episode_0064

Episode 64.

A time near noon. I was spending time alone drinking tea.

Tea time for a princess with an elegant smile. I can feel the longing gaze from the maids serving me.

But what I’m thinking about now is the extremely lewd memory of last night.

‘It was cute, Carmel last night…’

I can’t forget the cute face on her face the moment she opened her eyes and realized that she was being sexually harassed by me.

Of course, what happened after that was always satisfying. The naked body revealed under the soft light, the appearance as it leaves, the feel of the mouth…

Everything was great. It was definitely not enough as an event to end a long life in captivity.

I brought the teacup to my mouth, replaying the image of Carmel leaving over and over again in my head.

Well, it’s not like there wasn’t something to reflect on.

Although it was something I had planned, I ended up losing somewhat because I gave in to my impulses. In return for the fun, Carmel was given the sword of questions.

What I fear most is losing Carmel.

Carmel is the only being worth pursuing in this world with no connection, no, including the charter.

‘…When I think about it again, I feel a little embarrassed…’

I have already said several times that Carmel’s body is my goal. But the nuance feels a little different from then.

As if they had feelings for each other.

‘Tsk…’

I took a gulp of the still slightly hot tea. The maid looked at me in surprise, but that wasn’t important.

It is clear that I feel like I want Carmel. I want to make my body and mind completely mine and enjoy every inch of it using all the time I have.

In a broader sense, it could also be called the unfamiliar word love. I have no intention of denying it.

But the reason I feel somehow stuffy is not because of the definition of the word.

What does Carmel think?

I didn’t realize it last night because I was so excited, but thinking about it now, Carmel’s reaction when she heard that was somewhat strange.

The reason Carmel asked that question was, of course, to find out my weaknesses. However, even after hearing an answer that was completely contrary to the intention, there were no objections.

why?

Just in case, just in case.

Did you say that Carmel also accepted the nuance in my answer?

‘Ah… ah…!’

This feeling as if the tips of my hands and feet are upright and trembling. It’s an indescribable feeling. It was such a pain that I accidentally exposed the most vulnerable part of my heart.

To calm my mind, I ate two cream puffs in a row in front of me. The soft, rich sweetness seems to calm the agitation in my heart a little.

Phew, yes. Let’s calm down a little.

Nothing changes anyway.

I do my best to take Carmel, and on the other hand, Carmel is a villainess and does her best to destroy me and the kingdom. Nothing changes in that relationship.

There is no room for change with already lukewarm words like love. Even more so when I think of the insults I have inflicted on Carmel.

Carmel will still hate me, and she might be laughing at me right now, remembering my words from yesterday.

‘…Ugh…’

The moment I thought that, I felt pain as if an awl had been stabbed deep in my heart. The fuzzy feeling from just a moment ago has changed into something cold and painful, like a lie.

It’s strange.

I just eat the prey named Carmel as my desire guides me. I just want to play with Carmel’s most sexy body and arrogant personality like a toy.

Then it wouldn’t matter what Carmel thinks of me.

“Are you feeling uncomfortable somewhere? Or maybe there’s something wrong with the car…”

The maid who had been watching me approached me with a worried face. I smiled and answered as if nothing had happened.

“No, it’s nothing. Can I ask for one more drink?”

“Oh, sure. I’ll get ready right away!”

As I watched the maid hurriedly brewing a new cup of black tea with expert skill, I let out a very small sigh.

* * *

It was late afternoon when Carmel returned to the room. It is faster than usual.

Even while he came in and changed his clothes, he didn’t say a word. He just looked somewhere else with a cold expression.

The shameful memories of yesterday seem to have been quickly forgotten.

It’s easier for me to deal with that too.

While waiting for Carmel, I finished putting my mind in order.

Well, it’s not something big enough to be called a cleanup. Just deal with the momentary confusion and return to the original state.

No wonder Carmel despises me. It is natural to hate and be hostile. Because the relationship between Carmel and I was like that from the beginning.

There is no reason to accept that obvious fact differently now. So, it has been sorted out.

Carmel came towards me and sat down across from me. He still has a cold expression, as if he is wearing a mask.

“Tomorrow is the last day of my life here. As someone who is being punished, it’s blasphemous to say this, but it was a pretty good life. There were a lot of fun things to see.”

Words that scratch your insides as usual. I hoped Carmel would respond as sharply as usual.

However, Carmel silently turned her gaze away from me and showed no reaction other than slightly moving her eyebrows.

Throbbing.

The wedge stuck in my chest is throbbing again.

Displeasure and a strange sense of betrayal rise up. I also sensed something was wrong with me. If it were me under normal circumstances, I wouldn’t be this upset about being ignored.

If it is discovered that non-response makes you angry, there is a high possibility that it will be used as an effective tool in the future. I spoke softly and gracefully, hiding my condition as much as possible.

“Mother.”

Still no response. Although his eyes looked slightly in my direction.

Even at times like this, that side face is incredibly pretty.

“Please look here, mother. Are you not hearing me?”

“…What is it?”

It’s an irritating and cold voice. Carmel, unable to completely ignore me, turned her head towards me.

huh?

Is something strange?

Carmel’s gaze was towards me, but not towards my face. It was just hovering around my neck, not my face.

what?

Is this…

“Mother, why aren’t you making eye contact? As a child, I feel so sad. Now, please look here, okay?”

Playfulness is naturally added to the voice. The feeling that had been sinking just now was rising as if it had never happened before.

“Who was avoiding eye contact?”

Carmel still maintained a cold expression and looked straight into my eyes. I faced Carmel and held her hand that was on the table.

“ugh…”

An unconcealable agitation spreads through the eyes. Carmel was unable to immediately remove her hand or avert her eyes, and I was observing her bewildered reaction.

What is “ all of a sudden? Hey, let go of this right now…”

I tried to act firm and cold, but it wasn’t very effective. The mushy, melted voice was actually sending the opposite signal.

“Did you come back early today just to spend time with me? I am very touched. Shall we spend the day together happily until we go to bed today?”

“What are you talking about…! Even the maids are watching…!”

It is still time for the maids to work. All the maids looking at us were smiling happily.

“Yes? What’s wrong with mother and daughter getting along so well? Or, mother, did you just think of something strange?”

“You…”

Carmel’s face begins to turn red. It seems like he had some really strange thoughts.

In the end, Carmel couldn’t withstand the barrage of attacks and withdrew her hand from me.

“Okay, leave it at that, Sarah. Because I have no intention of being closer to you than necessary.”

Carmel’s voice, which was closer to lukewarm water than ice, was not very persuasive. You probably realize it yourself.

“It’s too much, mother. You say such harsh words… But I still really like my mother.”

I like my mother. It is a natural duty for a child. Even if she said she was an adoptive mother, it wouldn’t be such an awkward thing to say.

It would never have sounded like that to Carmel.

“Well…!”

Carmel, who made strange noises, was unable to hide her agitation. Eyes that had nowhere to go were shaking back and forth.

At the same time, he was trying to keep a cold expression. Even now, it seems like they don’t realize that it’s just cute.

“It’s okay even if my mother can’t accept me yet. Someday, I will definitely tell my mother…”

I had no choice but to stop talking midway.

An ominous and eerie presence. I turned around, feeling as if cold water had been poured down my spine.

When I looked back, a terrifying black magic power was gushing out like a spring from the box containing the small tree branch.