episode_0026
by fnovelpia“… Hey, Han Yu-chan.”
“Why?”
“What did you just say?”
The air froze momentarily.
I instinctively realized that the look in his eyes was quite different from the one he always gave me to play with.
Why are you doing that all of a sudden?
“They’re not a couple anyway.”
“Ha… They really talk like shit.”
“What?! Hey, what did you just say?”
I hoped I had heard wrong, but Shin Yu-jin’s expression and the cold air I felt right now were too vivid for that to be true.
If it is clear that I committed a crime, I can get away with Shin Yu-jin swearing with such sincerity.
But you get criticized with all your sincerity without knowing anything about it?
It’s quite embarrassing and absurd.
“What did I do wrong that I should be criticized by you?”
“ done. It looks like something that has been building up has burst out.”
“Hey, say it clearly. Don’t try to avoid it.”
Shin Yujin ignored my words and focused on his cell phone.
I was so embarrassed by that attitude that I got so angry that I automatically tightened my fists.
It was not my intention to hit Shin Yujin. It was simply because I had no idea what to do with this sudden anger.
“Hey, Shinyu… ”
“We are here.”
“What is it? Why is the atmosphere like this?”
“Well, something came up for a moment, so I’ll wake up first.”
“Huh? Suddenly?”
“I’m sorry.”
“Eujin, what’s going on?”
“It’s not a big deal, so don’t worry about it.”
With only those words left behind, Shin Yujin actually got up and left the restaurant.
The absurd reactions continue, making me angry.
I need to clearly figure out what I did wrong and whether that mistake is worthy of being criticized with all my heart.
“Sorry. I also suddenly had something to do.”
“Eng?! You too?”
“Are you two going on a date?”
I brushed aside the unnecessary words and ran out of the restaurant.
Even though it hadn’t been long since Shin Yu-jin left the restaurant, the distance had increased considerably.
I ran faster than ever before and grabbed Shin Yujin’s wrist.
“Hey, Shin Yujin!!”
“Let go.”
“Why are you doing this? Why are you suddenly swearing at people?”
“Have you ever done that for a special reason?”
“What?!”
“I’m just annoyed by what you say. That’s reason enough.”
Are you saying what I’m saying is annoying? And suddenly?
I expected that this ridiculous situation would be resolved if I caught up with him and talked to him like this, but that didn’t happen at all.
“Hey, say it clearly. Because continuing to speak vaguely makes people more angry.”
“Why are you angry?”
“Then you won’t get angry if you suddenly get criticized?”
“Don’t you think you’ve done something to be criticized?”
“So you’re asking. Why are you doing that? ”
“Your way of speaking.”
“My way of speaking?”
“I can’t be with you because your tone of voice is irritating. That way of speaking still gets on people’s nerves!!”
Shin Yujin’s sharp yet calm voice rang out for a moment.
If my tone itself is irritating and angry, how could you have been with me until now?
It’s just a series of incoherent words. I can’t solve the questions that fill my head with just these things.
“Then you think your way of speaking doesn’t get on people’s nerves?”
“At least not as much as you.”
“You are the same. Getting on people’s nerves by not speaking properly and going around in circles. That’s the most annoying thing.”
“Hey, Han Yu-chan. Let me ask you just one question.”
“What is it?”
“Why did you marry me?”
“What does that mean all of a sudden?”
“If you’re going to say that we were a couple in the past as if it was nothing, then why did you marry me?”
The moment you hear those words.
I found out why Shin Yu-jin was in this state.
I don’t think I could lightly ignore the words I just said.
But that doesn’t mean you can understand it.
I was just stating the truth.
They said that because they had regressed and were no longer a couple.
To the extent that they are not a married couple, and to the extent that they said not to pay attention to each other immediately after returning.
I said, thinking that nothing would go on from now on.
What is wrong with that? Isn’t that just making up something that didn’t exist and saying it as if it were true?
“Did I say something wrong?”
“… Hey, Han Yu-chan.”
“That’s correct. I don’t know why you’re so angry.”
“If that was going to be the case, why didn’t you just divorce?”
“Why does that sound suddenly come out?”
“If you’re going to say it like it’s nothing, why did you keep doing that shit with me?”
“Hey, Shin Yujin. Do you want to keep talking like that?!”
“It would have been better to just divorce and live comfortably without worrying about each other.”
I don’t even know why I’m so angry with just that one word.
I also don’t understand why I’m stressed while seeing Shin Yu-jin like that.
It’s just annoying.
To the point where I want to get Shin Yu-jin out of my sight right now.
“I told you before you came to the past. I don’t know why you married me.”
“What is that?”
“… Is that what you want to say? Why are you so confident?”
As Shin Yu-jin’s words that constantly scratched my insides piled up, I gradually let go of reason.
Something tried to hold me back, telling me I couldn’t go any further than this.
Everything about Shin Yu-jin is so angry that he can barely maintain his senses.
“Honestly, don’t you think so?”
“Hey, Han Yu-chan.”
“On a fictitious day, we fight and make a fuss over something unbecoming, don’t you think of that?”
“Stop it.”
“Why do you always say that my speaking style is the only problem? Do you think there is nothing wrong with your way of speaking?”
“… Han Yu-chan.”
Shin Yu-jin’s mouth was moving, but her voice could not be heard at all.
My mouth is like a broken faucet.
I couldn’t control myself and let out all the words that were swept away by my emotions.
“Even if I think about it a hundred times, I still don’t understand how I ended up dating you and getting married… ”
-Wow!!
That moment.
Something hit my cheek hard.
Because the pain was so strong, I stopped talking frantically.
I just touched my cheek, which felt a tingling pain.
“How can you say that?”
“What.”
“At least. If you’re a human bastard, shouldn’t you deny the good times we had like that?”
“That’s… ”
“I was an idiot for trying to be friends with you.”
Shin Yu-jin bit her lip hard and turned around and walked out without hesitation.
“Shin Yu… ”
No words come out.
I didn’t want to hold on to her as she grew further and further away.
No, I didn’t catch it exactly.
When she turned around, she could see tears faintly scattering in the air.
All I can do is stand there and sigh deeply.
“Ha… Is he really an asshole?”
No matter how angry you are. No matter how much you can’t control your emotions.
I shouldn’t have said that last word.
The moment I said those words, I knew I could never take them back.
But I couldn’t control it.
Everything broke down in the moment as the emotions welled up, and I ended up saying whatever came to mind.
Twice with this.
I made the same mistake twice.
If you were going to regret it right away after committing it, why couldn’t you hold back?
After wandering around for a while, I walked home.
I didn’t drink much, but I felt more dizzy than when I drank to the point where the film stopped.
For some reason, my legs feel weak and I can’t think properly.
When I got home like that, I immediately went to bed.
-Wheee!! Wow!!
As soon as I lay down on the bed, I saw the phone ringing and checked it, and it was Hojin’s call.
Well, you even said that. There’s no way I’m calling.
I ignored it and threw away my phone.
But even after that.
-Wheee!! Wow!!
Hojin’s phone rang constantly.
I had no choice but to pick up the phone.
“Hey, Yuchan. What’s going on?”
I heard something that sounded like they were worried about me.
“No. Nothing’s wrong.”
“But why is your voice so weak?”
“Just. I suddenly feel weak.”
“Did you fight with Eugene?”
“… I’ll hang up. I want to get some rest.”
I heard a voice calling me, but I ignored it and hung up.
If only I could go back just one more time.
I desperately want to go back to an hour ago.
But it couldn’t be possible.
Time just passes by incessantly.
I thought about the meaning of Shin Yu-jin’s tears that I saw for the last time.
Do we cherish the good times so much that it brings tears to our eyes?
Or maybe even though it was such a bad fight and a bad time, I kept it as a memory.
No matter how I think about it, I can’t understand the tears I saw for the last time.
And I can’t accept it.
I picked up my phone again and turned on the screen to send a text to Shin Yujin.
Of course, it didn’t take long before I threw my phone away again.
No matter what I think.
No matter what you do.
This is a situation that can no longer be undone.
Not really anymore.
We can’t go back to how we used to be.
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