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Episode 168

It would not be easy for Carmel to doubt my words.

Knowing the symptoms of dizziness and pain that occur when eating a cookie really means that you have seen someone cursed.

Carmel, who was rolling her eyes as she poured whiskey down her throat, put down her cleanly emptied glass and said.

“So, the saint… what on earth was the saint doing? There’s no way I didn’t know there was a curse…”

I can hear in his voice that he is very embarrassed. It seemed like she didn’t even care about looking like a villainess.

“Stop acting so disgusting, mother. What a delicious cookie would mean to the children of a poor monastery… You’ve calculated it all, right? By letting Leelia die in front of her eyes, by making it impossible to prevent her death, to plunge that good child into an abyss of despair and self-reproach… You are truly amazing.”

“Oh, no… I, I…”

Carmel shook her head vigorously with a fearful look on her face. I said to Carmel with a cold face and voice.

“I cannot say that I am not responsible for having placed my expectations on my mother at least for a time. If I hadn’t neglected their mother… those children wouldn’t have died.”

“…Ugh…”

It felt like every word I said was stabbing into Carmel’s heart like a dagger. I spoke firmly, as if delivering the final blow.

“Now I… can’t love my mother anymore.”

Carmel completely froze at those words. Carmel’s face stopped with her mouth slightly open, and only her eyes were moving quickly as if she was anxious.

“Sera, Sera…”

“Please don’t call me by my name as if we’re friendly.”

The two words just before seemed quite shocking. In a state close to panic, Carmel screamed bitterly.

“I, I didn’t even know! Oh, I didn’t know I would die that bad! It can’t be, it can’t be… It’s not my fault…! I… say no…!”

I glared with deep contempt at the evil woman who was making lame excuses. With a completely cold gaze.

“Have you finished making excuses?”

“Ugh, uh…”

Carmel seemed to feel that my gaze was like a knife. In fact, his face looked like he was in pain, as if his heart had been cut to pieces.

I walked to the table where Carmel was sitting. And then I poured the bag I had brought on top of it.

A little less than ten small boxes roll on the table. These were the cursed boxes that Carmel had sent to Orbin Monastery.

I sat across from Carmel. Carmel just had an anxious face.

“I… I can’t even forgive myself. Even though I could have stopped you, I didn’t.”

I took a box in my hand and opened the lid. The black magic of the curse wafts ominously from the crumbled cookie. Carmel slowly shook her head.

“No, Sarah…”

“I don’t know if this will make you feel guilty, but at least I have to take responsibility in my own way.”

I held the cookie cut in half in my hand and brought it straight to my mouth. But before it went into my mouth, Carmel’s hand grabbed my arm.

Carmel spoke in an extremely sorrowful voice.

“Don’t do it, Sarah…”

“Let go, Carmel.”

The water droplets that had formed in Carmel’s eyes overflowed. The crying voice already belonged to a completely different person than when I first entered this room.

“No… I, ugh, I was wrong… So don’t do that… If you eat this much… you’ll die too…”

The curse disappears from the cookie in my hand. I could tell that Carmel herself had lifted the curse.

“You mean… are you admitting that this is all your doing?”

“Yes… I did it… But, I really didn’t mean to kill anyone… You can hate me, so please just believe that… ”

“Ha…”

I slowly put my hand down. I put the crumbs I was holding in my hand on the table. And then I looked at Carmel, who was sobbing.

Even a crying face can be this pretty. It’s almost touching.

Moreover, these tears clearly have meaning. This is clear evidence that Carmel also has a conscience.

I asked softly while admiring the rare sight of Carmel.

“If you go back to this morning, can you promise not to repeat the same thing?”

“Yes… If I had known… If I had known in advance, I would never have done this… I promise… ”

“Then… I’m really glad. Please cherish your current feelings. Actually, no one died.”

“…Ugh… Wait, what?”

Carmel, who had been slightly lowering her head, raised her face and looked at me. The face was completely filled with shock and deep anger.

“That was a lie? entire? Everything…?”

“Yes, I’m really glad, right? So stop crying, mother.”

My shoulders, which had been shaking slightly while crying, were now shaking much more violently. Carmel shouted, breathing heavily.

“Kuhhh… Sarah Lustier… You… You are a human being…!”

As I look at Carmel, who is so angry with her face still filled with tears, joy wells up in my heart. I spoke calmly, hiding my joy.

“Yes. Of course it was all a lie. There is no way I can stop loving my mother.”

“Ugh…!”

The light of anger quickly disappears from Carmel’s face, which seemed as if she would lunge at me at any moment with just one word. The ferocity had drained from his face, and only the bright red color remained.

“But to be honest, it was quite touching. The moment I was about to eat that, you stopped me with such a desperate look on your face. He even cried. Hehe, why did you do that? Were you… that scared of me dying?”

“…Ugh…”

Carmel glanced at me with a bright red face. The reaction he had at that time seemed quite embarrassing. Carmel, who was licking her lips, launched a counterattack instead of answering.

“You, weren’t you… just a desperate bluff? A curse that could kill you if you eat it… I guess he wanted to beat me so bad?”

I answered with a gentle smile.

“No, I knew that I wouldn’t die if I ate it. I already tried it at the monastery. Even if you don’t die, it’s quite painful, isn’t it?”

“Oh, you tried it? You yourself?”

“Yes.”

“Uh, why…?”

“I wanted to check it with my body. That my mother had no intention of harming anyone.”

After hearing my answer, Carmel opened her mouth and forgot what to say. Then he suddenly shouted in an angry voice.

“Are you stupid? If there were any fragments of the curse left in me, if there was any malice left in me…! If only I had had a little, just a little more bad attitude…! He really could have cast a death curse! What do you believe in and do such a thing? Sarah, you really…!”

“I wanted to believe in my beloved mother. That’s all.”

Then Carmel, who seemed to be pouring out words endlessly, suddenly closed her mouth. He was looking at me with eyes and expressions filled with complex emotions.

Carmel’s lips continued to move as if she was trying to say something. But in the end, it made no sense and just lingered inside.

Carmel poured whiskey into a glass with melted ice. After filling the glass, Carmel drank it down in one gulp.

With an intoxicated look on her face, Carmel spoke with her eyes subtly focused on something other than me.

“Don’t trust me, Sarah. Don’t do something like today… again.”

“Why?”

“I said it before, but I don’t know any other way of life than hatred. Even if my whim saved my life this time… I can’t guarantee what will happen next time.”

“I don’t like it.”

Carmel turned to me and glared displeasedly. I continued speaking without heeding anything.

“I will make the same choice again and again. So… if you don’t want to kill me, you choose.”

“…Ugh…”

With a bright red face, Carmel could not continue speaking. I just had my head down and didn’t know what to do.

With this level of response… I think we can slowly move into the final stage. I spoke to Carmel in a sweet voice.

“Up until now, I was trying my best to pretend not to know, but this time, you were quite blatant, Mother. You went around leaving traces like that… Did you really want me to find a weakness?”

“Oh, no… who…”

This is a car that has already shown its emotions several times. It was safe to say that the bright red-faced Carmel was virtually disarmed. It seemed like I could easily knock it over with just a little push.

Or pull it in reverse.

I sighed softly and stood up.

“It wasn’t? Then I guess I was mistaken. Well, I couldn’t actually find any plausible evidence. Well then, I’ll just head back today.”

I turned around as if I really wanted to go back. Carmel took the bait quickly. He jumped up from his seat and grabbed my sleeve.

“Now, wait… wait, wait…”

“Yes?”

Carmel spoke hesitantly with a red face.

“You, he, I said you were cursed…? Wow, it must have been really painful… It wouldn’t be fair if things went on like this… Shouldn’t we… do something… equivalent to that?”

Being desperate is pretty cute. I snorted and said.

“Is that really what you thought? You don’t need that excuse, Mother. Do you want to be violated? Then say you want to be fucked properly.”

Carmel raised her eyes and blushed as if her pride had been hurt. But he still didn’t let go of my sleeve.

In the end, Carmel spoke in a stuttering voice. Exactly what I wanted.

“…I want to be fucked…”

There are no more ‘deals’. There is no threat, no coercion, nothing. Carmel simply wanted me in her own heart.

“Please, commit me, Sarah…”

When I saw Carmel looking at me with wet eyes and making a dirty breathing noise, my stomach began to tighten.

I said to Carmel with a look full of lewd desire.

“You did a great job, Mother.”