episode_0050
by admin#50
‘… Isn’t this a chance to confess?’
The moment that thought occurred to her, Jia’s head filled with pink.
And then, when the urge to just throw it out comes.
“… .”
Do-han and Jia’s eyes met each other.
And then, after a moment, as if time had stopped,
‘It won’t work.’
Jia, who had made up her mind, called Dohan softly.
“Mr.”
“Uh, why?”
Sigh. Before continuing, Zia took a deep breath.
“… .”
Although I had called Dohan with great enthusiasm… I realized the weight of my words that I was about to say, and I simply could not muster the courage to say what I would say next.
‘…Should I say it’s nothing?’
That might be better.
Just like this, without confessing or anything, just being by your side is enough…
‘…don’t.’
I don’t like it like this.
Jia looked straight into Dohan’s eyes again.
“Why?”
In fact, it was a planned procedure.
The state of emotions that had already begun to overflow was on the verge of exploding.
“You know, I… ”
The sunset colors the sky,
When the quiet but light air embraces the two of them on a bench where only the two of them are sitting,
Jia has given form to her overflowing heart,
“… I like you, sir.”
I told Dohan.
***
“You know, I… ”
Somehow, I felt like Jia’s vibe was strange a little while ago.
Jia let out a sigh as if she had made up her mind about something, and then spoke to me with a reddened face.
“… I like you, sir.”
Eyes wide open, a trembling voice, and the glow of sunset.
‘Wake up.’
Even though I knew I shouldn’t, I found myself nodding my head without thinking.
A thought that comes to mind.
I wish I hadn’t gone out today.
If I had pretended not to know Jia’s feelings and just continued on as usual… I might have been able to maintain the status quo.
But that shouldn’t have happened. That would have been cruel to both me and Zia.
“Mister?”
Jia looks at me with eyes full of anxiety, not even answering.
Within me,
“I’m sorry, Jia. I can’t accept your confession.”
In the end, I told Jia that I was rejecting her.
Jia seemed momentarily flustered after hearing my rejection, then asked with a stiff expression and a trembling voice.
“… Why?”
“… .”
“Is it because I’m young? Or because I’m usually too tic-tic? Or, do you not like my style?”
A voice full of tears.
“Answer, please… .”
I could tell at a glance that she was holding back tears that were about to burst out at any moment.
I answered quietly, as if I were a sinner.
“You are such a charming kid.”
“… Yes?”
Jia’s cold voice reached my ear, as if she couldn’t understand what I was saying.
… my stomach hurts.
I couldn’t bear to meet Jia’s eyes, so I stared at the setting sunset and continued speaking with difficulty.
“Now, I can feel special because I helped you.”
“But, when you become an adult and meet many people later on… there will definitely be many people who are better than me who will approach you.”
“You are such an attractive kid.”
I was about to add, “It’s not me,” but I buried it in my chest again.
I’m sure you’ll get angry if you hear that.
“Honestly, it’s funny that I’m the third party talking… Don’t run away, oppa.”
Suddenly, Minah’s words from last night flash through my mind.
… Yes. This is an escape.
I’m running away from Zia with the ridiculous excuse that she’ll meet someone better than me.
It’s just scary.
I’m not as cool and good a person as Jia thinks I am.
It’s frustrating to be caught as a rotten person who is suffering from inferiority complex and guilt.
Gia continued in a sharp voice.
“Don’t make me laugh.”
“You won’t accept my confession because I’m an attractive girl?”
“Rather, say that it’s because I’m ugly, and have a bad personality. I’m always twitching and never do anything cute… !”
Thud. Thud.
Jia’s fern-like hand bumps into my shoulder.
Since it is a gesture that does not contain any strength at all, it cannot hurt.
But that fact hurt me even more.
“I told you. If you say something like that, it will upset you.”
“… .”
puck.
“What is the better person that you are talking about…?”
Is there no more room?
Jia’s punching stopped after those words.
Instead, only a small sobbing sound is heard.
I listened to Zia’s crying and fell into deep thought.
“… .”
My opinion that Jia is too much for me still remains unchanged.
But… is this right?
Is this the situation where Jia is hurt like this just because of my lack of self-esteem?
“… To me, you are the best person.”
The trembling voice leaking out weakly from between Jia’s lips felt like it would collapse at any moment.
“… .”
After that, I watched Zia sobbing silently.
“Then, Jia. Let’s do that.”
“Yes?”
… In the end, I gave Jia a stopgap measure.
“If your heart doesn’t change even after you graduate and meet many people as an adult… Then, let’s talk again. Ji-ah.”
Now, after going through various events, Jia may have such feelings for me.
But as you become an adult and meet more people, your feelings towards me will naturally fade.
If Jia’s heart doesn’t change even then… let’s think about it then.
“… .”
After listening to me, Gia stared straight ahead for a moment as if lost in thought.
I’m not sure what he’s thinking.
‘I wonder if he’ll get angry and say I’m giving him some weird advice.’
At that time, while I was watching Jia’s expression like that,
“… Okay.”
Zia spoke to me in a calm voice that left no room for guessing her emotions.
Swish.
Then, Jia just got up from her seat.
“Now, let’s go home.”
I guess he’s angry after all.
Even as I said those words, Zia didn’t make eye contact with me.
‘I can’t help it.’
Soon, I also tried to get up from the bench, following Zia, but…
“Oh, wait. Sir. Stay right there.”
“Huh?”
… Gia pressed my shoulder with her fern-like hand to prevent me from getting up.
‘what?’
In the end, I was the only one sitting on the bench, and Zia was the only one standing.
The height of my head as I sit naturally is roughly the same as Zia’s eye level.
“… .”
For a moment, I was confused by Jia’s actions that I couldn’t understand.
“Hmm. The height is nice.”
Ji-ah, who was saying that with her eyes swollen from crying so much, soon bent down,
“Stay still.”
Without giving me a chance to react,
He kissed my forehead.
uh?
‘…What happened?’
I am in a state of shock,
I lightly rubbed my forehead, which still felt soft.
Then, a scarlet stain appears on the tip of the finger.
… of course, it was the same color as Zia’s lips.
“… .”
By the time I was figuring out the situation,
“Just wait and see. I will never forget your promise, sir.”
After saying those words, Jia walked away from me with quick steps.
And I,
“This is driving me crazy… .”
I felt dizzy for a moment as if I smelled a sweet floral scent, and I clutched my head.
.
And on the way back home.
Zia, who was still walking down the street with slightly swollen eyes, stopped in front of a stall selling accessories on the side of the road.
“Um… .”
Jia then quietly scanned the stall with her eyes.
I wonder if there is anything I like. At that moment, I was looking at the items on the stand.
“Mr.”
Gia looked at me and spoke.
“… Huh?”
“Since you made me cry today, buy me one. Something you think would suit me.”
… Did he hear Zia’s words? The stall owner looked at me as if he was looking at trash.
“Bachelor, don’t make women cry.”
“… Sorry.”
I kept my head down and looked at the accessories on the stand.
‘It’s something that would suit you…’
A stall full of sparkling accessories including brooches, bracelets, headbands, necklaces, and rings.
… Honestly, anything would probably suit me, but I couldn’t just pick anything.
Because today I am a sinner.
‘The ring is… kind of like that, and the necklace? Or…’
I looked at Zia and the accessories alternately, and after a while, I was lost in deep thought,
“Please give me this.”
He pointed to a sky blue brooch with a forget-me-not decoration.
***
Meanwhile, Min-ah was waiting for Do-han and Ji-ah at home.
“If it’s true that Jia really likes me… I don’t think I can accept it.”
Min-ah, recalling her conversation with Do-han this morning, quickly became anxious and stamped her feet.
“… What should I do?”
Dohan’s sudden invitation to go out to Ji-ah.
… Min-ah could guess the reason.
Perhaps Dohan is trying to say that he cannot accept Ji-ah’s feelings.
Since Chanhee, who was like family to me, died like that, my brother is still suffering from guilt.
Mina thought that her brother’s usual strangely self-deprecating attitude might be due to that.
And the reason why he wanted to reject Jia’s heart.
… Of course, from the perspective of a third party, Mina, it was an absurd feeling of guilt.
Because Min-ah thought that the reason Chan-hee died was absolutely not Do-han’s fault.
“Really, you idiot.”
What if Gia comes back crying all over her face?
Or what if you’re so heartbroken that you don’t even come home?
Mina was stamping her feet while thinking about various things in her head.
Squeak.
“Brother?!”
Soon I heard the front door open and ran towards it.
What Min-ah saw was…
‘uh?’
“I’m back.” “I’m back… .”
It was a scene of Do-han with a complicated expression on his face and Jia with an excited expression on her face.
In the contrasting atmosphere of the two people,
‘What on earth happened?’
Mina became a little confused.
“… I’m tired, so I’ll go in first.”
“Uh, uh.”
After seeing Do-han enter the room weakly, Min-ah quickly approached Ji-ah.
“Jia. By any chance, what happened?”
“Huh? What happened?”
If you look closely, Jia’s eyes are a little swollen.
‘… This is clearly a mark of luck.’
Are you crying because you were rejected by your brother? No. Then you wouldn’t be this bright.
Or maybe tears of joy. My brother’s expression didn’t look good for that to be the case.
“… .”
Min-ah, who had such doubts, asked Ji-ah carefully.
“Hey, didn’t your brother say anything?”
“Ah… .”
Jia’s expression changed slightly, as if she had guessed what Minah wanted to say.
What should I say?
Looks a little happy, and a little sad.
Jia, with that mysterious expression on her face, soon pointed to Minah at the brooch in her hair.
“Mr. bought it for me.”
“Huh? Then, no way. You’re dating oppa… ”
Dori dori.
Jia shook her head from side to side slightly and then smiled bashfully.
“… is planned.”
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