episode_0028
by fnovelpia“Yes, who are you?”
I was finally able to meet Shin Yu-jin, but the words I had in mind did not come out properly.
Because I have never seen such a haggard face.
Even though I fought so hard before returning, I have never seen Shin Yu-jin like this.
I always acted nonchalantly and continued my daily life as if nothing was wrong.
I think it’s actually a dream that Shin Yu-jin is in this state.
Was it the one word I said at that time that made Shin Yu-jin like this?
Just looking at Shin Yujin’s face made me feel a tremendous sense of guilt.
“Yujin.”
“… ”
In the meantime, I always called him ‘Hey’ or ‘Shin Yu-jin’, so the word ‘Yu-jin-ah’ was very unfamiliar to me.
Shin Yujin made eye contact with me.
Didn’t say anything.
He just looked at me for a short moment and tried to close the front door again.
Thinking that there would be no more chances if this door closed now, I quickly reached out my hand and grabbed the front door that was closing.
“Eujin, talk to me.”
“I have nothing to talk about with you.”
“I was sorry yesterday. I didn’t really mean it, but it happened in a moment without me knowing… ”
“If you spit it out without realizing it, doesn’t that mean you’ve been thinking that way?”
“That’s not it.”
“Get out. Because just looking at it makes me sick.”
No matter what I said, the situation would only get worse.
Because things were constantly going differently from what I had intended, my mind went blank and I couldn’t properly say a single word I had in mind.
“Eujin, come with me just once… ”
“Hey, Han Yu-chan.”
“Yes, Eugene.”
“Now you’re calling my name? In the meantime, no matter what I did, they called me by my last name.”
“That’s… ”
“Why? Do you think something will change if you act differently, even if it’s such a small thing?”
I just listened quietly to Shin Yu-jin’s sharp tone of voice.
Still, I thought nothing would change if I listened to it like this, so I expressed my opinion little by little.
“That’s not my intention.”
“I’m sorry, but doing something like that won’t change anything. Just looking at it, I thought I would open the door if I pressed the doorbell, so I pressed it.”
“That’s because I’m afraid you’ll naturally hate it if I press the door lock and enter.”
“It’s the same even if you ring the doorbell. I fucking hate it.”
With those words, the front door began to close firmly.
I instinctively stretched out my foot to block the front door from closing and was able to block it from closing.
That moment.
-Suddenly!!
The front door was wide open.
Just when I was about to think that he had finally decided to talk to me.
“Please, get out of here!! I don’t want to see your face?!”
When I heard those words filled with sincerity, the foot that was blocking the gap in the door automatically moved back even though I didn’t think about it.
and.
-thud!!
The front door closed firmly.
The sound of the door closing echoed through the hallway and I just stood in front of the front door until the sound disappeared.
Because it was so shocking.
Because I have never seen Shin Yu-jin curse at me so sincerely.
“Ha… ”
I left the bag containing some chocolates I bought on the way in front of the front door and walked on.
Of course I thought it wouldn’t be smooth, but I never expected it to be this bad.
I don’t know if it’s just me being rudely kicked out of the door, but I never thought I’d be treated with double insults.
That would mean I made a big mistake.
-Wheee!! Wow!!
I somehow knew the right time to call and got a call from Hojin.
“Yes, why?”
[Did you do well with Eugene?]
“… No.”
[Now I just admit it.]
“I left the chocolate I bought at the convenience store at the door.”
[What on earth did you do to make that good boy react like that?]
“There is such a thing.”
I hung up the phone quickly because I didn’t think I would hear anything good.
I just walked along the road with heavy steps without thinking.
***
“My head hurts… ”
When I could no longer feel Han Yu-chan’s presence outside the door, I went back to bed, complaining of a worsening headache.
Because the situation turned out very differently from what I had imagined.
When I heard Han Yu-chan’s words from last night, my emotions instantly exploded.
Even though it was true that they were no longer a couple and they agreed not to interfere with each other.
I couldn’t control my emotions for no reason.
So it ended up exploding.
It cannot be said that Han Yu-chan is entirely at fault. I am also at fault.
That’s why I tried to offer an apology…
For some reason, when I saw Han Yu-chan’s face, emotions burst out again.
“Ah… My stomach hurts.”
Is it because of menstruation? Is it because of yesterday’s menstruation that I can’t control my emotions?
I don’t know.
Right now I just want to be alone and not think about anything.
I curled up, holding the now lukewarm hot pack as close to my stomach as possible.
I closed my eyes, wanting to forget everything.
My tired body naturally began to feel dizzy.
***
“Eujin, does your stomach hurt a lot?”
I felt a warm hand touching my forehead along with an unknown voice in my ear.
Whose voice is it, whose hand is it?
I couldn’t tell at all, but I felt lighter as my whole body became comfortable with the endless warmth.
Naturally, I held onto the hand that was touching my forehead.
A person’s name was called in a low voice.
“Yoochan oppa… ”
OK.
“Eujin?”
I heard a different voice than before, and at some point I stopped feeling warm.
I can definitely feel the warmth from the touch, but it is quite different from the warmth I felt just a moment ago.
I opened my eyes to a sudden change.
I made eye contact with Yerim, who was looking down at me and placing her hand on her forehead.
“Eujin, are you okay?”
“Uh… Yerim.”
“No matter how many times I called, there was no answer, so I came in worried.”
“I was sleeping but I couldn’t hear you. Did you come here from playing with Hojin oppa?”
“Yes, I came in quickly because I was worried about Eugene.”
“You can have fun without worrying about me.”
“How is that? You haven’t come out of your room since yesterday.”
Before I could say anything, Yerim touched the hot pack and took it to warm it up again.
As I looked around to reboot my dazed brain, I saw a black envelope on my desk.
“Yerim, what is the envelope on my desk?”
“Ah, I think Yu-chan oppa left that at the door.”
When I heard that Han Yu-chan had left it behind, my curiosity about the contents of the envelope disappeared.
“Eujin, here.”
“Yes, thank you.”
“Huh? It’s chocolate. I guess Yu-chan brought it because he thought of Yu-jin.”
“Ah, yes. You eat it.”
“Yoo-chan gave it to you, but I’m not allowed to eat it. Eugene eats it.”
“I don’t like it.”
I only answered briefly and turned my body towards the wall and lay down.
I feel like if I bring up Han Yu-chan, I get a headache, so I don’t want to talk anymore.
“Yujin, what happened with Yuchan?”
“… No.”
“There was. So this is what I’m doing now.”
“There was none.”
“I don’t know what’s going on, but wouldn’t something be resolved if we talked face to face?”
“Well. I don’t think I will have anything to do with that person anymore.”
I tried to hide it as best as I could, but the emotions that kept building up caused words to come out of my mouth.
“Yujin, when I just touched your forehead, I heard you call Yuchan oppa.”
“Is that so.”
“Yujin still has feelings for Yuchan oppa.”
Do you have any heart left? Me to that person?
No way.
Everything ended with what happened yesterday. That means I can’t pick it up any more.
Even the affection that I thought was an angular affection no longer exists, so what kind of feelings are left?
“Yujin, I’m not saying this because I think it would be uncomfortable for me and Hojin, who are caught between us. Yoo-chan and you… ”
Why do you keep bringing up Han Yu-chan’s name in front of me?
Even though I said nothing happened.
I know that too. I did something wrong.
I’m not feeling well physically or mentally right now, so I’m going to think about it later.
why?
Why do you keep bringing up Han Yu-chan’s name and making things complicated for me?
In the end, the bond of reason was broken.
And I…
“I told you so!! There will be no more involvement!!”
I even ended up yelling at Yerim.
“Yu, Eugene.”
“Why do you keep saying that? Why?!”
“Eujin… Are you crying?”
As soon as I heard those words, I felt the texture of my skin slowly becoming wet.
I wiped my eyes, thinking it was just an illusion since I had no reason to shed tears, but the back of my hand was wet.
“Yujin.”
“I don’t like it… I don’t want to think of it as being about Han Yu-chan. please… Don’t talk about Han Yu-chan in front of me.”
“I’m sorry, Eugene. I’m sorry.”
Yerim gave me an apple and hugged me tightly.
I just lie in Yerim’s arms.
I just shed tears without knowing why.
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