episode_0009

Kamiel never thought he would have a lover.

Even if I am forced to marry someone by my father. That’s because your will wasn’t involved.

It was a no-brainer.

Of course, that doesn’t mean I didn’t think about it at all.

Kamiel spoke out about his ideal type that just occurred to him in passing.

“… Someone who can understand me even if I know all my mistakes.”

Rheasian was dazed for a moment by the bright answer.

“Is that the end? You don’t look at things like looks?”

“Anyway, everything becomes the same when you get older. Ah, are the Larun people different? Because our species is one that eventually grows old. I’ve never really thought about that.”

“… If it’s all your fault. What are you talking about?”

It was a cautious question.

Kamiel felt like he was going to gloss over it, but he spoke succinctly.

“I… No matter how big of a mistake I made to the person who would become my lover. I hope he doesn’t reprimand me… .”

Camiel knows too.

What he said just now was beyond selfish and only he knew what he was saying.

But what can sincerity do with such things?

When you have someone you love.

I hope that person doesn’t suffer.

But I have no choice but to cause pain.

I don’t want to be hated by the person I love.

It’s selfish. Self-centered.

I know, but I can’t bear it. I didn’t want to hear those words and feel resentful, even from that person.

Kamiel parted his lips with a wry smile.

“I know this is a selfish thought. But I don’t think I’ll ever meet someone who isn’t like this.”

That’s why you can’t love.

Even if you find someone you like.

Because what I can give that person is not happiness.

“Kamiel… … .”

A soft sound pierces my heart.

Kamiel just wanted to cover his ears.

I wanted to stay without hearing anything or feeling anything.

I didn’t want to see if she looked at me like I was foolish or not.

Kamiel stood up calmly.

“Lady. Can I treat you now?”

“… … .”

Leasian closed his mouth and held out his arms.

A shimmering energy blooms and surrounds the small and delicate body.

The two didn’t say anything during that time.

‘I should also introduce books… .’

Kamiel glanced at her and sat down on the bed.

“Lady. The book I brought today… ”

“Wait.”

A pale hand stopped his hand from opening the book.

She’s so thin, but I wonder where she gets that strength from. I felt a coercive force.

“I am there. I think my ideal type has changed.”

“Yes?”

Kamiel looked at her with an expression of curiosity about what it was.

His light brown eyes were filled with seriousness.

“I… . Even when he sees my flaws, he doesn’t hate me or hate me, but embraces me warmly. My ideal type is someone who comes to me no matter how much I push them away.”

“… Is that so.”

Kamiel is silent for a moment and then opens his mouth with difficulty.

“Someday, you will definitely meet someone like that. Because you are the most beautiful girl in the world. There is a long time left and there are a lot of men in the world, right? Ah, but you still need to be careful with strange people.”

There was also a smile that seemed like a sincere wish.

As she looked at Kamiel, she lowered her head.

The moment he stretched out his hand in confusion at the sudden action.

widely!

“Lady?”

Kamiel didn’t even have time to control his numb hands.

Because of the hand that wraps around like a snake as opposed to striking it attractively.

It’s white and has very little flesh, so you can feel the bones in every joint. It was that kind of hand.

Leasian hugged him and raised his head little by little.

Kamiel’s expression when he saw her face was astounding.

“Lady!”

“B. Hey. Can I meet someone like that?”

“Why do you say the obvious? Is that really why you cried?”

“No. no. It’s not like that… .”

I was busy wiping away my tears with one hand.

Even though she was covered in tears, she only wiped away the tears with one hand and did not let go of her clasped hands.

‘Handkerchief, handkerchief… .’

Kamiel has no choice but to look for the handkerchief.

Trying to find it with one hand was very inconvenient.

So I tried to untie my clasped hands.

‘uh?’

In an instant, I was helplessly dragged by the pulling force and fell into his arms.

“Someday… I can love too, right?”

“Lady… .”

It was a damp question.

Kamiel wondered why the young lady was like this, but patted her back and answered.

“Of course. Even if I can’t do it, you can do it. You play around with me like this now, but I feel depressed thinking that you won’t be able to do that when you get a man?”

“Ugh, Ugh… .”

“So don’t cry. You need to get well both physically and mentally before you can meet your partner.”

“Ugh… … .”

The patting continued.

Until the tears that poured down like rain soaked my clothes.

Her anger did not go away.

Camiel returned to his room after finishing his work and sat down in his chair and leaned back.

I brushed my hair back and remembered what happened a moment ago.

The young lady cried so desperately that she couldn’t help herself and fell asleep.

We have laid you down properly and covered you with a blanket, so you will sleep comfortably.

‘The problem was that the pod didn’t come off easily… ‘He must have been a deep sleep, so I was glad he finally got out of bed.’

Kamiel looked at his hands.

How hard should you hold it? Time had passed and my hands were still red.

“It’s hot… .”

The remaining heat in my hand felt like her warmth.

Kamiel cooled his hands and recalled the conversation they had a while ago.

“… … .”

My chest felt tingly.

Why are my eyes turning red? .

Kamiel realized something and put it into practice today.

Sometimes people have to say things they don’t want to say… .

The more I thought about that time, the more intense the feeling became.

“Cassat… . Where is Cassat? Cassatt?”

Myris was desperately calling for her son.

There was no answer from inside the house.

It was Myris who called to ask for something, but became anxious when there was no answer.

“Cassat? Cassatt! where are you? Cassat!”

Even though I screamed and trudged around, I couldn’t find my son.

Myris checked each room, but there was no trace of Cassat anywhere… .

There was now only one room left.

“… … .”

Miris looked at the door with trembling eyes and carefully placed her hand on the doorknob.

The sound of hinges rang out loudly.

“Cassat? Cassatt! Were you here? I’ve been looking for it for a while, wondering where it went. Anyway, why on earth is this… .”

“Uh, Mom… .”

“Cassat? Why is your expression… .”

Myris was embarrassed.

My son was in his brother’s room wondering what was going on, and his expression was distorted as if he was about to die.

Sensing that something was not unusual, she comforted her son and asked.

“What’s going on? What on earth is going on like this?”

“… … If.”

Although it is a meaningless assumption.

“What would you think if your brother died because of us?”

“What? Cassatt! What is that now… … .”

Miris tried to scold her son at the sound of astonishment.

But once again, the distorted expression on his face was enough to put his panicked mind to rest.

She changed her mind and spoke in a pleading tone.

“Hey. Now the only son left is you… . But if you act like that too, this mother… … .”

“… What about your brother? Why don’t you hit your brother? You have a brother besides me.”

Did the child get overheated?

Miris knew better than anyone else that that couldn’t be possible in this always cool forest.

Still, he was a child who followed his older brother well since childhood… .

Maybe that’s why it seemed like a big shock.

“Cassat… . It’s okay to say this, but…”

Those who will live must live.

“… !”

Cassatt’s eyes widened.

It was an expression of disbelief.

“How could my mom say that… .”

“Then what should we do? Camiel is already… … .”

What makes Cassatt’s heart fluctuate even more.

When his mother called his brother’s name.

It was awkward with a subtle hesitation.

‘Now that I think about it, has my mom ever talked to my brother?’

The last conversation I had with my brother at a meal was probably… It felt like it was the first conversation my brother had with my mom in a long time.

‘I realize that now.’

The feeling of self-destruction was endless.

What did my brother sacrifice for?

Those who sacrifice their lives to protect their children, even their closest family members, easily give up their children.

‘rather… ‘Would it have been better not to know this fact?’

“Cassat? Where are you going? Cassat!”

Cassatt rejected his mother, Myris, and left home in frustration.

Kamiel had a dream.

It was a dream about a tree rotting away.

The scene seen under sunny weather was truly bizarre.

I could not take my eyes off it because I sympathized with it.

“… … .”

Camiel, who woke up from a dream, slowly opened his eyes and muttered in a dream.

“I don’t have much left either… .”

Until then, the question was whether the young lady could be treated.

However, in my hazy mind, these thoughts were all that passed by.

“Ha… .”

Camiel stood up and stumbled.

Was it because I woke up so suddenly that I felt dizzy?

no. It’s never been like this before.

‘Why am I like this… .’

I walked to the bathroom with embarrassment.

Fortunately, the abnormal symptoms disappeared soon after.