episode_0126

Exams taken over the past week.

Hyeji did her best on the test. Literally, with all her might.

Of course, that doesn’t mean she didn’t have any questions about the content of the test.

The first night, I crawled into my cage and slept like a livestock.

The next day, after receiving Hyunwoo’s semen in a dog food bowl, he licked it like a dog.

She also felt unexplained anxiety, albeit briefly.

No matter how much her reason ignores reality, her instinct reacts to the reluctance conveyed by the ‘rules’.

however.

She had no choice but to follow the rules Hyunwoo had called her.

These are rules that can only be kept by denying the human life that we have lived so far, but when we think about the consequences we will face if we break them, we cannot even breathe properly, so what can we do?

The person who first extended a helping hand to himself as he was left alone in the world. Without a grandmother or a friend she could confide in, she was the last person left.

Above all, my brother was the only person in this world who knew that I existed. The only one who can fill his loneliness in a world where everyone turns their backs on him.

If she didn’t have a brother like her, she really didn’t have the confidence to live. Life without my brother is already the same as being dead, so what use is that respect and pride now?

‘My life has no meaning without my brother. If it weren’t for my brother, I would have already committed suicide, so my life is all yours, and, and… I can do anything for my brother…’

The earnest words he confessed his love to me every night before going to bed were all sincere without any doubt.

so that,

‘I… deserve to be treated like this. Because I did something terrible to my brother.’

Even when it goes beyond a golden shower that simply soaks the body with urine, it is treated like a toilet that catches all of it.

‘He should be punished much more severely than this. Of course… of course it has to be that way. ‘You can do more than this.’

Even when he was truly treated as a ‘dog’ and told to relieve himself on a large dog pad.

She thought over and over again in her mind. This is right, this is the right thing to do, so we should try harder.

When a tremendous sense of guilt was added to the already excessive dependence tendency, any self-destructive act was instantly justified.

The discomfort I felt for the first time faded away as the days passed, and the awkward actions gradually became more familiar.

No, even as time passed, my gratitude towards my brother grew.

‘I made the mistake of doubting my boyfriend based on what someone I met for the first time said. I betrayed my brother, who I had promised to be with for the rest of my life, and left an irreparable wound in his heart.’

As she says in her reflection every night, she is a woman who has committed an irreparable mistake. She is a quiet woman who reveals her brother’s secret family history to anyone she meets for the first time.

‘I’m sorry for having a mentally ill girlfriend.’

She is a mentally ill woman who says “I love you” and “believe” countless times, but then suddenly changes, doubting her lover’s love and hurting her.

Where is that?

Her face and body aren’t pretty enough to make her proud that she’s her brother’s girl. I don’t have enough money to buy everything my brother wants.

She is a shameless woman who, instead of being grateful for her undeserved love, shamelessly confronts her, even though she really has nothing.

‘I will never make the same mistake again. From now on, I will only believe what my brother says. I will believe in your love. Please forgive me.’

But, nevertheless.

My brother gave even a worthless woman like himself a chance to be forgiven.

A woman who had nothing but understanding to show, showed that even that understanding was lacking, and was given another opportunity to prove her understanding.

Therefore, I had to do my best even more.

‘I will try my best to become a girlfriend who can make my brother happy today as well. I will become the girlfriend who loves you the most in the world. ‘Make me a woman just for you.’

Like the ‘resolution’ I said every day at the beginning of the day, I had to become a woman only for my brother.

I had to prove to my brother that I was a woman he could ‘play’ with and completely trust, and I had to become a woman who knew how to be loved in her own way.

Thus began education and training.

‘I will learn everything my brother teaches me. Teach me everything. I’ll really… really try.’

From gokkun movies, soap operas, and maid movies to soft SM movies and ultra-hardcore SM movies, she watched extremely male-oriented AVs and filled her head with sexual knowledge solely for the pleasure of men.

Sometimes by listening to gentle explanations, and sometimes by being scolded harshly, I learned various service skills, and I expanded the range of ‘tastes’ I could understand every day by watching women being brutally destroyed in videos.

Thanks to you, I know now.

My brother has the tendency to be a Master, who feels pleasure in controlling and dominating the bodies and minds of others, and is classified as a Dominant, who is excited by orders and obedience.

Getting excited by hitting her buttocks and breasts with a hand or a whip, and making her say and do obscene things were just some of the ways in which her brother’s tendencies were expressed.

In fact, there were countless people in the community with the same tendencies as my brother, and there were hundreds or thousands of AVs dealing with such tendencies on the Internet.

In the end, it was a result of ignorance. The words she said that night, doubting her brother’s love, were illusions and intolerance stemming from a lack of understanding of his tendencies.

My brother ‘loved’ me to his heart’s content in his own way, but this is narrow-mindedness in judging whether this is love or not.

Once her understanding of her brother’s tendencies came together completely, she finally realized what she had to do.

Beyond blindly understanding my brother, I became clear about what type of woman I should be.

If your brother is the owner, you can be a pet-oriented woman. You can become a slave who gives all rights to your beloved brother and obeys him, and sometimes you can become a spankee who gets excited by getting hit on body parts.

In particular, becoming a Degradee who gets excited by saying lewd words and doing shameful things was a top priority.

Cum bucket, onahole, cock house, cock case, walking hole…

Countless words derogatory to the genitals and vulgar positions such as submission, inspection, and waiting positions.

I think my brother wanted me to become vulgar enough to please him. With the hope that at least the woman who would be with my brother for the rest of his life would do the same, I mustered up the courage to confess my tendencies that I had not revealed to other women.

In that case, she wanted to become the imaginary woman that her brother dreamed of.

If I could hold on to the person I believed to be my destined partner without making a single mistake, I could throw away the opinions of others and the common sense of the world hundreds of times.

Moreover, aren’t there other women around my brother who look down on him? That ‘f***ing bitch’ who arrogantly sends a note to her brother asking him to treat her like a dog.

The woman was so concerned that she endured a hard spanking, but this happened before the bruises on her butt even went away…

The more angry she became at her own foolishness, the more the will to do better burned within her.

And, in the tunnel where the only sense of accomplishment she could feel was Hyunwoo’s recognition, that recognition fueled her will every day.

My brother smiles when I obey his orders. The more you put yourself down, the more you praise yourself.

How happy I was when, not long ago, I thanked my grandmother for raising me as a prostitute exclusively for Hyunwoo oppa and regained the title of ‘baby’.

It was only that day that I fully understood my brother’s methods. I have come to fully accept my brother’s tendencies.

As much as she loves her brother and as much as she trusts him, she wants him to follow his orders. I want you to be willing to utter any words of criticism or criticism.

In other words, the amount of obedience she can endure is the amount of true love she can show her brother.

So, if you want to regain your brother’s trust, if you want to be forgiven by him, you can show greater submission. If you love your brother more than anything in the world, all you have to do is become the woman in the world who can best understand his tastes.

Let go of all things such as useless pride and human dignity.

That was the conclusion she came to after a week of testing.

Just as you give up fried food for your older brother who likes seasoning, you expand the scope of concessions to suit your older brother’s tendencies. Even though in the process, his life up until now was torn apart and his personality was torn to shreds, the enormous desire for self-destruction driven by guilt included all of those things as mere objects of concession.

In this way, sexual abuse and selling became synonyms for love and acceptance for her.

She was shouting with her actions all day long that she was a woman who could understand everything about you.

She denied everything in her life so far and put an end to her life as a human being.

All traces of her previous status as ‘Jeong Hye-ji’ were gone, and she was reborn as a well-tamed domestic animal.

The result of the test was, of course, passing.