episode_0097

After all, the ground was completely dug up.

It was enough for the paper to go in and get buried.

Who would do such a thing near sponsorship, but Karsein was sincere.

He covered all his hands with dirt, saying that such useless things should be buried.

However, just before I was about to bury it, my hand stopped.

If I showed this to her, wouldn’t she be able to share the same warmth as the sisters without getting scolded?

At this level, wouldn’t he be able to be recognized?

no. Even if it’s not recognition, wouldn’t it be possible to receive at least a brief compliment?

That was why.

It was only a fleeting moment, but Karssein’s hand stopped in midair because he was consumed by such a weak mind.

He also worked quite hard.

no. I worked really hard because I wanted to be recognized like my sisters.

This is a clear proof that I achieved this alone despite being greatly discriminated against in class by a shitty teacher.

I was filled with anticipation when I saw the report card of a perfect score that I had earned by self-studying subjects that were much more difficult for my age group.

Therefore, if you really threw the crumpled paper into this hole, it could never be returned.

I continued to worry as I pursed my lips.

So, Karssein ends up getting caught at this scene.

“Carcein? What are you doing here now…”

“…!”

The ferocious voice of the eldest son.

Karssein immediately lowered his arms and turned back.

And then he clenches his fist.

The report card, which was already crumpled, became even more crumpled and shrunk into a ball shape.

Because her fists were tightly clenched, the identity of the paper she was holding was not revealed, but for Arina, this was not even in her line of sight.

“You. Are you doing this now with your mother’s support?”

Yes.

What Arina is looking at is not something with karsein in it.

A land of patronage ruined by Karssein.

When he saw that, he fiercely tore his eyes out.

“Sister? What’s wrong?”

“Eldest sister? What’s going on?”

When the two sisters came out after hearing Arina’s voice, she said as if she had heard them.

“Carcein did something like that with his mother’s support. Why on earth would they do something like that to a well-maintained garden?”

“True. Did you vent your anger there again this time?”

Claire furrowed her brows and looked at Karssein as if he were a troublemaker.

Arina sighed deeply, and Flora was laughing at Karssein with her half-moon eyes folded as always.

Claire is the first to take action.

Poking Carcein’s forehead with her index finger, she asked in a sharp voice.

“ Hey, is it because you don’t know where the sponsorship is? It’s a place that even gardeners don’t touch. My mom has a hobby of taking care of her own plants, so she takes care of them herself. But why did you do something like this?”

“It’s just as Claire said. I’m sure you’re not going to lie and say you don’t know. Carcein.”

“…”

Kuuk.

Karssein’s fist gained more strength.

Even more anger comes out from the pale skin.

It must have been full of anticipation.

I thought I would be recognized and praised if I showed this.

On the contrary, being scolded like this only fills my empty heart with moisture.

Therefore, the feeling of anger faded away.

Where did you come, what did you come here for, why did you sell that here, and if not, is there any excuse you can make?

The sisters cornered Karsein.

He was pointed out that his dirt-covered hands were not noble, and this frivolous behavior itself was harshly criticized, and he was even openly threatened, saying that it would be better to stop whatever he was planning.

Until I saw that scene after Isabella finished watering the indoor garden.

Even when Isabella finally saw the scene, there was no change.

“…What’s going on, Karssein?”

The duchess’s dry question.

After hearing that, Karssein was convinced.

A conclusion has been reached.

You shouldn’t have any expectations.

You shouldn’t even think about being recognized.

compliment? What nonsense. You have to quit early.

I had to throw it all away.

To Karssein Vagrand. No, to Carcein.

The duke’s sun never shines.

-Tuk.

The secretly hidden report card fell right into the hole.

That was the conclusion the boy got from sponsorship.

***

-Tiring!

▶The Crumpled Report Card Memorial has ended!◀

The miserable image of Carcein reflected in the patronage disappears, and light surrounds the surroundings, returning to reality.

This sponsorship has not changed much from then to now.

An indoor garden with refreshing sunlight and a shady corner with its back to the wall. This sponsorship was clearly a place of contrasts.

Looking at the Memorial and Carcein, which were in a dark position in that place of contrasting light and dark, I was once again reminded of the unpleasant past.

“Ha, fuck.”

Karssein was an idiot.

He was an idiot who had expectations of what it would be like to show that report card to his damn family, had vain hopes of being recognized, and held on to that report card as if he was lingering because he wanted to receive something superficial called praise.

But paradoxically, I was also an idiot who said this.

I also had expectations.

I had a vain hope of being recognized.

There was a time when I was excited about the possibility of receiving something so useless and superficial as a compliment.

I wanted to suppress the third one who always bothered me.

I wanted to show off to my second son, who didn’t like anything, by telling him that I was better at something than you.

I wanted to clearly show my oldest child, who treated me like a nuisance, to prove otherwise.

and.

After bringing me home, there was a time when I wanted to brag to my mother that my mental illness had disappeared and I was able to lead a normal life.

I was very excited at the thought of showing off my report card showing that I had proudly taken first place in the mock exam at a school that was considered a prestigious school.

I had some hope for a different reaction from my family who saw it.

Even now that I think about it, it’s such a stupid idea, isn’t it?

If I could go back in time, I wanted to take that report card and tear it up, shouting that such things would be of no use.

But, I never thought the same situation would unfold before my eyes.

It’s also because of the report card. The same goes for having a wish that can never come true.

It was no different in belatedly accepting reality without revealing the report card.

Isn’t it ironic?

But is it thanks to that? Cold blood begins to flow.

Even though I didn’t do it, my head went cold with this disgusting feeling that I felt like I was experiencing it twice just because of what happened in the past.

It was only after I felt that that I was finally able to calm down.

-Tiring!

▶After 5 seconds, time flows again!◀

A timer pops up.

It is said that time in this world will turn back in 5 seconds.

okay. I guess they should just proceed straight to the next episode.

I agree.

Instead of looking at my past self and talking nonsense, my future self will tell my present self to proceed straight through the episode.

▶Memorial effect has ended!◀

▶Complete your selections!◀

The frozen body moves again.

This report card, which was like the light and dark side of the dukedom to Karssein… it would be better if I carried it myself. It would be right for me to at least take this and get rid of it.

After shaking off a fair amount of dust, I folded up the crumpled report card, put it in my pocket, and went into the indoor garden.

There, just like what we saw at the memorial, Isabella was watering the place with a sprayer.

“I heard you called me.”

“…are you here?”

When I spoke calmly, Isabella’s gaze turned towards me.

At the same time, my eyes also turn to her intimacy box.

[Isabella Bagland]

[Intimacy: 58%]

The intimacy with Isabella I saw last time was probably 50%.

I don’t know why it went up, but since it’s up to 58%, it doesn’t seem like there’s much to say to Karssein in the game…

‘no. I assure you, absolutely not.’

Isabella’s eyes are staring at me clearly.

It’s not an expectant look.

It’s not like they’re looking to acknowledge something.

compliment? It’s not even possible.

She was trying to scold me now.

“I know you felt bad. Karsein. However, I guess I should scold him properly this time.”

I knew it.

Expectations are not wrong.

How can you spend money so carelessly as soon as you receive it? This is truly wrong spending. Yes?

I guess I called you because I wanted to say this anyway.

“Keep talking.”

I answered calmly.

Whatever you say, I don’t plan on giving any refutation.

Even if there is room for extenuating circumstances by claiming that I did not do anything to be scolded.

***

After the duchy’s servants and knights were completely replaced, Carcein was paid a lump sum of the allowance he had not received due to Emma’s embezzlement.

At the same time, a little more effort was put into financial management.

The purpose was to manage it more thoroughly and meticulously to prevent the same thing from happening again next time.

Because of this, I was able to see how much Karsein had been spending recently.

A fairly large amount of money was paid in a lump sum, and a corresponding amount of money was withdrawn from the duke’s house at once. In the name of Karssein and no one else.

Isabella noticed this and was about to call Carcein here to talk. I had to point out in a bit of a harsh way that it wasn’t just given to me to use.

“I know you felt bad. Karsein. However, I guess I should scold him properly this time.”

Isabella predicted that as soon as Carcein arrived, she would be flogged.

However, we should not just blame Karssein for his mistakes like before.

There was a bad precedent. I didn’t want to make you feel as upset as I did then.

So, I planned to wait a bit.

To hear what Karsein thought about and how he spent the money.

But.

“Keep talking.”

Rather than asking for his own reasons, Karssein answers with a calm expression.

“…Do you have anything to say first?”

Isabella, who was licking her lips, asked once more.

OK.

“Yes.”

Karsein once again gave a short answer in the affirmative.

It was as if he was admitting that he really just spent the money.

‘If you just admit it like that, there won’t be much you can do.’

If so, I should point this out sharply.

Even as a nobleman. Even as one Bagland. And as a lord who once ruled a territory, he also deserved to be pointed out.

“Carsein. Do you know where your allowance comes from?”

“No. I don’t know.”

“Then, know this now. Your allowance comes from the fiefdoms and vassals ruled by the Duke of Bagland. Especially from the residents of the territory, the blood and sweat they shed is responsible for and supports our peaceful life.”

Putting the spray bottle aside, Isabella continues speaking.

“To you, it’s just pocket money. However, for them, this is money that goes beyond living expenses and allows them to live comfortably for several months or even years. It is a very shameful thing to waste such money on mere luxuries.”

“…”

“I won’t say anything if it is used to show a certain level of dignity, but the most shameful behavior for a noble is excessive luxury. Reflect, reflect again. Next time, never do something like that, and don’t abandon the people’s loyalty and embrace them.”

Even Carcein would have understood this much.

I plan to stop scolding Isabella at this point.

I decided not to ask where that big money was spent. Because he is not denying that he did something wrong.

So now is the time to reach out.

Now that you’ve wielded the whip, you also have to give them carrots.

The reason I called Karssein was to tell this story and to regain my right to participate in the Eastern Noble Assembly.

Isabella approached Carcein and tried to extend her hand.

After stroking his head and soothing him, I planned to bring up the story of the time at the Chatelaine Estate.

Then Carcein pushed Isabella’s hand away.

“I understand well.”

Isabella opened her eyes wide and was surprised.