episode_0016

“Wooh…”

It feels like day and night have somehow changed. I woke up without realizing it because of the cold seeping into my body.

I slowly opened my eyes at the sound of a voice coming from right in front of me and hugged something lukewarm.

A faint scent coming from something soft held in my arms. It felt like I was holding a small animal.

what? Something is strange.

Something is wrong, but it seems like they are trying hard not to notice it.

The soft sound of breathing felt very sweet. The familiar scent I felt every time I breathed in made me dizzy.

The heart-piercing feeling contained in that smell… I’ve felt it a long time ago. The tingling feeling you get when you stamp your feet outside because you don’t want to go home when you’ve done something wrong.

My mother called this a guilty conscience. What did I do wrong?

In fact, my mistakes were numerous.

I didn’t want to be stuck at home, so I left on my own. After wandering around like that, I became an adventurer on my own and spent my time killing repeatedly.

They are greedy for money and sometimes go out of their way to demand more compensation. He lived a troubled life, occasionally committing violence at will, but finally settled down.

Because monsters suddenly started running rampant these days.

Could it be that he is making his own judgment about what I did? Then this war will be a test that He gives me.

If I pass this moment, wouldn’t it be okay to go back to my hometown?

This was something that a dancer who once worshiped God and danced as a tribute to him should never have done.

Even if I were to become the prodigal son, I wouldn’t be welcomed. I just wanted to hold on to a faint hope, so I tried my best to ignore it.

Now I felt a tingling sensation that was hard to compare to anything like that. As if I had committed a sin that could never be erased.

A faint exhalation felt in the chest. As I inhaled and exhaled, a lukewarm breath continued to blow.

I put my hand down. Something about the soft humanoid had something hard about it.

Every time I put my hand down like that, I let out a happy sigh.

What on earth? Did I sleep with something alive?

Something happened when I came home.

Ah, yes… that kid.

That weak child I first saw in the forest.

He was probably an outcast from a primitive tribe that worshiped spirits on the outskirts of the empire.

They were being raped by a slime, so I rushed over and saved them. If I had been a little late, I would have been dragged into the slime cave and tortured.

There were surprisingly many people who could never return to the village again, were raped by monsters, and lived by creating monsters.

I often took on requests to rescue such people.

If I had gone a little faster, I wouldn’t have been raped by the slime or something.

‘They say it’s the tribe’s honor… but it’s still too weak.’

The primitive tribes on the outskirts serve only the spirits and logic of power. Therefore, that child… the child named Esther, was probably driven away.

To be honest, I couldn’t help but help because it was so cute.

I try to act like I’m okay, but I’m still just a child.

Besides, the child was weak enough to be raped by something like slime, so it would have been just a fuss to say that it was okay to take care of it.

So I tried to take care of it…

‘Get your hands off me! ‘I, I… was chosen to enhance the tribe’s honor!’

Or something

‘I could do it myself without you helping me!’

Danny says the same thing. The problem was that he was too proud.

‘Really… He’s a good-looking guy if he weren’t so weird.’

Well, do you think that kid-like nature that makes you whine like that makes you even more cute?

He had brown skin that was not seen in the Empire, and was quite built for a boy from the outskirts.

I was surprised when I first saw it. Because a pretty boy was being raped by a slime.

I quickly ran over to him and took him away. He was a beautiful boy I had never seen before, and he had abs that were unusual for a child. My heart pounded a little.

However, a child is just a child.

A child who looks healthy on the outside, but cannot defeat monsters.

However, he completely believes the lie that he was chosen for the honor of the tribe, and he attacks without hesitation, holding only two hammers.

If I let go of my eyes even for a moment, I felt like I would be raped by a monster before I knew it, so I couldn’t let go.

It was almost a miracle that nothing much happened this time when I went out of town for work. For some reason, I was raped by a high-ranking monster, and he left while saying strange things…

Who on earth is your romantic enemy? Well, there’s no way I could love a child like this…

I might like it a little… a little bit.

Anyway, he’s a pretty handsome boy. It was clear that when he grew up, he would grow up to be a pretty handsome young man.

Uhuhu… By that time, if you even proposed to me, this sister would be so happy that she might die.

Of course, a delusion is just a delusion.

These children tend to focus only on their own pride, so they run wild.

Unbeknownst to me, I had received a request from Ames, and when I heard that she had gone to deal with the harpies, I was so shocked that I almost fainted.

There’s no way a child who gets raped because he can’t even defeat a slime can defeat a harpy.

So I rushed over and, sure enough, I found myself being hugged and raped by harpies.

So, after arguing with her, she said she understood and just put her head down on the desk again…

Still, I think asking Ames to look after me when I went on a business trip worked. I wonder if even that lame patient does his own thing…

But… why am I anxious? I think I did something… I shouldn’t have done.

I decided to bring the child home today. I had already mentioned it to my sister. If you wanted to go outside so much, I was thinking of training you instead.

He came home and showed me around… What happened?

It’s been a while since I stopped by a nearby store to eat meat and bought some steak. Also fried potatoes. Because there is no kitchen in this house.

And when I entered the house, I felt a refreshing scent.

When I sniffle, my heart starts pounding without me knowing…

And, and…

what happened…

For a moment, I felt as if my mind had suddenly awakened.

I opened my eyes and looked at something in my arms. The brown-skinned child I saw on the forest path that day. Strangely enough, it had a name that a woman would use, Esther.

I couldn’t let him go, so I took him to my house and took care of him.

As I entered the house, an unfamiliar scent wafted through me. I lost my mind for a moment…

‘Alice… stop it…’

As I looked at the relaxed expression, my heart pounded… While I was holding this child, I felt a dark desire to dominate him.

As is, I am carrying this child…

I slowly lifted the blanket and looked inside.

I hoped that this was just an ordinary dream, and I desperately hoped that my thoughts would not come true.

Please, please… please. please…

And, inside the bedding…

Slowly the boy opened his eyes. Then he looked up at me with hazy, dead eyes.

He hugged me tightly and buried his head in my chest, exhaling.

“Who, sister… are you awake?”

As if it was ruined.

I, I… What have I done?

Slowly, things I had tried to forget began to come to mind.

When I came home, my heart suddenly started pounding when I saw that child, so I ran over him. And then, he abused me and even spewed out unreasonable words…

“I, I, I… that, that…”

I felt my voice tremble. I realized too late that I had done something I shouldn’t have done to this child.

The child breathes wetly as he hugs me with dead eyes. It’s like you’ve fallen in love with me.

It was clear that it was completely ruined.

“Naaa… Si, actually, I wanted to do it with a human being but with someone I love… Nu, noona…”

While saying that, he places his mouth on my chest and rolls his tongue.

As soon as I saw that, I felt like my insides went cold. There is no doubt that because he was raped by me, he gave up his heart and came to depend on me.

What should I do? But why did I attack this child?

“Sister? are you okay? Where does it hurt?”

It’s like you’re worrying more about me because you’ve been through so much. why? why?

“Mi, mi, sorry… I, that… Why on earth did that…”

I tried so hard to apologize, but there was no way he would accept it.

The girl who said she would take care of her so much suddenly raped her, but forgiving her would be crazy.

Then the boy shook his head. Then he said to me with a cold, dead smile.

“No, it’s okay… And honestly… Joe, it was good…”

No matter how I looked at it, I felt like my heart was being torn apart by the sight of Esther hugging me tightly while saying something she didn’t want to hear.

What on earth should I do? There is no way I can turn back!

The wounds inflicted on the soul can never be undone.

Even if it appears to have healed, vaguely invisible scars remain.

It probably won’t get better until I die. The remaining scar will protrude from somewhere and cause pain.

“I’m sorry, I’m sorry… really.”

There was only one thing I could do.

I hugged the child with all my strength. It was a punishment for my sins, so I had to accept it.

“Sister?”

The child sighed in my arms with a trembling voice. I felt a faint sense of fear.

“So, don’t worry. Because my sister… will take responsibility for it.”

At least I had to take responsibility for this child. Because I was the one who did things on my own. I can’t let it go. Even though she abandoned God, quit her job as a dancer, and left her hometown. However, I couldn’t abandon even the bare minimum of duty.

“Chae, responsibility?”

“Yes… Because my sister did something wrong… I will never leave and protect you. So…”

Don’t worry.

I couldn’t bear to say anything. Even if the guy who raped me told him not to worry, there was no way he would listen.

At that time, I felt like I could vaguely hear a crying voice. It was clear that she was belatedly shedding fear and sadness as she was being held by me.

But I think I heard some swearing in the meantime…?