episode_0029
by fnovelpiaI was in Yerim’s arms and let out my emotions for a long time.
I couldn’t figure out the reason for the tears that kept flowing.
At some point, I gave up trying to find a reason and just poured out all the emotions that were buried inside.
“Eujin, are you okay now?”
“Yes… Sorry. I suddenly cried.”
“What happened with Yuchan oppa?”
“That’s… ”
Although I thought it was already impossible to hide it, it was still not easy to reveal what happened with Han Yu-chan.
I have no idea how to say this while hiding the fact that I have regressed.
“Eujin. Look at me.”
Yerim cupped my cheeks and made me look into my eyes.
“I’ve known you since high school.”
“Ugh, yes. That’s right.”
“From then until now, I have never seen you cry like this.”
“Is that so… ”
“I have never seen anyone shed tears in the first place. But you cry so sadly. How can you not care?”
I couldn’t lightly ignore the eyes full of worry.
I had been so overwhelmed by so many storm-like emotions that I couldn’t see the people around me, but now I could see them.
How worried Yerim was about me while I stayed in my room all day since last night and refused to communicate.
“It’s good, even just a little, so please tell me. Huh?”
“… Yerim.”
“Yes, Eugene.”
Hiding the excuse of regression any longer would actually cause more damage to Yerim.
I have to say it now.
“Something happened with Yuchan oppa.”
“Yeah, what happened?”
“When Hojin and Yerim were talking while they were away, Yoochan said something.”
“Yoochan oppa?”
“I can’t go into detail, but it sounded to me like the time we’ve spent so far was nothing.”
“Are you angry about that?”
“Yes, I suddenly got angry and irritated. A little harshly.”
Yerim listened to me and began to think deeply about something.
Yerim, with such a serious look, seemed quite unfamiliar to me as I had rarely seen her for 14 years.
“So you fought?”
“I know that Yoo-chan must have been embarrassed by my sudden anger. He must have been angry.”
“I wouldn’t have been able to control myself.”
“Yes, that’s right. As a result, we became more angry with each other. We had a little big fight.”
“Does Eugene regret what happened yesterday?”
“Regret… Yeah, I think I regret it. So, I want to talk to Yoo-chan oppa.”
I want to talk slowly and reflect on things in a calm atmosphere.
A sincere conversation, not for the purpose of judging right or wrong.
But before having such a conversation, I feel afraid.
I am so overcome with emotion that I feel like I am going to curse and scream at Han Yu-chan.
“First of all, let’s focus on improving our physical condition.”
“Yes… ”
“And you know it. My mood is very messy during my period.”
“That’s right. But I don’t want to rationalize that it’s because of my period.”
“Our Yujin cried a lot in her arms, and it looks like she’s calmed down a bit now?”
“What kind of sister are you all of a sudden? Having a later birthday than me.”
Yerim heated up a hot pack and handed me the water she had brought.
As the water that I haven’t drank in almost a day enters my body, the blood flow circulates throughout my body and I feel a little more alert.
As if that wasn’t enough, he covered me with a blanket all over my head, took out some chocolate from the bag Han Yu-chan brought me, and put it in my mouth.
“Let’s think about Yu-chan oppa later.”
“Yes, I understand. Thank you, Yerim. and… I’m sorry for yelling earlier.”
“It’s okay. Unni understands our Yujin.”
Since high school, I have always been the one taking care of Yerim, but it feels strange to be taking care of Yerim in return.
I didn’t want to think about anything else right now, so I just took the chocolate that was presented to my mouth and ate it.
“Isn’t it delicious?”
“Yes, it’s good because it’s not sweet.”
“I wonder how Yu-chan knew that I didn’t like sweet things that much.”
“Yes, that’s right.”
“It’s even your favorite chocolate.”
Is that why they take care of every single detail even though I get so irritated and spit out unspeakable curses?
It wouldn’t be surprising if he didn’t want to see me anymore and cut off ties.
“Have you seen Yu-chan keep thinking about Yu-jin since the four of us first met?”
“… Yoo-chan oppa?”
“Yeah, doesn’t Eugene feel the same way?”
When I think about it, whenever Han Yu-chan does something, I always seem to be included in his actions.
Even when I went to the forest park, he expected me to fall and was prepared to catch me.
Han Yu-chan, who was not interested in books, had no interest in books, and the only traces of reading on his bookshelf were the novels we read together.
He handed me my favorite panda doll, saying he bought it without thinking.
I lived my life accepting such things without thinking.
Even though I know how big of a deal it is to have someone take care of me.
“Yujin is good at studying, but she’s not good at understanding people’s minds.”
“How good are you.”
“You should do better than Eugene?”
“… I can’t refute that.”
“How about resting at home until your period ends and then meeting up with Yoo-chan after you’re healed?”
“Yes, I will do that.”
“If it’s difficult, Hojin and I will tell Yuchan. Shall I make a place for you?”
This matter is entirely between me and Han Yu-chan.
Everything about how to start and how to move forward has to be worked out between me and Han Yu-chan.
“No. I’ll tell Yu-chan. After my body is fully healed.”
“Yes, do that.”
“Yerim, can you give me my cell phone?”
“Yes, here. Oh, and the screen on your phone was broken?”
“Probably… It’s probably because I threw it.”
“Wow, I was so emotional that I threw my phone.”
“Sure.”
I tried turning on my cell phone, which had been turned off for a while.
As soon as the lock screen appeared, a huge alarm filled my phone screen.
All that contact.
It was Han Yu-chan.
From countless missed calls to countless messages and texts.
Even though not a whole day had passed, there was a week’s worth of contacts piled up.
[Han Yu-chan: Eugene, if it’s okay, would you like to see me?]
[Han Yu-chan: I have something I want to say. I was sorry yesterday.]
[Han Yu-chan: Are you not feeling well? I heard it from Yerim.]
[Han Yu-chan: I left a bag of chocolates in front of the door. Eat later. It’s what you like.]
Just like before, he said my name in a different tone than usual, but for some reason I didn’t feel uncomfortable.
While Han Yu-chan was making so many contacts, I felt guilty for doing nothing to prevent it.
Not being able to control emotions and neglecting them.
This is the image that she showed to Han Yu-chan countless times while their relationship was not good.
I think I know for sure now.
I always overlooked it, thinking that Han Yu-chan was the problem, but that wasn’t the case.
My fault also played a large part in our relationship starting to fall apart.
“Yerim.”
“Yes, why?”
“I feel so stupid.”
“Suddenly?”
“Up until now, I’ve been selfish and only thought about myself. People around me don’t care.”
“When did you say you lived selfishly? If you are selfish, then what am I?”
Saying that, Yerim hugged me once more.
If you were Yerim 14 years ago, you wouldn’t know. No, even if Yerim returned with 14 years of memories, I wouldn’t know who I am.
It’s so shabby and miserable.
“Yujin, do you like Yuchan oppa?”
“I’m not sure about that. But I don’t think I hate it.”
“You just said it as if you hated it more than anyone else in the world.”
“Just now… Because I’m out of my mind.”
“Pfft. Oh, our Eugene!!”
“What, suddenly.”
“Why is it so cute?”
It’s amazing that Yerim likes me even though I can’t control my emotions and end up doing something.
I tried to reply to Han Yu-chan while being petted by Ye-rim, but my fingers still didn’t move as I expected.
From when my body is completely healed.
At that exact moment, I will contact Yuchan Han and meet him.
And I want to have a serious talk.
Just as memories were created even during a bad couple’s life, many memories were also created after the couple’s return.
When I think of those memories, I don’t want to end my relationship with Han Yu-chan.
“Yerim. I’m going to sleep a little.”
“Then let’s sleep together with you.”
“… Why are you calling me sister from now on?”
“Because our Eugene is so cute.”
Yerim lay down on the bed with me in her arms.
As I naturally entered Yerim’s arms, I could only laugh at the absurd situation.
What kind of situation is this really?
“When you wake up, I’ll make you dinner.”
“You can’t cook.”
“Oh, no. How good am I at cooking?”
“I burned all the fried eggs and ate them.”
“That was a mistake. I’ll make you something really delicious.”
I wonder what Han Yu-chan is doing right now.
I wish the opportunity would still be right in front of me when I try to contact them.
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