what Han Yu-chan’s eyes would look like when I went to meet him, I don’t have the confidence to look into those eyes.

It seems like the eyes are infinitely cold and you can never find anything affectionate in them.

Now, my body has fully recovered and I am going to school, but I have not seen Han Yu-chan even once.

I also couldn’t see Yerim when she met Hojin.

The fact that Han Yu-chan, who always went with Ho-jin oppa, is nowhere to be seen.

It probably means that he doesn’t want to encounter me to that extent.

“Okay, the weather is nice today, so I’ll finish a little quickly. Thank you all for your hard work.”

After finishing the class taught by the professor who was quick and witty, I left the classroom.

Normally, I would have felt happy that it ended quickly, but right now I don’t have the space in my heart to even feel that happiness.

“Eujin, let’s go eat.”

“No. I’ll go home right away.”

“Why don’t we eat together?”

“Yeah, I didn’t really think about it.”

“They say you shouldn’t skip meals.”

“I’ll buy it at a convenience store and have a quick meal. Hojin and I eat together.”

I left the couples to spend time together and turned around.

As I was about to walk home like this, a fleeting thought caught my ankle.

“Hojin oppa.”

“Yes, Eugene.”

“… no. Enjoy your meal with Yerim.”

“Okay, I understand. Don’t eat too roughly, but eat well.”

“Yes, oppa.”

I tried to muster up as much courage as I could and tried to spit out the thoughts in my head, but my mouth wouldn’t move easily.

I just keep it inside and walk on.

I returned home and turned on my cell phone, which had a badly cracked screen.

At that time, my emotions were so intense that I threw my phone away rather forcefully.

As a result, the screen was broken to the point where touch could not be used properly.

At this level, I think it would be better to replace it rather than repair it.

[Han Yu-chan]

Today again, as usual, I lay in bed and kept looking at Han Yu-chan’s name saved on my phone.

I just lay still without even thinking about trying to contact you.

I looked at it quietly and tapped on the most recent records.

Han Yu-chan’s name written in red letters.

While I was still not thinking and looking at Han Yu-chan’s name on the missed call, something flashed and made me move my finger.

Why did Han Yu-chan call me?

Of course, after hearing that I was sick, he probably bought porridge and brought it to me.

Making a call without ringing the doorbell or entering the door lock code.

It may have been because of concerns that what happened last time might happen again.

The fact that I had that worry in mind meant that I still had the thought that I was not open to Han Yu-chan himself.

I’m not sure, but it’s very likely.

Han Yu-chan arrived in front of my house and made a phone call.

However, I had no idea that the phone call came because I was sleeping at the time.

then…

Could it be that Han Yu-chan is misunderstanding?

The misunderstanding that I didn’t answer the phone because I was sleeping meant that I still didn’t want to talk to him.

This may also be a meaningless assumption, but it is a very plausible situation.

I immediately called Yuchan Han.

Of course, this time too, Han Yu-chan did not answer the phone.

If he continues to avoid my calls like this, there is a possibility that there is already a misunderstanding in Han Yu-chan’s mind.

Without thinking, I jumped out of bed and put back on the clothes I had worn and taken off when I went to school.

There is only one way to meet the current Han Yu-chan.

***

“Thank you, Yuchan.”

“No, Professor. It was a great opportunity for me.”

“Helps me with my work like this. You are already playing your role as a teaching assistant properly.”

“If you need anything, please call me anytime. Then I will go.”

“Okay, see you again.”

After class, the professor told me that he had some work to do, so I went out to help him for a while.

Since accepting the offer to become a graduate student, the distance between me and my professor seems to have become closer.

Should I call this good or bad?

Well, I think it’s okay to think positively because it’s like having a guaranteed future.

Before we knew it, the group assignments were over, and our group completed the presentation very successfully, becoming the only group to receive an A+.

It was definitely more difficult to do the assignment together than to do it alone.

In addition, it was quite difficult to supervise the team as I was also in charge of it.

“Uh, bro!!”

“What is it, Hyunwoo? It’s been a while.”

“Sure. It seems like it’s been a long time since I last saw you.”

“Are you staying because you have class?”

“No. I met a friend and now I’m on my way. What about you?”

“Ah, I’m going to help the professor and go now.”

“Brother, do you have any plans later?”

“No, I was going to go home.”

“Then, do you want to go to a blood room for the first time in a while?”

In fact, since it’s a throwback to 14 years ago, all the current games feel crude, but since there’s nothing to do when you get home anyway, it’s not a bad option.

For your information, I got to know Hyunwoo through Hojin while he was discharged from the military and waiting to return to school.

Come to think of it, it’s been quite a while since I haven’t done something with Hojin.

If I go out with Ho-jin, I’m sure I’ll run into Shin Yu-jin, so I try to avoid it as much as possible, except when taking classes.

Nothing good will happen if you run into one.

I arrived at the PC room with Hyunwoo and was extremely surprised by the price of the PC room.

800 won per hour isn’t enough, it’s deferred payment.

By 2023, the majority of PC rooms will cost more than 1,000 won per hour, and you will always have to pay in advance.

Even if the price is cheaper than 14 years ago, there is no reason to be happy because the money I make is in proportion to the price.

I can’t help but laugh when I think about the dire prices 14 years from now.

“Wow, bro!! Are you crazy about control? Why are you so good?”

“I’ve been doing it for a long time.”

“It’s been less than a year since this came out.”

If you think about it as of 2009, it is the latest game that was released less than a year ago, but to me, it is a game that has been released for 14 years.

It’s not 14 years. Because the service ended after 10 years.

As it was a game I liked, I poured quite a bit of time into it.

“Brother, thanks to you, I won easily.”

“It was fun to play a game after a long time. Let’s do it again next time.”

“Yes, bro!! If you have more time, would you like to eat together?”

“Hmm… Let’s eat next time. Because I want to go home.”

“En? What’s going on bro? I want to go home.”

Ah, here it is again.

Every time I hear a reaction like this, I have no idea what kind of life I would have lived when I was 23.

How much of a glamorous insider life have you enjoyed?

“Anyway, I’m going.”

“Yes, bro. Let’s play again next time.”

After saying goodbye to my younger friend whom I hadn’t seen in a long time, I returned home and settled into bed.

This is because I was tired while talking with the professor.

I understand that you were very interested in me and wanted to tell me one more thing, but that was too much.

I didn’t know you would talk for two hours without stopping.

Anyway, the smell of cigarettes seems to have permeated my clothes.

This was a time when there were no separate smoking areas but smoking seats, but there were so many people that people sat in the smoking seats and played games.

“I have to wash after eating.”

Now that I was starting to feel hungry, I started thinking about food.

It’s a hassle to go out because you’ve used up all your energy, and the refrigerator is poor to make something to eat.

Then there is only one choice.

It’s just ramen.

I’m boiling ramen in a pot with water.

“Drink alcohol in moderation. Don’t eat a lot of ramen. And drink water often.”

Naturally, memories of Shin Yujin passed through my mind.

Not long ago, these moments were extremely painful, but now I try to ignore them as if nothing happened.

Since we spent a lot of time together, even if our relationship ends, it won’t be easily forgotten.

“Well, one day I won’t even think about this.”

If I try to think deeply about things like this, I will only end up suffering.

Even if you try not to think about it, if it comes up, just ignore it.

Then it will be forgotten.

“What movie should I watch today?”

It’s one of my recent hobbies, and I spend most of my free time watching movies.

Even though it was 14 years ago, it was still a masterpiece, so I was able to enjoy it vividly.

Now, the moment I set the ramen on the table and was about to eat it.

-Ding dong!!

The doorbell rang.

I’ve never ordered anything like delivery, so there’s no one to ring the doorbell.

Is it Hojin?

“Yes, who are you?”

I got up from my seat and opened the front door.

Shin Yu-jin was standing in front of the front door.

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